* Toy / Soldier

TW : mentions of pedophilia, mentions of abuse, mentions of relationship abuse, mentions of stalking, mentions of witch-hunts.

i would like to say this wasn’t a post i wanted to make, but you know what? it is. because this isn’t okay, and it’s a disturbing trend i’ve seen lately. i am tired of being publicly harassed and stalked, and accused of things that i have never, ever done without proof. so here it is, before they can publish whatever they are going to say to inevitably attempt to twist the narrative. this document is screenshot heavy, and nothing has been excluded. tl ; dr stop stalking people who have stated they want nothing to do with you. stop dragging up drama that was resolved almost a year ago. stop persecuting people just because you ‘think’ they might be someone you dislike. move on. grow up. please like / reblog if you read.

Good Friends:

Support you

Own up to their fuck-ups and apologize with sincerity when they do something that hurts you

Encourage you

Comfort you when you’re hurting

Share laughs and cheer you up when you’re feeling low

Get excited about shared ideas

Discuss plots and help get you pumped about your characters/storylines

Tell you when they have a problem so you can try to work it out together

Stand up for you/encourage you to stand up for yourself

Listen to your problems and try to help when possible

Is loyal, kind and respectful

Sticks around even when things get tough

Is trustworthy and willing to tell you the truth, even when it’s hard for you to hear/hard for them to say

Reach out

Love you even when you aren’t able to love yourself

Toxic ‘Friends’:

Leave you unsettled

Apologize without sincerity

Make you feel unsafe about standing up for yourself or walking away

Constantly blow off your concerns as nothing/not important

Lash out at you when you tell them they’ve hurt you

Stay silent when you’re being bullied/harassed

Lie to you

Circumvent your rules/try to find loopholes

Push at your boundaries to try to get their way

Use your insecurities/fears against you

Stay friends with people who talk badly about you, send you hate, etc.

Play hot/cold where they go from angry and accusatory towards you, to ignoring you outright in an attempt to manipulate you

Gaslight you or try to spin the truth around to make you the one at fault

Make promises and break them constantly

WARNINGS FOR: MANIPULATION, GASLIGHTING, BULLYING, DECEPTION, GUILT TRIPPING, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE 

multiple people were involved in the creation of this callout. this will only be posted in the event that i keep receiving anonymous messages in regards to drama that only haley could have possibly known about. i was more than content to let sleeping dogs lie as i had my fair share of mistakes, but at this point i want to be left alone. i have no desire to harm her, but have been receiving anonymous messages for days now that have me to believe she intends to victimise herself. i have been friends with haley for months, and throughout that time i was kept in a state of constant anxiety. i was forced to break my boundaries to be her friend, guilt-tripped if i didn’t, gaslit into believing i was the person in the wrong, and generally made to feel as though i wasn’t permitted to have my own boundaries or feelings. like / reblog if you read, please.

during this time, haley also gave my friends similar treatment, to the point where many felt as though they were simply accessories to her. by no means am i claiming i am an innocent bystander in this, but i would rather give you the full picture of what has happened. DO NOT USE THIS CALLOUT AS AN EXCUSE TO SEND ANYONE INVOLVED HATE. that isn’t the goal at all. i just want to be left alone, and i want others to know that they aren’t alone. 

that being said, i still care for you haley, and i hope you’re able to realise how you hurt people with time. i know you’ve been having a rough time, but it is no excuse to treat people badly. following this, i will likely be leaving tumblr as i’m tired or the stress and no longer wish to partake in it. 

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WARNINGS FOR : SUICIDE MENTIONS, MANIPULATION, BULLYING, GASLIGHTING, INCEST MENTIONS, ABLEISM, ABUSE, DECEIT AND POSSESSIVENESS. 

This is a post designed to warn the roleplay community of the user known as Krys or Krystal, found under the URLs vivelarevolutionmonami and wearenotthesameasyesterday. She is primarily active within the historical community, but also has muses involved in DC, Star Wars and other main franchises and RPCs. This callout is written by multiple people, all of whom have been negatively impacted by Krys’ behaviour and are concerned at the patterns they have noticed regarding her treatment of not only her writing partners, but of the mentally ill members of this community and people who are neurodivergent. ( Please like / reblog this post so we know who it has reached and who has seen it. )

Originally, the people involved in this post were going to let sleeping dogs lie and were not going to speak up on the mistreatment they had received, but this changed a few days ago when Krys publicly humiliated a mentally-ill teenager, claimed that their recent attempt had been faked and tried to make other people believe them when they posted no proof. Enough is enough, Krys, and you will not be allowed to mistreat and harm anybody else in this community again. 

This callout does name Kier as a victim by name, but we would like to assert that Kier has had no direct involvement with the creation of this callout as they are still recovering and wish to be left out of this. We merely sought permission to use their name as Krys publicly namedropped them two days ago. THAT BEING SAID, DO NOT USE THIS WARNING AS AN EXCUSE TO SEND HATE TO ANYONE. Hate is never tolerated. This is solely to prevent people from being hurt, and we will not be forced to remain silent any longer. 

WARNINGS FOR : SUICIDE MENTIONS, MANIPULATION, BULLYING, GASLIGHTING, INCEST MENTIONS, ABLEISM, ABUSE, DECEIT AND POSSESSIVENESS. 

This is a post designed to warn the roleplay community of the user known as Krys or Krystal, found under the URLs vivelarevolutionmonami and wearenotthesameasyesterday. She is primarily active within the historical community, but also has muses involved in DC, Star Wars and other main franchises and RPCs. This callout is written by multiple people, all of whom have been negatively impacted by Krys’ behaviour and are concerned at the patterns they have noticed regarding her treatment of not only her writing partners, but of the mentally ill members of this community and people who are neurodivergent. ( Please like / reblog this post so we know who it has reached and who has seen it. )

Originally, the people involved in this post were going to let sleeping dogs lie and were not going to speak up on the mistreatment they had received, but this changed a few days ago when Krys publicly humiliated a mentally-ill teenager, claimed that their recent attempt had been faked and tried to make other people believe them when they posted no proof. Enough is enough, Krys, and you will not be allowed to mistreat and harm anybody else in this community again. 

This callout does name Kier as a victim by name, but we would like to assert that Kier has had no direct involvement with the creation of this callout as they are still recovering and wish to be left out of this. We merely sought permission to use their name as Krys publicly namedropped them two days ago. THAT BEING SAID, DO NOT USE THIS WARNING AS AN EXCUSE TO SEND HATE TO ANYONE. Hate is never tolerated. This is solely to prevent people from being hurt, and we will not be forced to remain silent any longer. 

But Steve is never a particularly good soldier, in fact, he very specifically isn’t a good soldier.  Steve is a good man not a perfect soldier.  Steve NEVER has any success when he tries his hand at being a regular soldier, or even a supersoldier.  In CA:TFA he ends up working with the Howling Commandos, almost entirely outside of the regular military structure and that’s when he manages all the serious heroics and really lives up to his potential.  In Avengers at the beginning he tries to be a good soldier for a while and tries to follow Fury’s orders, but for the first half of the movie Steve is lost and miserable and visibly hiding behind his USO Tour “Captain America” persona.  But its only when he goes off on his own, breaks into store rooms and steals Fury’s proto-type tesseract weapons, that he really gets anything done (before that he gets batted about by Loki and sort of wanders about at loose ends), and he doesn’t really get back into a leadership role and really become actual Captain America again, until he steals a quinn jet with Natasha and Clint.

And despite that, in CA:WS he’s back at Shield, trying to be ‘the greatest soldier in history’ and ‘follow orders’, and… not doing that at all…

So where does Steve’s abortive fascination with being a good soldier come from?

Partly I think its an expression of his very obvious depression.  I’ve seen about umpteen criticisms of Steve’s ‘we have our orders’ line to Tony in Avengers but I think that the fact its out of character is the point.  Steve is miserable, and lost, he doesn’t know what makes him happy, he doesn’t know what he wants to do with himself so he follows Nick Fury’s orders, because he has given up.  

But also I think that even though Steve doesn’t really want to be the sort of person who follows orders, he to a certain extent wants to want it, sort of as the equivalent of a very bright girl who plays dumb in class because she’s been told no one likes smart girls.  The good soldier is very much the model of ideal masculine success that Steve would have grown up with but wouldn’t have ever been able to achieve   

“ Phoebus Apollo, at your service. Greek and/or Roman god of music, dance, poetry, the arts, sun and light, truth, prophecy, logic and reason, knowledge, medicine and healing, plague, herding, archery, protection and purification, male youth, and basically whatever other jobs my family decided they didn’t want that they could pawn off on me. Lazy bastards. But you can just leave it at the ‘God of Light’ if that’s easier to remember. ”

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