nix

(updated 6/29/23)

really?? i’ve never watched the Pitt but i’ve heard about some of the couples i think? mainly the sapphic ones, unless i’m thinking of another show.

I ADORE the way you write about queerness in IHHU! And the way it’s so clearly different between Cassandra and the farmer.

Cassandra who only knows the village and the (likely) love and acceptance from her family, who has likely never known any kind of queerphobia and if she has she doesn’t remember. Everything is just so normal to her, but I suspect her hesitance when the farmer was first coming onto her to be her awkwardness with never having dealt with such things before.

AND THE FARMER… Someone who was raised outside the village and likely faced queerphobia of some kind (and maybe that’s why they prefer to be so isolated?) throughout their life and has learned what a lot of queer folks do: that you are predatory and wrong simply for existing. Their hesitance to admit they have feelings for Cassandra doesn’t stem only from her violent attitude, but also from the fact the farmer has just made an unlikely friend and does not want to ruin it by saying they have a little crush on her.

On top of that, the thing I love the most is something I rarely see but when it’s done well it makes me so emotional. The fact that the farmer doesn’t have many friends, doesn’t socialize (or hasn’t been properly socialized as a child, for a few reasons), and yet who was the first person to accept them for who and what they are? Who accepted them without question? The LITERAL CANNIBAL. I know that queerness is often labeled as bad and wrong and ties in with things like vampirism, but I love the way you’ve described all of this.

Anyway, all this to say I love the way you have crafted this world to be similar to ours but also so different. I find the farmer very relatable as a person for so many things they do/let happen. I could go on and on but for now I will leave you with this. I’m so excited to see what else you have in store ❤️

AAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!! i’ve done my best to integrate “modern” (as IHHU isn’t actually modern times) ideas on queerness into my writing. Farmer, whose grandfather had other things to worry about than his very visibly queer grandkid, has likely been isolated from their peers in the way i’ve noticed a lot of queer people are. it’s like cis/het people just kinda know ? like the vibe they get that you are different from them, though Farmer’s is a for a few reasons, for sure.

(spoilers under the cut, do not read further if you’re not up-to-date in IHHU)

In Her Heart Undying

Would she live up to the idea Miranda had in her head or would Eva hold her accountable to her actions and if Eva did would Miranda confront her guilt and wrongdoings or claim Eva is nothing but a illusion meant to torture her

I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS ON THIS.

i don’t know that it says anything in the lore as to whether or not Miranda does see Eva again, but i have some thoughts. as far as canon goes, my interpretation is that Miranda is so far gone, even if she got Eva back and she looked/acted like herself, she wouldn’t recognize her daughter. i think she has this image in her mind of what their family could be and how Eva would look, but she wouldn’t actually recognize Eva.

as far as other thoughts, they go one of two ways:

1. Miranda and Eva DO meet again in a stratum of the megamycete. Eva is, perhaps, a little afraid of this Miranda, but accepts her all the same, like a “feeling” she has that this is her mother. they are finally together again.

1.a. (which version of Miranda would Eva even see in the megamycete? pre- or post-infection? which version of post-infection? so many thoughts and more)

2. Eva’s consciousness is not even in the megamycete for some reason, and though Miranda can try and try, she’s never going to see her again. if infected people’s consciousnesses are trapped in the megamycete, Eva is unlikely to be there and is instead used as leverage against Miranda.