The yell had Roxas recoiling as though he'd been physically slapped, taking a step back before he was able to stop himself, blue eyes locked onto one of his absolute best friends -- the same one that, yes, he had forgotten, but not by choice.
Truth be told, he'd tried to cling to every scrap of her in his mind he could, but they slipped through his fingers too quickly, and then on top of that, losing his memories entirely for a while...
When he was sitting on the clock tower in that simulated Twilight Town, he'd repeatedly gotten nostalgic when he was with Hayner, Pence, and Olette, to the point they'd caught him staring at his rapidly melting ice cream for an hour as he tried to figure out why it felt so familiar. He ended up giving himself a growing headache and the others told him not to worry about it, worried more over him.
He'd always felt like something was missing, and he'd thought he'd had that with the three from that data Twilight Town, but when Axel had shown up, it left him confused and wondering -- was that it? Was that what he'd been missing...?
He'd clung to what he knew for a fact, and when it had been stripped away like that friendship formed over years had never existed, like all those bonds he'd made there never mattered.... He'd been so frustrated. What was real? What wasn't?
When Namine had told him that yes, he and Axel had been friends, but he'd had that feeling that something was still off but he couldn't explain what, and when things finally came back to him and even everything there had felt.... off. Different.
"You think I wanted to? I tried my absolute damnedest to remember you, Xi. I even left the Organization after that, because of what happened to you. But I don't think I ever completely did.... even when I lost my memories and got them back, and remembered Axel... it always felt.... wierd. Like there was something missing. Something I couldn't place how or why, or even explain, but there."