UnWell

I’m a toxic person. I’ve been told and now am realizing that I am. I thought I was getting better but it seems that I’m just at a plateau. Which totally sucks. I’m on new meds, have a job a great guy and still feel the need to sabotage the whole thing. I just don’t feel worthy. Acid that is what I am. Just hoping people melt away from me. I spill it and they slip away. I don’t want to be…

Not Okay…But I Will Be

It’s been a minute since I wrote Not much to say but I am feeling broke Things just seem to play out strange Just can’t grasp the reins Riding wildly through the dark Hoping that the light will spark It’s harder now then before Damn I wish there was a cure Something to fix in me what is wrong Something that will last forever and long. I’m tired and weary losing sight I just want to…

Time and time again I remind myself to believe The way to go is forward while not holding back If you walk in my life just for a moment I will be the one you never forget If you take a chance on me and let me in I’ll help you see my brighter soul You can leave and that’s okay It’s just for a season. But I promise you that you’ll return Because I’ve put this tape on… REWIND

I wanna runaway….I want to hide. I wanna runaway….so tired of trying. I wannn shout and scream…let it all out. I wanna shout and scream…till you know what it’s like. I wanna stomp and scream…till I am heard. I wanna stomp and scream…I’m gonna use all those words. I wanna slap and hit…cause of all this shit. I wanna slap and hit…because you’re a fucking twit I wanna disappear…get a way…

SO I HIDE IT

These last two months have been really hard for me. I am trying to cope with a knee problem, a work issue and home life. Like most of us are. The work issue and home life is just annoying. But the knee issue…has caused some major depression, anxiety a lot of negative thinking and actions. I try really hard not to bother others with my little aches and pain but I’m not gonna lie this knee pain is…

I’m struggling with my thoughts I’m wrestling with my demons I’m wishing for some peace I’m trying to save me I’m not happy to be alone I’m crying in my pillow I’m thinking of being lost I’m dreaming of fixing my past I’m sorry for bothering you I’m worried that I lost you too I’m wondering why I care I’m screwed and I don’t care TODAY

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Isn’t that what life’s all about. No one ever telling you the hard truth. Even when you beg them to. Even if you know that it willcut you to the bone. But no they just can’t. But what’s worse than them not telling you the truth is that they say they are busy or “working” and they will get back to you or something. If you do want to talk then say so. I’m not happy right now, as you can guess. I…

Dance the dance that makes you sing Sing the song that makes no sense Shout the words to a poem that dark Whisper the lullaby that makes you feel all right Don’t listen to naysayers what do they know Don’t listen to people who can’t see the real you Don’t fight over the things that you have no control Don’t be afraid to tell someone no Sing in the shower Dance in the rain Make snow…