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Cat is a lot better but we still have to watch over him 24/7. I'm p tired mentally but hopefully it'll be okay by the end of next week 🙏

I'm also not studying like at all these days cause when it's my "normal" awake time I'm tired and cba and when I'm watching over cat I can't cause I get sleepier... I miss going out too ugh but well it's our duty as cat parents

Ok not entirely cause I went to bed for ~5 hours and now it's bf's time to sleep... Sigh at least we can do this during the weekend. I thought I'd me much sleepier but I'm pretty ok actually.

Ok so going to the BSB concert with Elen was top notch, one of the best nights ever. Also the night I got together with bf was pretty sweet. Oh and I'll always remember that school trip when I sneaked to my friends' room and we didn't sleep till it was like 7 am. There was also this volleyball test that I TOTALLY ACED and the teacher, my classmates and ME were like omfg what the hell is happening (I don't feel like telling a whole story)

22. Do you want to kiss the last person you kissed?

I want to eat his face out damn it

23. How many bracelets are you wearing?

None but I really want one that I can just leave there and always wear. The last one I had it broke a couple of years ago I think and I've been feeling naked since then

24. Is there a quote that inspires you?

I'm sure there is but I can't really think about any now. I guess one of them would be the one that goes if your problem can be solved, then why are you worrying? And if there's no way to fix it, then why are you worrying? I used to live by it for a long time and I wish I could now too but anxiety gets in the way sometimes

25. What are your projects for the future?

I just want to pass this stupid public thing exam and start working this year come on!!! And sleep lots

26. Do you have any tattoos?

No but more often than not I end up thinking about what kind of cute tattoo I could get... I don't think it's ever gonna happen tho

27. Favorite color?

I love pink, purple and blue, and orange! And black. And a light shade of green (idk fancy names rn)

28. When will you kiss someone next time?

Hopefully in a couple of hours if not before

29. Who do you text with?

Uh. Friends, family, SO and some ppl from my master's degree sometimes

30. Think of the last person you kissed, do you miss them?

The way I planned when?? When I was 14 and I thought I was going to be working in Japan by the time I was 24...? Or when I was 17 and I thought I'd be doing something related to the English language by the time I was 22? Or maybe when I was 20 and I thought I'd easily find a job once I finished my degree four years later. Well it's not going according to any plan I had before I was like 24 (well I'm gonna work with the English language I hope?? Lol I'm not even 100% sure), but it's not like it's bad either. So what have we learnt? If you fantasize about your future you may as well go all in I mean have fun with it and don't really care about what's to come, you can think later about that

12. Who's the last person you added to your contacts?

I don't remember and I don't feel like looking into it cause this is a boring question imo

13. Would you rather have a Carlino or a Rottweiler?

Idc any dog is cute and amazing. I used to love big doggos but I learnt to appreciate small doggos too. In my heart I'm still in love with giant mutts but any dog is lovable they're angels

14. Which hurts more? Physical or emotional pain?

I guess it always depends but when you have anxiety and emotional pain involves physical pain as well uh... Yeah that sucks. Anyway, I'd say emotional pain usually hurts more but it's not like physical pain is any less of a bother, esp when it's something related to the mouth or the noble parts

15. Would you rather visit and art museum or a zoo?

Art museum Ofc anything but zoos that have no way of justifying themselves (and if they're doing it to keep a species going they're not zoos anymore right...?), they're like jails for nice animals :(

16. Are you tired?

Omfg am I tired it's 6.30 am and I've been sleeping intermittently my soul is tired. And apart from this situation? I'm still tired I wish I could stop studying and just start working ugh

17. How long have you known the first person from your contacts list?

Ok so the first person is a teacher who is friends with my mom that helped me to find and objective to follow in my life, and I think I knew them when I was in my late teen years probably...?

18. How's your relationship with your parents?

They're amazing. I've always had a good relationship with them and I'm so very glad about that and I feel so lucky that I got to be their kid. It always makes me sad whenever I read or hear about abusive or fully unsupporting parents cause it's like hello it's your kid?? And you should be there for them?? Why the hell did you have them if you don't care how miserable they are

19. Have you ever thought of getting back together with an ex?

I don't have any ex-bf/gf but I have thought of recovering lost friendships. Esp one that I really wish I could go back to but whatever, deep inside I know it's never going to happen. I don't consider us exes though (I think?? Honestly don't know what they think of me tho...)

20. When was the last time you talked to your ex?

Yea

2. Did you forgive the last person that hurt you?

I love these questions cause you can be as passive-aggressive as you want and it's not your fault. And tbh I'm not even sure cause I think I have or I should have but I in my mind I haven't and I don't know how to stop being so resentful idk it's complicated

3. Have you ever made love?

Why is so many ppl so obsessed with knowing this like is it really that important. Honestly I'm way more curious about ppl sexual orientation and views on sex and love than whether they've had a penis in their vagina or whatever

4. What do you want right now?

I want. To sleep. Peacefully. Without thinking my cat might be pulling out his stitches please and thank you

5. Are you afraid of falling in love?

Actually I'm already in love and it is indeed terrifying. Isn't it nice thinking everyday that some day it's going to end? And that this person may grow tired of you at any moment cause you can't stop holding grudges? Although this person tells you all kinds of nice stuff and seems actually honest and says they won't leave you but what if they do? Or because you're not that pretty nor have an attractive personality. Man maybe if I had some self love it wouldn't be that scary would it

6. Do you like the sea?

YES I DO I love it it's so calming just sitting in front of it makes me feel at peace with the world. It kinda feels like getting back your energy

7. Have you ever slept with someone?

Yea, and sleeping with someone who isn't my SO makes me kind of nervous mainly cause I'm a very annoying sleeper. Like I do lil jumps to change positions and stuff that may awake the other person so

8. What pic do you have set as your phone wallpaper?

Dia's momijigari Idolized UR ❤️❤️❤️ SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL I DON'T EVEN

9. Do you have any regrets?

Lol too many to count. The thing is if I could relive my life idk if I'd change some of them. Like sometimes I think I should've been more adventurous with alcohol when I was younger. I didn't try alcohol till I was 25 (I'm 27) and now I cannot even get drunk cause I guess my body is not used to it + I don't drink often at all and I just end up feeling physically ill when I drink. And that sucks. BUT I still don't see myself getting drunk at 18. Nor 20. It's just not who I am... I think. I'd also like to change some stuff from the beginning of my relationship cause the ~honeymoon stage~ sure keeps you high as hell but it's also a bitch

10. Do you like your phone?

Ok so this is not my main account anymore but it's the one on my app so yea.

Since I’m not around all that much anymore I’m moving to my barely used art blog and try to be more active. welp I kinda messed up and I had to reblog stuff but still

you can find me >here< now