ˋ ♡・աɦօʀɨʐƈռ . *

one of my close friends is struggling and needs desperate help. after a failed attempt back in april she has been charged a $14,000 medical bill that she absolutely cannot afford to pay and at the time of making this post she needs to raise around $5,000.

〇一 ｍｅｎｇｚｈｉ        ━━        𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒓         𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒐 . 

the  room  was  silent  and  yet  mengzhi’s  head  was  loud  and  frantic .  it  was  screaming .  and  so  she  did  too .  ❝ 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒆 ,  𝒈𝒐𝒅𝒅𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒊𝒕 ! ❞

                                        ━━ 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐬 .

𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥  𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 :   yao  mengzhi. 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 :   瑶 (  mother  of  pearl ,  precious  ) 梦 (  to  dream  ) 志 (  aspiration ,  the will  ). 𝐚𝐠𝐞  &&.  𝐝𝐨𝐛 :   twenty - five .  11 / 19 / 2064. 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫   &&.  𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬 :   female ,  she / her. 𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 :   5′11. 𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 :   chinese. 𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲 :   afro - chinese. 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬 :   captain ,  ‘zhi (  by  binadu  &&.  anita  ),  bitch. 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐥  𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 :   neutral  evil.  

𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬 :   being  a  sarcastic  little  shit ,  being  in  charge ,  anita ,  money ,  burying  each  and  every  emotion  deep  inside  her ,  keeping  her  friends  &&.  family  being  safe ,  sweets ,  arguing ,  cats. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬 :   people  second  guessing  her  authority  or  abilities ,  cowards  (  or  anyone  she  deems  as  cowardly  ),  the  boss ,  getting  blackout  drunk ,  birds. 𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 :     split  lips  and  bandaged  knuckles ,  not  recognizing  the  person  in  the  mirror ,  tattered  jeans  and  worn  boots ,  fighting  for  a  better  future  for  your  loved  one ,  the  sun  peeking  over  the  horizon ,  reeking  of  sex  and  sweat ,  half  buttoned  shirts  and  rolled  up  sleeves. 

                                        ━━ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 . 

a.   anita  sakhineti.   the  love  of  her  life — mengzhi  met  anita  back  in  the  early  2080′s  when  mengzhi  used  to  be  an  investigator  for  hire  for  missing  women  and  girls.  the  two  met  one  night  while  mengzhi  was  passing  through  a  red  light  district  in  guangzhou  and  mengzhi  helped  fend  off  a  group  of  men  that  was  attacking  anita.  the  two  became  inseparable  after  that.  anita  is  mengzhi’s  only  anchor  to  not  giving  into  the  monster  she  fears  she’s  becoming,  if  anything  were  to  happen  to  her  anita  doesn’t  show  what’d  she’d  do.

b.   lai  ssu - ying.   an  old  colleague  and  friend,  ssu - ying  used  to  be  apart  of  mengzhi’s  investigations  and  the  two  have  known  one  another  since  they  were  in  high  school.  though,  after  they  left  guangzhou  mengzhi  ended  up  throwing  ssu - ying  under  the  bus  to  save  anita’s  hide  and  now  the  two  aren’t  on  speaking  terms.  mengzhi  deeply  regrets  that  and  even  though  they  don’t  talk  she  would  still  lay  down  her  life  for  ssu - ying,  in  a  selfish  way  she  really  misses  her.

d.   binadu  avalos.   her  closest  friend  other  than  anita,  you  put  these  two  clowns  in  a  room  together  and  you  can  bet  your  ass  that  they’ll find  some  sort  of  shit  to  get  themselves  into.  binadu  was  her  only  real  friend  that  she  found  in  the  gang  and  she  can’t  count  the  amount  of  times  he’s  saved  her  skin  or  gotten  her  through  a  tough  time.  literally  the  definition  of  ‘ your  the  only  bitch  in  this  house  that  i  ever  respected. ’  they  are  very  ride  or  die  for  each  other.  and  he  bullies  junyi  with  her  so  that's  an  added  bonus.

e.   hong  junyi.   if  she  could  fight  junyi  and  not  have  77  tear  her  a  new  one,  she  would.  junyi  was  the  person  who  introduced  her  to  the  street  gang  that  she  runs  with  and  and  hasn’t  forgiven  him  for  it,  and  truly  she  never  will.  not  only  that,  she  hates  how  he  gets  special  treatment  from  the  boss  due  to  being  her  nephew.  mengzhi  sees  him  as  a  coward  with  his  constant  need  for  protection  from  77  and  she  takes  every  opportunity  she  can  to  bully  him.

   she  was  all  blood  and  bruises  and  regrets,  black  and  blue  and  green  and  purple.  the  bags  that  sat  under  her  eyes  were  deep  and  dark,  blood  that  trickled  and  flecked  from  the  cut  etched  into  her  eyebrow  mixed  with  the  bit  coming  out  of  her  nose  and  pooled  in the  corner  of  her  mouth.  mengzhi  couldn’t  even  recognize  herself,  physically  nor  mentally.  it  looked  as  if  belonged  there,  the  blood,  the  bruises,  the  regret.  all  of  it  added  to  the  monster  that  she’d  become,  the  persona  she  was  forced  to adapt.  it  made  her  sick.  it made  her  whole.

  clinging  to  the  counter  she  stared  at  the  shell  of  a  woman  that  glared  back  at  her.  being  out  in  the  streets,  fighting  for  your  life  everyday  and  not  knowing  if  it’d  be  your  last.  it  changes  you.  mengzhi  averted  her  eyes  as  bile  crept  up  her  throat.  monster.  that’s  what  she  was  destined  to  become.  anita  only  stunted  that  process,  she  didn’t  know  what  she’d  do  (  or  become  )  without  her.

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          ↳  a  wip  introduction  by  your’s  truly , @whorizcn​​​ !!

↳   𝘽𝘼𝙎𝙄𝘾 𝙄𝙉𝙁𝙊𝙍𝙈𝘼𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉  . 

𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐥𝐞 :   a  sinners  memoir. 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞 :   western  new  adult  thriller. 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐬 :   plotting  &&.  outlining. 𝐬𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 :   late  19th  century  southwest  america. 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐬  &&.  𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐬 :   poc  &&.  lgbt  main  characters ,  minor  character  death ,  questioning  morals ,  found  family  but  they  lowkey  hate  each  other ,  mutual  pining  dumb asses ,  loss ,  too  much  world building  for  my  own  good ,  revenge ,  religious  guilt ,  vigilante  justice ,  deadly  ambition ,  manipulation ,  “ this  town  ain’t  big  enough  for  the  both  of  us ” ,  sexy  cowgirls  going  pewpew. 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭  𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 :   alcohol abuse ,  murder ,  mentions  of  abuse ,  gore ,  sexual  assault. 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 :   wip  page ,  wip  tag ,  pinterest.

↳   𝙏𝙀𝙇𝙇  𝙈𝙀  𝙏𝙃𝙀  𝙏𝘼𝙇𝙀 ,  𝙎𝙏𝙍𝘼𝙉𝙂𝙀𝙍 .

𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐲𝐥𝐞𝐫  has always been an ambitious woman . from the day she was born a fire had been ignited inside her , burning brightly with the deep desire to become something . when she was younger her mother had cradled her in her arms with a warm smile on her face as she told her that she’s bound to be burnt by it. 

those same words her mother had whispered to her played on repeat in delphine’s head as she sobbed in front of her family’s graves . the weight of the schuyler family legacy a heavy weight on top of her shoulders , a weight she had welcomely burdened , but a weight she was terrified of none the less. 

that fire inside of her had never burned brighter . delphine did her best to put it out.

eleven years later , delphine is now living with her uncle in the small town of calico , a quiet mining town that doesn’t see much crime save for a handful of street robberies and “ suspicious figures ” prowling it’s dusty streets . so when the local gun smith and a bank teller turn up with a bullet between their eyes and matching missing chunks out of their flesh , saying that the people of calico had lost their minds would be the understatement of the century . with rumors passing through the town like a plague and delphine’s uncle obsessing over finding and arresting the “ red devil, ” delphine can feel that hunger for ambition creeping back in and hovering over her like a second shadow , the familiar warmth of that forgotten fire spreading through her veins.

𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐲𝐥𝐞𝐫  has always been an ambitious woman , and if going against her uncle’s wishes and tracking down a dangerous outlaw is what it takes to secure her legacy , then she’ll be damned if she doesn’t do it.

because what could go wrong ? except you know , everything .

↳   𝙏𝙃𝙀  𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙀𝙍𝙎 . 

𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐲𝐥𝐞𝐫  —  a  wannabe  bounty  hunter  with  a  kind  heart  who’s  desperately  trying  to  honor  her  families  legacy  as  well  as  secure  her  own .

19 ,  cis - female  (  she  /  her  ) ,  lesbian ,  black ,  capricorn.

lost her parents and younger brother in a devastating fire when she was eight . she was soon after adopted by her uncle and has been living with him ever since . though , she’s growing tired of only being known as the sheriffs pretty niece.

a huge animal lover . her uncle gave her a silver dapple pinto missouri fox trotter for her thirteenth birthday and she’s delphine’s pride and joy . her and irene are practically inseparable and if anything happened to her delphine wouldn’t know what to do with herself.

absolutely adores playing music and singing , she views music as a form of escapism and whenever she needs to de - stress she’ll find a quiet spot and jam out on her harmonica or practice her singing.

𝐦𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐚  “ 𝐫𝐞𝐝 "  𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐳 - 𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐛𝐚𝐫  —  a  cunning  and  brash  outlaw  hell - bent  on  getting  the  revenge  she’s  due  and  who’ll  stop  at  nothing  to  get  it .

20 , cis - female  (  she  /  her ) ,  bisexual  with  a  preference  for  women ,  mexican ,  scorpio.

after the tragic death of her parents by the hands of the claiborne gang ,  mahalia and her twin sister were abducted and forced to work in a prostitution and gambling den in order to pay the debt her father failed to pay off.

a formidable gambler who may or may not have an addiction . will not hesitate to kick your ass at poker and drain you for all you’re worth by using the dirty tactics she picked up from her years at the gambling den.

has to use a cane due to her bad knee which was fractured by the leader of the claiborne gang , arthur claiborne . loves beating the shit out of people with it because she finds it funny. 

↳   𝙏𝘼𝙂𝙇𝙄𝙎𝙏   (  please  send  me  an  ASK  to  be  added  /  removed !!  ) .

guess  who  caved  and  made  a  comic  sans  wip  intro  in  order  to  procrasinate  cramming  in  last  minute  october  prep  🙈🙈  me  bitch .  n  e  ways  i  hope  y’all  like  this  kadjwkd  im  so  damn  excited  to  write  this  bad  boy . 

also !!!  i  totally  stole  the  idea  to  use  the  pngs  from  piffs  (  @acrimoneous  )  codename:  hamlet’s  powerpoint  intro  she  made  akdkawkd  ily  qween

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