Welcome to the Mighty Nein

Fjord and Jester's conversation just before the group went to bed was really fantastic lead-in to Fjord's ultimate decision to destroy the Sword of Fathoms and end his pact with Uk'otoa. The Sending finally allowing him to air his doubts, founded or not, about his relationship with Vandran and what he means to the man he idolized, which further allows him to articulate how much he invented himself in Vandran's image both as a way of trying to live up to the man his mentor was and maybe be the same guiding light for people. Realizing that traveling with the Nein has changed him and his world has gotten so much bigger than it was even when they started this, and what he wants has changed as well. Acknowledging that while he started his journey incredibly focused on understanding Uk'otoa and his own magic that feels so small in comparison to the other things he's doing now. Articulating that he's realized there's a difference between who you should be and who you want to be. Allowing himself the vulnerability with Jester to admit that Uk'otoa briefly took away his powers, and without them he felt scared and helpless and he desperately wanted them back, but not desperately enough to do anything for them. Jester saying their new quest will be to find him a new patron and Fjord expressing his interest in the Wildmother, which Jester supports.

Fjord: Thank you.

matt: molaesmyr you do recall as one of the previous powerful elven nations. however, through some strange, not entirely understood cataclysm, the city fell and the surrounding forest was corrupted

jester: how did you feel when [your powers] were gone?

listen i’ve been dealing with life stuff for the past like year which has greatly impeded my ability to write as much or any meta stuff about c4 which is devastating because my investment in c4 is so much higher than it was in c3 but instead of the huge ass meta i want to write about how much i’m just gonna gesture emphatically and with great vervet at how much i’ve been obsessed with kattigan especially given that the aforementioned life stuff is not disconnected from my own indigeneity and the family legacies whose encounters with western society left us uh. burdened to put it politely. kattigan vale is the character of all time. like this stoic alcoholic who has this severity that he pairs with a like. careful playfulness about it that’s both like. self aware and also looking away like MAN that scene back when he looked into the blade of the knife and saw the face of a haggard drunken man that when robbie asked if he recognized (i assume, thinking it was kattigan’s alcoholic father) brennan hit him with “it’s you.” what a scene. what a scene. didn’t make me sob like a baby. what a scene.