By Name and By Nature

very important for elf characters to freak the fuck out about the aging difference thing and pre-grieve like crazy and scream themself hoarse with denial when they can’t stop death itself and they still look the same as when they met the frail aged body that’s going cold beneath their touch and eventually settle into a numbness that they’ll call acceptance but they never really let anyone get as close as they did in the first century of their life unless they know they’re going to stick around as long as they will

“why are elves so snobby and exclusive and cut-off from everyone else” befriending you means they’ll end up burying you and your children and your grandchildren and they’ll still be young. exactly how many times do you think you could choose to do that. if you live through enough centuries, eventually you run out of days in the year to visit each grave.

The thing about the "all evil fictional women from myth and legend are misunderstood and in reality their story was retold to make them evil because men were afraid of their power" trend is that it's low-key also misogynistic to assume women are incapable of being terrible people purely due to being women.

remember that guy that had a single auditory hallucination that told him he had a brain tumor and the exact location and then he went to the doctor and it was fucking right

people like the idea that there is an identity they can claim that will absolve them of the responsibility to examine their beliefs and actions and adjust them accordingly to better align with their values and desired outcomes but there isn't, we all have to practice humility and do the work regardless

if your harmless fixation helps you heal, go for it. get engrossed in what could save you.

anyway i love nonlinear narratives, i love it when it's unclear where a story begins or ends, i love it when they're fragmented by recollection and perspective and record, i love it when no narrator is truly omniscient or objective or infallible however much they might wish to convince you otherwise. i love narratives that misremember their own details, that present them with equal consideration for others to evaluate and determine reality from fiction, truth from illusion; naratives that are themselves psychotic. i love narratives that double back on themselves, that go around and around in circles they can't break off from, and make no sense on a map. i love it when time is out of joint!!!

[recommending something i sincerely love] ok so the thing about it is it kinda sucks

not my laboratory not my Creature

mike flanagan vs not compulsively upholding nuclear family connections as an inherently morally good/redemptive force