I JUST WATCH.

OOC.      so in the past month, i’ve started a new job monday through friday that starts at 7:45AM and runs straight up until i have to get my kiddos from school, so my free time hasn’t been what it used to be at all. i’ve been giving it some thought and decided the best way for me to go about still getting my writing fix without having to have constant access to or energy for my laptop is to shift my focus to writing on disc.o for the time being. i may feel more inclined to be back on tumblr eventually, but if you would like to interact with jasper, you are more than welcome to add me over there under 𝐙𝟑𝐑𝟎#1625. just let me know who you are and we’ll go from there.     

tagged by @upir // tagging: @not-ohfuckingkay, @junkierot, @ohfiendangelical, @newsaw, @noblehigh, @noblecide, and anyone else who wants to!

body.

long legs. short legs. average legs. slender thighs. toned thighs. thick thighs. muscular thighs. skinny arms. soft arms. toned arms. muscular arms. toned stomach. flat stomach. flabby stomach. soft stomach. six pack. beer belly. lean frame. slender frame. muscular frame. voluptuous frame. petite frame. lanky frame. short nails. long nails. manicured nails. dirty nails. flat butt. toned ass. bubble butt. thick butt. small waist. thick waist. narrow hips. average hips. wide hips. big feet. average feet. small feet. soft feet. slender feet. calloused feet. calloused hands. soft hands. big hands. average hands. small hands. long fingers. short fingers. average fingers. broad shoulders. underweight. average weight. overweight.

height.

shorter than 140 cm. 141 cm to 150 cm. 151 cm to 160 cm. 161 cm to 170 cm. 171 cm to 180cm. 181 cm to 190 cm. 191 cm to 2m. taller than 2 m.

skin.

pale. fair. rosy. olive. dark. tanned. blotchy. smooth. acne. dry. greasy. freckled. scarred.

eyes.

small. large. average. grey. silver. brown. black. blue. red. green. gold amber. hazel. violet. doe-eyed. almond. close - set. wide - set. squinty. monolid. heavy eyelids. upturned. downturned.

hair.

thin. thick. fine. normal. greasy. dry. soft. shiny. scruffy. frizzy. curly. wild. unruly. straight. smooth. wavy. floppy. cropped. pixie-cut. short. shoulder length. back length. waist length. floor length. buzz cut. bald. jaw length. vermilion. mohawk. white. platinum blonde. golden blonde. dirty blonde. ombre. light brown. mouse brown. chestnut brown. golden brown. chocolate brown. dark brown. jet black. ginger. auburn. dyed red. dyed any unnatural color. streaked. thin bleached eyebrows. average eyebrows. thick eyebrows.

tattoos / piercings.

full sleeve. arm tattoo. thigh tattoo. shin tattoo. wrist tattoo. lower back tattoo. hand / finger tattoo. foot tattoo. neck tattoo. face tattoo. chest tattoo. two tattoos. a few here and there. multiple. no tattoos. monroe piercing. nose piercing (bridge). septum piercing. nipple piercing( s ). genital piercing( s ). industrial piercing( s ). earlobe piercing( s ). prince albert piercing. eyebrow piercing( s ). tongue piercing. lip piercing( s ). tragus piercing. angel bites. labret. stretches out ears. navel piercing. inverse navel piercing. cheek piercing( s ). smiley. nape piercing( s ). no piercings.

cosmetics.

light eyeliner. heavy eyeliner. cat eyes. mascara. fake eyelashes. matte lipstick. regular lipstick. lip gloss. red lips. pink lips. dark lips. bronzer. highlighter. eyeshadow. neutral eyeshadow. smoky eyes. colorful eyeshadow. blush. lipliner. light contouring. heavy contouring. powder. matte foundation. shiny foundation. concealer. wears make up regularly. wears makeup from time to time / now and then. rarely wears make-up. never wears makeup.

scent.

floral. fruity. perfumes. colognes. aftershave. cocoa. moisturizer. natural soap. shampoo. cigarettes. leather. sweat. food. incense. marijuana. whiskey. wine. fried food. blood. fire. metal. rain. grass. ocean. autumn leaves. baked bread. freshly baked cookies. smoke. campfire. lavender. trees. pumpkin pie. rose. gingerbread. peppermint. oak. honey. lemon. vanilla. coffee cake. mint. rawhide. chemicals. essential oils.

clothes.

jeans. tight pants. dress pants. overknee socks. tights. leggings. yoga pants. pencil skirt. tight skirt. loose skirt. tight / form - fitting dress. cardigans. blouse. button up shirt. band t-shirt. sports t-shirt. sweatpants. tanktop. cut off t-shirt. designer. high street. online stores. thrift. lingerie. long skirt. miniskirt. maxidress. sun dress. tie. tuxedo. cocktail dress. highslit dress /  skirt. t-shirt. loose clothing. tight clothing. jean shorts. sweater. sweater vest. overcoat. khaki pants. suit. hoodie. harem pants. basketball shorts. boxers. briefs. boxer - briefs. thong. hot pants. hipster panties. bra. sports bra. crop top. corset. ballerina skirt. leotard. polka dot. stripes. glitter. silk. lace. leather. velvet. chemise. patterns. florals. neon colors. pastels. plaid. black. dark colors. fur. faux fur.

shoes.

she had thought the coast was clear enough to allow herself a moment to let the flood gates open in the privacy of the back office, but it’s only seconds later that jaspers voice cuts through the sound of her choked back sobs. well, this is great. the backs of her hands are wiping away salty streams from her cheeks before he even fully enters the room, her back turned to him so he doesn’t have to witness the way she attempts to fix smudged liner. 

all of this because of a handful of shitty comments left on her latest youtube video - comments she’d told herself were probably written by 40 year old virgin chads with halitosis and whose only action was most definitely in the form of their hand while watching girls like her on the internet.  “oh, uhhh mhm. yeah, what’s up? you forget something?”

                       "𝐎𝐇 ——  𝐔𝐌 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐇, 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐘 𝐏𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄." it’s the honest answer, but it isn’t a particularly empathetic one. normally, he wouldn’t normally extend the 𝐄𝐅𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓 to appear socially competent in a situation that involves crying, but helena is not a stranger. if anything, she is the closest thing to a 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 jasper has, and so a moderate amount more sensitivity is required of him. even he is aware of this. he leans against the doorway of the office and crosses jacket-clad arms across his chest, a frown tugging at his lips.

“ You know I’m a sucker for some good ol’ fashioned Satanism, Jasper. “ Kai’s hand hovers over his chest before he picks up a can of dark red spray paint, tossing it into the air to catch it and shake it for good measure. His gaze examines the blank slate of the wall before looking down at their feet at the basement floor. “ Could just do a pentagram, but I dunno. That seems pretty basic. If we’re going to do that we should make it look…authentic as possible. “ Teeth bite down against his tongue as Kai circles around the room, shining his flashlight at every nook and cranny. The young man has never been the most creative, he normally relied on his intelligence, and even that was questionable sometimes. 

Kai doesn’t answer Jasper’s comment of a body not being able to decompose as quickly if kept down in this room. Any sensible person might ask why Jasper has put so much thought into such a thing, but Kai on the other hand, Kai was just as morbidly fascinated. “ Fuck, speaking of, wouldn’t that be sweet to find some animal corpses around? We could set this up real good   even make the cops scared shitless if they find it. “ 

                𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐇𝐔𝐄𝐒 𝐅𝐋𝐈𝐓 𝐔𝐏𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐒𝐔𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. there are sometimes split moments in which it seems as though another person knows. an offhanded comment, the time a man in the bookstore had mentioned his 𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 dog, and now, kai’s mention of obtaining animal corpses for their decor. it’s a touch different from the other, however —— there is some part of him, a part he is well 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐄 he must ignore, that wonders what sort of reaction the truth might draw out of the other. it’s almost a delicious sort of curiosity though, and one he can’t fully bring himself to dismiss 𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘.

The jostle doesn’t get Tate standing, but it is enough to seemingly ground him some. He shook his head, looking up at Jasper with squinted eyes; But it was obvious from the unfocused eyes, he was more looking through the other boy than at him.  “No, no,”  he tried to assure, shaking his head.  “I’m okay, I can do this…”  But the slurred words he was spitting out told another story. Tate wouldn’t call himself a responsible boy but he was usually more careful about the state he was in before coming to school; It had just been a particularly rough night the day prior and he wanted to ache that was constantly inside of him to stop. And now he was so impaired, he could barely even recognize what was going on around him. “I just - I.. Maybe I should get a drink of water.”  Yeah, that would help; Totally. Tate had the use the desk behind him just to get to his feet without falling forward because his head felt weirdly heavy, or maybe gravity had somehow increased since the time he sat down. An apologetic look was cast Jaspers way because the last thing he wanted to do was to mess up the other boys grades for him. There were a few odd looks by other students as he made his way out the classroom door, glancing back a few times to make sure it was Jasper who was trailing behind him.  “Let me just get some water and I’ll be fine. We can give the presentation.”

                    "𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐄." 𝐈𝐓'𝐒 𝐀𝐋𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐀𝐍 𝐀𝐃𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 ——  the other is not fine, and water will almost certainly not be enough to change those tides. his voice is 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐄𝐓, even in the emptiness of the hall, and he catches the taller boy under the arm to steady his gate as 𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓 he is able. lips press into a line, though he does his best to keep a look of 𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐆𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 from coloring his features. it is far from his first experience seeing someone so 𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐘 impaired, though in fairness he cares more about his friend than he does his father, so it feels just slightly different  —— he is more 𝐈𝐍𝐕𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐃 in a safe, happy outcome for tate. he clears his throat before he speaks.