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✮ currently reading :

- our old heroes by adelaclancy (ch. 26)

✮ masterlists :

chapters: 3

tags: au, fluff, cas works at a frozen yogurt shop, dean works at a grocery store, they’re both trying to claw their way out of minimum wage hell, pov castiel, pov dean, they go roller skaing, and do a “does he like me” quiz together, mutual pining, comfortably bisexual dean winchester

summary: dean hates frozen yogurt. It’s like the inferior version of ice cream. it tastes worse, and you can’t even buy it by the pint or save it in the freezer for very long. you have to stoop to the level of letting a tired employee watch you from their perch behind the counter while you fill up a container with whatever weird fruit flavor you choose that day. but damn if he doesn't like the guy selling it to him.

outdean my soul is yours! please come out of hiatus my love the kids miss you. i do plan on reading your entire collection (this is how i realized there is no word like discography for books) i am on my knees praying to you. this fic was so different from right where you left me yet you’ve managed to bewitched me body and soul.

rating: m

chapters: 13

tags: au — no spn, romcom, friends to lovers, friends with benefits, openly bisexual dean wincester, openly pansexual castiel, doctor!cas, firefighter!dean, porn with plot, bdsm, porn with feelings, sub!dean, dom!cas, aftercare, dean winchester has a panty kink.

summary: dean has known cas for close to 20 years and despite that dean knows close to nothing about his best friend’s sex life. other than his one rule- cas doesnt do relationships. so when dean discovers cas’ secret bdsm account dean’s curious demands he dives into the deep end- going as far as to stalk and message castiel. what starts off as what is supposed to be a no-strings-attached sexual relationship turns into a blurry mess between emotions and not being able to keep things purely in the bedroom.

fixed and consequent || fallen

chapter: 1

tags: post-canon, stanford era dean with a twist, castiel is a proud graduate of winchesters school of grifting

dean winchester is 26, has a dead dad and a deadbeat mom, and is lonely as all hell. he does not have time for this bullshit.

strandlines || aeli_kindara

chapters: 4

tags: preseries!dean, s4.cas, cas pov, john winchester's a+ parenting, stanford era.

it's september 18, 2008. castiel is being deployed to rescue dean winchester from hell. he lands in dean winchester's motel room in 2003. things go from there.

but i ain’t dead yet || alovelyhorror

chapters: 10

tags: two deans one cas, multiple pov, time travel, timeline shenanigans, mutual pining, cas would fall in love with any and every verison of dean btw, dean has self esteem issues

it would’ve been nice to have had the angel’s healing mojo in the past to help with saving everyone else—all of the people they hadn’t been able to save. in particular, he can’t stop thinking about layla. the woman who should’ve been chosen instead of him. angels can do more than just heal people-they can travel back in time too.

psalm 40:2 || unicornpoe

chapters: 7

tags: preseries!dean, s15!cas, mutual pining, hurt/comfort, angst, slow burn, internalized homophobia.

dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.

drift || deanRH

chapters: 15

tags: roadtrips, strangers to lovers, existential angst, drifter!dean

dean drifts, alone. or maybe not.

a turn of the earth || microcomets

chapters: 18

tags: preseries!dean, s10!cas, dean is so fucking lonely, time travel, slow burn, mutual pining.

castiel gets stuck in dean's timeline preseries and dean kind of hates it -until he doesn't.

how (thanks to gabriel) dean and castiel (accidently) raised eachother (and sam) || vee

chapters: 21

tags: weenchester, kid, dreams, growing up, au

in which, gabriel meddles with the time line and castiel becomes dean's angel rather sooner than intended.

heard from your mother (she doesn’t recognize you) || rupertgayes

chapters: 50

tags: pre!canon, post!canon, preseries!dean, slow burn, case fic, john winchester a+ parenting, dean’s hot girl summer

words: 3,853

tags: smut, bottom!castiel, top!dean, 05x03

summary: after discovering tonight might be castiel’s last night on earth, dean is determined to get cas laid.

chapters: 15

tags: zombie apocalypse, enemies to friends to lovers, slow burn, mutual pining, hurt/comfort, sharing a bed, touch starved dean,

summary: after spending so much time alone during the zombie apocalypse, dean is left miserable and touch starved. dean is quick to want to spread his misery when he bumps into the first human he’s seen in a long time- castiel. despite their dislike for one another, dean and castiel decide to stick together for the sole purpose of not being alone. slowly their companionship grows to be a bit more personal than just someone to keep you from going insane.

words: 790

tags: cockwarming, demon!dean, castiel’s angelic grace, 10x03, dom!castiel

summary: after capturing demon dean, castiel convinces sam to take a quick break before preforming a demon cleansing ritual while castiel restrains dean.

words: 2,766

tags: marriage proposal, drunk!dean, sam is so done, sam pov, crack

summary: after a hunt gone wrong, dean decides the best way to cope is to storm off. despite his annoyance, sam goes after dean- only to find him drunk at a bar convinced his best next course of action would be to propose to castiel.

𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 (𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐥𝐥)

1. let me do this for you || artichokeflower

2. taking one for the team || artichokeflower

3. never praying away || sillynegan

4. the dummies guide to hand-holding for buddies || minxyone93

5. a couple of first || faithlesshunter

6. and this, your living kiss || opal_bullet

7. satin and sawdust || ltleflrt

8. the dean winchester beat sheet || saltyfeather

9. it’s all very complex || artichokeflower ⭒

10. magic fingers || chiyume ⭒

11. scratchmarks || bookkbaby ⭒

12. against the wall || la_rubinita ⭒

13. spoiler alert: they kiss! || eyes_of_a_tragedy, queerwerewolf, tfw_cas ⭒

14. el olor de amor || notreallyaroad ⭒

15. being led home || someonetoanyone ⭒

16. as cold as ice || balder12 ⭒

17. final fantasy. || orange_crushed ⭒

18. right where you left me || outdean ⭒

19. parking lot confessions || desirae ⭒

20. do it for sciene || robotsnchicks ⭒

21. i thought you only liked me for my cardigan || imyourhoneybee ⭒

22. the man who drank too much (and proposed to an angel) || black_cat_autumn

23. any pacifier will do || questiel (quefish)

24. stand by me || whelvenwings

rating: explicit

chapters: 12

tags: college au, big gay crisis, a lot of sex, smut, gay dean, internalized homophobia, comphet, alcohol used as a coping mechanism.

summary: in his final year of college, dean’s got a lot of decisions to make. most importantly, which girl he’s going to do... right now. and later tonight. And the next night. when new transfer student castiel novak snakes his way into dean’s friend group, sean can’t help but see it as an infiltration. somethings is up with castirl, and he’s going to find out what. more accurately, he’s going to enlist his best and longest suffering hacker friend, charlie bradbury, to do it for him. not a single one of dean’s suspicions has anything to do with the fact that upon their first meeting, castiel insults his shoes, his general existence, and his masculinity by— looking at him like that.

rating: explicit

chapters: 30

ship: dean/cas

tags: neighbors au, carpenter!dean, veterinarian!cas, bi!dean, cas thinks he straight, aromatic!meg, cas/meg besties with benefits, hetero sex, castiel & jimmy are twins, panty kink, cas has a panty kink, dean in panties, slow burn, friends to lovers, pining, cataloger!dean, multiple pov, switch!cas, switch!dean

summary: After moving out of Jimmy's house and investing into a fixer-upper cas finds himself struggling to maintain his home. lucky for cas, his new neighbor dean is a handyman who is more than willing to help. cas knows dean has a bit of a crush on him, but he's not really taking advantage of the poor guy. dean's a great guys and quickly becomes an even better friend. however things get a little complicated for cas when he gets a flash of satin under dean's tool belt.

satin and sawdust was a lengthy fucker. fully enjoyable. i ate this fic up like a little dessert at the end of the day. it’s definitely an au in the sense that dean and cas could be replace by any lil gays and it’ll still work the same but i dont think that took away from the story. i enjoy au fics because it’s the same two ppl falling in love over and over again. the writing was very well done. the only buzzkill was sam being married to jody?! but it was written in 2016 and that kinda makes it excusable. i love meg’s aromantic representation! i felt like we got enough of everyone and everything- fluff, smut, angst, build up, panty kink, cat appreciation. i wasnt a panty kink uhh appreciator(?) when i started but i started to see the appeal after awhile. especially since it’s a canon kink of deans LOL! omfg *spoilerr* i gotta spoil because of how uncomfortable it was but cas . . . he sniffs dean’s panties which felt invasive and a bit pervy but- >.< i liked it okay i found it to be acceptable and not too disturbing. i also love seeing fics where dean is confident in his sexuality- dean’s bi in this fic- and i love how it’s just a part of who he is.

rating: explicit

audio length: 7 hr. 5 min.

ship: dean/cas

tags: poetry, writer!dean, professor!castiel, college au, john winchester's a+ parenting, mentions of past prostitution, mentions of cancer, angst with a happy ending

summary: after years of no longer writing poetry under the name jack allen, dean begand to crave a sense of being alive again. he suddenly decides to move in with sam and elienne, along with their son jack. searching for answers dean reaches out to his old mentor, missouri moseley, who recommended dean to audit an advanced college course in poetry taught by professor castiel novak. who happens to not only be devastatingly handsome and see something in dean, but happens to also be academic’s expert on jack allen.

rating: explicit

words: 6,179

ship: dean/cas

tags: workplace au, dean smith, dom!cas, sub!dean, praise kink, panty kink, begging, bdsm, butt-plug.

summary: when cas decided to give this whole 'sex with a stuck-up colleague' thing a try he didn't even dare to think it'd be this great.

audio length: 59 minutes

tags: 09x06, heaven can’t wait, canon divergence, fix-it, human!cas, platonic cuddling, hurt/comfort, resolved angst, no beta we die like sams wig

summary: while still dealing with the rejection of being kicked out of the bunker, cas is faced with an unbearable ache of loneliness. dean sees right through cas and he struggles with his own guilt of leading cas down this road. dean attempts to help cas to asylum through platonic physical affection.

i loved the angst in this fic. i think a lot about how dean kicked cas out when he was human. and as a first-tike human that must have been overwhelming and soul crushing for cas. it’s literally the only time he’s human in all ten seasons he’s in. dean’s guilt felt sincere. i can’t remember if dean ever apologized or admitted to feeling bad but i wouldn’t be shocked if he said nothing. the angst was perfect which built the best lead up for the fluff. they both just wanted to comfort the other after so long of hurting.

note: i’ve know about podfics for a long time already i just always found them super inconvenient since they’re kind of hard to find and listen to. that was until my smart little brain decided to check on spotify since audibooks are a thing on there now and idk maybe someone’s smart enough to upload there. and someone is- nerdynerdenstein has created a podcast making it up as we go they’ve got over 100 podfics so honestly i owe them my life and my first born.

rating: explicit

words: 1,347

ship: dean/cas

tags: priest!cas, demon!dean, male lactation, castiel has big tits, porn without plot, uhh crack?

summary: castiel is a priest doing a last check of the church when he finds a demon named dean praying for his sins. he then seduces castiel.

rating: explicit

ship: dean/cas

tags: (emotional) hurt/comfort, sex worker dean winchester, kink exploration, john winchester’s a+ parenting, established relationship, cas pov, porn with feelings.

summary: a case comes up that dean seems to have a connection with that he doesn’t remember. all he recalls is waking up besides a dumpster wearing a silk, green robe. with the aid of cas, dean slowly brings to surfaces memories that have been wiped away. bring along with it complicated feelings and hidden truths.

this fic was really good. very well written and honestly its smut but it didn’t feel sexual because of the topic. i find it sweet and realistic how cas doesn’t care about dean’s past work or relations- only caring when it bothers dean. i always imagined cas to not be the jealous type. i think the way dean can be blunt and harsh with cas is also soo realistic- i always felt like dean might still behave a bit toxic if they got together. but more because of how he was raised to be hothead and defensive.