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She was hurt.

But for her, there’s no room for regrets.

She gave you all that she has,

And all that she can offer.

But maybe it wasn’t enough.

Maybe it’s not what you needed.

Maybe she’s just really one of those cup of coffee girls that you only need in the morning when you can’t function right.

Or your shot of vodka on your sad nights.

It’s fine and she understands, but for her, you’re the blood that makes her alive.

She wants to thank you for making her feel things she haven’t felt for the longest of time.

and for the love.... that never was.

Those days were short, but were sweet and salty at the same time.

All in all, for her it was worth it.

She will always remember you as her happy place, and your heart as her home.

But now, that home is no longer hers to occupy.

Thank you and I wish you happiness.

Always,

My friend’s message after she sees me having my episodes. Gulat na gulat sya at hindi sya makapaniwala.

I wanted to be the shoulder that catches your tears.

I wanted to be that someone who stays by your side saying “ cry now, cry harder, eventually you’ll get through this, emotional pains are forever, but we shouldn’t get stuck here, life goes on and so must we”

Just when I thought I forgot about someone. He eventually popped out of my dreams, reminding me of our love affair and how painful it was and how I was willing to feel the pain over and over.

We’ve been through a lot, ups, downs and everything in between. We are the strong girls we are not allowed to be weak, we are the strong girls and no matter how miserable we get.. everyone still sees us as —the strong girls. But we are just us, no matter how strong we are, no matter how strong they sees us, we still fall, we break —we also need comfort, we also need love. Thank you for allowing me to be broken, thank you for embracing my soft side, thank for allowing me to be fragile while everyone is expecting me to be tough. Thank you for being strong when I’m breaking. Thank you for being you, and trust me! What ever happens, I will always be at your back picking up your broken pieces, wiping your tears, embracing your imperfections, pushing you to be the best you can be, loving you and your soft side and be your wonderwall whenever you feel like you are collapsing. The world is a battlefield, it challenges its best warriors, the world may break us, other people may try to break us. But whatever happens, we are us, We are the strong girls, and we are each other’s strong girls..‘till the end.

Love,

Friend: if you’ll be given a chance will you choose not to break up with your ex boyfriend?

Me: partly yes, but I guess the best thing i should have done is I should have given my heart a proper time and way to heal. I have never done that, I always thought that concealing and finding someone to ease the pain is a good idea. The aftermath, I was never healed I’m still the same broken girl I was 7 years ago, and the saddest part is I made someone suffer too, I have given someone a false love, a love he does not deserve, I broke the heart of the man that tried to heal me and it breaks my heart even more. I was never healed, and I’m continuously breaking.