Goth girl vampire

I was in anguish disaster stroke my life...

I would want just once for life to go the way I wish it was...

The shadows I see scare me but not enough to see fear on my face...

I pretend well but sometimes I slip...

My mind is full of sorrow I don't know who can clean all the dirt and garbage that's on my brain to make it clean like river waters... We all hold on to the things we want but they all mean nothing in the end...

In shadows deep, where moonlight’s kiss

Caresses souls who dwell in bliss,

The gothic heart, in silence sways,

Unchained by those who cast dismay.

Not bound to creed, nor flame of sin,

But where the dark and light begin,

A soul may rise, in faith and flame,

Unmoved by whispers of disdain.

No chains of faith, no rules of old,

Can bind the heart, or make it cold.

For in the night, where secrets glide,

The true self reigns, untouched by pride.

So here I stand, both faith and dusk,

In vampire’s grace, with ancient trust.

Let judgment fall, let silence scream—

Your religious beliefs, sexual orientation, or views on topics like the government or the LGBTQ+ community don’t prevent you from embracing goth style or identifying with the subculture. There’s a lot of diversity in the goth community.

In short, goth is about being true to yourself, so you can absolutely combine your faith and values with goth culture if that’s what feels right to you.

For whoever cares, here you go!

Title: "Strength Within"

By: Nikki Midori kurai Nii

I was breathing to survive, aiming high I strived,

Yet, soaring in the sky, my wings contrived.

I grasp for air, this time it's a tougher climb,

Inhale, exhale, tears blur, but it's not my time.

No, I won't succumb; my inner self cries,

Echoing defiance, wiping tears from my eyes.

Breathe in, let out the cries, the panic sets,

Fear's embrace, the horror that constantly besets.

Strength within, my anchor in the storm,

I cling to hope, promising I'll transform.

I won't let go, even as tears cascade,

Through the dim, when the sun's warmth does fade.

In the shroud of darkness, light may decline,

But I promise, with certainty, I won't resign.

I'll fight against the shadows, a resilient plea,

In yon days of yore, my spirit did assail,

A tempest within, I could no longer curtail.

As moments waned, their import diminished,

'Twas as though existence, to me, no longer replenished.

Hark, witness my life, where shadows intertwine,

Beneath the shroud, demons, and horrors malign.

Daily I bear the guise of camaraderie,

Yet beneath the friendly smoke, pain doth reside in me.

Verses by Nikki Midori Kurai Nii, titled "When Ye Can Bear No More..."

The ceaseless struggle unfolds day by day,

To better oneself, an endless fray.

Though kin profess aid, their grasp fails,

In the tapestry of my being, their solace pales.

Life's tapestry, woven with threads both fair and foul,

Yet an ajar portal to solace, I discern not its prowl.

Trapped, solely in that realm, nothing avails,

Deeper I delve, yet discovery consistently fails.

None fathom the essence of my plight,

Words falter, understanding eludes, despite.

Confusion, a labyrinth where escape is vain,

Torment thrives, driving the spirit to self-inflicted pain.

Inaction prevails, for every endeavor errs,

Authority's rule, a rebellion incurs.

What course to chart when love's connection frays,

Bound by blood, their actions, a mind's disarray.

A curse, benign kindness, and sweetness impede,

Exploited, I yearn for freedom, indeed.

Loathing all, let them shun my path,

Fatigued by virtue, and kindness' aftermath.

Oh, the world, a tormentor of the blameless,

Innocence tarnished, a cruel game, relentless.

When the dusk arrives, I may be lost and forlorn,