god's problem child

i accept and deeply enjoy that bj is a nasty sicko man and kind of a shitty person sometimes and that people discuss this in depth (breath of fresh air coming from another fandom where my nasty sicko man is treated like gods perfect angel) but it does mean a lot to me that bj is, at his core, a very compassionate person, who is driven by an immense grief and rage at what has been taken from him and the people around him. and that anger often becomes selfish and hurtful but it also often becomes kindness. he's the man who gives his last 20 dollars to a patient scamming him and spends his nights between 11 hour shifts patching the roof and scrounging supplies and hunting down a missing soldier for a struggling korean family. who loses sleep for weeks and lashes out only because he's terrified he didn't do enough for a patient. who defies his own ethics to try to stop a family from suffering on christmas. who takes every chance to throw parties for his friends because he wants to see them smile, and doesn't hold their moments of fear or anger or cruelty against them. he is also violent! and jealous! and mean and nasty! but he really would have gone down that rope, yknow?

should i be buying kerrygold ?