bubbles and blush

Ways to spark your writing again!! PART TWO

─ .✦ write a character who realizes they've been performing happiness for so long that they've forgotten what the real thing feels like

─ .✦ let a character find out the person who raised them was younger, at the time, than the character is now

─ .✦ write two siblings who never fought as kids and are somehow strangers as adults, neither one able to point to when it started

─ .✦ a character finally gets to say the thing they rehearsed for years, and the moment arrives too small for how big it felt in their head

─ .✦ let a character realize their independence was never a strength, just a wound that got good at hiding

─ .✦ write someone who spent their whole life being the exception to the rule, and finally has to be ordinary in front of someone who loves them

─ .✦ a character discovers the version of the story they were told isn't the version that actually happened, and has to decide which one they'll keep believing

─ .✦ let a character give someone else the childhood they never had, and grieve their own while doing it

─ .✦ write a character who finally stops being the peacekeeper, and watches what the group looks like without them holding it together

─ .✦ a character realizes the thing they call loyalty was actually just fear of being alone

─ .✦ let someone find the exact place their life split into "before" and "after," and realize they've been standing in "after" for years without noticing

─ .✦ write a character who was taught survival instead of living, and the first time someone shows them the difference

"oh ryland. only you would cry over a bunch of rocks."

I would say that recreating the characterisation, mood and general vibes of an existing work of fiction is in fact a skill in and of itself that's acquired via practice. A common compliment delivered to fanfiction writers is how well they have captured the spirit of the original work. Inexperienced fanfiction writers fail to do this.

When creating an original character you can, ultimately, say anything about them and now it's canon bcos you created them and you said so. conversely, well, if you are covering a well known song and start playing the wrong notes people will notice immediately.

In addition: a lot of fanfiction, IMO, is in actuality a form of metafictional literary analysis. a story where two characters sit down and talk about their feelings about a canonical event? literary analysis, which is of course a skill. Sometimes fanfiction is bad bcos the writer is not good at interpreting texts.

We need about $675 for beds, mattresses, sheets, blankets, pillows, all the shit to make this a proper home that's livable. We'll be able to afford everything else (groceries, bills, etc), we just have a super urgent need for the aforementioned things. After that, we will have finally gotten a place and made it a home.

If you can spare anything towards these necessities, please consider doing so. You can send it to my PayPal, which has been secured against the recent hacker and though my card is canceled so they can't use it, I can still access my account and withdraw whatever comes in as it does to Kalen's bank account, so it's safe and available for our use (instead of stolen).

Once we have these, most of our needs will have been met and I can shut the fuck up about it and pay it forward when I can.

Even if it's $5, every dollar helps so much more than you know. And anyone who has ever had to buy furniture knows how expensive this shit is. 😭 I hate that this is the society we live in, but the revolution will come in time. Then we feast on the rich rich.

These last couple of months have been really rough mental health-wise, and honestly I'm still going through a lot of shit, but if my brain is gonna electrocute itself and jolt me awake, I at least need it to be in a bed that's my own and I can fall asleep quickly in (sleep is hard to come by, maintain, etc.)

Thank you for reading/reblogging. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖

paypal.me/moukies or my ko-fi

Alternatively, you can also send it directly to kalen's PayPal or Ko-Fi

I cannot stress enough how bad this current bed situation is. This singular tiny cot came with the apartment, and it's nigh-identical to the ones in the insane asylum, barring it not being bolted down.

It is tiny. Two people fit like sardines, very uncomfortably. The blankets that came with the cot is way too small for both of us to share, meaning one of us usually gives up fighting for it during the night and just opts to freeze in this room instead. It is very unpleasant.

Both our physical and mental, not to mention emotional, health will SKYROCKET once we get our own separate beds, mattresses, blankets, pillows, sheets, etc.

We were banking on the delivery of a check that was supposed to be hand delivered to us by the transitional company meant to facilitate our relocation, and now they're literally just dodging calls and no longer even pretending to give a timeline for when to expect it.

This has screwed us over severely, since our phone/internet bill is due in like 5 days and is $200 total (first month, activation fees, prorated start, etc). We would've been able to pay that no problem, and every month after, but that relocation company refuses to answer our calls, leaving us in the lurch for the final time (since we won't ever have to interact with them again once business is concluded by providing us with that outstanding check).

That check was also what we planned to use for furniture/beds and mattresses, etc, but because they're just fucking around with us and seemingly have no intention to actually hold up their end of the transaction, we are simply ... fucked.

This is why I am asking, for what I keep saying is and what I really do intend to be, the final hurdle. We need to pay the internet/phone ($200) so that we can start off our relationship with AT&T not in the shitter and defaulting on the very first bill, and furniture. A blender. A toaster. Literally just essential stuff.

My brother recently started sending me a couple hundred a month, which is enough to take care of groceries or the phone/internet bill. However, it's taking a toll on him and he already has to provide for the rest of the family, so I don't want to be the reason he (or anyone else) goes into the red often just to help me.

We're okay on food, but that means we're at $0 now for the bills + furniture. We should be able to self-sustain once we've survived this initial/starting hurdle, and it should be smooth sailing from there on.

Please: if you can, and would like to, please consider shooting $20 our way. Even $5 helps, no matter if you think it doesn't.

If just 35 people sent $20 each, we'd be golden and solid and finally, mercifully okay. We'll be in an even better position when that check finally is given to us instead of the run around, but that plan is scuppered beyond my control.

I'm gonna have to boost this a lot, so I'm very sorry if you grow tired of me and understand if you have to unfollow/block me. I won't hold it against you.

But once we get this last fucking Rubicon crossed, it'll be back to your regularly scheduled stupidity, courtesy of yours truly!

Thank you for reading. Sorry for being needy and annoying (and self-deprecating). Please help us get this shit knocked out ASAP so I can cease this anxiety without having to take another lorazepam when I'm already like 5 weeks into benzodiazepine withdrawal 😭

Much love, friend (or frenemies!). ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖

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