WARDEN OF DARKNESS

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ―ㅤI had thought the tantalising kiss of self indulgence a dream forever out of reach. And now that it's sweet ruin courses through my veins. I will not be quick to relinquish it.

Independent Barnabas Tharmr from Final Fantasy XVI penned by abel

𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. being unable to stop smiling. laughter. bear hugs. happy tears. waving arms around. dancing. contently sighing. eyes twinkling. laugh lines. childlike playfulness. skipping. talking more. affection. cracking more jokes than usual. gesturing more when talking. higher pitched voice. squealing. jumping around. clapping.

𝐒𝐚𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. tearing up. self-hugging.one-arm cross.an aching chest. scratchy throat. a runny nose. turning away. deep breaths. quivery smiles. crying. infantile sobbing. hands gripping each other or an object. covering mouth. puffy eyes. eyes appear red. voice breaking. a distant or empty stare. monotone voice. asking for comfort. faking a smile. crumbling. shaking. whimpering. depression. abusing an unhealthy habit. withdrawing from others. big teary eyes. doing something even if it could hurt them.

𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫. furrowed brows. baring teeth. passive-aggressive comments. avoiding eye contact. sarcasm. headache. sore muscles. hiding clenched fists. irritability. jumping to conclusions. raising voice. going silent. demanding immediate action. keeping it all in until exploding. body tensing. making risky decisions. middle finger.

𝐅𝐞𝐚𝐫. wanting to flee or hide. what-ifs. images of what-could-be flashing in mind. uncontrollable trembling. rapid breathing. screaming. a skewed sense of time. irritability. keeping silent. denying fear. turning away from the cause .pretending to be brave. nail-biting. lip-biting. scratching skin. a joking tone but a voice that cracks. fainting. insomnia. panic attacks. exhaustion. substance abuse. tics. rushing adrenaline. face draining of colour. hair lifting on the back of the neck. feeling rooted to the spot. making body as small as possible. staring but not seeing. crying. a shrill voice. whispering. gripping something or someone. stuttering. flinching at noises. pleading.

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Taste:  Sweet | Salty | Bitter | Umami | Sour | Chocolate | Bacon | Vegetables | Fruit | Berries | Carrots | Cake | Cookies | Pretzels | Pasta | Tomatoes | Applesauce | Sauerkraut | Pickles | Olives | Potatoes | Ice Cream | Pineapple |Pineapple on pizza | Fish | Beef | Garlic | Spinach | Mushrooms | Cheese | Milk | Juice | Marmite | Beetroot |Anchovies | Gefilte Fish | Peppers | Whole wheat bread | Marshmallows | Mango | Broccoli | Peanut butter | Nutella | Mint and Chocolate | Cashew nuts | Tofu | Brussels sprouts | Grape | Chicken

Touch:  Soft | Rough | Smooth | Sticky | Slimy | Hot | Cold | Damp | Wet | Clammy | Coarse | Fur | Velvet | Silk | Lace| Hot metal | Cold metal | Paper | Plastic | Bubble wrap | Wool | Wood | Tree bark | Hot asphalt | Leaves | Wicker | Sand | Rocks | Rough rocks | Smooth rocks | Hair | Skin | Tight hugs | Gentle hugs | Lip kisses | Skin kisses | Holding hands | Rough touches | Gentle touches | Scratches | Bites | Sunlight | Light sheets | Thick blankets | Baggy clothes | Dried petals

Scent:  Flowers | Sea water | Chocolate | Fish | Cooking onions | Cleaning products | Citrus | Lemons | Grapefruit | Oranges | Rain | Freshly cut grass | Wet dirt | Wood | Cologne | Perfume | Fire | Smoke | Gasoline | Tires | Paint | Chlorine | Pools | Fresh bread | Cooking bacon | New books | Coffee | Linen | Vanilla | Cinnamon | New car | Coconut | Sunscreen | Nail polish | Mint | Cigarette smoke | Leather

Sound:  Loud sounds | High pitched sounds | Low pitched sounds | Quiet sounds | Loud voices | Soft voices | High voices | Deep voices | Morning voice | Snoring | Rain on windows | Fire crackle | Crickets | Frogs | Typing on a keyboard | Horse hooves on gravel | High heels | Laughter | Deep laughter | Giggling | Purring | Dog bark | Howling | Car engine | Distant chatter | Bird chirps | Classical music | Pop music | Folk music | Rock music |Country music | Klezmer music | Violin | Piano | Frying food | Nails tapping

001.  smoking — the habit  of  inhaling  and  exhaling  the  smoke  of  tobacco  or  a  drug 

002.  binge  drinking — the  consumption  of  an  excessive  amount  of  alcohol  in  a  short  period  of  time 

003.  drug  abuse — the  habitual  taking  of  illegal  drugs 

004.  nail  biting — a  common  body  language  sign  of  anxiety/ tension 

005.  lip  biting — a  common  body  language  sign  of  anxiety/ tension 

006.  night  owl — a  person  who  is  habitually  awake  or  wakeful  at  night 

007.  early  bird — a  person  who  rises,  arrives,  or  acts  before  the  usual  or  expected  time 

008.  negative  attitudes — a  philosophy  of  approaching  life  with  criticism  and  pessimism 

009.  positive  attitudes — a  philosophy  of  approaching  life  with  optimism  and  confidence 

010.  swearing — the  use  of  offensive  language 

011.  superstitious — an  irrational  belief  that  an  object,  action,  or  circumstance  not  logically  related  to  a  course  of  events  influences  its  outcome 

012.  inspecting  fingernails — a  common  body  language  sign  of  boredom 

013.  scratching  your  neck — a  common  body  language  sign  of  uncertainty 

014.  foot  and  finger  tapping — a  common  body  language  sign  of  stress  /  impatience 

015.  nose  touch — a  subtle  body  language  sign  of  deceit 

016.  flipping  hair — a  common  body  language  sign  of  craving  attention 

017.  twirling  hair — a  common  body  language  sign  of  flirtation 

018.  cracking  knuckles — a  common  body  language  sign  of  readiness 

019.  hands  behind  back — a  common  body  language  sign  of  confidence 

020.  finger  pointing — a  common  body  language  sign  of  authority 

021.  hands  on  hips — a  common  body  language  sign  of  readiness 

022.  hands  in  pockets — a  common  body  language  sign  of  mistrust  /  reluctance 

023.  frequent  touch — a  common  body  language  sign  of  warmth  /  familiarity 

024.  throat - clearing — a  common  body  language  sign  of  rejection  /  doubt 

025.  jaw - clenching — a  common  body  language  sign  of  hostility 

026.  eye - rolling — a  common  body  language  sign  of  irritation 

027.  head - tilt — a  common  body  language  sign  of  interest

028.  whistling — to  emit  high-pitched  sound  by  forcing  breakthrough  a small  hole  between  one’s  lips  or  teeth;  usually  to  a  tune 

029.  humming — make  a  low,  steady  continuous  sound; usually  to  a  tune 

030.  perfectionism — refusal  to  accept  any  standard  short  of  perfection 

031.  photographic  memory — the  ability  to  remember  information  or  visual  images  in  great  detail 

032.  paranoia  — a  mental  condition  characterized  by  delusions  of  persecution,  unwarranted  jealousy,  or  exaggerated  self - importance,  typically  worked  into  an  organized  system 

033.  exaggeration — a  statement  that  represents  something  as  better  or  worse  than  it  really  is 

034.  intuitive — using  or  based  on  what  one  feels  to  be  true  even  without  conscious  reasoning; instinctive 

035.  quick - witted — showing  or  characterized  by  an  ability  to  think  or  respond  quickly  and  effectively 

036.  interrupting — breaking  the  continuity  of  a  conversation  with  one’s  own  statements 

037.  doodling — to  scribble  or  make  rough  drawings,  absentmindedly 

038.  irritable — having  or  showing  a  tendency  to  be  easily  annoyed 

039.  gambling — to  play  games  of  chance  for  money;  betting 

040.  travel - sick — suffering  from  nausea  caused  by  motion  of  a  moving  vehicle or boat 

041.  sensitive — having  or  displaying  a  quick  and  delicate  appreciation  of  others’  feelings 

042.  melancholy — a  feeling  of  pensive  sadness,  typically  with  no  obvious  cause 

043.  chewing  tabacco — the  exercise  of  chewing  tabacco  which  is  not  swallowed 

044.  fidgeting — to  make  small  movements, especially  of  the  hands  and  feet, through  nervousness  or  impatience 

045.  skeptical — not  easily  convinced  ;  having  doubts  or  reservations 

046.  neat - freak — compulsively  obsessed  with  cleanliness 

047.  gossiping — divulging  personal  information  about  others 

048.  prim — feeling  or  showing  disapproval  of  anything  regarded  as  improper; stiffly correct 

049.  abbreviating — giving  others  nicknames  /  shortening  names  /  giving  pet  names