i'm a safe place to land

kels: vee, you're ALWAYS fair to me. in every single way. i could not mean that anymore than i do right now

kels: of course. are you surprised???

Nessa: I don't think so, I think you just love me enough to let me get away with it.

kels: this is something that i don't mind waiting for if i have to, vee. you communicated how you felt and that's all that ever matters to me. is the communication.

kels: because cari and i were talking about it and they WERE trying to figure out where to move anyways. so instead of jersey, why not here :)))

Nessa: I'm doing my best to always do that and not hold it all in which is what I did for so long. I just want to be more fair to you, you deserve that.

You and I have the same taste. Also born in Canada lived in texas for a decade and decided I missed snow too much so moved to here.

I’ve mostly lived in Canada my whole life, with some small stints in LA and then I spent a lot of time in Texas with my ex because it’s where he was from. But now I’ve moved to Nashville because I know Kelsea loves it here and I didn’t want her to have to leave it. Maybe one day we’ll get a place in Canada too. 

kels: i love you and how you're feeling is important to me, baby. this stuff takes time and i know that

kels: cari actually lived here before :'))

Nessa: But how you're feeling and what you want is important too, it's not just about me. There's two of us in this relationship, and I feel like it's always you having to put what you want on the back burner because of me.

kels: i told you i will go at this at your own pace, vee. if you need more time then i'm willing to wait for you ( and rivs ). for now i can be fun "sea" until you're ready

kels: . . . why not??

Nessa: You shouldn't always have to wait for me for every little thing that you want though, it's not fair to you.

Joey: Well, of course it's terrifying. I didn't think I'd ever get married after Olivia and I broke up, but here we are now. I've never been more terrified to take the next step, but I feel secure in it at the same time. I don't even know if that makes sense, but oh well. And if that ends up happening, then you know I'll be up there right beside you on your wedding day.

Joey: What did I do. 🧍🏼‍♂️ River's and Brielle's opinions are the only ones that matter to me, thank you very much.

Nessa: I know, us feeling similarly about it is one of the reasons we bonded so quickly from the moment we met. But our situations are still very, very different so it's just been a struggle to get fully over everything. I've made more progress than I ever thought I would, and Kelsea is the most patient, understanding, and perfect person on the planet. I just wish I could get fully there so that I can give her everything she deserves and not feel like I'm the reason everything has to always get pushed off to "later" or "eventually" or whatever. And I know I've come so far, it just frustrates me that I feel like I still have so far to go all because of Michael.

It’s cute you think I’m Mads with her editing skills. I don’t have enough energy to do all of that.

You have Mads do it, duh. It’s all a plot against me, I see you all.