one day it will make sense

*internalized screaming*

I feel so fucking disconnected. I try to be vulnerable but vulnerability just makes me feel out of place and people don’t know how to react to me trying to open up. People want me to share but then shut down or tell me what to do about how I feel when I do. It’s the same fucking thing my entire life. I don’t always need advice or suggestions sometimes I just need someone to let me feel how I feel and be a space where I can do that without feeling shame.

I miss my family so much

When will it get better? I keep holding my breath but fear I’m just waiting to drown.

I’m not cut out for this

I am so fucking exhausted. The world sucks.

Feeling like my life is about to be fucking upended.

There’s so much of my life I wish I could erase

I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.

I’m so fucking exhausted I just want it all to stop

I am so tired of constantly feeling like I’m the fucking problem everywhere I turn.

I feel suffocated and overwhelmed.

I wish I mattered to the people that matter to me.