I think what helped the most is that i switched back to write in my 1st tongue, hell i know I'll have practically no readers or kudos and even less comments exactly because i choose not to write in english, but it was starting to feel a job. I was too obsessed with making every little sentence perfect and that slowed me down, taking almost 2hrs for 400w? That made me upset and i stopped writing for a few months until i decided that i just wanna write my stories, and if i wasn't happy with the quality of my work whilst using English then I just had to switch back to PT. The first few days? Bad, i couldn't connect with my own native language, but it got better, and it's getting better every day.

Now beyond writing the current wip (a female Severus/James oneshot), i'm also outlining a multi chapter fix and will start to editing the one i finished a few days ago.

My life is still a mess and college is still trying to kill me, but at least i can say that i'm happy with my writing, and that on its own is extremely important to me