Silly dead chick

I'm Veronica, Vera in short but I'm mostly refered to by my nickname.

I like video games and cartoons and anime I'm a cosplayer. I also do art but I'm not good at it (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

I'm 20 years old and I'm not sure if I'll be posting 18+ stuff or not yet ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

I'm a yume shipper and I totally LOVE Josey from Lollipop Chainsaw X3 It's not even funny anymore, I'm obsessed with him! XD

And here's some pictures of my persona

(The first four photos are fanarts from my friendz<3, last two are my artworks –w–)

And here's my strawpage if anyone is interested

Mariska wip cuz im doing something tho idk if i'll ever finish it

And this is stupid but one thought that cheer me up is imagining I'm doing this for Josey. Like I need to earn money to spoil him because I love him.

It makes me feel like an old-fashioned husband earning money for the family.

Also being a selfshiper makes me feel disgusting, I can't explain it but all of these fucked up things I'm writing about a fictional character that wouldn't even look at me if he was real. I feel fucking delusional and annoying and disgusting. I'm 20 years old I should get my shit together. God I fucking hate myself.

VENT

I know it's weird but I like zombies, my sona is a zombie to so this way we can still be together.

God I still can't get over it, I miss him so much. He would have turned three on June 23 but he had to be put down. He had tumor or a stroke, I'm not sure. I'm still crying while writing it. On Friday morning, I noticed how his eyes literally poped out, his fur was sticking to it, half of his precious face was wet with tears. I rushed him to the wet, the whole way I was afraid of how it would end and I was right. But after all, I'm glad he didn't suffered for too long, I would never forgive myself if I ignored it.

Bejbik wasn't just a hamster for me, he was my mental support. I was thinking about ending myself a few time this year but I stopped myself because "who would take care of him?". Just looking at him was making me so happy. I miss how he was biting everything, I miss how noisy he was at night, I miss how he peed on my hand two times. It's been three days and I still can't clean the cage after him, I can't even look at him. God I would give everything to pet him right now, he can bite my fucking finger off and I don't care. I hate how quiet my room is now. Everything is fucking bad and my precious little fur ball was my sunshine. He was the only reason why I was getting up from bed.

Whenever I went out of town for a few days, I was missing him so much, I was texting my brother to send me pictures of him and tell me how he was doing.

I'm not even fucking joking, I have a damaged iPad case because he bit it once, now I'm looking at it and I treat it as the most important souvenir.

I knew hamsters are short living animals but I still wasn't prepared for his passing. Was he even aware that he was my whole world? I know how fucking stupid that sounds but I can't help it, I was addicted to him.

I'm hope he's in better place now, where he can bite everything he wants. I miss you so much baby, I will always love you.

Goodbye my precious little thing. Fly high Bejbiku<3

Also shout out to my friend's stoned cat

Far from perfect but I'm still proud. I love him so much<3

His stupid auto-tuned voice... I love him so much he's so silly

And don't get me wrong I still feel bad for him, its just— y'all just listen to this