â iâve been having a hard time adjusting â
â i didn'tâ
knowâ
if youâd careâ
if i came back â
â i have aâ
lot of regrets about that â
â maybe i donât quite know what to say â
â iâm here in your doorway â
â i just wanted you to know that this is me trying â
â so i got wasted like all my potential â
â my words shoot to kill when iâm mad â
â i have a lot of regrets about that â
â i was so ahead of the curve â
â fell behind all my classmates and i ended up here â
â and itâs hard to be at a party when i feel like an open wound â
â itâs hard to be anywhere these days when all i want is you â
â make sure nobody sees you leave â
â tell your friendsâ
you'reâ
out for aâ
run â
â takeâ
the road less traveled by â
â tell yourself you can always stop â
â leave the perfume on the shelf â
â like you donât even exist â
â take the words for what they are â
â and thatâs the thing about illicit affairs â
â but they lie and they lie and they lie â
â donât call me âkid"Â
â donât call me "babyâ â
â look at this godforsaken mess that you made me â
â you showed me colors you know i canât see with anyone else â
â look at this idiotic fool that you made me â
â you taught me a secret language i canât speak with anyone else â
â and you know damn well for you, i would ruin myself a million little times â
â i usedâ
toâ
think i wouldâ
meet somebody there â
â were there clues i didnât see? â
âand isnât it just so pretty to think all along there was some invisible string tying you to me? â
â she said i looked like an american singer â
â what did you think iâd say to that? â
â they strikeâ
toâ
kill, and youâ
know i will â
â every time you call me crazy, i get more crazy â
â and when you say i seem angry, i get more angry â
â no one likes a mad woman â
â you made her like that â
â they say, âmove onâ but you know i wonât â
â itâs obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together â
â iâm taking my time â
â âcause you took everything from me â
â keep your helmet, keep your life â
â just a flesh wound, hereâs your rifle â
â sir, i thinkâ
heâs bleeding out â
â some things youâ
just canât speak about â
â only twenty minutes to sleep â
â but you dream of some epiphany â
â i wonât make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom but i think itâs 'cause ofâ
me â
â one time iâ
was riding on my skateboard when iâ
passed your house itâs like i couldnât breathe â
â you heard the rumors from [ name ] â
â you canât believe a word she says â
â the worst thing that i ever did was what i did to you â
â but if i just showed up at your party would you have me? â
â would you want me? â
â would you tell me to go fuck myself? â
â i donât know anything but i know i miss you â
â i hate the crowds, you know that â
â plus, i saw you dance with him â
â slept next to her but i dreamt of you all summer long â
â iâm here on your doorstep â
â the only thing i wanna do is make it up to you â
â will you love me? â
â will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends? â
â you know i miss you â
â i never had the courage ofâ
myâ
convictions â
â no, i could neverâgiveâyouâpeace â
â but iâm aâfire and i'llâkeep your brittle heart warm â
â but i would die for you in secret â
â the devilâs in the details but you got a friend in me â
â i talk shit with my friends â
â your integrity makes me seem small â
â iâd give you my sunshine, give you my best â
â but the rain is always gonna come if youâre standinâ with me â
â all these people think loveâs for show â
â would it be enough if i could never give you peace? â
â this has broken me down â
â your faithless loveâs the only hoax iâbelieveâin â
â don'tâwant no otherâshade of blueâbut you â
â i am ash from your fire â
â you know i left a part of me back in new york â
â you knew the hero died so whatâs the movie for? â
â but what you did was just as dark â
â you have beaten my heart â
â you knew it still hurts underneath my scars from when they pulled me apart â
â you knew you won so whatâs the point of keeping score? â