I Can't Believe I'm Doing This

Sometimes having an OC is like "this character is an outlet for my insecurity and trauma" and sometimes it's like "this character is an outlet for my love of vampires :)". Sometimes it's both

Sometimes you think it's "this character is an outlet for my love and nothing more :)" and then you look it over later like "shit. product of the deepest depths of my soul again"

What a lovely little post you have here! *Drinks up its wordjuice to add it to my lexicon like some form of Vernacula*

*Sinks my teeth into your vocabillaries*

thank god vampirism is a flexible metaphor

it’s about being queer it’s about surviving assault it’s about alienation and most of all it’s about how everyone who loved you before might not be able to even look at you now, no matter how many times you try to explain that you didn’t ask to die and you didn’t ask for that death to leave you only half-eaten when it got bored of you.

yeah “i can teach you” is kind and gentle and warm and comforting. it’s also hot. right

unsafe insane and nonconsensual

a knife? are you flirting with me

Your capacity for evil is showing

does it make me look cute

to bite. Fondly.

love is stored in the throat offered willingly AND in the teeth sinking in. Or something

Hey hey don’t cry. Character who destroys themself in the end for nothing

“if you love this character then you must make him happy in your fics, right?” wrong. the horror. suffering. internal hemorrhage. hospital. immediately

love it when a location is evil. when a location fucking sucks. when intrinsically it is so bad and evil that it literally is in the air . this kinda works if its only something special can you imagine a parking lot being evil oooooh every time you park into me i subtly adjust my lines so that you're always slightly tilted

Ok I'll bite. you are bleeding now

if you breathe night air, you become a vampire or ghoul. this is known. what's less well known, however, is that if you leave the window open overnight but close the curtains, a pocket of night air will get trapped betwixt. then in the morning, if you open the curtains and take a deep breath, you will begin to ghoulitize, only for the rays of the morning sun to zap the curse of undeath from your body before it can take root. better than coffee!