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i dont even know whats the point in me trying. i want a good life for myself but i dont even want to live. who cares if i have pretty stuff if i have no one. whinign like this is so oathetic but i jist cant help it. i end up trying for myself but then fail because no one’s there for me. yes my family is there but they expect me to have a stable life, i never liked much praise but i cant help but feel so left out people celebrating things. i feel so out of place, even if i have friends i feel so odd next to them. pretending i like things that they do just to entertain them. i feel so stupid and hopeless these days

i NEED a sugarmommy for college im so srs

r long nails fun ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა

i did not get fked at 16, my life did, sorry ayesha 😞😞😞

feel so insecure of my body its driving me crazy

whenever im sick i imagine someone cooing at my warm body and thighs and skin and they take care of me and sorry 😞

anybody have song recs that aren't Japanese or kpop ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა. i wanna expand my music um range idk.

jist found out some people treat mascs/butcher as wallets that's so sad :(( ik some do like it but it must hurt when people assume just cause of something like that :((

nvm, I cant be alone forever bc of how much of a bother I will be because I infact, cannot be alone in a house at night. The overthinking that I'll get killed or hurt or the house broken into will end up killing me first

oh brain fog and numb mind and uto pilot and being loud when I shouldn't and not being able to control myself then doing everything perfectly the next, shes back for the night. i thinkk.

willing to show my face to be a discord kitten for money but how ◔‸◔?

my friend came over and I feel bad cuz I felt like she was taking my free time away. I wanted to watch something but I felt embarrassed of what I like so I let her pick. Then I had homework and was a bit distracted. I hate being such a picky person about how I spend time with people. I wish I wouldn't feel so embarrassed about what I like when I'm with friends

is dryhumping a girl as fun as they say 😞