Falling for me

But I’m just writing this post because school, my internship, my breakup this past August, the group i work with in my trial prep class, my meetups with the anxiety group, all of that has caused me to relapse something fierce. I feel like I’m in a hole I can’t get out of. I sleep 12+ hours a day. Today was even worse. I fell asleep at 6 pm last night as soon as I got home from work and I woke up just now at 12 pm.

I had to leave the meetup group because I had too many men issues, with men trying to date me and not respecting my “No” or my boundaries. Two men even got into it on facebook over me, including the damn group owner. So now I don’t do meetups at all which is a -1 to my social life. The experience also made me not want to meet new people so I am a total homebody again.

With me sleeping so much, I’m late to school often (but thankfully, I’ve told the professors of my issue and the Disability Center at my school also gave me a letter to give them.) but I’m late to work too. It looks extremely unprofessional even though that’s the last thing I am. 

I ate too much in 2 months after my breakup but now I don’t eat much at all. I’m never hungry. I have to force myself to eat. 

In my Trial Prep class, my group isn’t serious at all. I’m the only one wanting to do the work and when I do it,  I get treated badly by the members. I had to speak with the professor in private 1  on 1 and she was of absolutely no help. But I’m at the point where if you’re telling me to shutup when I’m the only one ever contributing, bye bitch. I stay silent in the group discussions in class now and I probably won’t be doing anymore work. I am tired of 25% of my grade relying on others when I work well alone and keep getting put with ass people.