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For the past 2 weeks, my mind has been stuck on the new home i’m very much hoping to buy. We were preapproved for $76,000 through one bank. But we need $125,000 for the home, land and land improvements. 

So.. We are doing credit counseling. This program can do up to $2,000 in repaying collections after 4 counseling sessions. I hope after the collections are paid off, nothing else pops up on the credit reports, the scores go up and we’ll be able to qualify for the usda loan. No down payment, 3.5% interest loan. And very much hoping the credit score going up will make the amount we qualify for go up, too! 

I would be in heaven if we could get approved for that particular double wide and the land I have my heart set on. 3 rollings acres, used to be horse property, a home has never been there. It’s beautiful and a great deal on it. I have all my gardening planned out, so let’s hope it doesn’t sell before we are able to buy it! 

It should be a couple months before the credit is straightened out. Not long, but really long, at the same time. lol I just hope this works out.

From what the credit counselor was saying, we should definitely be able to buy a home in the next couple months or so. And, with bad credit we were approved for $76, once the credit improves, it should be quite a bit higher whether it be through cascade or usda. I’d rather usda, so we will have to see how it goes.

I just really hope it all works out and we can get that property and that home!

A few days away from the start of a new decade! Where does the time go?

I’m worried that we will get a denial on the home loan application today. It’s happened before, will probably happen again. I hope not, but I don’t want to get my hopes up.

We found a nice doublewide, big living room, nice kitchen, nice dining area with a den right off from it. 4 bedrooms, the master bedroom is big enough for a king size bed. Nice tub in the bathroom.good size closet.

Then, we have found the perfect land to put it on! Reedy Creek road, country but close to town. 3 acres, rolling hills, but mostly flat and cleared! 

It would be a dream come true for me! All that’s standing in the way is financing. That’s a major obstacle. Hoping so much that this works out! I would be indescribably happy. But, I have serious doubts. :( I am almost certain we will be getting the bad news today.

I’m back to losing weight again. I was 312 two weeks ago, 306 yesterday. 6 pounds in 2 weeks, and 7 pounds total lost. If I could lose 3 pounds a week consistently, I could be down 75 pounds by June 1st. 231 pounds....I haven’t been that size since I was 20! But losing 2 pounds a week is a more realistic goal. That would be 50 pounds gone by June. Between 250-260. That’s the size I was a few years ago after losing 80 pounds. I didn’t mind mirrors or random pictures. Was pretty happy with myself. I need to feel that again. But IF I got to the 230 range again, i’d be in heaven!! 

About that property again.. I already know how i’d decorate the home and the land. Id put a flowering shrub on each side of the gate. Line the front fence with shrubs, some flowering and some burning bushes. Would like to do the same with the driveway, line it will small shrubs. Lilac bushes, butterfly shrubs, forsythia. Maybe line the front fence line with crape myrtle and rose of sharon! Rose bushes in the front of the house. A flower garden up at the rocks and the top of the little hill. Maybe a picnic table up there or at least a nice bench. Would be an amazing place to go to relax. Grow pumpkins and watermelon down the front hillside! Closer to the yard, have grapevines.. Strawberry patch. An area for blueberries and raspberries. 

Dear Diary, 

lol This basically is my diary. I chose this blog, which I don’t mind others reading, instead of my very personal blog (which only 3 people have access to). Not many people know about this one, actually. It used to post the Facebook when i’d blog. But that feature somehow disappeared long  time ago. It does still share to Twitter, though.

This cough is lingering. I should be completely over this sickness by now. I’ve been so sleepy lately. I wake up, and within 1-3 hours i’m asleep again. Getting bad dizzy spells, and achy. I found out yesterday that i’ve not been on my thyroid meds, a few weeks or so now. That is probably the cause of my issues. 

It snowed yesterday, a fairly light snow. First snow of the season. I like a little snow every now and then. :)

This room...........Will it EVER get clean? Had it half way there, just a few things I need to find a place/put away. Things get piled up, overwhelming and I just have this dread when I think about trying to organize everything again. I need to fold and sort all this laundry, first. It’s getting in the way. 

I need to be able to wake up at  a decent time and STAY awake throughout the day. Then, I can get things done and get into a routine.

Sleep problems is aggravating. Fell asleep before 8pm last night. Woke up a around 5, a little before. Was asleep again by 7, woke up again at 8 and it’s 9am, starting to feel sleepy again. Impossible to get anything done like this. :( 

I haven’t felt great this week, so I didn’t donate plasma. There goes the $80 for the week. I’m start over Mon and Wed.. Just fairly broke until next week.

Was planning to have a short game night Friday and then a regular late night get together Saturday night. But the way i’m feeling, it might be best to skip this weekend and save it for next weekend. Just got a new game though.... I’ll see how I feel tomorrow. 

I want to know why i’m staying so sleepy, most days. I want to know what’s causing this dizziness. I really want to know what is causing the lap beside the bed to slightly move back and forth ALL day long, I can’t figure it out. Very odd. lol

But, back to what I was saying.. So many days I stay sleepy, need a nap. This is the second time in a row that I needed a nap and felt exhausted even after I woke up. Then, i’ve been getting pretty bad dizzy spells for at least a week. Standing up, sitting down, even while laying down, completely still. I had unexplained vertigo issues when I was like 18 or 19 for a while. Maybe it’s back?

We have a girls trip planned for Saturday. Me, Crystal, Dena and Cassie. Going to see Cassies friend then to the casino. Excited about it. :) Tomorrow is a small games night. Crystal, Cassie and Kristy are coming over for a couple hours.

I hope i’mm not feeling like this over the weekend.

I should be folding laundry, finish organizing the bedroom, etc........ Ugh. Sleep is all I want. I didn’t donate plasma today, going to have to do it early tomorrow.

Mother’s day is coming up. Dread it. That day is just a reminder that my Mom is gone.

I haven’t been blogging much lately...

Going to a Puddle of Mudd concert in a week, looking forward to that. :)

I feel like i’m going into a depressive episode, I think it’s just where i’ve been sick though. I have bronchitis and an upper respiratory infection, Miserable.

I’ve felt a bit hypomanic, just before getting sick. So, I don’t know. Guess we will see how i’m feeling after this sickness is gone. Back on antibiotics, was on it just a few short weeks ago for a similar sickness. 

I have felt a lot more social lately. Been meeting new people (in real life....). I used to only talk to new people online, never met them. Lately, i’ve been having little get togethers with a few friends, and inviting new people over here and there, It’s been fun. :) I really love meeting new people. 

I also started back in childcare. I’ve had a few clients, made a little money. It’s really nice to have an income again, even if it’s just sporadic. I also started donating plasma again. If I keep it up, it should be $30 the first day of the week and either $45-50 the next. So that’s at least $75 per week. Better than nothing. An it’s actually helping people. 

Almost March......I just realized today, my birthday is in a week. I forgot about my own birthday. 39.....I feel so old when I think about it. I sooo don’t feel like i’m almost 40. It’s just crazy.

Made a new friend recently, she and her soon to be hubby just moved here. She seems cool, we have a lot in common. I love the friends I have now, but i’m always up for making a new friend. I like meeting new people. The actual “meeting” part is the hard part for me. lol I’m a shy person and my anxiety goes up when I first meet someone. Once i’m past that, it’s all good. 

I noticed that my tummy seems a tiny bit smaller. Still big, but it’s going to be considering I carry a lot of fat there, have hernias, muscles are separated and I have an ovarian cyst, and they often cause tummy swelling. But I noticed a TINY bit of a difference yesterday, and i’m happy about that! I wonder if it’s the lipovite shots helping?

I weigh in (I log my weight on my Facebook weight loss support group) tomorrow, when I got to get my shot. I was up a couple pounds Tuesday, but it tends to be higher at the beginning of the week, and down a little by Friday...for some reason. So, i’m really hoping to have lost at least a pound. 

My appetite hasn’t been so bad the past couple days or so. I’m thinking its the garcinia cambogia working. I hope I don’t have any problems taking it. I read that it may raise serotonin, and i’m on a few meds that do the same. Too much serotonin can cause serotonin syndrome, which can be fatal. So that scares me. So far, no symptoms. I hope I can continue to take it. 

I need to go to the pharmacy today. My mood stabilizer and one of my diabetes meds is finally filled. Have had to request for the mood stabilizer several times, they had to contact my doctor, and it wasn’t getting filled. Been off of it for over a week, not good. 

There have been a lot of landslides and sink holes lately, with all the rain everyone has been getting. Scary stuff. Just seen one on the news, as I was typing this. 

I was looking at people’s before and after pics on Instagram, it’s a weight loss ashoutout account, where they post peoples’ before and afters... obviously.. lol Anyway, a lot of the pics are underwear or bikini pics.. I will never be able to wear a bikini. I have too much tummy fat, and when I lose it I will still have leftover skin. Nasty but true. But, the bikini thing isn’t a big deal. My goal isn’t skinny anyway, so even if I didn’t have excess skin, I still probably wouldn’t look good in a bikini. Even if I could afford skin removal surgery, i’d have a huge scar, so.... Yeah. I remember the doctor who diagnosed my thyroid problem years ago, he told me that the thyroid is the reason for my weight problem and he said, “I want to see you in a string bikini next year”. That didn’t happen. lol That will never happen. I wear a full coverage tankini now, and that’s all i’ll be wearing. 

I can’t wait to lose enough weight to wear a cuter tankini though. Speaking of which, i’d better take my meds! I’ve been up for over an hour and forgot about it. Along with my regular meds, i’m taking phentermine, chromium and garcinia cambogia. The weight loss clinic has this stuff called Hypermelt, and I really want to try it. It has garcinia cambogia, raspberry keytones and something else, can’t remember what it is.. But anyway, just trying out the garcinia cambogia part for now. It actually does seem to be minimizing my appetite. 

I’m being a little restrictive on my diet today. I was on Thursday, and weighed in on Friday, went from 304 down to 300.5. 3 1/2 pounds in a few days. Not sure it was was water loss or fat loss, but it’s a start. I’m hoping to have not gained when I weigh in at the clinic tomorrow. Losing more would be great, I really want to get back under 300. But i’ll just be happy to not see a gain. I will weigh myself at the ymca today when we go to swim, but that scale seems to be a bit off, so ive been going by the clinic’s scale. 

Making a pork roast tonight. Decided to make pork carnitas tacos with it again, instead of a roast with carrots and potatoes. It’s just too good not to. lol Not the healthiest thing in the world of course. 

I had the worst pain in my thigh for over 24 hours, and I think it came from that lipovite shot. Nervous about trying it again, but I will. If it happens again, i’m done with it. 

I’m trying to do the intermittent fasting thing again. I did it almost a year ago, lost about 30 pounds. It’s where you only eat during a 6-8 hour time frame and fast the rest of the time. Basically, no eating until noon, no eating after 6 or 7. This worked well for me before. I’m having to force myself to get back into diet mode, though. Have been hungry lately. Not as much today, thankfully. 

I drink coffee as an appetite suppressant. It works. After a cup or two, I feel full. Feeling over full after two cups right now. My first two cups of the day had french vanilla creamer, this last cup was black.

Haven’t blogged in a few days.....so here I am! lol

We just got a spotify account, to use on our Alexa echodots, and it has amazing relaxation stations! I’m listening to one called “sleep” right now, and it’s so relaxing. I also like the peaceful piano station. LOVE IT! I like the rock, latin, and other stations as well...but I really enjoy the relaxation music. 

I had my calories set to lose 2 pounds a week, which required me to eat 1500 calories or less. Last time I lost the weight, I had no problem with that! I usually ate 1000-1200 calories a day, sometimes even less. Having such a difficult time with it this time. So I changed it to 1 pound a week and it set my calories around 2000 a day. That should be a lot easier to do, but after i’m used to eating less, i’m going to switch it back to 2 pounds a week again. 

I have my main goal, which is 160 (304 at the moment). I have short term goals, my first goal is 299. Then, 280.. 250.. 225.. 199.. 175.. Then, 160. I will see how I look at feel at 160, to decide if I want to stop there or lose more. I looked good at 160, years ago. I was a size 12, wore some 10s. I don’t honestly want to be “skinny”, I think I look better with a little weight. So, 160 will probably be where I stop. 

When I get back down to 250-260, i’ll start going dancing with friends again. I felt fairly comfortable dancing at that weight 5 years ago. When I reach either 200 or 225, I would like to take dance lessons. Ballroom dancing and/or salsa. I would also like to save up a little money and get that strawberry laser on my tummy, maybe thighs. It’s $75 at the weight loss clinic I go to. Mark’s wanting it done, too. I’d love a tummy tuck, but don’t see myself being able to save up $5000+. Unfortunately. 

Part of me wants to go swim today, need that exercise. Part of me wants to stay home today. I don’t know if i’m swimming tomorrow or not. Waiting to see if our niece is coming over after school. If so, we plan to go swim. And I am planning to swim Saturday. Even though Sierra will be with her bio mother that day, unfortunately. If I am definitely going tomorrow and sat, I would probably skip today. Just not feeling it. 

I do need to go to a store and get good conditioner for the gym. I like to coat my hair with conditioner and get in the steam room for at least 10 minutes, to deep condition my hair.  Then, I leave it in until after I swim, and wash it out when I take my after swimming shower. Not buying a high end conditioner, though I do love Biolage.....I wish. lol Just something better than V05. 

Was up a bit before 7 this morning. Still waking up and it’s 5 till 9. lol I want to go swimming today, but I really need a boost of energy. Also going for my lipo-vite shot today. Did my B12 shot today, and it hurt! lol I normally don’t mind them. But I dulled the needled by poking the bottle thing a few times too many. Trying to get all the liquid. And it was so hard to poke into my arm.

My breakfast was strawberries, blueberries and a coke. Could have skipped the coke I guess. I’m CRAVING shells and cheese! Found a couple boxes at Aldis for 69 cents each!! Awesome deal, and it was the really good kind. Had one with dinner last night (Had pork chops, shells and cheese and green beans)... and now i’m really wanting to make that other box. lol Trying to fight the urge! Need to go back to Aldis, get a few more before the sale goes off. Having pork chops again tonight, wanting chicken, but I got a big pack of pork chops and i’m afraid they will go back (was on sale)....Idk, maybe i’ll freeze them and have chicken. But, what to do with the chicken? Hmm.. I’ll figure something out. I would just bake it, but it’s boneless skinless breasts, and they tend to get a little tough in the oven alone. Wish I had bone-in chicken thighs, they always turn out great when I make them! Maybe if I make them in the instant pot. 

At this point, I don’t feel like swimming. Don’t feel like changing clothes. Don’t feel like getting in the car and going anywhere this morning. Ugh. 

On tv, Oprah Winfrey was saying the “mothering instinct” is not for her. I know that’s true with a lot of people, but I can’t understand it. I have the mothering instinct, I just have a lot of health issues that could make pregnancy difficult. I’m so in between on whether to try to have children. I have always wanted a big family (5 kids) - but even a small family would be nice. But at the same time, more than one doctor have warned me against getting pregnant, it could be really dangerous for me. Right now, due to a leaking ovarian cyst, I couldn’t get pregnant if I really tried. Going to get surgery to have it removed. After that, I may start trying to get pregnant. I think. I’m undecided. I love the idea of being a Mom. But then, when I think of the risks, I try to think or the perks of not having children. The freedom I have now. Well, sorta. Not totally free, having a stepdaughter. lol But an 11 year old doesn’t take as much constant attention as a newborn/toddler. I want to be a Mom though......but the risks.... I don’t know. 

My Mom.. She didn’t have motherly instincts at all. She freely admitted that. She didn’t want to have kids, and I believe she deeply regretted it. I can never understand a Mom who pushes her kid away when they are trying to hug and love on her. That really screws with a kid’s head.

If anyone on here wants to buy Girl Scout cookies, Sierra is selling them! https://DigitalCookie.GirlScouts.org/scout/sierra827140

Not doing well with the routines I was trying to establish :( I am so beyond tired, I don’t feel like swimming, don’t feel like cleaning and I am almost over my calorie limit today, it’s just 2pm. I feel like I need a nap, probably going to try in a few minutes.

I have things I have to do out of town tomorrow, so I won’t be able to swim. The plan is to swim Thursday though. And Saturday. Maybe Fri? I got weighed at the doctor and the weight loss clinic yesterday. Still at the last weight I was at the ymca last week. I hope you drop some ounces by Thursday, but being inactive and not eating great today, it’s pretty doubtful. I’ll be lucky if I don’t gain a pound. 

I bought a good Suntan city package special.. $4.99 for a visit to each bed. I use the faster bed normally, so that gives me two upgrades, one for the fasted and one to the instant bed. Also a spray tan, but I don’t know if I will do that one. Last time, my face turned out darker than my body. lol

Going to the pool today, also using the hot tub and steam room. Going to deep condition my hair while in the steam room, and hoping I can find my tea tree oil for my hair, also. Will smell so good in the steamroom! 

Bought a single use charcoil face mask to try, may do that later. Depends on whether I burn in the tanning bed....haven’t been tanning in a little while. Also bought Ponds charcoil foaming face cleanser, tried it out last night, it seems to work well. 

Went to the weight loss clinic again yesterday, Mark is starting phentermine too. He’s only doing one pill per day, I do two. Anyway, we both got a lipovite shot while we were there, its on sale for $6 until the end of February. Going to get as many as I can afford until then. Can do it twice a week. It’s supposed to burn fat, especially belly fat, and I definitely need that! 

Right now, i’m doing phentermine, lipovite shots (short term), cheapy energy tabs, occasional stacker pills or drinks. Occasional “energy shot” drinks.. Multi vitamin....cheapies for now..  B12 shots (weekly for now but I think she’s switching me to monthly unfortunately).. Vitamin d.. Need more biotin, magnesium and really want to start back on raspberry ketones. Maybe mega t again. I AM DETERMINED TO LOSE THIS FAT!!

Not just relying on supplements. Also watching what I eat, keeping the calories down, cutting way back on soda and drinking a lot of water. On my 4th bottle and it’s not even 9am yet. Also working my way back into an exercise routine.. Swimming 30 minutes or more a couple times per week. Planning to do an hour or more at least 3 times per week. It’s a combination of swimming and water treading, mostly water treading. But, using arms and legs pretty vigorously. Good exercise. Cardio and some strength. 

My nails have been breaking, but the super short ones have grown out a little. Going to give myself a mini manicure and use nail treatment on them sometime today. Need to do the pedicure thing, too lol My toe nails get sharp. 

Been using my Garmin fitness watch again. My heart rate stays between 76-82 mostly. Even after phentermine, energy pills, coffee, etc.. But shoot up quick when I get up and moved around. Or get really stressed over something.

I am going to start giving myself little at home spa treatments.... Hot bubble bath, with bath fizz, candles, soft music (iheart radio’s spa station).. Deep conditioning my hair.. Face masks.. A glass of wine.. Finish the bath with a contrast shower to improve circulation and reduce cellulite. I often to that anyway, when I shower at the gym. It’s fluctuating from really hot to really cold water, back to hot, then cold.. 2-3 times. Moisturize.. After the bath, turn the light off in the bedroom, listen to my spa music and relax and give myself time to think. I may do this tonight, if not, definitely one night next week! Sounds so relaxing, Haven’t done that in so long!

I’m so happy that my meds are working and i’m doing so well. I literally can’t remember the last time I felt like I wanted to die. It used to be a frequent feeling. Have felt so much more “normal”. 

I am wanting peppermint tea, might have to make a cup in a few minutes. 

Skipping swimming today. Probably shouldn’t, but i’m trying to catch up on things and get ready for the girl scout meeting tonight. I have it all planned out and am hoping our first badge earning meeting goes well! We’re working on the social butterfly badge. 

I reorganized a couple of Sierra’s dresser drawers and put away all the pants. That girl went from desperately needing clothes in the next size up to having way too much!! Some of it was given to us by my sweet cousin Alissa. The rest, we bought in the last few weeks. Bought too much. lol

I tried to use furniture polish on our damaged and cheaply made living room table. It looks shinier in areas, but still looks like crap. We may replace it next month.

Mark is starting phentermine today. Well, getting the prescription today, may not start until tomorrow morning. He is only getting the 30 tabs. I do 60 count. I need it, have a high tolerance to medication, it takes higher doses for me to feel anything. This stuff seriously seems to work better than the stuff from the other clinic. Very odd. 

I have to say, i’m actually kinda proud of myself. lol I’m getting everything in my life together. I struggled with depressive episodes for all my life. The interrupted every routine I tried to have. I’m on a lot of antidepressants (which worries me about serotonin syndrome), it seems to take a lot to work. But, it’s working!

I’m getting into a routine with the house, cleaning and that kinda thing, slowly. Planning meals. Swimming again and dieting. Organized all my girl scout paperwork and am doing well with it, finally! Good sleep schedule, for the most part. Reuniting with old friends, making new friends and enjoying the friendships I already had. Getting back into a good beauty/skincare routine.. Exfoliating, face and body, doing my own pedicures and manicures, deep conditioning treatments on my hair, using the steam room again. Going to color my hair next week, it’s been months. I think 2019 is going to be a good year for me! :)

I’m just so happy that i’m the right combination of medication. Feeling what I would consider “normal” for once. Had two good weeks, then one bad week, but i’m doing better now. I guess i’ll always have some bad days among the good. 

Found a great water enhancer!! (did I mention this in a previous blog?) Mio electrolytes. Has electrolytes, obviously, and b vitamins. Berry flavor, taste similar to the blue powerads. Or is it gatorade? One of the two. lol I drink like 7 or 8 bottles of water yesterday. Was awake from 3:15 am until 10pm. This morning, woke up at 7:15. I’d rather be up at 6, especially with everything I had to do this morning. It’s 10:52 and i’ve accomplished a couple things, at least. Better than some days. lol 

Making chicken ranch pizza tonight. Canned pizza dough, ranch dressing as the sauce, sauteed chicken, mushrooms, black olives and mozzarella. It’s going to be so good. Probably not the healthiest dinner, but it’ll be ok. Could be worse. I would say i’ll eat less during the day to make up for the calories, but i’m about to have eggs scrambled with sausage for late breakfast/lunch. Nathan usually makes it, but Mark’s making it this time. I need to remember we are going to need more eggs, speaking of which. 

Tomorrow, having pork roast, carrots and potatoes. Saturday, chicken tacos. I will probably be hung over Sunday (lol.. going to a friend’s place Sat night), so it’s going to either be Mark or Nathan cooking. So, no idea what we’re having. 

A little tired. My brain decided 3:15 this morning was WAKE UP time! lol Uggh, no. No being awake before 5 or 6. I thought i’d be a lot more tired than I am.

I think this new Phentermine is working better than the stuff I was getting at the other clinic. Seems like it anyway. Also started chromium. 

Swam for 30 minutes. Hoping to go back tomorrow, Friday and Saturday.. Staying for an hour by Saturday. 

The hot tub was nice today. As was the steam room. I need to use a good deep conditioner in the steam room. It’s own little spa time. lol 

I’m doing good on calories. Can have 500 more calories today, and still be under my limit! Having a pork chop, a little asparagus and a small salad. May skip my 2nd soda. I’ve limited myself to 2 a day at most. Have drink 7 bottles of water, starting on my 8th. I picked up a Mio (water enhancer/flavor) with electrolytes and B vitamins. Much needed! So, i’ll probably just drink that tonight or my powerade. Maybe.

Went to have my blood drawn, 3 tries and she had to give up. I have a high pain tolerance and have no issues watching my blood being drawn.....but she hit a nerve or something, I just and pulled the needle out. Scared the phlebotomist and myself. That’s never happened before.

I got weight today at the weight loss clinic and my weight is down again! This is Tuesday and since Sunday, i’ve lost 4.3 pounds. In the past week and 3 days I have lost almost 6 1/2 pounds. If I lose 2 pounds per week, by my June 1st goal date, I will be down to the same weight I was in 2013 after I lost all that weight. FAR from thin, but I looked pretty good and felt so much better. Was able to wear cute dresses and not feel like a freaking tent. lol 

This is very motivating, makes me want to eat even less, drink more water and go swimming more often! Sure, some of this weight may be water weight. Had a one day tummy virus. But it’s still a start, and encouraging. 

By our 1 year anniversary, I should be able to be down to The weight I was when we met 4.5 years ago. About 10 pounds less that I was at the wedding. So that’s good. Wish I had started trying to lose weight a little sooner, but i’ll be fine with it and thankful for the weight loss if I can achieve it!

Most of the other clients at the weight loss clinic are considerably smaller than me. Hoping that’s a good sign that they are having success. Some of the people are at my goal size. I don’t want to be skinny, I was to be chubby. Just not obese! I seen a tall thin man there today. I don’t get why he’d be trying to lose any weight. 

I might go swimming tomorrow morning, if I wake up feeling ok. I woke up really groggy and tired at 10 this morning. Wanted to wake up early, but I just couldn’t. Still a little sick today, but compared to yesterday i’m feeling a lot better. Yesterday was rough. I have an appointment at 1:15 to get my labs done - re-check my thyroid, b12, vitamin d, sodium and all that. Hoping my b12, d and sodium are back up to normal...same with my thyroid. And I hope my red blood cells have went back down to normal. I won’t know until next week. At my regular appointment. 

Looking forward to the weekend. Sierra is going to one of her best friend’s house for the night, for her birthday. And we are going to a good friends place to hang out, drink a bit. Hoping another friend of mine will be able to come along. I think Cloyie and Dena will get long really well once they know each other. I hadn’t hung out with Dena in like 8 years until this past New Years eve. It didn’t feel like all that time had passed! Will have to hang out more often. She lives in Erwin TN I think she said, it’s at least an hour or two away. That sucks. Most of my friends do live too far away, though. Everyone needs to move to Bristol. lol