VULNERABLE

”they miss us,” she corrected him and turned onto her side so she was now facing him. crimson cupped his cheek and softly stroked his lips with her thumb. “wouldnt you miss me if i went away for awhile?” she grinned. ”they miss the kids too. dad said it’s hard to spoil the kids through facetime.”

she let out a sigh knowing he was right and leaned up to kiss his jaw. “i really wanna see where you went to high school and meet your childhood friends but we can’t exactly ditch our kids,” she laughed and laid down on the bed and stared up at the ceiling. “you know, my parents want to move to scotland too.”

“we can do eachother,” she grinned and grabbed his hands, walking backwards while she lead him to their bedroom. “but the doctor said i shouldn’t have sex for a month because i literally just gave birth two weeks ago but we can break the rules, baby,” she pulled him towards him and felt his body slam against hers before giggling. “i miss you.”

crimson finished up her food and stood up while taking bash by the hand after he was done as well and began leading him to his room for nap time. “i’ll put him to bed,” she told finn before disappearing into bash’s bedroom. putting bash to sleep was an easy task and crim was happy that both their sons were now asleep. arriving back in the kitchen, she walked over to finn and wrapped her arms around him from behind, she’d missed him. “we only have a few minutes before liam wakes up.”

she slid her seat closer to finn’s, wanting to be close to him at all times as she too continued to eat her food. “yeah, baby,” she answered him and grabbed his chin to turn his face and kiss him even though she still had food in her mouth. hearing that they were going out later, bash spoke up, “i wanna go too!”. crimson glanced at bash and then at her husband before focusing back on her food, allowing finn to make the decision. 

bash sat beside them, busy drinking his juice and watching the tv at the same time while crimson stared up at her husband in complete awe of him. “yeah, i’ll give you your favorite tonight; milk,” she smirked and teased him by pulling the neckline of her tank top down further, the finnegan necklace she still wore shining brightly under the lights. ever since liam was born, the two rarely spent alone time together so they had to heavily rely on these moments. 

crimson obeyed finn’s orders and sat down beside their son and began eating the meal her husband had cooked for their family. watching finn feed their son turned her on but she kept herself in check since their son was around. kissing bash’s head as finn fed him, crimson stared at finn, her hazel eyes displaying desire. “can daddy feed mommy too?” she asked with a hidden meaning. bash looked from both his parents, his own blue eyes displaying innocence. 

it had been a little over three weeks since they arrived in edinburg, scotland and crimson couldn’t be more thrilled. thanks to finn their entire house was already fully furnished and unpacked which made giving birth to their second son that much easier. william abrams was born just one week into them settling into their new home, thus making their beautiful boy a mere two weeks. 

the clock striked noon and after placing liam down in his crib to nap (after breastfeeding him), crimson walked out of the nursery to see her other two boys in the kitchen eating lunch. bash sat at the table picking at his food as he wore an iron man costume, halloween being just a week away. “eat your food, Sebastian,” she scolded their son while walking by him towards finn. “if you don’t listen then you’re going to go pick up the cows poop from outside.” bash’s groan could be heard once crimson wrapped her arms around finns mid section, her body still impressively slim even after giving birth. 

finn was watching sebastian closely, wondering why his son didn’t have any appetite to eat. he ran a hand through his hair and then looked over at crimson who just attached herself to him. he smiled down at her and kissed her forehead, “c’mon eat too.” he pushed the plate he prepared for her, and then he put his attention back to their eldest. “do you want the chu chu train to feed you, bub?” he asked, and bash nodded in response.

for some reason crimson expected him to beg for her forgivness, fall down at her feet and force her to talk but he didn’t and that made her grovel on the inside. finn was stubborn, a trait the raven-haired girl admired about him, for she was not. once inside their spacious apartment, she leaned down to greet milk before glancing up to see that finn was going on about his nightly routine. as he left for the kitchen, presumably to fetch his nightly milk, crimson slipped out of her dress and into a more comfortable bra and panties since she got used to sleeping half naked.

when he walked back into the room, she quickly walked over to him with the first aid kit in hand. without uttering any words, she grabbed a hold of his hand and lead him over to the bed before forcing him to sit down as she stood in between his legs, tending to his injured face. she’d done this many times in the past so she definitely knew what she was doing as she wiped away the blood and put a cream on his lips to help the swelling. it was five minutes of silence as she treated him but after it was done, she cupped his face and looked into his blue eyes. “tell me if this hurts,” she told him before crashing her lips against his, yearning for them this entire time.

usually crimson would try her best to win him over with her affection, however, hearing him mention that she ‘liked’ the guy instantly soured her mood as well. she climbed into the passenger side of the car and quickly looked out the window, not wanting to meet finns face. it was just a few months ago that she gave him a promise ring, basically proposing to him, yet here he was again, claiming she liked someone else. she kept her hands on her lap incase he tried to reach out for them.

a smirk met her lips as the two walked to the parking lot, her arms wrapped around the side of his waist. “you know i think it’s hot. i wanna go back to the club and fuck you right in front of everyone… especially that fucking guy,” her voice a mere whisper as she leaned over and began kissing his neck, her six inch heels helping with the height difference. “wait until we’re home though,” the seduction in her voice dripped while she took his hand up to her mouth and began licking the blood away.

it was times like these when crimson realized her games and actions had gone too far, resulting in finn getting hurt and being thrown out. with everyone in the club staring at her in shock, she followed her boyfriend out the door, guilt sitting in the pit of her stomach. “i know, baby,” she told him, her voice calm and soothing. the two stood on the sidewalk under the night sky, crimson grabbing a hold of finns face to examine his injuries. “let’s go home. i need to fix that,” the worry on her face evident but soon replaced with a smile, wanting to make him feel better, “that nurse outfit i have can finally come in handy.”

his soft lips against hers sent a cool shiver up her spine as he effortlessly flipped them over, her body straddling his while her hand held the back of his neck, guiding him against her mouth. the frown on her face was a result of him pulling away from her causing the feeling between her hips to pause at his question. usually, she’d reply with a quick no but looking into his eyes, crimson knew he deserved a good explanation.

“no,” she started off, finally sitting down between his legs and grabbing a hold of his hands, “being with you made me realize how toxic that relationship was. i loved the idea of it all; dating someone popular and becoming the it couple.” tears threatened to fall but crimson blinked them away, not wanting to cry over him. there were only two things she’d cry over; her parents and finn. “he made it seem like everything was my fault, all the fights. everyone thought i was the psycho. i lost many friends cause i kept chasing that idiot, that’s why i hardly have friends.”

crimson tried to smile but failed, instead, she looked down at their intertwined hands. “he fucked my life up. that entire year i focused only on him, that’s also why i get so excited when anyone shows any interest in me, it’s cause i’m not used to it. i know you hate it when others flirt with me but finn, i swear, i wouldn’t do anything to hurt you. i’m just not used to people hitting on me.”

once the first tear fell, crimson couldn’t hold them back anymore and she broke down in front of finn, a rare occurrence. “the fucked up thing is that i don’t even feel guilty for cheating. i just wish people knew that he was an asshole, maybe then i wouldn’t be the slut that cheated.” she wiped away the few tears and let out a quiet giggle. 

“i got you though and that’s all i need. you make me happy,” she smiled genuinely and leaned in to kiss him passionately. finn knew all about her history with her ex however crimson wanted him to know that he was her real first love, not him. “you’re my first love. the one i’m scared of losing. the one i’ll gladly marry before graduation.”

finn had no reason to feel threatened, he was the one for her. although they’re a product of infedilitey, crimson considered cheating a big sin, still she gave up her morals to be with him because she was in love. his private and secluded demeanor drew her in and made her fall in love. “am i your first love?” it was a question she knew she probably won’t like the answer to but still, she wanted to hear it. her brown eyes locked on his blue ones this time.

a crease between his brows appeared as she continued with her answer, he knew where this was going—in tears. between the two of them, he was the cry baby, not her, so he really disliked it when she cried and he hated it even more that the reason behind her tears was her ex-boyfriend, who did nothing good to her even just once.

he honestly regretted asking her that question.

so he cupped her cheeks and wiped her tears away with his thumbs, he opened his mouth to tell her whatever people think of them didn’t really matter, but he knew that’s something she really didn’t need to hear; it was a hollow statement, a very empty one; so he shut his mouth close. 

she cared about what people think about them, and he didn’t blame her at all for that. no matter how people proclaim they don’t care about anything, they always cared, even just a little part of them. in fact, finn actually cared what other people thought of them because it bothers his girlfriend. people’s opinions always bothered him since sometimes it reaches the point that they try to get involved into businesses they shouldn’t mind due to the opinions they are pushing onto another person.

a lot of people had opinions about what he and crimson had done, they tried to get so involved with their shit, not knowing that he and crim were real fucking people too. they committed mistakes, hurt a lot of people, involving themselves. there is always going to be collateral damage, the consequences of one action.

“i can’t wait for the day where we’d both laugh at the shit we went through just to be together.” he told her with a smile on his face, as he locked their eyes together.

he didn’t feel any ounce of surprise when she threw that question his way, it was really a no brainer for finn, “yes.” he had a girlfriend of two years, and two more exes, before crimson, but he never felt anything for them at all. even with mia (the girlfriend of two years), with mia it was because they felt forced to be together since they were the ones left in their friend group who weren’t a couple. finn stayed with her because it seemed to be the sensible thing to do. mia was his first everything, first kiss, first girlfriend, and obviously that meant he lost his virginity to her too. he had no idea how to walk away from that even if he wasn’t really into her at all.

it never felt right.

then crimson cooper came like a fucking comet crashing onto him, leaving a gaping hole the size of a black hole in his world; and everything made sense, things finally felt right even if the means of it were all so wrong. before all this—them being together officially—it felt like god was making a sick joke on him. he finally felt that connection, that love filled with so much passion and romance, and it was on someone who seemed like wouldn’t be his at all. 

“i really had no idea what falling in love felt like before you,” there were tears in his eyes now, but he blinked them back and he let out a breathy laugh to ease the constriction in his chest. “i’ve never even really wrote poetry before you, i only started writing poems and shit when i started feeling shit for you.” he licked his lips and really looked into her eyes, “i thought it was just a joke that it would hurt, falling in love, and god, fuck, it does hurt. falling in love hurts like hell. falling for you hurts a lot.” he chuckled, to play off the seriousness laced with his confession. “but when i reached your arms, it was all worth it. the hurt eased down, happiness and love surrounded me.” 

     Kelsey bent to pick up the paint tubes and brushes that scattered across the floor. “You can’t blame your siblings. If you stopped leaving your stuff out, this wouldn’t happen.” She gently punched the side of his leg as she reached for something near his foot and then smiled up at him. 

it always came as a huge shock when anyone would tell crimson they’d hardly seen finn smile or laugh, considering that’s all he ever did when he was with her but having his group of friends tell her she’s made him a happier person made her feel like she’s done something useful. his laugh echoed throughout the dark room, his smile so contagious crimson caught herself grinning from ear to ear and just staring at him in awe. 

involuntarily, she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer to her body, wanting to feel his skin against hers. the feeling of his hand stroking her stomach left butterflies in her belly as her shirt rode up to reveal her stomach, however still covering the body part he loved the most, her chest. “well, you should work really hard for me. i’m the one who chased you down and befriended you. i’m the one who seduced you. i’m the one who fell in love with you first. i’m the one who kissed you first. i’m the one who basically proposed to you first,” she referred to his promise ring after listing off the things she’d done. 

while the two flirted like they just met for the first time, milk took this as his cue to leave and hopped off the bed, behaving almost as if he was disgusted by his parents making out, a thing crim joked about with finn. her hands cupped finns face and she gazed at him with adoration while mentally making a note to tweeze his eyebrows, cut his hair, and force him to use lotion for his dry skin, things finn could do himself but she took great pleasure in doing for him. 

“you’re so handsome,” the compliment slipping out of her mouth too fast, “margarine thinks you’ll get voted sexiest guy at yale in the yearbook and if you do, i’d be such a proud girlfriend. you are the sexiest guy here and i’m not just saying that so you give me your dick,” she smiled that angelic smile he craved for. crimson may be a jealous person but she was definitely a supportive girlfriend and wanted the best for her love. 

the brunette’s hands went from his face down to his waist before leaning in and kissing him on the lips ever so softly, their first real kiss that entire day. it was weird how, even after six months, crimson still felt nervous around finn. goes to show how scared she is of him ever leaving her.

finn had a difficulty grasping crimson’s dedication, adoration, and love for him. no one ever really had been like that with him, not his previous girlfriends, and he had a lot ex-girlfriend (unlike crimson who only had one ex-boyfriend). she really had been the first to love him as he is, and trusted him wholeheartedly. he somewhat felt guilty that it took him such a long time to return the trust that she gave him.

it was true she’s done a lot of the firsts, if she hadn’t then they won’t go anywhere because finn wouldn’t mess with crimson when he knew she had a boyfriend, and if she wasn’t so adamant about how she feels, finn really wouldn’t know she even really looked at him that way. he’s had a lot of friends who are girls too, and he was affectionate with all of them; but of course his affections for crimson had always been a little too different, since it was laced with romance he could barely ever hide.

“i do work hard for you, baby.” he threw out that innuendo as he saw the opportunity to do so, “i’m honestly never soft, it’s always a fucking chub ‘cause you’re all i think about.” he bit his lower lip and moved closer to her ear and licked her earlobe before sucking on it as he would with her nipples. he then moved to look into her eyes again, he ran a hand through his hair and held her by her chin, “on a serious note, i’m working hard for you because you deserved such efforts to be wooed, not because of the things you’ve done, but because you deserve an ample amount of love.” he pecked her on the lips.

“i’m going to give you my dick even if you didn’t tell me i’m handsome anyway.” he chuckled and soon he felt his laughter dissipate as she pressed her lips against his, as if it was the first time he felt his stomach swirl and his breath taken. he continued to kiss her, deepen it and poured ounces of passion into it.

he flipped them around and he sat up so she’d straddle his lap yet again, knowing quite well this was her favorite position. he ran his hand through her hair, grasping it and tugging at it. he smirked against her lips before he captured her lips once again, his tongue playing with her own. as a thought cross his mind while making out with her, he couldn’t help but pull out to breathe, but instead of breathing out he asked “did you ever love him, crim?”

Following suit and leaving the bedroom, Mila sneakily waved goodbye to Nanda and the other shoot a knowing smirk back to Mila which caused her to roll her eyes. It always went beyond Mila’s mind how Nanda always knew something sexual happened in the apartment; even when there were no loud noises. Out of the apartment, Mila went on her tiptoes and wrapped her arms around her husband’s neck. “Popeye’s? We went there two days ago,” she reminded him and her eyebrows furrowed and a smirk pushed the corner of her lips up, “is Popeye’s your new obsession? 7/11 is definitely hurt by that.”

A delighted chuckle rolled out of Mila’s mouth, throwing her head back before shaking it. “We will only go to Popeye’s if you let me drive. That’s the deal,” she said, squinting her eyes in a funny manner and not meaning her words at all. Mila was well aware of her reputation of being a bad driver, hell sometimes it was the laughing stock when the whole gang was together. Pecking Alfie’s lips, she unwrapped her arms and held his hand again; walking to the direction of his car.  

As they walk at the parking lot of their apartment complex, Alfie busied himself with thoughts that made him squeamish, in order to put a halt on his sexual thoughts about his wife and finally get rid of the boner she’s given him.

When she squinted his way in that stupidly adorably way that made him want to bite her cheek, he threw his head back and groaned, “You’re literally the fucking bane of my existence!” He exclaimed, and then he looked at her face once again and laughed. “I just love their chicken so much, okay...” He explained and sighed, “But fine, let’s go to In n Out.” He huffed and then unlocked his car. Instead of going to the driver’s side, he went to the passenger’s to open the door for Mila.