Ill Find You In Another World

I can’t believe it’s been a year since I posted. So let’s see..

My FIL doesn’t have cirrhosis. He has stage 3 fibrosis and he’s still kicking. He’s lost some weight but is still heavy. He has some sort of blood disorder where he produces too much iron so he has to get some drained each month. Too much iron is what has killed the liver.

My husband got the fed job and has been in training for a little over a week. He’s coming home for a visit this weekend and graduates at the end of the year. So I’ve been single mommin’ it to three littles.

Our third baby was another boy! He’s 3 months old and so sweet and adorable. Def not having anymore kids tho.

We are still waiting for L to hear back from the feds about a job, if that falls through, he will work for the state, it’ll just suck a bit more. It’ll work out though.

I finally got on an antidepressant since having my second son and I finally want to do things again. Since 2019 I honestly haven’t cared about doing… anything. How the house looked, redecorating, doing a good job at work, literally nothing bothered me and nothing interested me. That should have been a big red flag that I needed to be on something, but I didn’t get the hint. I’m doing better now. Slowly making my house my own and redoing it how I want. I’ve guess I’ll have to be on medication like this for the rest of my life. The last five years definitely would have been easier I think. I know my marriage would have been.

Changes are coming to my family soon and I don’t like change. I know I’ll be fine once it happens but I hate the anticipation.

There’s a get together this weekend at Landon’s friend’s house. If it’s Sunday night like normal, he won’t get to go bc he will be at a concert. If it’s Saturday night, he’s already said he’s going to go whether I want him to or not. He thinks I don’t want him to have fun I guess, but that’s not it. He always gets drunk and acts like a fool and not to mention the girl he knows I don’t trust will be there. I hope it’s Sunday night so we don’t have to fight about this.

I also wish I wasn’t having to plan my own baby shower this go around. I know life isn’t fair, but I wish more people cared about celebrating this baby like they did my first.