What Keeps Me Up At Night

Take it back

when you’re ignored by someone whose attention means the most to you, is the worst feeling. you start to over think and it eats away at you. You feel as though you've done something horribly wrong but you can't address it. Their silence burrows deep into your bones, entangled in your core. Shakes your heart until theirs nothing but the restlessness of uncertainty. You feel cold and unwanted, frozen and vulnerable.

I don't know how to control my feelings. I end up siting in silence with my mind racing from anger to grief to confusion to self hate to sadness to suicide to anger to grief to confus-... this cycle. It controls me at the worst of times. How can I tell someone without being a burden. Without having them look at me with pity and feel the need to 'get help' I can't complain. It is why people leave. I can't lose everyone again. Just keep listening to their issues. They will stay you if you can help them. Help them. Not yourself.