He nodded again, laughing softly with a shake of his head. It had been very strange and hard adjusting to life at the castle, and maybe it was just because he was drunk, but he felt like he was finally getting used to it. He seemed oblivious to Valentin's staring until he spoke again, glassy eyes turning to the vampire with raised brows. It was question Briar had been asked quite often, and each time he had no problem reciting his adored past despite the sadness it brought.
"I mean, it wasn't super exciting or anything, very domestic," He started, smiling softly at the memories of cooking for his fiancé, watching movies, decorating for holidays, planning a wedding. Even drunk it brought pangs of mourning to his heart, but he continued through despite it. "I was engaged, I had three cats, a big garden, a bookcase so full that if it fell over on me I would definitely die," Immortal fae or not, those books were out for blood. He had plans to get another one to make it weigh less, but he ended up here before that happened. It seemed using past tense came easier now, like he wasn't desperately clinging onto hope that he'd be saved anymore. "It was amazing, really. I miss it."
Valentin's gaze became wistful as Briar described his life before the castle. He wished he were the type of man who could have, once upon a time, had the time. His past was so soaked in blood that he knew even before being turned into a vampire that he would never be able to settle into a life of peace and quiet. Fighting and war always followed him. The violence was a dormant animal beneath his skin, ready to wake at the first sign of danger. He couldn't even imagine what such an idyllic little life would be like for himself. Who he might settle with. He always imagined himself alone.
"I am sure you do," Valentin said softly, not at all sarcastic or mean. He understood. "It sounds like the kind of life I would enjoy were I not married to my duties. I am sorry that you were ripped from that to be here. I hope at least your time with me, now and in the future, eases at least a part of you while you are here."




















