I know I’m going to get shit for this. 

I want someone to beat me and mark me up.

I want someone who will accuse me of cheating and, no matter what i say, wont believe me that im not.

I want someone to make me starve myself and if i do eat, will punch my stomach or shove their fingers down my throat till i vomit. 

I want someone who will make me want to cut and rip my skin apart.

I want someone to hate me more than i hate myself. 

I want someone who will scream at me and make me hate myself till i do everything they stay, till i am their perfect doll.

I want someone to degrade me till i think “bitch” or “cunt” is my name.