I will become what I deserve

“Funny how silence can be the loudest sound of all.”

“Sometimes I build my walls so high that when I need someone they can’t get over. Sometimes I push people away because I’m scared they’ll break my already shattered heart. I am stubborn, moody, unpredictable and sometimes I get really sad. My on going battle with depression has put me in a hole that I've turned into my home. I’m a mess, I’m a handful, I’m not easy to talk to, I’m annoying, you’ll hate me sometimes. I’m an out of control fire, destroying everything that I touch and when you play with fire your expected to get burnt. I’m sorry for if I’ve ever burnt you, it’s not your fault and it isn’t because I don’t love you. I'm just a girl learning how to love herself while also struggling to handle the blaze of my emotions.”