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its hitting me harder and harder each time i remember you aren't here anymore. missing you doesn't even describe what i am feeling. i am craving your presence. i want to hear you talk, not just the sound of your voice but the way strung your words together, the way your face looked when you were talking about something inspiring, you are so beautiful. i crave that dumb laugh you would do when we would talk about dumb things (one of the last days i saw you we lay in your bed for a solid hour reading stupid instagram posts and pissing ourselves laughing). you kept telling me that night how much you just needed to be around me, and i just wish i had told you the same. i wish i had told you more often how much you really meant to me. you came into my world and completely changed me, you guided me and shook me up until i was broken, but then you helped to put me back together. i will always miss talking about the future with you. we had so many plans. and i hope you'll still be there with me when i carry them out for you. i love you more than words can explain and there is a piece of me missing.