Squid

I’ve been on and off ana for almost two years, hoping to finally stick this time!!

Took a little break from tumblr but I’m back!! Not that my 120 followers were waiting on me lol. Having such a hard time fasting at the moment!! I think I’ve talked about this before, but I can’t go more that a day and a half fasting because everytime I drink, eat, or move I get really bad heart palpitations and puke a bunch. l know it’s because my body doesn’t actually have the nutrients it needs because I haven’t eaten over 1400 kcals in two years, (I’m usually at 300-600 except when I’m forced to eat) but I’ve never seen anyone else with this problem :( the first time it happened was around October I think & the time I can fast for is getting shorter. I don’t even want to eat!!! I would be so good at this shit if my body weren’t betraying me lol, maybe I need a metabolism week but the idea of that is genuinely terrifying tbh. <3

Kind of disappointed in myself for fucking up so hard Sunday :( didn’t realise how much I ate until I counted up the kcals today <//3

I cannot WAIT to weigh myself oml,, I doubt I’ve lost much but I only have 10lbs till my first gw!! the suspense is killing me but I’ve drank so much water so I really don’t want to do it today 🙏🙏

Had some tea & a banana!! :} might still eat later because it’s pretty early but I think I’m doing well today.

Only had two chicken gougons to eat but drank a whole lot of vodka and I did not know it had so many calories 😭🙏

Kcals for Monday!!

Haven’t been updating for a while as I’ve been super busy but I’ve been keeping track of my Kcals so updateing the past few days rn :}

IK it’s so hard to find good stuff on there <\\3 ‘low calorie aesthetic’, ‘low calorie meal’, ‘0 kcal meals’, & ‘meal inspo’ are searches that have worked best for me :}