Yes i did

You know what sucks? 

Living in a society that claims to be accepting, claims to uphold you. To live in a community that calls you privileged, tells you that you’re not oppressed enough. 

So they talk about something else instead, 

while your best friend gets molested in the bathroom. 

Oh, but you’re just still a man. So privileged, so favored by society, 

a top tier porn category, waiting to be clicked on. 

Be glad you’re invisible, it works in your favour, you get hatecrimed so much less, 

except for the twenty year old that’s “experimenting” in your thirteen year old dms. 

And if the first time you see someone like you is in a pornfic, 

then at least be glad that your best friend isn’t on the news. 

Cus he’s talking to someone twice his age again, 

telling him all about how lonely it feels in his cold bed. 

And you can stay invisible to the public eye, 

while another man makes his way into your little corner. 

You see, 

Mom, why did you leave us? 

The toddlers are crying, crying for their mama, 

but they have to settle for my arms instead. 

Eventually, it feels the same. 

Our little teen doesn’t run to you for help. 

She calls me to ask what’s for dinner, 

tells me when she’ll be home. 

cus she knows that you won’t answer her. 

Mom, when are you coming home? 

The toddlers are sick, both our barely-teens are too, 

I can’t hold it anymore. 

Can you please buy some chicken on your way? 

Don’t worry about them, I’ll cook for them. 

Don’t worry about work, I’ll cook for you. 

Maybe I’ll make myself something too. 

Mom, why are you on the news? 

The papers talking about how amazing you are, 

How a woman can be successful without neglecting her kids. 

I’m so proud of you mama, 

we’ll celebrate later, 

Turn away from me dear. 

Ignore the pills I’m choking down, Run from the smoke climbing out of my mouth. 

Cus you’re just thirteen, a little baby girl, 

A precious life I’d spend mine protecting if only I wasn’t so busy wastin it. 

I was no day older than you are now, yet I seemed to be so much taller, 

So much older at that exact same age. 

And I’ll spend my days scared, 

keepin track of every medication in the house, 

studyin your expression when you ask to hang out. 

So I’ll be there if the pills get you too, so I can swallow them before you ever do.

Craving for you to see the sacrifices I’m making, 

WHERE DID THE PEOPLE GO