blazed&confused.

also i hope you’re safe and i hope you’re not mad at me and i hope you didn’t block my number (cuz it went to voicemail when i called) i do hope that you’ll stick around okay i’m sorry bye

oh and p.s you ate my pussy so good last night and fucked me raw; if that was our last encounter it was one for the books ;))) <3

how awful it would be if i didn’t wake up to a text from you, how insane am i if i made this all up. i guess i should stop now. goodnight. i love you

clearly i’m just fucking confused but typing it out helps release the anxiety, what a day to not have you around

like the dick was bomb regardless and i do kinda enjoy being alone so if you didn’t wanna be with me that’s cool; but if any of this is a thing and i’m not just overthinking why did U say you loved me and why did you ask me to be your girlfriend? might it have been the opiates? 

i mean could it be possible he didn’t get a single one of those messages? but why would he block me? and if he is getting them, why would he be ignoring me

i’m gonna laugh if this was all a joke to him

my chest hurts

each and every word he said i told myself i don’t believe it and i swore i didn’t, but now i think i might and this is the feeling i was trying to save myself from

i can’t believe a few words and a few days caused all of this

i can’t just allow my heart to sink every time i check my phone

maybe i’m just panicking because I have a paper due tomorrow, or maybe I just cant do it. maybe i’m not meant to be distracted right now?

this is what people do to me. this is why i’m a loner

it’s not very...surprising

well funny enough i somehow ended back here