This is the first major relationship i have ever been in my mere 23 years, Yet all it feels like is it falling to actually shit. I never had a proper hand book on how to do the love thing, how to be genuinely sincere but i know this women really made me want to. It’s just feels like so many things played against me in this relationship from the start. Rather it be people who i called my friends and those who are my family. The 7 year age gap and differences in upbringings. The gap in self esteem and relationship experience. Even the fact that at the end of the day she wasn’t even feeling me like that to begin with. It’s sometimes so painful to be around because of the knowing that there is going to be times where there is straight up duckers that plays afeet, sometimes from me sometimes outta nowhere from other people and circumstances. I can never seem to get why that’s the case. Not only beacause i never had to deal with anything like this before but also because I’m at a loss of not only words but actions because of how i feel about this women. I pray that everyday is a good day and that I’m doing as right as i can but yet here we are at odds. It’s like purgatory because everything feels so right when things are good but then feel so bad when shit is going south. I don’t know what to do and it’s seem like my determination and feelings don’t want to be met by my baby, my coco, my L money, my fucking best friend. I dont get it.
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