Arctic_Frost

1. color palette

Pre catacalysm, the most repeated colors present in traditional khaenri'ahn clothing (which as of now (luna I) only includes clothing of nobleborns, knight uniforms and clothing of common borns/half bloods of the eclipse dynasty) were these:

So we have a lot of muted and soft colors, gold, light blues, a gazillion shades of purple and light greys.

It's common knowledge that both purple and gold represent wealth and royalty; purple also represents magic, which the khaenri'ahns did infact dabble in.

Light purple and lilac along with light blue can also represent tranquility and peace, while blue in general represents royalty (again), stability and wisdom.

White and light grey, which make up the majority of their outfits, represent purity, cleanness and serenity.

maybe the soft colors on the surface were a means of concealing the shady stuff was going on behind the scenes. Or maybe, these colors are for a time before the day they were labeled as sinners, when they were chaste and clean; Safe within the walls of their own homeland.

Now, after the catacalysm, their color palette starts looking a lot more like this:

(no this is not just abyss lector's pallette bear with me)

The blue and purple vibe is still going on, but not only are the colors darker now, they're also more saturated, almost as if they've been corrupted, or transformed from the original colors to be more agitating. It's such a slap in the face from the pastely eye candy.

The dark blue we see on so many khaenri'ahns is associated with knowledge and authority.

A few things to consider:

-its possible that some khaenri'ahns took to wearing darker colors as a way of mourning.

- the brighter neon purples represent the abyss, which has obviously been very in use since the catacalysm.

- its also just a case of hoyo wanting the vilains to be more flashy and evil looking, since a lot of "khaenri'ahns" are in game monsters.

2. capes and collars

yeah.

So, throughout history, big ridiculous looking collars were a common sight, however we see them most in 16th-17th century Europe in the form of ruffs, but I think this particular dracula looking knife collars the khaenri'ahns love is more similar to detachable cape collars.

Either way, big collars were almost always reserved for folk of high society and were associated with wealth and power.

Again, this is also a case of hoyo wanting to design scary and mysterious villains by making use of sharp motifs, but i mean two things can be true at once.

As for their capes, there are a few khaenri'ahns who wear diffrent styles of them (pierro, dain, rerir, capitano) but then again this is a fantasy game where a lot of other people wear capes as well so its not enough to classify it as a khaenri'ah thing. what i CAN classify as a khaenri'ah thing though, are:

3. sashes

a LOT of khaenri'ah characters have some kind of sash dangling off of them. Some even have more than one.

A sash is found in many cultures and can have many diffrent meanings. However, when its worn from one shoulder to the opposite hip, it symbolises rank or status.

What I think is that maybe the diffrent styles of sash was used as a way of communicating your status. For example, all the knights wear it from their right shoulder to their left hip (which is usually a way to show chivalric order in real life cultures as well), chlothar and caribert are wearing it hanging from both shoulders, pierro's is in a v shape (which is usually associated with academics), diredyth's (half blood) is a diffrent style entirely, etc etc

might I add that sahses can be found in almost every nordic country's traditional clothing, but more so as a belt. The type of sash khaenri'ahns wear is a more roman style.

(disclaimer: i know that the sash on caribert's arm is from his mother and not a fashion choice i just thought it'd be fun to add. I also know that the sash on rhine's shoulder is from nebarius's side, which is a little weird to me since its the single most khaenri'ahn coded piece of her outfit but whatever.)

4. vests and pants

Not much to say for either of these which is why I smushed them together. But anyway

Some of the characters wear vests, which again, isnt a khaenri'ah exclusive thing in this game; BUT

Vests are very very common in nordic traditional wear (the pictures above are all norwegian bunads I believe). So i thought that would be intresting to point out.

A similar thing is going on with the pants, Caribert's pants specifically, which is a common style of men's traditional legwear.

5. Star motifs and gold accents

The eight pointed star is the insignia of the eclipse dynasty, and these people have it plastered ALLLL over them.

I'm gonna skip putting the pictures because I have very few picture slots left (why is this a thing tumblr why), but i'm sure you know what talking about. The abyss heralds/lectors and the black serpant knights have it on their chest, kaeya has it on his shoes and his arm sash, chlothar and caribert also have it on their chest with a special little yellow center, the ruin machines, albedo's constellation, and many many more that im sure im forgetting.

Now, the eight pointed star has many meanings. In gnostisism, its meant to represent divine forces. In Christianity it represents new begginings, it can also mean the cycle of birth and rebirth or life from birth to death, then there's the eight pointed star of ishtar.

Either way, deciphering the reason khaenri'ahns are obsessed with this symbol is not for this post because its a post of its own entirely. But if you're intrested, there have been many theoried written about this both here and other socials!

what IS for this post though, is pointing how how cringe it is to have your country's flag plastered all over you. Equivalent to americans wearing those usa flag baseball caps.

and also

these people love their gold. we get it you're rich you have splendor and money and class we GET ITTT

6‐ modesty

I've seen a few other people point this out but I wanted to quickly go over it as well.

Khaenri'ahns seem to be rather prudish with their choices of clothing. Chlothar is wearing a literal rectangle that covers him from neck to ankle, the knight uniforms and caribert's fit are fully covered with like 7 layers, and pierro is wearing...that. (refer to the "sashes" picture to see what im talking about.) Even the two women we've seen (rhine and direidyth) have only ONE body part exposed each. Which is huge considering its hoyo.

(Disclaimer: I didnt add dain, capitano and post catacalysm pierro because i think they're trying to not have their rotting flesh on display more than anything.)

Anyways, this checks out with the medieval european court vibe khaenri'ah has going on, but not with the ancient nordic culture is draws inspiration from.

7- Shoulder guards

Shoulder guards are a common piece of armor, so safe to assume this was a a part of the knights' uniform armor, which explains why dainsleif has it. As for kaeya, it can either be an attribution to his father, who (if we go with anfortas alberich=kaeya dad theory) was a knight marshal, or have nothing to do with khaenri'ah and be a part of his own knight uniform. (We all know which one is more likely but let me dream)

7- other fun tidbits

a- a lot of khaenri'ahns have multiple ribbons of cloth where there should usually be a single solid piece of fabric. (eg. Dain's cape, the lector's and heral's skirt thingies)

b- while most pre catacalysm khaenri'ahns we've seen have purple motifs, direidyth's outfit is mostly blue, which could be because the former are nobles (purple the color of royalty and all) while the latter is a halfblood commoner.

If you made it this far I really hope this was comprehensive. You can really see me lose patience towards the end (currently 2am) but this was overall very fun to research and write! If you're educated on fashion history feel free to add anything or correct any mistakes I made.

c- the front of Capitano's coat has snake scale prints! And we all know Khaenri'ahns are so normal about snakes.

I am not downplaying the incredible pain that Diluc would have gone through, having to mercy kill his own father after barely surviving a brutal attack thanks only to his father's sacrifice. To then learn, on top of that, that the brother you had loved, who had been an accepted and trusted member of your family for years, was actually a foreign entity planted in your country with the possibility of becoming a sleeper agent for the enemy--this is beyond the pale of what any normal person could accept. Diluc's anger, pain, and desire to lash out are understandable, and turning on his brother in that moment was essentially inevitable.

However, what people neglect is that Kaeya told Diluc the truth in that moment explicitly because of guilt.

Kaeya felt that his own reaction to Crepus's death wasn't appropriate (he felt liberated by Crepus's loss because it resolved Kaeya of the pain of making the choice between his blood father and his adoptive father) and he was trying to immediately atone for his perceived selfishness by being honest. Kaeya believed that telling Diluc the truth in that moment was better than continuing to perpetuate another lie for the person who had just had to confront his father's likely lifelong deception with the Delusion.

By baring himself completely, being honest for the first time in all his years in Mondstadt, Kaeya thought he was doing the right thing--even though he knew it would cost him his relationship with Diluc.

Diluc repaid Kaeya's honesty with rejection, and Kaeya viewed this as a deserved punishment.

Kaeya's confession was effectively a form of self-harm. He was disgusted with himself because he perceived his complicated feelings over Crepus's death as insufficient grief--Diluc had just lost the most meaningful thing in the world to him, and so Kaeya wanted to "make it right" by losing what meant the most to him too. It was self-sabotage of the highest caliber, provoking Diluc into attacking him because that's what Kaeya thought a liar like himself deserved.

But even though Kaeya knew what the outcome would be, it's clear that he did not understand the extent to which he would internalize the messages he learned that day:

No one should put their faith in me, because I will eventually betray everyone who cares.

and

If I tell the truth, I will lose everything I have.

We're told that, as children, Diluc and Kaeya were thick as thieves, but that Diluc was the extroverted and outgoing one, while Kaeya stuck "in his brother's shadow."

Stories from their childhood reveal that Diluc was the troublemaker who dragged Kaeya into his antics. Kaeya's hangout confirms that Kaeya was a quiet, well-behaved child (it's possible he feared that acting out would cost him his place in Mondstadt) and that his people-pleasing tendencies were already firmly in place, if the stories Adeline has to tell are anything to go by.

And yet the Kaeya of the present is described as shifty, deliberately untrustworthy, and even the type to put others in danger to suit his own ends, refusing the trust of even those closest to him:

It's obvious that there's intentionality behind this behavior--a double-edged blade: Kaeya successfully deceives everyone around him about his actual past, blinding people from asking the hard questions with flashiness and diversions on the surface--and yet he also cannot bear to be trusted. He has internalized the impression of himself as a liar and a betrayer so deeply that he actively repels others' attempts to get closer to him, acting shady and unreliable to introduce doubt into every relationship he forms, so that when the inevitable happens and his secret is finally revealed to the world at large (as it was once revealed to Diluc), he won't face the same pain of loss again.

Kaeya cannot betray anyone ever again if no one ever trusts him to begin with.

Thus, Diluc's reaction to Kaeya's reveal didn't just cost Kaeya his relationship with Diluc. It effectively cost Kaeya his relationships with everyone.

Kaeya went from being a quiet, well-loved child to the kind of person who would smirk while putting his own men in danger, the kind of person who every single other character in Mondstadt (and even the Traveler!) calls a "mystery" whose words can't ever be trusted:

The people of Mondstadt, particularly his fellow knights, clearly love Kaeya; they want to be close to him. The archon of Mondstadt clearly loves Kaeya. But Kaeya's self-image is so horrifically warped by the fact that he revealed the truth of himself one time (just one time!) and immediately lost everything he loved because of that truth, that he has become incapable of letting anyone close again, sabotaging all his relationships in advance before the people on the other side can figure out that he's not who he claims to be.

Because of how Diluc reacted, Kaeya has subconsciously drawn a connection between honesty and pain: So long as Kaeya hides who he is, he can be accepted and tolerated in Mondstadt. But if he dares to reveal the truth, he will be met with violence and outrage.

Thus, Kaeya has resigned himself to a literal "lifetime of lies," a "never-ending performance" in which he can never be honest with those around him--even while other characters like Albedo cruise through life with seemingly no care that people know their Khaenri'ahn connections.

This is why "acting" is so prominent a theme in Kaeya's character, both in the past and present, why we constantly see him "playing a role" (as a prince, as a bandit, as a hero, etc. etc.)--he is never the real person, always a performer, and it is often only through his performances that he's able to express some of his own true thoughts and feelings, masking himself behind someone else's script as a way to "safely" express the tiniest hints of his own truth.

What happened with Diluc fucked Kaeya up bad, in the most basic of terms.

Because the problem is: Kaeya doesn't want to be the way he is. He clearly loves the people of Mondstadt with everything he has. He adores Klee, greatly respects Jean, and has an incredible desire to protect the city that took him in. He wants to be close to others. He wants to reconnect with Diluc. He's a desperately lonely character who practically begs the Traveler to spend time with him and reacts surprisingly harshly when the idea of his being lonely is dragged into the light.

I'd even go so far as to argue that his legitimate issues with alcohol stem from the fact that the taverns of Mondstadt are the one place where he is guaranteed to find company, where no matter what time of the night, he is sure to find someone--even if it's just bandits and treasure hunters--to fill the silence.

Because of his past experience, Kaeya can neither be honest with others nor comfortable with lying to them, constantly forced to keep others at arm's length to avoid the painful possibility of further rejection for just being himself. What happened the night of Crepus's death essentially shut Kaeya out of any healthy adult relationships, leaving him entirely alone even in the middle of a city full of people who want to love him.

(This is why it's so important to me that Dainsleif already knows all of Kaeya's background, even the parts Kaeya is still keeping quiet about--but that's just the DainKae shipper in me jumping out, so I'll move on lolol.)

While grappling with the very real fear of his own future, of knowing that his destiny will catch up with him--but wracked with the uncertainty of not knowing where and how--while struggling with his divided allegiances, while just trying to figure out where his own place in the world even is, Kaeya is entirely alone, trapped on the sidelines of his own life in no small part because he took the risk of being himself one time and it cost him everything he loved.

And this is where I think fanon struggles, because it's much easier to just say that Kaeya is dishonest by nature, that he was always going to be a deceptive character, or that the worst outcome of his duel with Diluc was the scar on his face. There's this ridiculous notion that Diluc is already done atoning for that physical wound...

But the scar on Kaeya's face (if there even really is one) is utterly meaningless. The reason Kaeya won't take off his eyepatch has nothing to do with his appearance. He won't take off that eyepatch because it's symbolic of his fear of revealing himself. Kaeya's eyes are synonymous with his identity as a Khaenri'ahn, and thus his refusal to reveal his other eye is nothing more than a visual indication of his discomfort with himself, his divided loyalty, and his internalized belief that the cost of revealing himself fully will be the thing he most cares about: his home in Mondstadt.

Kaeya's entire personality, his sense of self-worth--his life--was reshaped on the night he dueled with Diluc.

And this is the tragedy, of course: Diluc's actions were understandable. Even Kaeya knew Diluc's lashing out was inevitable. It's not like we can really say "This is your fault, Diluc." But the fact of the matter does remain: If Diluc had only managed to control his emotions just a little bit better, if he had only been able to stop himself for a moment to think about his brother as a person who was also hurting and fraught in that moment, he might have realized the emotional significance of Kaeya revealing who he truly was. If Diluc had accepted--or even just tolerated--Kaeya's truth, Kaeya's entire adult life would be different, and that's just a basic fact.

Diluc has his own flaws though! He has his own crosses to bear that made it impossible--that I think, to a certain extent still make it impossible--for him to understand the damage he did and can still do to Kaeya.

So this whole fanon notion of them being on a reasonable path to reconciliation, that they'll be able to resolve their past disagreements by meeting each other in the middle... I just don't think that's really all that accurate to canon. I don't mean that they're not working toward reconciliation or that they won't get there eventually, but that the notion of "reconciliation" in the first place is entirely tangled up with Kaeya's sense of self-identity, and until he is able to resolve the truth of his past and his lingering loyalties to Khaenri'ah, I don't think he'll ever be able to fully repair the relationship that was lost between himself and Diluc.

And to be honest, this is just my personal view of the situation, but... I find it particularly hard to stomach the idea that Kaeya should be the primary driver of repairing the relationship between himself and Diluc, which I've seen in a lot of fanon takes (perhaps because fans in general agree that Diluc is a lot less likely to take action in an emotional situation than he is when fighting monsters lol).

I don't believe Kaeya really thinks it's possible for him to fully reconcile with Diluc. Kaeya cannot apologize for his existence, for being Khaenri'ahn--he cannot change who he is. He cannot "undo" his revealing the truth or make the reality of his double life go away. Thus, in Kaeya's eyes, he effectively has no way to make himself "acceptable" to Diluc again. This is why he continues to shy away from Diluc, even all the way to the recent archon quest, where he tries to excuse himself immediately, claiming that they'd just get in each other's way:

It's why he behaves like a thief sneaking into the Dawn Winery and repeatedly calls himself nothing more than a "guest" in the house, even though Adeline and the other employees pointedly tell him it's still his home and he's still welcome.

It's why, despite continually doing things to show he still cares--keeping Diluc's Vision safe, sending letters while Diluc was away--Kaeya isn't even brave enough to call Diluc his brother to his face anymore.

Kaeya cannot "fix" what happened between himself and Diluc, and his own image and sense of worth have been so shattered by what is now years of internalized self-doubt and self-imposed isolation that he seems afraid to even genuinely expect anything of Diluc at all, let alone consider the possibility that Diluc might owe him an apology instead.

Diluc knows he does, though.

He just can't give it because of who he is.

This is, I think, the most frustrating--but also most realistic and best written!--part of Diluc and Kaeya's relationship: Diluc clearly does want to atone for what happened the night Crepus died. He is doing many things, in his own Diluc-ish way, to signal to Kaeya that he wants to put the past behind them and restore their relationship.

He kept and displays the vase Kaeya hid his Vision in (despite it being garish on purpose); he also keeps the lantern Kaeya brings him from Sumeru in Kaeya's hangout.

He responded to Kaeya's letters during his absence from Mondstadt. He allows Kaeya into the Dawn Winery, with the implication that the doors were always open for him in the first place.

When Kaeya tries to leave during the most recent archon quest, Diluc essentially makes it clear that there's no reason why they shouldn't stay together.

Showing a picture of Diluc's in-game model feels like character assassination at this point...

Although Diluc can be prickly and doesn't always have the nicest of things to say about Kaeya to others, it's pretty clear that he isn't intentionally holding a personal grudge. For the most part, it comes across as if Diluc seems set on quietly putting aside their past--as if it didn't happen.

This is, effectively, an apology without actually speaking one: If Diluc allows Kaeya back into his life, acts as if Kaeya is making a big deal out of nothing (like when he told Kaeya to quit guilting him over the eye injury), and implies that Kaeya still belongs in the Winery family, at the Angel's Share, etc., then isn't he doing the right thing? Isn't he showing Kaeya that he does accept him as he is? That he knows who Kaeya really is and still can tolerate him?

You can almost feel the thought process: Do I really have to spell it out?

But the problem is that Kaeya's sense of self-worth is so crippled by his internal perceptions--I'm a liar, I have and will continue to betray my loved ones, I'm not meant to be here--that Diluc's presumptuous and silent form of reconciliation is essentially incompatible with what Kaeya actually needs to hear and experience. Kaeya does, in fact, need it spelled out. In glaring red letters. And then probably fifteen more times for good measure before he'll actually start to let himself believe it.

Over and over and over again, people reassure Kaeya of his place in Mondstadt and in the Dawn Winery family specifically:

But over and over again, Kaeya dodges and dismisses their reassurances, because until he believes Diluc has forgiven and accepted him, he will never feel confident in his place in the Ragnvindr family (and by extension, Mondstadt) again. Even though Kaeya has visual proof of Diluc's continuing care--the vase in the lobby of the winery--he doesn't dare to make any major assumption. He isn't confident enough to take Diluc's string of small gestures for actual, meaningful acceptance.

Despite how obviously Kaeya wants to be Diluc's brother again--the moment at the end of the recent archon quest is the most joyously animated we've seen Kaeya in a long time--

--their reconciliation is effectively doomed to continue at a glacial pace because of who they are as people.

Diluc's method of handling the emotional issues in his life is critically avoidant, while Kaeya desperately needs direct and unambiguous confirmation that he cannot rationalize away.

Until both of them are able to confront the heart of the matter--which is Kaeya's identity and Diluc's explicit acceptance thereof (Kaeya's explicit acceptance thereof!)--they will continue to make minuscule progress as Diluc lets his gestures, rather than his words, speak on his desire for reconciliation, and Kaeya tentatively toes the line and then retreats, two steps backward for one step forward.

It's my personal belief that we'll likely see a "real" reconciliation between Diluc and Kaeya only when Kaeya is able to finally reconcile with himself.

But Diluc could fix this problem at any time, if he wasn't, you know... Diluc. 😂

Anyway, all this to say that I think fanon really favors Diluc over Kaeya in a lot of cases and that there's a critical lack of reflection on the long-lasting and very serious effects that their falling out had on Kaeya's emotional and mental state.

It's not about the duel, it's not about the eye scar--it's about Kaeya becoming convinced that his entire life must, by necessity, remain a lie forever, crystalizing his belief that he can never feel comfortable in his own skin.

He was already struggling and uncertain about his dual allegiances, but to take the risk of revealing himself to someone he loved only to face immediate and violent rejection... Kaeya knew it was coming and it still messed him up a lot, a lot more than people seem interested in talking about.

Sorry kids, I was away to get some milk. Can’t find any though. Here’s Kaeya instead

I just wanna draw him in this expression and the rest happened🧍‍♂️