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//Don’t worry, still here. I can’t work on stuff between calls at work anymore and things have been a bit hectic lately, so I’m sorry for the lack of updates!

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I'm the saddest person in the entire world for JUST discovering this blog. oMfG, you don't know how badly I wish I was one of the first fans, I aM SOBBinG. Everything is literally what I imagine Vanitas to be and the perfection is above of what I can put into words. I humbly offer my trashca-- SOUL, MY SOUL, to you. (ŐωŐ)
//Heeey, better late than never, right? Welcome to the partyyyyyyy!!! But ahhh really, thank you! Honestly, he’s such a little shit it still surprises me how many people like him and want to interact, but it’s so fun!
Your Vanitas is Amazing! I know he'd hate it but I love him! Please keep up with this! Your art style and everything is just Awesome!!! :)
//Thank youuuuu. Hahaha, yes, he doesn’t take compliments well, but the sentiment is appreciated! <3
did xehanort ever make you a vessel too?
No. I'm already a pure Darkness, and even if it's falling apart, I still have a heart of my own.
Besides, I'm not like the rest of them. I don't have a shell for him to possess; I'm just made of darkness. Ven got to keep our body.
//Hi again VanMOD! I was wondering if it's alright if I draw YOUR Van and albescentprince's Ven in some of Xion's asks responses regarding the two (and being in Sora's heart in general). I shot VenMOD an ask as well. If you're not cool with it, it's fine, thanks so much! Have a good day ;u;
//HEEEEEEY it’s totally fine with me!!! Actually i’m really flattered????? ;u;
Thank you for asking, too! Gosh. I hope you have an awesome day, too!!!!

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((SOMEONE SAVE THIS CHILD))
//I have plans to. It just involves some things that have to happen, including that blasted third comic I’m still plugging away at off and on. ALSO THANK YOU SO MUCH YOUR WONDERFUL TAGS ON ALL THE REBLOGS MAKE ME SO HAPPY AHHHHHHH
your blog is destroying me inside, especially with the venvan. thanks for existing and please continue doing what you're doing
// ;v; Thank youuuu. I know vanven’s not for everybody (as seen with the ask I posted this morning), but it’s encouraging to me to hear that you do enjoy it (and I know others do, too, based on the comments I’ve seen), so I don’t regret letting it trickle in. *hugs* Thank you for sending such a wonderful message, and I hope your inside will survive D: Feels can be vicious. And with all this positive support, I don’t plan on stopping any time soon ;D
Thank you <3
So would you mind explaining the glorious theory behind why Vanitus says "ventus" and believes that he's the real one? Also I'm totally with you on Xehanort being terrifying. That old fart needs to pay.
//Sure! Now a lot of this is headcanon, but it is rooted in the official Birth By Sleep novels. So let me preface this by point out that UNLIKE the manga, the novels were written by the Kingdom Hearts game creators/scenario writers. Whether or not they are part of the same canon as the games (whereas the manga definitely is NOT canon), they ARE true to the creators’ vision, and originally Nomura himself was going to write them, so canon or not, they are the most official backstory available since the game itself does not expand on Ventus’s past or the 4 years between the split and BBS hardly at all, but the novels do exactly that.
In volume 3 of the BBS novels, there is an entire chapter devoted to describing Vanitas’s creation, narrated by Vanitas. It also has some Xehanort centric moments. In that chapter, it describes him remembering some things from immediately before the split. In fact, the first Unversed is created from the fear he remembers feeling. Ven, of course, cannot remember things from before the split and only eventually recalls the events surrounding it. Events from much earlier are never elaborated on, but now we delve into headcanon territory- I’m reminded of a movie about magic tricks and murder called The Prestige. (spoilers ahead). There is cloning (?) involved, and one thing that always struck me is that the clones (alternates/doubles created with full memories of the original man’s entire life) always assume they are the original because they remember everything. One survives, the other is killed every time. The survivor states that he got lucky and always ended up being the one not to die, every time, but it’s implied that the one that dies also remembers everything- it’s impossible to know if one is real or not. My point, if the average person was suddenly split into two (you, for example), but you didn’t feel any different and haven’t lost any memories, even if you were actually the double, wouldn’t you assume that you were the original, because you remember everything?
My case for the headcanon here is that Vanitas does imply in game (by confronting Ven about the events leading TO their split, which Ven cannot recall at first), and in the novels, that he remembers SOME things from before, and Ven doesn’t, and he KNOWS Ven doesn’t remember- I decided that he would assume (since he remembers being Ventus, and Ven DOESN’T remember being Ventus), that he is still “Ventus” even if he got ripped out of their body. He might also assume that Ven isn’t really the same person, just a new persona that formed in the shell he left behind, from his Light (and the foreign heart that saved him). And in a way, this is VERY VERY TRUE. The novels state that Ventus, prior to the split, had a very different personality from Ven. Ventus was a pessimist, nothing like the mostly cheerful boy we know of the games.
I don’t assume necessarily that Vanitas remembers EVERYTHING from before in canon, but I do feel that it’s not a far stretch at all to decide to write him that way, as the game and novels only have evidence supporting this take, and nothing that really contradicts it. And it’s more interesting from a storytelling standpoint, for me, to write him as an Alter who thinks he is the original and remembers being the original, even if he’s not really any more “Ventus” than Ven himself is. It creates interesting internal and external conflicts for him, also supports his initial loathing and hatred for Ven, to the point that he thinks Xehanort SHOULD take Ven away because Vanitas can’t promise that he won’t kill the comatose boy in a fit of rage.
Also from the novels is the fact that Xehanort does beat Vanitas with his keyblade along with the verbal and emotional abuse, and VEN is also terrified of a raised keyblade when he cannot remember anything and is more or less catatonic, so it’s implied that Xehanort’s abuse goes much further back than the split, to the point that along with his combat skills, Ven has a conditioned fear of keyblades, thanks to Xehanort’s abuse. He gets over it, but still. It’s sad.
I hope that helps explain my reasoning behind my characterization for him!
I really love your blog and I was so happy to find a vanitas that portrayed him as messed up and dark as he is in canon, but I was kind of disappointed when vanven became a thing- not that I have a problem with it but I just don't see either of them ever being capable of liking each other. ah, I just wanted to say because I am worried now that most asks will be about the ship because of the fandom and stuff,, I am sorry I still love you and ven's blog a lot
//and this is why the about page mentions the tag #the vanven vector. All posts that have anything remotely vanven will use that tag, so just blacklist it if you want to avoid those. And the majority of the asks, thankfully, aren’t actually about the ship, so don’t worry. I have a back log of about 50 asks right now, and most of them are about other things, so hopefully that will be okay.
Thank you though, I am glad you like the blog! :D
Some days I wonder that, myself…

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// was there any drawing on this blog that gave you a rougher time than others?
//THIS ONE, BY FAR. I spent HOURS just trying to get the tilt of the head, the shape of the mouth, and the shape of the one raised eyebrow right. It STILL doesn’t quite match what I saw in my head, but I was ready to be done with it lol. I think it at least accomplishes what it’s supposed to accomplish, though. ;D
From this post.
I thank God everyday for your Vanitas blog, so glad we convinced you to start it & that you're happy with it, plus I see all the wonderfully expressive art, love your gesture style, my issue has always been RELAXING because my style is TIGHT AS HECK
//gdsklghsdgdsaklfj Ahhh thank you. Not gonna lie, i look forward to your reblog tags because holy hell they’re always really motivating TvT. I’m so glad you all convinced me to go through with it, too, because it’s been SO MUCH FUN. I also feel like Vanitas really pushes me to be even more expressive than before, and being inundated with so many interesting and thought-provoking questions is really good practice lol.
Ahhhh man, I think part of it is that I draw entirely digitally tho. Having an undo button is a godsend. or being able to color with white on black. It allows me to loosen up and not worry about muddying up my lines because I can always scrape them back out again if need be. I don’t know if you use a tablet, but it might be worth a shot to see if that helps you loosen up a bit, if that’s what you’re trying to do?? <3
Seriously though, thanks for always leaving such lovely feedback <333
And thanks for sending me such a lovely message ;v;
Especially yours.
Some days I wonder that, myself…

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//Vanitas is the NaCl to Ven’s C12H22O11
Though he does have a point. You wouldn’t notice the difference.