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More silliness <2/?

#💟#Digital art #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Nny #Shitpost #More sillies and there's yet more I have been saving these up for a whiiiiile lol #So many of these would be fun to draw if I had the energy and focus augh #Honestly half the reason to make these so I have a quick shortlist of references to pull from lol #Want them to exist somehow! Happy to have them here to start with at least!#Finally found the energy to fix some of the details and finish out the rest of them - Nny's hair is different here than last time!#Well - even more different hehe he has three different hairstyles :3 This is his third one and it's much better now I think #I love how snappy a lot of these are but also - I loooove giving Scriabin walls of text they're so himcore ♥#He loves to monologue!! I love when he goes on for ages and ages! My favourite!#I have more of these and the problem is that I Want to do Even More lol #Gonna! try!! to return to Ch. 35 before I settle in for any more of these lol but they are incredibly fun heck #Ideas ideas ideas #Getting back to reading sidefics is both a blessing and a curse #On one hand - more Vargas reading and also makes me want to draw for those - energizing in a specific direction #But oh no that direction is Not Ch. 35 lol and also it's going to give me Specific Sidefic Ideas Ahhhhhh #Calm down for like two seconds!! I can't keep up!!

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The sillies 1/?>

#💟#Digital art #Art #Nny #Edgar #Scriabin #Todd #Shitpost #*tinies them and sticks them to text like good grade stickers*#Sorry for the delay in Ch. 35 doodles I have so many planned and then became utterly possessed by this new project lol #Anyone remember my Helix polyship headshots - yeah that but these lads and then everyone else from Vargas lol #These are but a handful..... I have more................#I've been wanting to compile my incorrect quotes tag for such a while now and Finally found the energy and brainspace for it #I've mostly just been working with the main trio (and Todd) but I have uhhh several more Options for whenever I find some elsewise fitting #I'm gonna see how many of these I can get out of my system and then return to finish out the latest update because it's!!! Good!!!!!!#But for the moment - sillinesses lol #I tried to pick the more mainfic-y ones for this batch there are more general ones in the full set lol #I'll be back with more soon probably - hopefully with a few more of our various faves :3 #And hopefully-er with more doodles!!!

Our little secret

#💟#Doodles #Art #Blood #Scriabin #Mainfic #Ch. 35 #If you're not caught up by now I would Strongly Suggest you do so because I will be tagging with spoilers #Says probably the last person to be caught up this time around lol look I had to reread all of it it was important #Hhhhhghhhh....... What A Chapter #Vargas truly never fucking misses all hits full points #Where do I even start - I guess before reading? Lol blood really was the running theme my blood was So thrummy lol #Excitement and fear and both were correct - I can't remember the last time reading had my breathing up in my chest out of fear #Going from knowing what to expect - from rereading and knowing the beats even if I'd forgotten the details #To out in the open ocean of possibilities - to seeing them /new/ again doing things they haven't done before...#Or even doing things they have done before! But not here not now not like this - seeing it in mainfic really does make the entire difference #And then - And Fucking Then #In our book club I tossed out some speculations - I was just as unaware of what was next as smol!#I figured there would be a perspective shift - we saw it in Ch. 27 to Nny and it was such a brilliant move to pull so far back #Both for Nny's unreliable perspective and so we as the audience get to see everything that Edgar (and Scriabin) doesn't!#But for him to take the chapter...... His first appearance into center stage this deep into it and he finally takes the spotlight #Actually completely shocking I literally Could Not Have Guessed that - he's taken certain sidefics but to take mainfic...#To see behind his eyes - visible and raw and still in the shape of Edgar hhghghk his particular phrasing and thoughts and structure #My notes are named for him <3 Just incredible to get this glimpse ♥#Not that my notes were very coherent lol I got fully caught up in reading after a point haha #And had to make the note a couple times of it being him! His POV!! a couple times before it would settle haha <3 #Just incredible <3 Everything to me <3 Been trying to read him so carefully this time around just to have him laid bare like this #What more could I ask for <3 #Only that they're all okay.... As okay as they can be....

Yours, at least for now

#💟#Doodles #Art #Scriabin #Edgar #Mainfic #Ch. 34 #I've said it before and it still holds true - I love when they talk <3 What wonderful luck that so much of this story is them talking! Haha #Even - especially! - when they're both fucked up and talking draws these horrible emotional highs and lows from them both hh #Scriabin having to deal with neurochemistry of his own for the first time without Edgar as a buffer or filter or distraction #Getting his body to listen to the logical side of him when his emotions are trying to take over - and he has to figure it all out on his own #All his own emotions! All his own feelings! And as much as he's seen Edgar's practice and done some of his own this is still so new #No wonder he tells Edgar to fuck off when he piles sweetness and possessiveness and wanting and Love on top of that haha ;;♥#I doodled their little face touch-bat away last time too but I don't feel like I really captured it properly - take two!#They both know what this means to each other! Well - as much as Scriabin /can/ think things through at the moment haha #Edgar at least knows what this means to him and has some good guesses based on how his other half is acting <3 They're so cute ugh #I love that Scriabin stumbles on the L-Word too - he's able to say it where Edgar and Nny can't because they suck lol <3 #But he's not immune to his upbringing hehe it's very sweet honestly ♥ Just wait til Edgar says it back!! Then what will you do! Cry probably #I really love Edgar's phrasing - I mean generally haha across the board he's written so lovely - but specifically in encouraging Scriabin #He knows him! He still knows him even when they're apart! Wants him and believes in him in turn of Scriabin's belief in him haugh these two #Scriabin putting up his boundaries - very fair boundaries! - is really wonderful as well hehe - and then he lets them drop #Won't say it - won't admit it! - but does give his tacit permission and returns in earnest hhh not just acceptance but choice #Crying throwing things and so on lol - he's so tsundere about it it's so adorable <3 Both asking a lot of each other and he acquiesces ♪#And then finally the hugs!! I have to draw all of them!!!! Maybe some extras here due to running out of room for Ch. 33 lol it's important!#Again that call and response they do - Scriabin asking for his attention and praise because even if he's been degraded for much of the day #Edgar sees him and knows him and wants him and loves him and that's truly what matters to him hh ♥#And of course he'll continue to dance around the outsides of Edgar's willingness towards suspicion lol everything plausible deniability #They are So silly <3 No less in Edgar's little promise to keep him safe haha it's a very cute line!#I know he means it and honestly it really suits him <3 A lot of Edgar is nearly uncomfortably earnest and very sweet and cheesy hehe #And just this once Scriabin doesn't pick on him for it - takes the opportunity given to be close and snuggles right in because who knows...

It’s been a long day, let’s put this to bed

#💟#Doodles #Art #Juan #Scriabin #Edgar #Todd #Mainfic #Ch. 34 #Once again: No they will not be doing that lol <3 At least not right away haha got a lot to talk about first!#The release of the first half of this chapter is So needed and So wonderful for it tho <3 We get some sillies ♪ We get to see Juan!! Yes!!!#Smol and I are in complete and utter agreeance - Juan is The Best and we love him <3 He's wonderful so delightfully creepy ♥#Love that he plays overly familiar because he knows these two! So good to see them! And mess with them <3 Make them squirm hehe #I really need the Diablos to host a neighborhood BBQ and Edgar and Scriabin and Devi and Tenna (and not Nny) are invited <3 #I really do like all the empty glasses we've got in this set :3 Edgar for being out of it and Juan playfully hiding hehe <3 #And Scriabin just regular-hiding! Poor thing has had a rough day and Juan is intentionally messing with them hehe <3 #If ever there was a time not to be on his social A Game - plus he needs to make a decent impression for Todd's sake #I love love their little asides to each other haha they are Not effective in keeping Juan out of the know but it Is adorable <3 #It's so obvious that he thinks they're cute I love how In Love they are to everyone Except themselves and each other lol - Devi also agrees!#Also this probably only entertains me but I enjoyed making Edgar's button down clearly less expensive than Juan's lol #Only a yoke across his back and Juan's has French cuffs - Juan is older and has more to show for it! His smile lines in particular :3 #Alright enough about him (never! Lol) onto Todd yaayyy sonboy is here and he's so sweet!!! Holding Scriabin's hand awh #Concerned for both of them in his little ways! Edgar gets jealous but he also gets worried over back at the apartment they're so cute #But first! The car ride home hehe <3 Scriabin is So much in the car lol they're both still very raw :')#He again-again-again reaffirms that he's so much the older brother role in encouraging Todd to swear lol #Neither of them are the good dad!! They both suck at this!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 I love that about them so much hehe <3 Trying anyway #Of course Scriabin would think of Edgar as the mom not just for gender role reasons but like - is Edgar not Everything to him lol #Not beating the son allegations at all Scriabin this is a very normal dynamic lol ♪ What's that one TFS Hellsing quote lol #And ending out with Scriabin waiting for him <3 I actually had smol model for me for that one hehe helpful lad :D I love the wording used...#I don't think I quite capture its simplicity honestly - hands over ankles - but it's such a lovely succinct description I had to draw it <3

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#💟#Doodles #Art #Nny #Edgar #Scriabin #Devi #Mainfic #Ch. 33 #I sat down to draw like two things to round out the last third of Ch. 33 and ended up like five in excess lol - it's just all so good!!#Had So much fun with that high perspective shot with Nny ♥ Clearly since I did a similar pose with Devi later haha #I actually see her more from behind and with Edgar in frame - so much of the camera angles are different in my head I'll get 'em eventually #Whole sequence of Nny going for the Vargases has a dolly zoom effect in my head augh so cool ♪ His triangle eyes really do a lot too :3 #I really like so much about his design! His hair and his claws and his rip-tears and stripes and how tiny he can be hehe very enjoyable #And of course any and every time he gets fully bodied ♥ We again say thank you Devi truly The Best <3 #I love how immediately ride or die she is for these two honestly - mostly Edgar but her and Scriabin's relationship is honestly very sweet #I didn't get to include it here - I doodled him hiding over Edgar's shoulder! He should be doing it in the one where Edgar's freaking out #Problem is I just want to draw them snuggling so baaaaddd aauugghh hugs hugs hugs more more #It's in the extras I'll compile them sometime soon - but that he likes Devi and admits it in his little sideways way... So cute so sweet #Anyone who's interested in him! The him part of him not Just Edgar - that she says she prefers Edgar right after haha augh #I understand but ow! All the more reason for Scriabin to invest in their relationship! They have plenty of shit to talk on Nny at least haha #I love how immediately Edgar panics about how Nny can't love him but then thinks and thinks and thinks about what if he did...#It is So weird to draw Edgar without his scars... The two of them looking how they used to so long ago...#What if he'd chosen him on purpose and not out of necessity... What if he'd picked him because he wanted him and not on happenstance #What would it be like to be pursued by the one he's pursuing - what would it mean to him for it to have been a choice rather than acceptance #Hmmmmmm almost like that's The Whole Thing™ to do with Scriabin isn't it - and Scriabin tells him to stop thinking about it #He's the only one who gets to be a choice he's the only one who has the opportunity to change their dynamic it's too late for Nny #He messed up right away from the very start and unlike Some people he doesn't get a do-over of their first meeting #Or well - the dynamic shift of what they are to each other now anyway haha Edgar better not forget what they used to be either!#Nny Could choose him now... He could decide not to kill him but that wouldn't unscar him would it? Haha not that Scriabin can either <3

Well this has been a gas but let’s wrap it up here shall we

#💟#Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Devi #Nny #Mainfic #Ch. 33 #Spoiler: They will not be wrapping here lol #It was sooo hard to pare down a shortlist of lines and setpieces for this chapter it's just All so good augh #Hghhghhhh ''helix'' still fucking wrecks me have I mentioned they're everything to me lately #And hey guess what Just passed five years of my having posted? Ahem ahem:#Y'ever just read something and Know that you're gonna think about it for approximately the next five years #Can confirm - am still thinking about ♥ Did I time it this way on purpose? Hehe :3c I'd be rereading at this point even without the update!#The fact that there's Also the update is just an extra treat augh - getting there!!! For now the last-news hehe #I love whenever the Vargases are in tandem <3 And I think it's Very funny that they both refute it! They've literally been that! Haha ♪#I kept trying to figure what was so familiar to me while drawing Scriabin's bruised eye squinted shut and then was like ''Oh yeah. VUX'' lol #Scriabin gloating... Edgar tells him to knock it off in the moment and then follows up with surprise later that he didn't do worse haha #Just couldn't help himself! Feeling wanted by his world has always been the most important to him but really - now is not the time haha #It is really fun and nice to draw them hugging tho <3 Especially after Edgar forced that hug on him! Vindictive hugging haha #Edgar spelling out for Nny why he wants to keep Scriabin - sets him up for his more self-focused sadness to follow :(#Nny really lost the most of all of them... Some self-inflicted of course haha but Edgar got to keep Scriabin and Devi still hears Sickness #Nny didn't get to keep any of the voices he came In with! His creativity drained his desires repurposed #And even those beautiful memories he worked so hard for... His memory was already pretty shaky and now...#As soon as Scriabin steps Out to check on Sickness - still so cool agh - Edgar goes ahead and engages with that empathy...#He doesn't deserve it Edgar :( It's sad of course! Nny's never had an easy time of anything but Edgar....#As soon as Scriabin's not there to redirect him he goes right back it haha <3 Come back soon Scriabin! So trusting that Edgar's got him ♥#The phone scene is So funny to me lol <3 Phones make a great interrupting force darn them! It's so absurd haha ♪#Love seeing them being cute and domestic! Want to see it all! And Scriabin preening he's so so silly <3 Hehehe ♫

Reunited and it feels so good

#💟#Doodles #Art #Nny #Devi #Edgar #Scriabin #Mainfic #Ch. 33 #Into the last-latest updates!! These still feel new to me lol - haven't read them in a while and have read them less! It tracks #The fact that Nny shows up knife in hand at the ready is honestly very funny to me lol - he's not coy about his stabbing plans!#Once again Thank You Devi - where Would these two be without her honestly hhh ;;♥ Love Edgar feeling weird about being protected too ahh #So much of him raised for independence and he's usually the most pulled-together person in the room! Feeling out of control in fear #And a little ashamed haha get him Devi <3 She has to do everything around here!#I love how obvious it is that Nny's still in love with her <3 His little murder-crush on multiple people in this room! Very cute/dangerous #Personally I see his slap-bruise as on the same side as Scriabin but smol was very convincing in it being on the opposite hehe #First of all for the mirror symbolism :3 Always good <3 But also being the same side as his gunshot wound/missing eye! Hard to argue with ♪#That side of him just cannot catch a break haha - and it's the right side for the Vargases! A full set between them haha #His little smilefade into asking about Scriabin.... Finally reaping what Scriabin sowed over the phone...#Not to mention it was Scriabin's mess on the floor that upped the danger for him - that's /his/ fork #I joked in my notes that Edgar's holding him like someone's going to take Scriabin from him but I mean - yes that's correct haha ;;#Man I haven't drawn anything as big as that central piece in a While - I wasn't going for a dutch angle but it is kind of a neat accident #Nny weighing down the frame and Edgar and Scriabin tilted upwards knocked off balance and barely holding on...#I really don't draw Nny's hooves enough haha - probably on account of drawing fullbodies only so often but even then! Keep forgetting them #His moodswings are as fun to draw as ever haha - picking through the tines before dropping the fork ♪ Talk about capricious hehe #Hhhh the Vargases' little exchange to ground each other and calm down.... Edgar wiping Scriabin's tears away with his thumb #I can't stand them ;; Love them too dearly will laugh and enjoy Scriabin having to deal with his own adrenaline and cortisol but still...#When they're sweet - when Edgar holds Scriabin's hand against him and then Scriabin replies with the same hweh wegh weh #At least Nny's here to bring the silliness back in hehe he is good at that - and bad at it! Haha ♫#Look at the precedent you set Devi! Just because he deserves it! Haha <3 Nny definitely wouldn't be nearly as controlled

Glad to see you’re okay

#💟#Doodles #Art #Scriabin #Edgar #Devi #Mainfic #Ch. 32 #Augh he's so cute they're so cute they're all so cute!!!!! Squeezes them like squeaky toys #Teasing Scriabin <3 He's earned that and more and he's so cute in how transparent he is hehe of course Edgar dreams of you!#He almost certainly didn't have his glasses on since he turned back over to go back to sleep soon after but I felt like putting them on lol #It's worrisome how Edgar copes with with Scriabin being out of his head but at least it doesn't stop him from checking up on him #So cute... So sweet <3 And when the cope doesn't work he worries about him endlessly haha even cuter and sweeter!#Scriabin would be so pleased to see how quickly Edgar progresses through realizing he wants him! Edgar doesn't even hide from it! Much #If only he could see it... That they have to be apart for Edgar to realize it at all augh #Distance makes the heart grow fonder for certain here <3 With a little separation anxiety on top but pfsh it's just a strengthener hehe #Deviiii <3 I love you Devi!! She's wonderful <3 Coming to check up on him - they both put their hand over their heart at one point so cute ♥#I love her commenting on freshly sane-again Edgar haha he keeps being told so - it must be true!#Todd and Devi both say so and personally I think it's because his reaction time is quicker lol - yeah he's more relaxed and himself sorta #But considering Scriabin can't reply in his head anymore and he did A Lot lol - he still waits for him to but that ever-present reminder...#So I think that's sped up his reaction time by Just Enough that he's stopped spacing out so hard haha <3 Different!#Of course he wouldn't notice he thought he was great at masking Scriabin's little asides - he was not ♥ Hehe #I really love how she's written as well her syntax and phrasing - she's clearly well-read and creatively-minded! Suits her very well #But she's also very blunt and to the point - Edgar's wording by comparison is more varied and ''pretty'' hehe <3 Can tell he reads a lot!#The way they speak reflects their personalities so well! Edgar's more soft and thoughtful and Devi is straightforward and action-oriented!#So cool...... I love how everyone is written so much <3 #Yippee Scriabin being punched hehe we all say Thank You Devi simultaneously she's truly the best <3 #Edgar protection squad leader via merit point total haha - Scriabin has too many demerits to qualify lol #She absolutely Should bully Scriabin more he deserves it <3 His crybully nonsense needs a proper reply! Edgar won't do it!!#As proven by him going to get the ice pack ♥ And Scriabin trying to sneak little glances at him while he says he wants him.... Hhhh....

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#💟#Doodles #Art #Scriabin #Edgar #Mainfic #Ch. 32 #The similar setpieces really do showcase how these three chapters are one chapter <3 It's cute and fun! So much time snuggling in bed ♥#Their pillowtalk game is abysmal <3 Absolute delight hehe #I really do love when Scriabin takes Edgar to task for his biggest betrayal <3 He's got like Two things he can Actually hold over Edgar lol #And this is one of them!! It was something incredibly meaningful to both of them and then Edgar gets self-conscious and flighty #And worse - Edgar's right in that Scriabin was killing him and Scriabin had no idea and no intention to carry that out #Blaming him for what he Is rather than what he Does - the nature of him rather than his Choices his Decisions #It's one thing to get mad at him for the hurt he intends to do lol - he'll stand by that nine times out of ten because he's awful <3 #If for no other reason than because he Chose to do it - even if he regrets it he owns it because it was /him/ doing it #Hh... They really could only start healing once Scriabin was out of him - it's finally actually a meaningful choice and not just passivity #And he Is willing to listen to Edgar as he keeps trying to reach out... It's honestly a pretty incredible turnaround for him #Shows not just possessiveness and desire but curiousity! Interest! They love each other so bad haha <3 #Still not ready to believe him outright tho! Anytime Edgar acts Weird (in his opinion lol) he's just like huh haha <3 Edgar crying? Weird #That he calls his tears a ''nice touch'' hhh... Anything to deny that Edgar's being genuine because trusting him ended So badly before...#When he /knows/ that Edgar hates being emotional he Knows!! Why would he do that if not for your sake hgh #Just so hard without proof - Scriabin the liar who love-hates his undeniable evidence hehe ♥#Nightmare time again! For Scriabin this time <3 Edgar is so gentle in his assistance to everyone's detriment lol #Pushes Scriabin's chest flat of air - gently shakes his shoulder - at least he's tenacious with it! It does produce results haha #Scriabin's turn to gasp awake! Mirrors mirrors down to the smallest details #Scriabin looks much more like himself in profile I think... He's so painfully open and unguarded from the front somehow...#I really go back and forth on his eyes! Fun but they don't suit him! Doesn't look like himself!! Definitely The detail of him #Anytime he just says Edgar's name is so sweet hh <3 Checking in with him making sure it's really him and Edgar confirms #Gotta get used to this stat redistribution he's been nerfed significantly haha <3 He'll be back fighting fit soon enough #He's got Edgar as support! He needs it and Edgar's more willing than ever to give it hh ♥ I believe in them hehe

How many ways can you run away

#💟#Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Mainfic #Ch. 31 #Alright at this point I'm actually having fun drawing Scriabin's eyes lol he's so expressive <3 #Doing the thing where the shines represent where he's looking but you can see him back there! Gotta appreciate it while he's new #Scriabin grounding him after another nightmare hh <3 I love anytime Scriabin grounds him but just by existing close to him! Always <3 #It's really nice to draw them snuggling again <3 Feels like it's been ages! Scriabin needs to be confident hehe offensive to Edgar's defense #He's so silly <3 Sets Edgar up perfectly and what does Edgar do to repay him? Freak him completely out lol don't get your hopes up #One last little doodle from my previous notebook sneaking through - you can get a small peek at the order I draw in! Lol #Hates having to utilize Nny in this argument but any piece that moves Edgar closer to him - a necessary concession #If anything it's actually a brilliant long-game play - attribute this early fearful reaction to Nny so Scriabin by comparison.... Hehehe #Part of me is grateful that Edgar is as obtuse as he is because it means we get to see Scriabin being as obvious as he is #He Gets to be this obvious because he knows Edgar's self-imposed blindspots better than anyone and can dance around them #But also. Edgar. I know the whole denial and repression and fear and negative reinforcement but really now #He's an intelligent person he's just So incredibly stupid lol - I love intelligent idiots!! He feels very internally consistent!!! And yet!!#Even goes as far as to ask the Scriabin no longer inside him to point out what he's trying to avoid and hears resounding silence #Shrugs and moves on guess that's something to worry about later Edgarrrrrrrrr auaughagahahuhuh #And even if he asked Scriabin wouldn't tell him! He needs time for this to settle because trusting Edgar's is a fool's errand! Loathing 💖#I love them going shopping together so muuucchhh <3 <3 I want to see them do every mundane thing together and totally bungle it ♥#I had fun with that box haha - a box of candy eggs..... Does that imply that it's around Easter? Hmmm <interested in the timeline voice #Hoodie Scriabin!!! <3 <3 Edgar's right it really does obscure him beautifully :D Though I have it a bit behind his hairline haha #Ugh that Edgar can see his eyes and reads betrayal in them - he really /can/ be emotionally smart especially with Scriabin - /some/times pft #And then the rest of the time.... I mean he doesn't actually understand Why he looks betrayed but he's able to read it at all!! Augh #Scriabin's protectiveness going unrewarded and Edgar even threatening him!! He's manhandled him a bunch already so why not ;;#Scriabin no he's scared too hwaugh these two go bouncing off each other in the worst ways <3 Take their love for each other out on the other #Every little stumbling step into Actually understanding each other and not just going in their usual circles... They can figure it out!!

Relaxing bedtime routine

#💟#Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Mainfic #Ch. 31 #1 through 10 how obvious is it that I started a new notebook in the middle of this set lol #Officially done with that one augh yes I'm so sick of it and glad to be rid of it 🎉 New one tones nicely I think <3 Touch aggressively lol #Works well with the emotionality! Feels nice to work with as I get used to using it - and practice on all of Scriabin's new features haha #Still getting used to Scriabin's sunglasses again - new shape unwieldy! I'll settle into it eventually #'Least he hides his face a lot in these haha - and look! Didn't mix up his outfit timeline this time! Neat :3 #I did for Edgar's tho lol hopefully it's seamless - I had to edit out his usual shirt's stripes to make them his PJs hehe going to bed!#Ugh him thanking Scriabin for the first time..... I mean technically the second but for /everything/ - everything he hadn't up to then #So much of what Scriabin helped him with was just taken for granted - gone along with - pushed on him so he didn't have to feel grateful #Incorrect!!!! Positive reinforcement was So scarce in their body cohabitation - neither of them were good at it all! Always excuses #And of course it's not an easy thing to accept now - Scriabin /was/ awful through a lot of it haha ♪ Worse - what if Edgar has forgotten?#He hasn't <3 He still sees all of you - important! He doesn't have to worry about his legacy As hard but they can't pretend it was All Fine #It wasn't... That's what makes thanking him - Finally hgh - so meaningful... Even if he just bats it away haha <3 Denial! And projection #Edgar hugging him rrghhhgghh this maaaannnn I can't stand him rraghhghh trying to forcefully pull them closer literally! It won't work!!!!#Scriabin doesn't trust like that... It's not that simple and stomping his physical boundaries Definitely isn't how you do it >:0 #He's so impatient... Wants it all to stop hurting and will do anything to that end - Scriabin had to get it from somewhere hhhh #So Scriabin of him! ''I'll do whatever I have to - even if it makes you uncomfortable - because I know what you need'' He Sickens Me hh♥#Scriabin fragile and assertive and calling Edgar a dog tho >>> And even with everything he's gone through he doesn't fully pull away!#I am fully convinced of Edgar Doggy now btw lol I am completely converted over - he likes being called a Good Boy! How did it take so long #And Scriabin Kitty - speaking of bristling - how nice is that textured toning on my new paper tho right <3 #Ugh I love the bitterness of that line... Scriabin's parasitism is The sore spot and anything that feels remotely like an accusation....#Edgar's right tho - they're the only two in such a particular circumstance and the only ones who can help each other #And saying so is so important.... His world still calling out to him where he can hear.... Hhhhh......#I love how many times Edgar repeats Scriabin won't be sleeping there ;; An invitation to be contrary from the very start because he knows...

How’s the taste of your own medicine?

#💟#Doodles #Art #Scriabin #Edgar #Todd #Shmee #Mainfic #Ch. 30 #I can't believe I didn't have any Ch. 30 doodles last time - I think to be specific I had like One (1) but didn't like it lol #I tried to redraw it this time and I still didn't like it! What is it about drawing Edgar kneeling to comfort Todd that's so difficult??#I think it's probably because I see ''kneeling'' as one knee up one knee down but I dunno... Scriabin also kneels but that seems awkward...#Well anyway I'll worry about it some other time - for now it's time for snuggles! Spooning! Morning hug time! Snuggles! Blushing!!!!#My fave blushing... <3 So cute <3 Also feeling less weird about drawing Scriabin's eyes than ever? Hm...#I guess I've moved away from discomfort to enjoyment of drawing Scriabin!Edgar - this too? Just enjoy drawing these lads uncomfortable ♥#Though first they are Very comfy hehe <3 Well Edgar was all jumpy while sleeping but pfsh details - Scriabin is comfy that's what counts #Such sweet little movements of pushing in on his hand - more flush to his chest hehe <3 Scriabin snuggling closer ah #It's not to last what a shame but! We get flustered Scriabin in its wake so I'll take it gladly hehe he's so cute #Also yes I know they haven't shaved yet but this point let me have this lol - one whole day of five o' clock shadow haha #I should just draw them with the fuzz..... They're always cute after all haha #Speaking of Scriabin!Edgar!!!! Hey!!!!! I know that smile on your face!!!!! He's not even in you anymore!!! That's all you!!#What Did Scriabin leave behind... What was Edgar's all this while........ Such good questions <3 #I'm going to be doing so much Blank Slate rewriting lol I knew as early as rereading the end of Ch. 28 but hyewh lol plenty #Smol pointed out to me that Edgar and Scriabin have the same self-soothe now that Scriabin has his own body #I hadn't noticed since Scriabin still doesn't have any hair to catch his hand in - but it's the same motion that Edgar does! Cuuute <3 #I like how itchy Scriabin gets when he feels guilty :3 I'm sure there's nothing else those two sensations are tied to hehe #Get him Todd he's the worst he deserves it <3 And it's not like he'll listen to Edgar about it! Gotta be someone else!#Scriabin sucks at apologies <3 Yet more things he's unpracticed in! Everything practice ♪ Lucky for him Todd is too good for them haha #How dare he make Todd collateral! Even if it's satisfying to see him eat humble pie look who you hurt in the process!#So much for being the better dad than Edgar hm <3 If you're so good at everything then go right ahead and make it all better ♪

A much nicer alternative

#💟#Doodles #Art #Edgar #Todd #Shmee #Twin Todd AU #So this is actually closer to a Part 2 I just haven't drawn Part 1 because I'm still plotting it lol #But this is after they've already figured out the oldest's name and they're following the logic set from that #Hopefully it will make sense if/when I pull together the first part lol #For now! Ollie's name :3 Tada! The younger twin's name is Oleander hehe #Was I maybe inspired a little by the back half of ''Alexander''? Noooooo (yes) lol #I really enjoy doodle-planning because like - I wasn't expecting the older one to be dyslexic and the younger to be a good reader!#But here we are! More differences! I did consider him struggling because he needs glasses but that felt a little too obvious haha #I'm not completely against it tho.... Everyone looks cute with glasses hehe #And Edgar already needs to go to the doctor's with Scriabin! So why not! :3 Checkups for everyone with no certain medical history! Haha #Gifting a name really is what it's all about <3 Finding a good one and agreeing yes but specifically of the other giving it to the recipient #How would you know how it sounds outside yourself if not for someone else! Reflected back from mirror to source hehe #Also for the record I did skim the dictionary myself looking for a good fit lol - I'm pretty sure Oleander also came up on baby names too?#But they don't have access to that so - dictionary lol #I do think it's fun that Oleanders can be anywhere in the white-pink-red spectrum hehe reminds me of my botany classes!#Will always remember my little IZ in-joke to myself on my notes about Tallest Red being pink to start... Time is a flat circle lol #Anyhow! One name settled :) Seems to have gone over well between the two of them! Good for them hehe #Also I need to draw them more like that second to last one they look so cute haha #Kid bandanas eh - just like stripes!

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#💟#Digital art #Art #Full art #Todd #Twin Todd AU #Some non-chapter art to represent the hiatus between 29 and 30 lol ♥ Smol and I actually took a day of rest between reading!#Only the one tho lol back to it soon <3 #''Odd Todds'' ended up being a more apt title than I'd initially planned for - I'm starting to get a feel for what their names will be and #One's going to start with O and the other with T - hm! Somehow wasn't expecting that haha #And yes they are colour-coded correctly - blue gets T and red gets O hehe #Love it when a plan comes together even without meaning to haha #Does this mean I'm going to start tagging their names separately once they're decided oh no lol #A thing I did Not think through fully haha - well they're gathered under their AU tag it's fine hehe #Todd being so present in mainfic now gives me more ideas love to see him <3 #Best boy! More of him!! Double even hehe #I went back and forth on their stripes waayyyy too much lol I think I'm happy with them now at least :)#Considered having them be a bit more matching - like grey smiley face both but that wouldn't work with my b+w doodles!#Distinction in silhouette important when there's so few other signifiers haha #They really did turn out cute <3 He's a cute kid!#Considered them holding Shmee as well but I think he would've distracted a bit too much #Always love hair overlapping hehe <3 The cutes

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#💟#Anonymous #I still haven't caught all the way up yet - we're currently on Ch. 33 at time of tagging #But I can already feel the Newness of these chapters since they were the last-latest update.... So much good stuff in there #And believe me when I get to the doodlesets of these I Will be talking about them again hehe <3 #But yes..... The new-newest..... The latest-latest.......... It approaches #Part of me is sitting in Ch. 33 like ''How can there be more???'' haha <3 I'm very much looking forward to it! /fear /positive #I'm also Really excited to get back to reading the sidefics augh I forgot how much I missed them!!!#Being all the way caught up is definitely The state to read sidefics in but I am getting increasingly hungry for them again haha #I think I even had a dream recently about sidefic order lol #The Vargases have also started showing up in my dreams again <3 I've drawn a few of them but not the latest one! Will have to #Actually got to see Out-Embodied-Scriabin in my dream! Rare drop! Hehe <3 #Good fun in rereading <3 Looking forward to new-reading! Ahh!

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