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That I got mixed up on the delivery or I just got out of my mother's belly broken

I always say I was born unlucky

I believe that is a talent many people don't have

You did it faster than I anticipated

Money is easier to waste than earn

And love doesn't seem to give me happiness as I've lost it to someone else

It is kinda unfair in a way

I split myself in multiple halves yet alchohol is always on standby

Don't get me wrong, for sure I ain't whining

I like my liver rotten, my lungs even worse

I just somehow, if someone could help me find a way

Only then you will invade my brain

I can't seem to let my walls fall down, I can't have you tearing them all down now

Only when alcohol is running through my veins

My eyes went to the back of my fucked up head

I get a little tipsy when I remember his taste

He didn't fancy blood yet he had a bitch to feed

Toxicity running through my taunge falling upon his

My fingers playfully invading his ears, up to his brain

Messin it up whoever I like

My baby dog surely will come back after playing in the snow

I would step on nails and probably even poke out my eye

If anything I always tend to sacrifice one piece of mine

I am petrified to the thought that my heart doesn't know pain

I am terrified my heart will never die down no matter what's left

Sometimes I wish to be empty

Curiosity killed the cat yet I am a dog with a leash

I bark and I choke running away from an old tree

Roots are more moist the deeper you dig

Tired hands will only draw the outline while others fill in

And scales dress up in numbers even if your nails are clipped

Sand is always stuck in one shoe, salt always leaves a burn on my inner thigh

Here I stand claiming I licked love off of a silver knife

Here I am, fully naked out of reach

I am yelling with hope someone to reach

There are some people who wish the silver to be gold

There are some people who wish they had a knife to lick

You write and you scribble

You post and you edit

Yet not even one eye looks

Life lately is tiring

I want to truly die

I am not gonna say the reasons

If you want to die once you might rethink the problem

If you have been wanting to die many times

Food doesn't fill me up and water is draining me

The sun burns my skin and the night gets me sick

The sea is stressing me out and the land breaks my knees

My bed is rock solid and my pillow is like a feather

My blanket has become dusty and my feet tangle out of her

I am getting tired mum

My books are closed years now and my pencil have gone dry

My canvases are getting yellowish and my chalks are shrinking

My charger is half eaten and my phone is beaten up

My camera roll is appearing young and my texts are acting distant

Mum

Oh mum

What you give I shall give you back

What you take I shall take just in a different way

Yet I can't fathom how trash have grown feet and think they can speak

How can a rotten piece of shit walk in the same street as me

I am an emotional bitch that bites whatever hand thinks that can feed me

They say we need to be afraid of the ones that don't speak or show emotionals whatsoever

If I could I would lick your eyeballs until the back of your head

I would love the way your breath feels upon my skin until it turns my flesh inside out

I would tear out your taunge and peirce it upon mine

I would tear your stomach right in the middle and crawl inside

I would invade like a snake in it's cave

I would make you sick and tired of feeling nauseous

My love you are chewable

I would chew your flesh and spit it out until I make a statue of your remainings

But you shoved your fingers in-between mine and swayed me along

You were tearing me apart but you didn't mind

As long as I followed after your step it was fine

Yet now you threw me to the side

Another partner yet you don't pull her fingers out

Why are you so unfair to me?

Toxic love takes two

I think I saw enough from the side

I think it is time for you to follow my steps

It is infuriating that I gave you time to understand

And still you took the wrong turn and messed up our dance

Yesterday I saw our spot gathering people that weren't us

You are somewhere else, with someone new

You forgot me, you lost me too

You left me behind in my old small town

Leaving here and there small particles of us

Only I have to endure the loss