sad life in happy colors

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

Being jealous of friends or people who have been severely underweight/ hospitalized

Hundreds of awkward angle body checking photos

Looking at the size of your legs/body in every mirror, reflection, shop window

Being disgusted at watching people eat

Comparing people’s body size and weight to yours before noticing anything else about them

Being obsessed with cooking/dieting/food programmes

The pain of hitting your hip bone on a table

Hating yourself for judging anyone who is healthy or overweight

Being proud of your lowest weight once recovered/weight restored

Eye rolls when anyone without an ED discusses their new diet/weight loss

Eating every tiny bit of a specific calorie portioned food because damn if you’ve counted those calories you are gonna enjoy them

Feeling embarrassed for eating ‘unhealthy’ foods because people assume you eat nothing/survive on lettuce

‘Wow you’re actually eating’ kill me

Not enjoying excercise or wanting to work out

Alternating between being scared of all food and wanting to consume everything in sight

Really horrific awful bad breath (like seriously bad)

One day you’re too scared to eat a tomato the next you eat chocolate without worrying about it

Looking in the mirror after eating and feeling like you gained 20lbs

Wanting to tell someone about your Ed so you feel less alone but also feeling terrified when people ask

The rush of shame you feel when clothes that fit loose yesterday don’t fit the same the next day.

Eating something like an apple and immediately feeling like you’ve gained at least 3 pounds.

Keeping your eyes closed in the shower because you don’t want to see your body.

Sucking in your gut and holding it until you’re dizzy because you wanna see what it’s like to be thin.