Before I had even decided on a genre, I already had a rough plot in mind. I knew what kind of main character I wanted, and it was supposed to be something in the BL (Boys' Love) realmāmaybe with a bit of spice, too. At the time I came up with the idea, I was pretty obsessed with BL.
I had read several manga and a ton of fanfiction, including original stories published on Wattpad or other web novel platforms.
It really helped me figure out what I liked and what I didnāt.
After all, reading is a great way to quickly discover your own preferences.
So what I wanted was a laid-back character with a dark streak. I liked characters who had a witty, sarcastic attitude. But more serious characters had also stolen my heart in an instant.
It didnāt actually take long before I had tailored my charactersā looks, behavior, and backstory to fit them perfectly. The idea slowly started to take shape, and my motivation to invest more time into the story grew.
I canāt even say how quickly I gathered everything. Thanks to my friends, I was able to do a lot of brainstorming, and we came up with some really great ideas.
However, the project then lay dormant for quite a long time. For about two years, the idea just sat there untouched. I kept going back to read what I had written, and occasionally, when I felt like it, I added a few things.
But stillāI couldnāt find a beginning.
How the hell do you even write a book?
How do other authors manage to find a good starting point? How do they bring their characters to life and make settings feel vivid through words? How was I supposed to write a story that wouldnāt lose its readersā interest right away?
Then one night, when I really should have been asleep because of work, the idea hit me like a bulldozer.
By that point, I had read so much fanfiction that the next steps seemed pretty straightforward: I just had to write something. So why not fanfiction? Why not write my favorite characters their own story?
It turned out to be pretty much the best thing I could have done.
I spent half a year writing fanfiction. I tried out all kinds of scenarios and wrote so much smut that I sometimes wondered what the hell I was even doing. But I started getting a feel for how to make dialogue interesting, my smut scenes kept getting better, and even though Iām still far from perfect, writing fanfiction gave me the courage to finally get started.
Which brings me to this year.
Since February, Iāve been working on my story. Iām so deep into it that I canāt even bring myself to finish my unfinished fanfics. Everything else just feels like a distraction, so I only work on fanfiction when I get stuck on my main story and need to redirect my brain with something else.
Not writing wasnāt an option.
I was afraid that if I stopped, I wouldnāt continue.
So I kept pushing myself and wrote more and more. Sometimes a chapter took just a day, and sometimes a week. Occasionally I couldnāt continue without getting feedbackādespite the fact that my friends were reading everything I wrote.
Iām nowhere near finished, even though my story already has around 200,000 wordsāand all since February of this year. Iām pretty satisfied with my progress so far. I really like what Iām writing.
Of course, I still worry that other people might not like it.
At first, I wanted to finish the whole thing and send it to a publisher, hoping that one day I might hold a physical copy of my work in my hands. But like so many things in life, that perspective changed.
Who would buy a book written by someone completely unknown?
So I decided to upload my project to Wattpad or another site known for web novels. Iām not sure yet which platforms Iāll publish it on, but there will definitely be both a German and an English version.
In my next post, I want to share more about the story itself and post some visual material too, since Iāve met some amazing artists who are helping me bring my characters to life.