Vertigoed12

Fucking sick that you do that. Deceit with normals is fucked, you should be ashamed.

Somebody said this just the other week and I answered:

“I admit that I’ve done this before years ago on Reddit but stopped after getting caught after a few times. If it’s still happening, it someone using pictures I’ve posted and pretending to be me just to get their fun own, which isn’t cool either.”

I really don’t owe this a response but I think I’m going to actually really type one out here because I know people secretly give me attitude for this all the time.

Firstly, and most importantly, I can do what I want to do with my own body - and no one should be giving me an eye roll just because I’m not doing what’s most satisfying for someone else, Mr. Anonymous. Trust me, I’d love to see myself ballooning up bigger than ever, too, but currently that’s not what’s best for me (more on that later…). I still post content all the time and have never once had a paywall; I’d hope that you’d just enjoy the things I choose to post for free and not give me attitude for that. Also, for all we know, you’ve never gained weight before since you ask me anonymously, so why judge me for actually involving myself in my fetishes to any degree at all, when so many will leave it as fantasy for their entire lives? I’m proud of the times I’ve gained and gone outside of my comfort zone.

The last time I did a big growth spurt, in 2016 into 2017, I gained 80 pounds in about 9 months. Gained a touch more and I was around 240 pounds then from 2017-2020. That’s not really “yo-yo gaining”…. That was a solid period of my life where I was that size. It’s never had anything to do with shame or fear of doing it or cold feet. I’ve lost weight since 2020 because I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder and was many times informed that the symptoms could be helped by weight loss. I decided to put my comfort and health first over my fetish and lost about 70 pounds to try to help get over this issue. Luckily, it did help a lot. But unfortunately, that means I’ve now been a bit worried to go full-force into gaining again until I know exactly how my body will react. It’s scary. I don’t want to have the same health issues I was dealing with a couple years ago again.

So, yes - I’m currently, maybe, “yo-yo gaining” between 175 and 200 to just have some fun and still feel like I’m connected to my fetishes and sexuality in the meantime until I feel my health is in a place where I want to move forward with really gaining again. And I most likely will do it in a much healthier way next time while building some muscle as well. To be honest, now that I’ve gotten quite big before on my own, too, I think I’d rather do my next big gain once if find an encourager partner to do it with; it would be much less lonely and more satisfying for me this time. I’m in no rush - doing it how I feel most comfortable is most important to me.

Lastly, this is a bigger picture question - but why are gainers expected to just skyrocket consistently upwards in weight? If you expect people not to yo-yo and consistently move up on the scale, it’s setting unrealistic standards for literally everyone. I’m the kind of person who doesn’t ever want to be so big that it’s severely affecting my mobility or daily life. I’ve always told myself the biggest I’d really comfortably see myself getting is the 275-325 range (maybe that would change once I got there, but who knows). I’ve been in the 240s before, but if I just plowed ahead, I already would have been into the fattest bracket I would have seen myself in. Then what? I’m done? You might say that I should just keep getting fatter… but I think there are many ways to experience this community and explore a gaining journey. I see myself having many gaining journeys and yo-yoing around because it’s the gaining itself that’s so erotic to me, and belly size, and fullness, etc… I’d rather do it multiple times in a weight span I’m comfortable in. Every time I’ve gained a lot too I’ve gotten fatter than the prior committed time, and I’ve accepted that this will probably continue, where each time I’ll get another 30 or 40 pounds fatter, then lose it and do it again… anyway. It’s just my journey figuring out how I want to change my own body and this is how I think about gaining.