May 26
desperately need someone to take pity on me & adopt me like a dog & take me into their allergen free home & either force me to go to the vet (doctor) or put me down bc i cannot be living like this man
#;i am in AGONY#;missing the drought bc my house is made of Mold & now that its wet. the mold is growing. & putting out spores.#;& i am DYING i have not been able to breathe for a month. i am literally in constant agony#;i tell family 'i cant breathe' they just go 'sounds like asthma. oh well lol' & we move on.#;like all my problems if i cannot solve them on my own i am fucked & i am a pathetic loser who has developed an inability to do Anything#;learned helplessness incarnate AND chronic health problems. this bitch does NOT have a working brain#;i am getting ZERO oxygen baby & this is VERY BAD because i am Somehow the only one working in my household#;this barely functioning idiot is the one thats gotta pay for it all & i am doing BAD#;delete later if i remember im just so tired i cant sleep at night anymore & sleep used to by my only respite#;the migraines & stomach problems were enough why must i now also not be able to breathe. why.
