The Princess: 20 something dreamer with a diamond heart. Satoru’s consort and Sylus’s Kitten. This blog is Satoru Gojo centric, but I’ll write for other characters from time to time as well.
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PREVIEW—Chapter One: Now That She’s Back in the Atmosphere
❀˖° Pairings: Ex-Husband!Gojo x American Photographer!Reader
❀˖° Series Rating: Expicit (MDNI) 18+
❀˖° Content Warnings: Heavy angst
Masterlist // Based on these headcanons
“Mommy, I used the potty all by myself!” Ender practically squeals with excitement. His snowy white hair bounces as he runs over to the sink, nearly tripping in the process. He’s at that age where he’s trying to be as independent as possible, while still being a little too small for some things. He looks so cute in his little outfit—the brown pants, button down shirt, and suspenders you picked out for him this afternoon. It’s a pity he’s pretty much a carbon copy of his father. You went through all the work of carrying him for nine months and gave birth to him entirely alone, only for him to come out looking exactly like his father. Figures.
You can’t even think his name. If you think about him for too long, your eyes start to well up with tears. Being back in Japan has been nerve wracking to say the least. You keep expecting to see him everywhere, to turn a corner and there he’ll be, but you’ve been reminding yourself that it’s a big city. The likelihood of running into each other is slim to none.
The last time you were here, you had your heart ripped out of your chest, still beating, by the love of your life. Since then you haven’t been the same. Some part of you was broken beyond repair by him. You haven’t been able to trust and every relationship you’ve tried has gone up in flames as a result. It would be easy to blame it on being a single mom, but it’s not Ender’s fault. It’s you, you’re the problem.
“Good job, baby,” you say warmly, watching as he tries to stand on his toes to try and turn the water on.
“Can you help please?” His request is so heart-meltingly polite that you have to bite your lip to keep from bursting into tears, although he’s still working on how to make ‘pl’ sound properly. He’s getting so big now and neither your mind nor your heart can keep up. Unfortunately, the kid is sprouting up like a beanpole. It’s starting to look like he got his father’s height as well. You’re already dreading the day that he gets taller than you, but you know it’s going to happen eventually.
Slowly, you walk over to your son, a soft smile on your face. His blue eyes sparkle at the praise and he bounces on his toes. Flipping the water on, you watch as he runs his hands under the water, giggling as he plays with the strong stream, using his finger to block parts of it at different angles. With a shake of your head, your smile deepens as you help him get soap into his small palms. It feels like just yesterday he was so small that he rarely left your arms, now he insists on doing everything himself. Stubborn boy.
“Mommy, can I go to the moon one day?” He asks, looking up at you as he rinses his hands.
“You could go to the moon if you wanted. Maybe even to mars,” you say softly, shutting the water off once his hands are sud-free. “But Mommy would miss her little astronaut a whole awful lot,” you add, your fingers trailing through his silky soft hair, the same snowy white of his father’s. “Now, go dry those mitts, bucko. Mommy’s gotta pay for dinner before we leave.”
Ender giggles and runs over to the hand dryer. With a grunt, he slaps the button, but he manages to get the machine going. You head toward the door, pulling it open to call over your shoulder, “Hurry your cute lil butt up.” But you turn your head back to look out into the hall, your heart drops like a stone into your stomach. It feels like the world comes to a screeching halt.
Satoru.
He looks the exact same. How can he look the exact same? It’s not fair. Here you are—wider hips, tits that don’t sit up the way they used to, a little curvier than you used to be. And he looks the same.
No. No. No. No. This can’t be happening. A look of horror and panic crosses your face as you stare into the vivid blue eyes that match Ender’s exactly, the mop of silky white hair he never could seem to get a handle on. It’s cut differently though. He wears it with an undercut now.
He breathes your name. The voice you’ve dreamed about, the same one you’ve had nightmares about. You can’t seem to move, you can barely breathe, and you want to grab your son and book the first flight out of Japan. Fuck the photography showings you’re supposed to do, fuck every single one of your plans. “Hi,” he says like he didn’t shatter your heart into a million pieces, like he never ruined you for anyone else.
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꧁ mdni. angst. did someone say doomed yuri for pride month?? little mermaid inspired. set in the 19th century-ish. ꧂
"there's my pretty girl."
you shouldn't be so flattered.
not when the pretty blonde coaxing you over had ensnared you far more than any siren ever could.
"you should not speak so-"
"sincerely?" yuki interrupted, her pretty pink lips curling up in a soft smirk you were all too accustomed to. effortlessly charming, her tail splashing the water behind him as you sat down on the shore, readjusting the long dress around your legs.
you had to sneak away from your village, branches and thorns snagging at your ankles on the craggy path to the ocean. it was still far too freezing for most people these days, a rather bitter breeze in the air from a cool spring that felt more like a second winter.
"they will expect me back soon," you informed her with a sigh, drawing faint shapes with your finger in the sand beside you as you avoided her petulant pout. "i told them i was picking berries and collecting firewood."
if they knew you were fraternizing with the merfolk, you’d surely be called a witch. maybe worse.
you didn’t want to consider what they might do if they knew you were fucking one.
they might string her up, claim that there was nothing wrong with feasting on fish, send you to a sanitarium.
her lips were pinched together when you looked up, displeased that she had to share you in any capacity. “you told me that you'd stay longer today."
"i know," you whispered, swallowing the lump in your throat.
"at least swim with me," she whined, her tail splashing in the shore, the yellow scales glittering in the sun.
"is the water not freezing?" you exhaled, not that you weren't terribly tempted to join her.
"i'll keep you warm," she teased.
the shallow-minded villagers would never understand the spell she had on you - even if she had legs instead of a tail. could never comprehend how you were always going to end up stripping off your tattered dress and stepping into the water.
you would always choose her.
even if your teeth chattered as the water rose to your chest, nipples perking up as she immediately threw her arms around you and pulled you into her.
damp skin pressing against yours, the salty scent clinging to her hair as she buried her face into your neck with a greedy inhale. dragging you deeper into the waves, her tail cutting easily through the water as you let her take you where she wanted.
"i missed you," she murmured, her big brown eyes glittering as her gaze shifted down to your breasts.
and before you had the chance to tell her how much you missed her too, her mouth was wrapping around one of your peaked nipples, sucking softly as if the taste of saline didn't bother her one bit. the pressure was immediate, your stomach fluttering as you sifted your fingers through her silky hair, gasping her name as her sharp teeth skimmed over the sensitive bud. "y-yuki, we-"
the beach was still within view, the two of you visible for anyone passing by to see.
"mm?" she hummed, long lashes fluttering as she looked up at you with that familiar mischievous glint in her stare. her hand sliding up your hip along your waist as your resolve weakened.
"we should be more careful," you warned, doing your best to sound stern even if your body was softening for her all on its own. melting into her hands.
"why?" she whined, her mouth slowly moving up your sternum, daintily crossing higher, ghosting over your jaw to press a quick kiss to the corner of your mouth.
"what if we get caught?" you whispered back, tentatively caressing her cheek when you pulled away. kicking your feet to stay afloat, her tail tickling your calves as she let out a twinkling giggle.
you had spent years in love with her laugh. bonded by mutual understanding, sharing your burdens in stolen moments like this, cursing all those fools who wouldn't understand your connection.
your family would expect you to marry eventually. settle down and start a family. hers wanted her to find a mate. urging her to migrate south if she didn't find anyone here suitable.
she had more freedom than you did though. they wouldn't force her to be with someone she didn't want. had oceans she could swim to and start over in.
"there's a sea witch," yuki conspiratorially suggested, tucking a loose strand of your hair behind your ear. nuzzling her nose against yours, leaning forward so her forehead was resting against yours. "she has a spell that could let us finally be together."
"yuki," you murmured, shaking your head, stomach twisting with suspicion, unease crawling beneath your skin at the chance the two of you could end up cursed even more than you already were.
"she'll give me legs, and-"
"i could never ask you to change," you shut it down as softly as you could. "and even if you did, my village, my family, they wouldn't approve of us."
"so what if they don't?" she huffed, brows pinching together in frustration. "we can go somewhere else."
with what money?
you were both women.
anything you earned went to your father rather than you.
and what terrified you even more was the idea that she'd be miserable as a human. resent you once she realized that being together didn't mean happily ever after.
"what is she asking you to do for her?" you asked, struggling to voice all the concerns that were taking shape in the back of your head. as much as you craved her presence, ached for her smile, her skin, the most you'd ever accepted you would have of her were these secret meetings.
"my voice for legs," she admitted, stubborn as ever, chest rising with the sharp breath she sucked in. water droplets racing down her beautiful breasts, beading up before returning to the ocean.
no.
you would rather waste your life as someone else's wife than never hear her voice again. to never hear her laugh, to know she gave it up for you, was a kind of torture you couldn't bear.
"it's my trade to make," she insisted, sensing your incoming refusal.
this wasn't her.
she was sturdy. strong. an enigma you'd spend your life enthralled by. ethereal being you were just lucky enough to hold for a little while. build a statue for, devote altars too, offer all your love for.
but love could never be enough.
it didn't magically make her a human, or make you a mermaid.
"you can't make it for me," you muttered, dragging a thumb over her eyebrow, chest straining to contain your heart while it threatened to crack and crumble under the weight of your adoration. you tried to kiss her again, lips barely grazing over hers before she pulled back to scoff.
tilting her nose up in the air, frustrated by you not automatically agreeing to her absurd plan. "you can't stop me."
you couldn't.
but you couldn't watch her do this to herself either.
fratjo never goes down… unless its you, of course ! (⸝⸝> ω <⸝⸝)
the first rule of being satoru gojo was simple: you never, ever went down on a girl.
“it’s undignified,” he declared, leaning back in the worn-out frat house armchair, one leg slung over the arm. a bottle of cheap beer dangled from his fingers. “like, biologically, it makes no sense. you’re putting your face in a swamp. a swamp.i have standards.”
his friends—a chorus of nodding, beer-addled bros—laughed and clinked bottles in agreement. “preach, man!”
“seriously,” gojo continued, warming to his theme, his white hair glowing under the shitty fluorescent light. “what’s in it for me? the view is mid. the taste is questionable. naaah. my talents are better utilized elsewhere.” he gestured vaguely with the bottle. “let them worship me. that’s the natural order. i’m a giver, sure, but that’s just… not in my repertoire. ever.”
he said it with such absolute, unshakeable conviction that it became gospel in the frat house. gojo doesn’t eat pussy. it was a known fact, like the sky being blue or his ego being planetary in size.
cut to three hours later.
the same satoru gojo is currently buried so deep between your thighs he might need a rescue team. the arrogant smirk is gone, replaced by a look of single-minded, desperate devotion. his glasses are discarded somewhere on your bedroom floor.
“fuuuhhck,” he slurs, the word muffled against your skin as his tongue—that clever, wicked tongue he claimed was too good for this—lashes your clit in tight, frantic circles. “fuck, fuck, fuck… mmmh, so good…”
he’s not just doing it. he’s feasting. one large hand pins your hip to the mattress, the other is tangled in the sheets like he’s holding on for dear life. the wet, obscene sounds filling the room are coming from him as much as from you— slurps, groans, hungry hums that vibrate straight to your core. each flick of his tongue draws a new, breathy moan from him, a symphony of whines and low, possessive growls.
you card your fingers through his sweaty white hair, tugging gently. “t-thought you didn’t do this,” you gasp, arching into his mouth.
he pulls off just enough to growl, his lips and chin glistening. “shut up,” he breathes, pupils blown wide, looking utterly pussydrunk. a string of saliva connects his lower lip to your folds. “you taste like fucking heaven. ‘s different.” he nuzzles back in, inhaling deeply with a shuddering sigh. “god, you smell so good… mmph…” then he dives back in with a needy whimper, his nose pressing against you as he laps at your entrance, drinking you down like a man dying of thirst. every swallow is punctuated by a soft, satisfied groan from the back of his throat.
he’s lost all composure, all his cool, frat-boy posturing dissolved into a primal, whimpering mess. he moans into you, a continuous, low-pitched moans synced with the thrust of his tongue, his hips grinding uselessly against the mattress. when your legs start to shake around his head, he lets out a muffled, encouraging “yesssss, c’mon, baby, g-give it to me— n-need it s'bad—”
when you finally come, crying out his name, he doesn’t pull away. he rides out every pulse with his tongue, swallowing every drop, a deep, resonant sigh of pleasure vibrating against your oversensitive flesh until you’re pushing his head away, trembling and spent.
he collapses beside you, breathing raggedly, a dazed, blissed-out smile on his slick lips. he looks ruined, triumphant, and utterly, completely yours. he lets out a long, shaky exhale that’s almost a laugh.
“…okay,” he pants after a minute, turning to nuzzle your shoulder. he presses a lazy, open-mouthed kiss to your skin. “maybe i do go down. but only for you.” he licks his lips, still tasting you, and lets out another soft, involuntary sigh. “and you better not tell anyone.”
"we'll see about that," you just smile, running a thumb over his swollen lower lip.
❀˖° Pairings: Ex-husband!Gojo x American Photographer!Reader
❀˖° Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
❀˖° Series Content Warnings: heavy angst, past infidelity, current infidelity, pregnancy mentions, discussions of body changes due to pregnancy, domesticity, obsessive behavior, explicit sexual content, breeding kink, squirting, oral (m receiving), oral (f receiving)
❀˖° Based on these headcanons
Art Credits to the amazing @/3-aem
Synopsis: Six years ago, Satoru made the biggest mistake of his life. He was weak and cowardly. He slept with his assistant. Six years ago you left, went back home to America much to his parents’ joy. And he was left to rot in his misery and the cost of his own actions. The passing time felt like an eternity lost in the twilight between sleep and a wake. Once bright and alive, Satoru became a marionette version of his previous self. But not once has he forgotten you. He can’t. Every fiber of his being still belongs wholly to you.
On the surface, Satoru Gojo has the perfect life. He’s newly engaged, has just taken over as CEO of his fathers’ company, and his parents are finally satisfied with him. Except, the night of his engagement party, at a random restaurant in Tokyo, there you are, more beautiful than ever. And to his shock and horror, you’ve got a little boy on your hip who may as well be his carbon copy.
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・
Table of Contents:
❀˖° Chapter One: Now That She’s Back in the Atmosphere
❀˖° Chapter Two: You’re an Angel, I’m a Dog
❀˖° Chapter Three: Bitter and Sick
❀˖° Chapter Four: Left a Taste in Your Mouth
❀˖° Chapter Five: I’ll Keep My Lanterns Lit
❀˖° Chapter Six: Shrike to Your Thorn
❀˖° Chapter Seven: Aperture Lets the Light In
❀˖° Chapter Eight: American Girls
❀˖° Epilogue: The Last Shred of Truth
A/N: This is a new miniseries I’ll have coming out soon. I don’t know when the first chapter will be out, probably by the weekend. Teaser should be out tonight though!
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❀˖° Pairings: Ex-husband!Gojo x American Photographer!Reader
❀˖° Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
❀˖° Series Content Warnings: heavy angst, past infidelity, current infidelity, pregnancy mentions, discussions of body changes due to pregnancy, domesticity, obsessive behavior, explicit sexual content, breeding kink, squirting, oral (m receiving), oral (f receiving)
❀˖° Based on these headcanons
Art Credits to the amazing @/3-aem
Synopsis: Six years ago, Satoru made the biggest mistake of his life. He was weak and cowardly. He slept with his assistant. Six years ago you left, went back home to America much to his parents’ joy. And he was left to rot in his misery and the cost of his own actions. The passing time felt like an eternity lost in the twilight between sleep and a wake. Once bright and alive, Satoru became a marionette version of his previous self. But not once has he forgotten you. He can’t. Every fiber of his being still belongs wholly to you.
On the surface, Satoru Gojo has the perfect life. He’s newly engaged, has just taken over as CEO of his fathers’ company, and his parents are finally satisfied with him. Except, the night of his engagement party, at a random restaurant in Tokyo, there you are, more beautiful than ever. And to his shock and horror, you’ve got a little boy on your hip who may as well be his carbon copy.
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・
Table of Contents:
❀˖° Chapter One: Now That She’s Back in the Atmosphere
❀˖° Chapter Two: You’re an Angel, I’m a Dog
❀˖° Chapter Three: Bitter and Sick
❀˖° Chapter Four: Left a Taste in Your Mouth
❀˖° Chapter Five: I’ll Keep My Lanterns Lit
❀˖° Chapter Six: Shrike to Your Thorn
❀˖° Chapter Seven: Aperture Lets the Light In
❀˖° Chapter Eight: American Girls
❀˖° Epilogue: The Last Shred of Truth
A/N: This is a new miniseries I’ll have coming out soon. I don’t know when the first chapter will be out, probably by the weekend. Teaser should be out tonight though!
❀˖° Pairings: Ex-husband!Gojo x American Photographer!Reader
❀˖° Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
❀˖° Series Content Warnings: heavy angst, past infidelity, current infidelity, pregnancy mentions, discussions of body changes due to pregnancy, domesticity, obsessive behavior, explicit sexual content, breeding kink, squirting, oral (m receiving), oral (f receiving)
❀˖° Based on these headcanons
Art Credits to the amazing @/3-aem
Synopsis: Six years ago, Satoru made the biggest mistake of his life. He was weak and cowardly. He slept with his assistant. Six years ago you left, went back home to America much to his parents’ joy. And he was left to rot in his misery and the cost of his own actions. The passing time felt like an eternity lost in the twilight between sleep and awake. Once bright and alive, Satoru became a marionette version of his previous self. But not once has he forgotten you. He can’t. Every fiber of his being still belongs wholly to you.
On the surface, Satoru Gojo has the perfect life. He’s newly engaged, has just taken over as CEO of his fathers’ company, and his parents are finally satisfied with him. Except, the night of his engagement party, at a random restaurant in Tokyo, there you are, more beautiful than ever. And to his shock and horror, you’ve got a little boy on your hip who may as well be his carbon copy.
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・
Table of Contents:
❀˖° Chapter One: Now That She’s Back in the Atmosphere
❀˖° Chapter Two: You’re an Angel, I’m a Dog
❀˖° Chapter Three: Bitter and Sick
❀˖° Chapter Four: Left a Taste in Your Mouth
❀˖° Chapter Five: I’ll Keep My Lanterns Lit
❀˖° Chapter Six: Shrike to Your Thorn
❀˖° Chapter Seven: Aperture Lets the Light In
❀˖° Chapter Eight: American Girls
❀˖° Epilogue: The Last Shred of Truth
A/N: This is a new miniseries I’ll have coming out soon. I don’t know when the first chapter will be out, probably by the weekend. Teaser should be out tonight though!
LA Love Song—Chapter Four: Someday, I’m Gonna Take You Breath Away
Pairings: nepobaby!Gojo x stripper!reader
Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
Chapter Content Warnings: Explicit sexual content, angst, fingering
WC: 12.9k
Chapter Three // Masterlist // Chapter Five
Art credits to the lovely @/nsoda
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚Chapter Four: Someday, I’m Gonna Take Your Breath Away ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
(Your POV)
You get the call that night when you’re lying in bed watching TV in your apartment. You’re not really watching the show though, you’re completely zoned out as the show drones on in the background. To your irritation, you find yourself thinking of Satoru. He’s taking pieces of you, of your mind, without you even realizing it. That’s not a good sign. Letting out a sigh, you slump further in the bed and tilt your head back to stare up at the ceiling. You should cut him off, right? That would be the smart thing to do. So why does it feel so bad when you picture actually doing it?
The tinny jingle cuts through the quiet of your apartment, jolting you out of your thoughts. The club’s number flashes across your screen and you just know this has something to do with Satoru and his promises (threats) to take you out on a companionship outing. You stare at the device, the screen lit up as it screams obnoxiously in your hand. You should ignore it. You should pretend you never heard the phone ring, go in tomorrow as normal, and play dumb. Still, you can’t just ignore a call from the club. For just a second, your hand clenches tight around your phone, so hard your knuckles blanch, but somehow you find yourself sliding your thumb along the screen and tapping the button to put it on speaker.
“Hey, what’s up?” All you hear at first is muffled shuffling on the other end.
There’s a stretch of silence, some more rustling before Higuruma’s voice comes across the line, “Sorry to bother you so late, but we just got a call-in request from a membership holder. They’d like you to spend the day with them tomorrow.”
The whole day? It has to be a joke, right? Satoru told you what he was going to do but you didn’t expect him to want the whole day. Most clients only want dancers for an evening of entertainment, like for a gala, or a date, or whatever. Not Satoru though. No, that would be too easy. Your teeth grind together as you say tightly, “Okay, what client is this?” Even though you already know the answer, you still want to hear him say it.
“His name is Satoru Gojo, the trust fund kid that keeps requesting you for private dances,” There’s a pause and the sound of the line crackling in your ear, before he continues, “Are you okay with that? I’ll turn him down if you want.” There’s a reluctance in his tone that tells you that Satoru is probably paying an obscene amount for this. The thing is that you know Higuruma means it. He really will tell Satoru to kick rocks if that’s what you want.
You realize you’ve been quiet for too long so you rush to get out, “No, no, it’s fine. I can handle him.”
“Is there something I should know about? Some sort of history here?” He asks, his voice steady and calm. You’ve known Higuruma for a long time. He was the one who got you into stripping after Suguru left to help with your self-esteem and it worked.
Pursing your lips, you take a while to answer the question. Silence stretches out again before you reluctantly murmur, “History? Yeah, you could say that.” He only knows the bare bones of what went down between you and Suguru because you hate talking about it. It makes you feel as pathetic as you did five years ago to talk about it, although if someone were to ask if you’ve moved on, you’d swear up and down that you have. Have you though? Have you really moved on if you can’t even talk about it? You shake your head to clear and add, “But it’s fine. I can handle Satoru Gojo. Besides, how can I say no when he’s willing to blow his seemingly endless supply of money on me?”
“You sure?”
You nod, even though he can’t see you, and say, “Yeah, I swear. I’m good.”
“Alright, as long as you’re sure,” Higuruma replies quietly, “If you feel uncomfortable at any point, just let me know and I’ll have him banned.”
You picture the look of outrage Satoru would have on his face if he showed up at the club one day only to find out he’d been banned. It makes you let out a little chuckle and you say, “Alright, I get it. I’ll let you know if he does anything awful.”
But the thing is, Satoru hasn’t done anything awful, not yet anyway. Sure, he’s been a bit of an arrogant ass, but that’s just Satoru. He hasn’t been cruel, hasn’t tried anything beyond what you’ve let him; he’s actually been kind of … nice. The thought unsettles you. It’s hard to reconcile the Satoru you’re beginning to know now with the Satoru you knew five years ago. It almost pisses some small, bitter part of you off. Why couldn’t he have treated you like this five years ago? But then, that would have come with its own set of complications.
Higuruma hums, and says, “He’ll pick you up from the club at 11 AM. He said to have you wear something casual, but bring something nice along with.” There’s another pause, where a rough exhale comes across the line. He must be smoking. Faintly in the background, the faint click and scrape of a lighter striking repeats over and over. He sniffs and continues, “Word on the street is the kid’s a real party animal, and an arrogant ass to boot.” Well, the word isn’t wrong. Satoru is all of those things and worse. “Just be careful, alight?”
“Don’t worry, Higuruma. I know what I’m doing,” you say, but they feel like a lie even as they’re coming out of your mouth. Honestly, you have no fucking clue what you’re doing, not at all.
“Okay, well, I’ll let you get back to your trashy reality TV,” he says with a chuckle. He knows you too well.
You scowl and say defensively, “How do you know I was watching reality TV?”
“Tch. It’s after eleven and you’re at home. Of course you’re watching that shit. You eat it up,” he teases lightly, huffing out a breath of laughter. “Goodnight, babes.”
Rolling your eyes, you mutter a quick goodbye. The phone beeps three times when the call ends and you lower it from your ear. The silence of your apartment seems louder than before, even with the TV droning on in the background. Setting your phone on the bed beside you, you hunker down into the covers.
As much as you tell yourself that you’re agreeing for the club’s sake, for the money, for the enjoyment of making him squirm, there’s a small piece of you that might actually be looking forward to tomorrow and seeing just how far Satoru will take this little game. That’s what this is to him right? A fun little game that he’ll walk away from once he gets bored. There’s no way this actually means something to him, that he actually cares. If there’s one thing you know all too well, Satoru Gojo’s heart is three sizes too small, only enough room to fit two inside: Suguru and himself.
♡
The next day, you arrive at the club fifteen minutes before Satoru is due to pick you up. Since he said to wear something casual at first, you threw on a form-fitting little pair of black shorts over some black stockings and a crimson, lace corset-top. Over the top, you’re wearing a cute, thin little black, button-up sweater. A pair of velvety platform boots ties the look together. Thrown over your shoulder though, you’ve got an opaque white dress bag, a silken black cocktail dress inside and a pair of black satin Manolo Blahnik pumps with an ankle strap embellished in Swarovski crystals. They were a gift from another client.
The club isn’t even officially open yet. They don’t open until noon, but you’re almost certain that Satoru just kept throwing more and more money at Higuruma until your manager caved to whatever ridiculous demands he made. He’s annoyingly persistent like that. You go in through the club’s back entrance, unlocked for the staff who are arriving before opening to clean and prep. It opens to the kitchen, where people are already bustling around.
Some of the cooks wave to you or call out a hello. You smile and wave, but don’t say anything. You’re not really in the mood to talk. Anticipation and anxiety war inside your body, or maybe they’re one and the same. It makes your stomach roil, twist itself up into knots. If you tried to eat something right now, you’d throw it right back up. Weaving through the club, you go through the playroom and down a hall next to the bar, where Higuruma’s office is.
When you knock on the closed door, he calls out from inside, “Come in.”
You push the door open to find him sitting at his desk pouring over paperwork. A monogrammed fountain pen rests between his fingers as his downturned dark eyes rove over an expenses sheet. “Morning,” You say, slipping inside and shutting the door behind you. Crossing the room, you take a seat in the chair opposite him. It’s not a very comfortable seat, but then again, maybe it’s not supposed to be.
“Morning,” Higuruma says, straightening his hunched posture and raking his long fingers through his short, spiky dark brown hair. He looks up at you, eyes flicking up and down your outfit. “You look nice. Sure you’re not looking forward to this?”
“Tch. Don’t say such stupid things,” you snap defensively, glaring at him. But your face is turning how, a crimson flush spreading across the apples of your cheeks, the tips of your ears. Inside your chest, your heart stumbles.
He raises his hands in surrender, large palms face you, “Hey, okay, didn’t mean anything by it. Just curious.” But the knowing smile he gives you, as if he can see past all your blustering and defenses, makes you only want to snap back harder. He taps the pen in his hand against the wooden desk. “Although, that’s a pretty defensive reaction from someone who shouldn’t care.”
“Are you trying to pick a fight with me this morning?” You ask, arching your brow up at him, “I’ll throw hands with you. Don’t play games with me.”
Higuruma chuckles and says, “Alright, alright. I get it.” Letting out a breath, he glances at the clock and says, “He should be here soon.”
You nod, chewing your lip a bit. The truth is you’re dying to talk to someone about the twisted tangle of emotions that Satoru has growing in your chest. More than anything, you need an outside perspective on this. “He’s my ex-husband’s best friend,” you blurt out.
Dark brown eyes blink rapidly at you across the desk. His brows draw together before he asks slowly, “And how do we feel about that?”
You shrug, “I don’t know. It’s, uh, kinda worse than that though. He’s sort of the reason our marriage ended. He hated me from the very beginning, treated me like crap. And then, he set my husband up to cheat on me. It was a mess.”
“Yeah, a mess is one way to put it,” Higuruma says with a chuckle, “Jesus, why didn’t you say anything? I meant it when I said I’ll have him banned if you want.”
Sighing through your nose, you don’t answer for almost a full minute. Eventually you say, “I know that. I just, it feels nice that the tables have turned, you know. He used to hate me and now he wants me. I’m not immune to—“ you shake your head and let out a frustrated huff of air, “—I’m not immune to the petty satisfaction.”
Higuruma hums and leans back in his chair. His eyes flick up and down you, “Well, then, enjoy the petty satisfaction. If you’re having fun with it, then have fun with it. Just because he used to be an ass to you, doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to enjoy the attention.” He pauses, tilting his head, “If he was a dick to you when you were married to his best friend and he’s not being a dick now, maybe he didn’t hate you as much as you think.”
Your eyes narrow on him “What the hell does that mean?”
Just as he’s about to open his mouth to answer, the phone on his desk interrupts with a string of sharp rings. Higuruma picks it up and answers with a gruff, “Hello.” There are a few exchanged words that you don’t pay too much attention to. It’s not a long conversation. Less than two minutes later, he’s hanging the phone back up. “He’s here. Pulled up to the front doors.” Pushing himself, up Higuruma stretches, his large body taking up a lot of space in this small office. He’s almost as big as Satoru is.
Lifting your dress bag and the heels over your shoulder again, you follow him out. The closer you get to the doors, the more nervous you feel, but you’ve already come this far. When you reach the front door, Higuruma pulls the club’s keys from his pocket and unlocks it. He gives you one last look, an expression that you can’t quite read, “Good luck.”
You just nod and murmur, “Thanks.” Without any more waiting, you steel yourself and head outside. Sure enough, Satoru’s murdered out Benz is pulled up to the curb. The black paint is so glossy that the sun’s reflection against the hood makes you squint and you raise a hand to block the shine. Opening the back door first, you drape your dress bag across the back seat and set your heels on the floor. Once that’s settled you slide into the front passenger seat.
“You look so pretty, baby,” Satoru says as you settle into the seat and buckle in. He looks good, really fucking good. Black slacks, a red shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows, button open at the collar, revealing the hollow of his throat.
“I’m not your baby,” You snap, glaring at him.
His lower lip juts out in a pout and he gives you those puppy dog eyes that normally get him whatever the fuck he wants. But a second later, that pout is splitting into a sly smirk and he teases, “I mean, you kind of are. At least for the rest of the day.” His blue eyes are dancing, his smile turning smug.
“You’re an ass,” You bite out, shooting him a venomous expression.
“Takes one to know one,” he counters swiftly. But his eyes are startlingly soft. So soft that you have to look away because you can’t take it. He hums and says, “Alright, you ready for the awesomeness?” He sounds so proud of himself that something thumps in your heart. It’s like listening to a little kid babble excitedly about winning their spelling bee, “I have everything all planned out. You don’t gotta worry about a thing, princess.”
Something in your chest aches, but you can’t bring yourself to deal with it. So you slump in your seat and mutter. “Whatever. Let’s just get this over with.” Just to be mean, just to hurt him. Your jaw clenches, molars grinding against each other.
“You wound me, baby,” he says theatrically, hand slapping over his chest as if he’s been struck in the heart by an invisible arrow. But he makes no move to pull the car out. You swear you can hear his heartbeat slamming against his ribs, or maybe that’s yours. After a long stretch of silence, he says quietly, “Look, I know deep down you hate me, and I fucking deserve it. I know I deserve it, but do you think that maybe just for today you can be a little bit nicer to me? I’m not asking you to sing my praises or pretend you’re hopelessly in love with me. But I’m—I don’t know—I already regret how I treated you back then and … I’m sorry. Okay? I was a complete and total dickwad to you for years. And you never deserved any of it.”
“You don’t have to do this.” You let out in a rush, sitting straight up as you look back over at him. Pure panic courses through you. You don’t want to believe Satoru is changing because it’s easier to hold onto your anger, your self-righteous pain, than face the truth you don’t want to acknowledge. A small voice in the back of your mind whispers, Without your rage, what do you really have? “The past is the past and it is what it is. Don’t apologize. You did what you did and it can’t be changed.”
“No, I wanna—“ he starts, thin silvery brows drawing together.
“Satoru, let’s just go,” You cut him off, “Really, your apologies aren’t necessary.” You’re certain it’s your heart now. You can feel it trying to jailbreak the cage of your ribs, slamming against them so hard that you feel sick. Your eyes burn with unshed tears and the worst part is that you don’t even know why you feel like you’re about to cry, but you just do.
Satoru gives you a conflicted expression. The problem is that Satoru is an open book, as much as he thinks he’s an enigma. He might hide a lot under humor and bravado, but once you understood that, it was quite easy to read him. His eyes are so sad, sadder than they have any right to be, that unflinching optimistic flippant arrogance is nowhere to be seen. “Alright, but I wish you would just let me fucking apologize,” he mutters.
“Why? Why do you feel the need? It doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t fix what you broke. All it does is serve to make you feel better about how shitty you were back then,” you snap at him, clinging to your rage with your nails carving crescents into your palms. As soon as the words are out of your mouth, your teeth sink hard into your lower lip hard enough to draw blood. The tang of copper spreads against your tongue, a little of the warm crimson smearing across your lip.
“That’s not—I’m not,” he stutters and you’ve genuinely never seen him this fucked up. His features set with frustration, his mouth opening and closing as he struggles to find the words to express whatever it is he wants to say. Slowly, he reaches out and uses his thumb to pull your lip free of your teeth. It’s a gesture so intimate that you freeze, “Don’t do that.” The pad of his thumb smears a droplet of blood over your lower lip.
You can’t help how you’re staring at him. There’s such melancholy softness in his eyes that it makes you want to throw up. “Satoru—“ you start, trying and failing to keep your voice from shaking.
“For the record, apologizing to you doesn’t make me feel any better about what I did to you back then,” he cuts you off this time, punctuating the sentence with a bitter smile. “And I’m fully aware that no amount of apologies can ever fix or make up for what I put you through, but I’d spend the rest of my life trying if there was the smallest chance you’d ever forgive me.” His palm cradles your cheek, the touch unbreakable tender. It makes your head spin. “I really am genuinely sorry for everything. I was immature and selfish, hell, I’m still pretty selfish. But I … I want to be a better person. You make me want to be a better person.” He pauses, his expression serious as those pretty blue eyes roam over your face. His throat bobs before he continues in a tone laced with quiet agony, “Even if you cut me out of your life again, I’d still try to be better for you. I never want to treat anyone the way I treated you ever again.”
Your lower lip trembles and you have to look away from him. You can’t fucking take this. Tears well in your eyes. Why is he doing this to you? Why couldn’t he have changed five years ago? Your mind is in a fucking tailspin, or maybe it’s a sort of free-fall, but you can’t help imagining what it will be like when you finally hit the ground. “Okay,” you choke out, forcing your voice to stay as steady as possible. It’s the only thing you can say without losing your shit, whether sobbing or ripping him a new one is a game of Russian roulette with half the chambers loaded.
“I’m pouring my heart out here sweets. And all I get is an okay?” He laughs awkwardly, like he’s more hurt than he’s trying to let on. You can hear the tap-tap-tap of his thumb hitting the steering wheel. There’s a soft rustle, him shifting in his seat probably. You bite down hard on your tongue, using the physical pain to ground yourself. Then, softly, gently, Satoru murmurs, “You cryin’?” You know it’s not a question though. He’s not asking, he’s confirming. “Don’t do that, sweets. I don’t want you to cry over me anymore.”
“I’m not crying, you asshole!” You can’t help but shoot back angrily, a blatantly obvious lie, quickly raising your hand to scrub the tears away. Anger. Irritation. Good. Those are things that won’t make you look pathetic. You tentatively look back over to him, only to catch him sucking your blood off his thumb, his sweeping white lashes fluttering closed for a second. Fucking freak.
He pulls his thumb from his mouth with a wet pop before tilting his head in your direction. “Yeah, sure. Whatever you say,” he says, clearly not believing you for a second, which only makes your teeth grind together. He’s really asking for a good smack upside the head. “If you did need to cry, I wouldn’t judge you,” he adds after a second, finally throwing the car into drive to pull it smoothly away from the curb, “Just this once.” At least he’s finally driving instead of focusing so much on you.
Sniffling quietly, you wipe away the lingering tears as surreptitiously as possible. You’re not so subtle for Satoru not to notice, but to his credit, he doesn’t say anything else about it. But, his hand slides across the center console to grip your thigh, heavy and warm. His thumb sweeps gentle circles over the thin, gauzy material of your stockings.
The sky is a bright, cloudless blue overhead. Before too long here, the LA sun will devour the city whole, making everyone in it swelter and sweat. It shines into the cabin, though muted by the dark window tint. As always, LA traffic is a bitch and a half to deal with, but Satoru muscles his way through it with ease; probably because he drives like a fucking asshole. He noses his way in front of people, cuts them off, and speeds through any open gaps he can get. Although, he doesn’t run any red lights and he does use his blinker (most of the time) so there’s that, you suppose.
The streets around you start to look very familiar as Satoru heads into downtown Los Angeles. Before long, he’s driving down Grand, passing the Gloria Marina Grand Park and then the Walt Disney Concert Hall. Your eyes catch on the Museum of Contemporary Art as you go by, the distinctive red brickwork and green roof unmistakable. That must be where he’s taking you. For some reason that makes your stomach do weird little flips and for a second you feel like you might be sick.
Satoru turns onto 4th, then makes another immediate turn onto Olive. He parks in the garage beneath the California plaza. Luckily, he somehow manages to get a freshly vacated spot near the entrance. After he pulls into the spot, he shuts the engine with a twist of his wrist and reluctantly lets go of your thigh. “Well, we’re here.”
You shift in your seat to look at him. “The Museum of Contemporary Art? Really?”
“Of course you figured it out. I dunno, I just thought that you probably still enjoy art,” he says, one corner of his mouth lifting, “Didn’t think taking your clothes off for strangers would really change that.”
You scoff. “God, you do something actually kinda cool and then you open your fucking mouth and ruin it all.”
His little half smile breaks into a full-on beaming grin. “Hah! You admitted it. I did something right.” The curve of his lips softens into something that resembles affection a little too closely for comfort. Leaning forward, he taps a finger against the tip of your nose and teases, “Maybe by the end of this date you’ll be able to admit that you might like me a little sometimes.”
“Keep dreaming,” you snap, shooting him a glare.
Satoru lets out a sigh and replies smartly, “Thanks. I will.”
Smug, insufferable bastard. Rolling your eyes, you say, “Ugh, let’s just go inside. You’re being ridiculous.” You turn your head just in time to hide the little smile starting to tug on your lips.
The two of you get out of the car and start out of the garage, falling into step together. Every once in a while, Satoru’s arm brushes against you. Inside your chest, your heart does a weird little skip every time it happens, which you dutifully ignore. It’s a little over a block to the museum from the parking garage, but you don’t mind the exercise; it’s a nice day out, after all. But Satoru’s words sit heavy in the back of your mind.
You clear your throat and look over at him. Eventually, you mutter, just loud enough for him to hear you, “This isn’t a date by the way.” It had to be said. Just in case. Just in case of what? Just in case he means it? But Satoru rarely means anything he says.
Satoru tilts his head to look at you, that strange, intense expression he watches you with flaring in his eyes. “Oh? Then what is it?” Before you can react, he’s reaching down and grabbing your hand. One by one, his fingers interlace with yours. His skin is warm and soft, his hand huge compared to yours.
“Are we really gonna do this?” You ask tightly, trying to tug your hand away from his. This is heading to close into couple territory for you to be on board. His fingers only tighten around yours to make escape impossible. Huffing out a breath of irritation, you bite out, “It can’t be a date because you paid for me to be here.”
But Satoru only chuckles and purrs, “Hard disagree, that’s just chivalry.” At the expression in your eyes, like a cat watching a toy it's about to pounce on, he adds playfully, “Any guy of decent standing knows that unless requested otherwise, it’s just the right thing to do to pay for the date. Lucky for you, I’m a real gentleman.” The little fucking brat is having fun with this.
“Satoru?” You say sweetly, dragging out the syllables of his name.
“Hmm, what is it, sweets?”
“You’re an idiot,” you reply flatly just as you make it to the entrance of the museum. Since it’s a weekday, the museum isn’t as packed as it is on the weekends. It’s still fairly busy just because MOCA is a popular museum, but at least you won’t be packed in like sardines.
Satoru tugs you along to the ticket booth where he pulls out his phone to show the employee what you assume to be reservations. The museum is free; most people get reservations though to make sure they don’t have to wait in line. It might be a little slower today, but it was smart of him to get them, just in case.
There’s something about art galleries that invokes a special, peaceful feeling in you. Maybe it’s the scent of the cleaners they use, or the hushed nigh-on reverent tone people use inside them, or maybe it’s the art itself. Something could be said for the act of being surrounded by pieces of souls put on display. Art is the greatest act of love one can commit.
Your eyes trail across the different pieces, expression softened so much that you almost look like a different person. Slowly, you walk from piece to piece in the Rothko section. The different geometrical squares and rectangles, the explosions of color, the messy blends. It speaks a language spoken in the heart, the hands, and the soul. You stop in front of No. 61–Rust and Blue. As you study the painting, your brows furrow in concentration and you bite down on one side of your lower lip. Glancing up at Satoru, you’re startled to find that he’s not looking at the painting at all. He’s looking at you.
♡
(Satoru’s POV)
She looks so fucking beautiful. The words play in his mind over and over in a loop. That shine in your eyes, the peaceful, studious expression on your face, the way you bite your lip—those little details make his heart do somersaults in his chest. He had chosen this place with care. He hoped that you still loved art like you used to, that he hadn’t ruined that for you as well. If he had killed your love of art, he doesn’t know what he would have done. Then you look up at him and he almost fucking panics like a dumbass. Your pretty eyes meet his and he’s never felt so fucking raw before someone in all his life.
“You’re staring at me,” you tease, your eyes lighting up with humor.
He swallows. “And? What of it? Can’t a man admire the most beautiful exhibit in the room in peace?”
“Tch. Do those shitty lines ever actually work?” You bounce back immediately, rolling those pretty eyes.
His hand squeezes tighter around yours and he gives you one of those big smiles that’s more of a taunt than anything else. “Often enough,” he goads unabashedly. You just snort and take the initiative to pull him along to the next piece. It occurs to him that he could spend day after day doing this, taking you places and buying you things, just watching that expression on your face. Happiness. He’d do anything to keep you just like that.
You stop in front of the next painting. The placard reads No. 9—Dark over Light Earth. He doesn’t really get this art. It’s a bunch of squares and color, but you seem to like it, so he refrains from being an ass about it. He wonders, yet again, if he’s the reason you gave up on all those dreams you had in college, dreams of being featured in a gallery exactly like this, of sharing your art with the world.
He takes a breath before finally asking what’s weighing on his mind. “Serious question,” he falters for a moment, debating whether or not he really wants the answer to it. But he has to know, so he sighs and continues, “Uh, why did you become a dancer?”
You look away from the painting and back up at him, “Why do you ask?”
“Curiosity mostly,” he answers with a shrug. But he can’t bring himself to lie to you, so he admits a second later, voice softer, “I just, y’know, I know that I’m the reason your marriage ended. Even though it’s not my fault Suguru was an ass throughout the divorce, I don’t know, it’d just suck if I was the reason you ended up doing that, especially if it was something you didn’t really want to do.” He swallows down the feelings of guilt simmering in his throat.
For a moment, you just blink at him, your eyes roving over his face like he’s a machine you’re trying to pick apart and understand the inner workings of. Then you say with more gentleness than he deserves, “Don’t worry, Satoru. The fact that I became a stripper is one thing we can’t pin on you.” You pause and look away from him, like you can’t bear to maintain eye contact as you say the next part, “I was pretty depressed after the divorce. Suguru was all I had and I poured everything in me into him. So, naturally, once everything fell apart, I was … empty. And I started looking for anything I could get my hands on to fill that emptiness.”
“Hey, I really—“ He starts trying to say something, anything, to show how fucking sorry he is for everything. And he’s not just sorry because of the way things ended up. It eats at him day in and day out.
“Let me finish before you start in with the apologies again.”
He nods and lets you pull him to the next piece, murmuring, “Right. Okay.”
“Higuruma and I knew each other back in college. Let’s just say that he and Suguru were academic rivals,” you explain and somewhere in the far reaches of Satoru’s brain he vaguely remembers the guy now. Wow, drugs really do a number on the memory. He’d completely forgotten about him.
“We reconnected over some dating app that I was just using to get no-strings-attached dick. For a little while there, we were sort of friends with benefits. He noticed how sad I was and how low my self-esteem was so he took me to Imperial and had one of the dancers show me the ropes. It helped build my confidence, made me feel like I had some control over something.” You explain the whole thing pretty succinctly, absolving the guilt he feels over that portion at least. “The money is another reason why I’ve kept doing it. I still do art on the side.” You giggle, a sound that makes his heart jackhammer, and add, “If I didn’t want to be doing this, I’d be doing something else.”
His mouth feels dry and his voice is tight when he says, “I see. Well, I’m glad it’s been a net positive experience for you then.” Then, his silvery brows knit together, his face scrunching up like he’s tasted something sour. “You used to fuck your boss?” He frowns and quickly adds, “Do you still fuck? Are you guys, like, together?” The thought makes him want to throw up all over the shiny floor.
“Is that all you took away from that?” You ask flatly, glancing at him again. His expression changes into a glare, which draws another laugh from you, and you say with a shake of your head, “No, we don’t sleep together anymore. It was just for a few months in the beginning. We’re friends more than anything else.” Pausing, you give him a sly smile and add, “Why? You jealous?”
He scoffs. Once already, he’s admitted to being jealous and all you did was threaten and tease him. “No, but …” he trails off and lets out a long sigh before muttering, “It irritates me to think about. “
“You claim you’re not jealous and yet you describe the symptoms of jealousy,” you tease, your little smirk breaking into a full-blown smile—little sadist. You’re enjoying this.
“Tch, fine, believe what you want,” he says shortly as he lets go of your hand to pull you closer against his side and slide his hand into the back pocket of your shorts. Then he gives the curve of your ass a nice, firm squeeze. He just can’t help himself. It looks so cute in those little shorts. There’s also the bonus of distracting you from his jealousy.
“Satoru!”
“What?” He asks innocently, leaning in to rest his head against you
You slowly look up at him, the murderous look in your eyes filling him with an odd sensation in his chest, like a bathtub overflowing with foamy bubbles. “Are you seriously copping a feel right now?” You hiss and it sends a shudder down his spine.
Your head swivels back and forth, like you’re worried someone is watching. The other patrons are all milling about in their own groups, focused on the art, none of them giving either of you a second glance.
He leans in even closer to whisper against your ear, “I mean, we could go to the bathroom and you could let me cop a better one.” The tone leaves it up for debate whether he’s joking or being serious. His smirk forms against your skin and he adds teasingly, “I for one, feel like I’m being subtle.”
“Have you ever felt shame before in your life?” You grouse at him as you start to walk over to the next exhibit, forcing him to come along as well.
Satoru shrugs and says, playing theatrically dumb, “Shame? What is this shame you speak of? Never heard of her before.” The soft classical music throughout the building swells a bit louder for a heartbeat. Then, he continues more seriously, “Honestly though, what’s there to be ashamed of about taking the things you want?”
“Of course, a spoiled little brat would have that outlook,” you mutter. The muscles in your jaw flex from your teeth grinding together. For a few minutes, you stand there in silence, but he can tell you want to say something. It’s in the set of your shoulder. Just as he’s about to open his mouth to goad you into it, you say sharply, “You know not everyone can simply take what they want when they want. Some people spend their whole lives working to get what they want only to never see it because the system was stacked against them from the beginning.”
Blinking at you for a moment, his mouth tugs into a lopsided grin, “Are you lecturing me on privilege?” He presses a kiss against your temple, unable to help himself. Softly, he murmurs against your hair, “It’s kind of hot.”
Your jaw drops and you angle your head enough to look at him and you say with sweetness that belies your words, “Sometimes, you make me wanna slap the shit out of you.”
“Oh God, please do,” he groans quietly. His long, sweeping white lashes flutter closed as he fantasizes about you doing just that. What a fucking turn on.
“You’re really screwed up in the head,” you say like you’re stating a fact.
Satoru hums and says cheerfully, “Hate to break it to you, sweets, but you are too. That shit you pulled last time? Sucking me off with him on speaker? Only someone as twisted as I am could come up with that.”
You shoot him another look that’s pure venom, but you don’t argue with him, so he knows he’s won. Satoru finally pulls his hand from your ass pocket though and wraps it around your shoulders instead. This way when you stop to look at pieces he can wrap himself around you from behind like a starfish, chin resting on your shoulders instead as you talk about the artists, color theory, and your thoughts on certain pieces. He doesn’t really understand any of it, but he listens anyway just because it’s you. But if it gets you to let him keep you close, holding you and touching you, fuck, he’d listen to you talk about watching paint dry.
In the quiet moments between words, when he’s just got his arms around you, face burrowed into your hair while you take in the artwork, in those moments he realizes he feels more content than he ever has before. Truthfully, he doesn’t really care about the art. The only thing he cares about is the expression it puts on your face. It doesn’t matter that you and he are surrounded by strangers, their conversations flowing around you like water, because right now, it’s just you and him in this world.
In this world, you were never married to his best friend. In this world, you’re just a woman and he’s just a man and there are no walls or barriers between you. In this world, maybe he could have you the way he really wants to. What wishful thinking. He can’t tell if it’s a lofty dream or a fantasy.
As you near the entrance of the museum, Satoru notices you starting to slow down. Your gait doesn’t falter, but you wince every so often, like you’re in pain. There’s a hint of concern in those gorgeous blue eyes of his. His arm around your shoulders pulls you tighter against him and he looks down at you to say, “Tired baby?”
“My feet just hurt,” you complain. You guys have been walking around for hours now without a break and these heels are killing you. They’re new and have yet to be broken in.
Satoru looks down at you and, without even thinking about it, scoops you up right there where everyone can see. It’s like you weigh nothing at all to him. Your cheeks flush crimson and you glare at him, but your arms go around his neck automatically. “There you go,” he says warmly, one arm holding you snugly under the knees, the other wrapped around your lower back. “Problem solved.”
“Satoru,” you whine cutely, turning your blushing face into his neck. “This is embarrassing.” The words come out as a soft, pleading whisper and your soft lashes flutter against his skin. Another shudder goes straight down his spine to his cock. Oh, the way you sound like that is way better than how you sound when you’re being mean.
“Relax, pretty girl,” he says, holding onto you tightly so you can’t try to squirm away, “None of them care about us. Besides, we’ll probably never see any of those people again in our lives. Just hold onto me. I got you.”
He shoulders his way out the door, ignoring any lingering looks or stares in his direction. The air outside is warm, but not humid, one of the many blessings of LA. Under the endless blue sky, Satoru’s strong arms fit around you like two puzzle pieces finding their missing match. His heart is thumping hard in his chest, not from exertion, but because of what you do to him. Retracing the earlier walk, Satoru carries you back to the car in silence, though he’s humming some pop song under his breath.
When he arrives at the car, he sets you down on the trunk and stands right in front of you, trapping you there. He braces his hands on either side of your thighs and leans in to murmur, “Prettiest girl in the whole fuckin’ world.” Spreading your thighs apart, he pulls you closer to the edge, so your legs are spread on either side of him. You blink at him, those beautiful eyes so wide and guileless.
“Satoru …” His name is a soft question on your tongue, the sound of it almost enough to bring him to his knees.
“Hmm, what is it, sweets?” He asks as he presses a kiss to the side of your neck, just under the curve of your jaw. But the only answer you give him is a soft whimper. He pulls back just enough to look into your eyes, his huge hands leaving the hood to cradle your face. He’s waited and waited and waited. And now, he really doesn’t want to anymore.
He’s been dreaming of this for weeks.
Satoru leans down until his lips are barely a centimeter from yours and pauses long enough to let you push him away if you want. But to his utter satisfaction, you don’t. The silky white locks of his hair fall forward a little as he tilts his head the rest of the way until the pout of his lips brushes yours. Your lips are soft, your breath sweet against his. The first touch is barely there and feather light, but it sparks something in Satoru—an all-consuming hunger. Or maybe it’s a kind of starvation.
With a low rumble in the back of his throat, he captures your lips with his in earnest now. His heart feels like it’s going to fucking explode right out of his goddamn chest when you start kissing him back. It’s faltering at first, sure, even hesitant, but then your lips are moving in tandem with his. He groans into it, long white lashes fluttering shut, the kiss growing more feverish and sloppy as he tries to devour you whole.
Satoru Gojo has lived with an ache in his chest since he was small. Maybe it’s because his parents never really showed him affection, or how they suffocated him out of every friendship except Suguru’s, or how even when he did have friends, everyone treated him differently because of his parents’ money and name. At times, he’s wondered if that hollowness will ever go away or if it will sit in the center of his chest for the rest of his life. Right now, with his lips on yours, for the first time in his life, he doesn’t feel it at all.
Slowly, he leans over you, forcing you to lie back on the trunk of his car. He swallows your breath and your sweet little whimpers that are music to his ears. One of his hands slides up to cradle the back of your neck to guide your head right where he wants it. Your noses bump together and your teeth. His tongue gently swipes along your lower lip and your mouth parts form him like a flower opening in the spring. He doesn’t hesitate. All pretense gone, he plunges his tongue inside and tastes you fully.
He thinks he might fucking cry from how perfect it is. He’s never felt like this before. It’s a similar sort of feeling to being stuck on a video game level or a boss fight, and then finally, finally getting it. Except, this is a million times better. His heart is pounding wildly in his chest, slamming so hard into his ribcage that he’s certain you can feel it. He angles your head to kiss you even deeper because every single atom of his being is screaming more, more, more!
But even he needs air. Eventually, he breaks the kiss, his breathing hard and fast. A smile tugs at the corner of his mouth and he uses his thumb to break the strand of spit stretching between you by wiping your bottom lip. His pretty blue eyes are shining and soft all at once.
“I’m gonna make you fall in love with me,” It slips out without his consent, but he doesn’t take it back. He lets it marinate instead. The hand at your nape slides up to tangle in your hair. “Do you hear me? Mark my words, pretty girl. It might not be today, and it might not be a month from now, but someday, I’m gonna make you fall in love with me.”
“Dream on,” you mutter, looking away from him, but your voice is all air and a shade higher than normal, cheeks stained a pretty shade of pink. God, you look so fucking beautiful like this. Those two words are nothing more than a challenge to him anyway.
He knows that if you really hated him to your core, you’d never allow all this, but you are allowing it, which means to some degree you’re tolerating it or you want it.
“Oh, I will,” he purrs, his mouth curling into a grin before he leans down to devour you all over again.
♡
(Your POV)
Those words: I’m gonna make you fall in love with me. Like he’s absolutely certain you will, like it’s something inevitable. You’re still reeling from the first kiss, but he’s on you again before you can do or say anything. His mouth steals the very breath from your lungs.
You wish you could say the kiss is awful. You really wish you could say that. And you wish you could say that kissing Satoru feels disgusting, wrong, terrible, and any other negative adjective you could slap on there. The truth is a real horrible, terrible, awful thing though, sitting in the base of your throat like a stone.
Satoru is a fantastic kisser, thorough and relentless. His natural feel for the rhythm of things is intoxicating—the push and pull between you like the tides and the moon. You can’t help but moan, whimper, and give in to the kiss. You melt under him, let him manhandle you, because all you can do is get caught in the wash of it. He kisses you for so long that your lips are swollen, wet, and a little chapped.
When he finally breaks the second kiss, he plants one on each corner of your mouth, before pulling away, a big smile on his face like he’s just won some prize. “Come on princess,” he says, wrapping his arms around you to help you down from the car. “I’ve still got a few tricks up my sleeve before the evening is done.” He guides you to the passenger side, hand on the small of your back, and opens the door for you. You slide inside and he shuts you in before jogging around to the driver’s side. Once you’re both settled in the car, he pulls out of the underground garage, only stopping to pay.
From the museum, he takes you to Echo Park Lake where you ride around on the swan paddle boats for a while. The water is peaceful, the late afternoon sun slipping closer and closer to the horizon. The two of you get lost in conversation about all sorts of random things: food, TV shows, music. It’s easier than you’d like to admit to talk to Satoru. In the past, you were so terrified of him that you barely exchanged a few words here and there. Most of his were jagged barbs and most of yours were mumbled apologies and acknowledgments.
He looks so fucking attractive in the golden hour sun. Those long white lashes and the silken snow of his hair tinted under the warm light, blue eyes glinting. Of course, he has to be holding your hand the whole time you’re on the boats. He’s very clingy and touchy. The whole time you were in the art gallery, he was wrapped around you like an octopus.
You’re a little surprised by how much thought he put into today. He picked activities he genuinely thought you might enjoy and he was spot on. The Satoru Gojo you used to know never would have thought about what someone else might want long enough to pull together something like this. The sweetness of it all leaves you feeling uneasy, like you always get when someone starts to seem like they actually like you. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
After you’re done at Echo Park, Satoru drives you to the Gojo Inc. building to change. You don’t have to ask why he doesn’t take you to his apartment. It’s an easy enough guess. Suguru is probably living with him after the divorce and he doesn’t want to risk having a little run-in. Knowing Suguru, he probably sold that house the minute the divorce was finalized. He never could stand staring at the ruins, he’d rather raze them to the ground.
You change into the dress you brought along. The silk feels like liquid against your skin, soft and lovely. After sliding the accompanying heels, you admire yourself in the mirror. The backless design shows off your spine and your waist. When you leave the bathroom, Satoru is waiting outside, seated on a low bench as he scrolls mindlessly through his phone. You clear your throat and his head jumps up.
The way his eyes go wide, the way they flick to each of your curves like he can’t decide where he wants to look the most, his thoughts on the dress are written all over his face. He shoots to his feet, throat bobbing as his gaze sweeps up and down you. “You look …” he trails off and you preen under it. The same guy who used to tease you for the way you looked is now staring at you like you’re some kind of salvation.
“Like it?” You sing-song, sidling up next to him to run your fingers along his collar, “Hah, you’re gonna get hard right here in the middle of the lobby of daddy’s company, aren’t you?” Patting him lightly on the chest, you add, “Come on, let’s go before you start getting any ideas into your head.”
“Me? Ideas?” He gasps all faux innocence, “Never.”
“That’s all you have is ideas and, somehow, they’re all fuckin’ bad ones,” you mutter. Just as you take the first steps away, Satoru snags your hand to hold it as you walk back to his car together. It’s like he can’t stop touching you.
The drive over to dinner is oddly silent for how much you guys have been talking the whole day. You watch LA traffic out the window, watch the sky turn cotton candy pink, sherbet orange, and lilac. Satoru hums along to whatever bouncy, catchy pop song has taken over the charts for the time being. Every so often, you steal glances at him as he drives. The flex of his thick, muscular arms, the way the veins bulge and twist when he turns, is more than a little distracting.
He muscles the car through rush hour traffic, the cars practically nose to nose. The intermittent honks and someone’s music so loud you can hear it in the cabin puncture the steady rumble of engines. Reaching over, Satoru grasps one of your thighs over the silk of your dress. His hand is warm even through the liquid material. Because of the traffic, the drive seems to stretch on and on, but the whole time Satoru’s long fingers trace maddeningly distracting, gentle circles over your dress. Bit by bit, he eases the material up your leg to touch your bare, smooth skin instead though. It sends a shudder down your spine, slick heat pooling in your panties.
Glancing over at him, you see that he’s got his gaze fixed on the road ahead like he’s not fucking teasing you. That’s what this is, right? A tease? His hand clamps down around your leg, fingers pressing in hard enough to leave marks. A moment later, those little circles continue against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. Your teeth sink into your lower lip as they trail higher and higher, until they’re brushing against the damp, lacy material of your little panties.
You almost jump when his voice cuts through the car, low and rough, “Why didn’t you tell me she was so needy?” One long digit swipes over your panties, stroking you over the damp material. “You’re so fucking wet, baby. Shoulda told me and I would have taken care of it.” His finger hooks into your panties, roughly pulling them aside for him to slide his finger along your soaked slit. A gasp rips from your throat and takes everything in you not to grind against his hand like a dog in heat. That finger parts your folds, sweeping up between them to circle your little clit once, twice, thrice, making your hips jump each time. His chuckle fills the cabin as he drags that same finger back down to circle your dripping hole.
“Fuck, baby, you’re lucky I’m not pulling this car off the fuckin’ road to eat your pretty little pussy,” he mutters, swirling his finger around your opening over and over, teasing you in a way that makes your cunt clench around nothing. “You know, I think about drinking up your pretty little pussy all the time. Jerk myself off to it before I go to bed every fucking night.” Sliding the just the tip of his finger in, he crooks it enough to make you squirm.
“Satoru,” your voice is an odd mix of warning and desire, a faint blush coloring your cheeks.
“What is it, sweets? Need something?”
“I’m gonna fucking—“ He pushes his finger deeper, pulling a whine from you, cutting off your threat. Bastard. He’s doing this on purpose.
He looks over at you out of the corner of his eye, a smug smirk on his mouth. “What? Got something to say, baby?”
“You—“ the word is pried out from between your gritted but he cuts you off again with a sweep of his thumb across your clit, making your hips jump, a little moan slipping out.
“Sorry, I didn’t quite catch that,” he teases, toying with that sensitive nub some more. It’s taking everything in you not to hump his hand like a fucking teenager. Your hands curl into your dress, rumpling the material, and your teeth sink into your lower lip.
He plays with your cunt the whole way to the restaurant, alternating between gently stroking your clit and swirling his long, thick fingers around your tight little hole. The problem is that he never actually lets you come. Every time you get close and your moans pitch into something feverish, his touch slows, fingers turning featherlight. By the time you arrive, you’re a sopping mess, your thighs shaking. You’ve drenched through your panties, slick leaking down onto the seat.
“Look at you, baby,” Satoru breathes as he whips into a spot at the back of the lot. “So fuckin’ pretty for me, leaking onto my seat like a good little slut.” He presses his thumb hard against your clit and you cry out, your hand flying up to the oh shit bar on the ceiling of the car. Then, to your horror and frustration, he pulls his fingers from your needy body. Lifting them to his mouth, he sucks them obscenely clean. He groans, long lashes fluttering shut as he tastes your juices like the flavor is something holy. “Mmm, best dessert in the world,” he whispers, eyes opening and sliding over to you to give you that mischievous side-eye again. “But, it’d be a terrible idea to spoil my appetite with all this sweetness, so we best go inside,” he teases, clearly enjoying your misery.
“Seriously? You’re really gonna leave me like this?” You snap irritably, pissed off that he’s gotten your pussy so needy and aching, and is leaving you there to stagnate on the brink of climax.
He laughs, “What’s the matter princess? Feelin’ a little hot and bothered?”
“Fuck you,” you mutter, tugging your dress back down your thighs as you shoot a venomous glare. He just cackles as he gets out of the car and walks around to the passenger side. When he opens your door and offers you his hand, you glare up at him and grumble, “Seriously, fuck you for that.”
When you don’t give him your hand, he reaches down and snags it anyway. Gently, he pulls you out of the car and up against his chest. Looking down at you, he gently strokes your hair and says softly, “Don’t worry, pretty girl. I’ll take care of you before the night is done.” The way he says it, solemn like a vow, his voice low and rough makes your walls clench around nothing.
Wrapping his arms around your shoulders, he leads you into Hotel Belair. Satoru is warm against you as you guys walk into the restaurant. The space is beautiful, yet intimate, with an elegant, yet bohemian vibe. After Satoru gives his name for the reservation, the host guides you back to a quiet table in the back.
The host leaves you with two menus and the drink menu; the latter Satoru sets aside. You look over the menu sheet, taking in the absurd prices, but you’re not the one paying, so what does it matter?
A few minutes of silence pass and for some reason, you feel the need to fill it. “Do you know what you’re getting?”
“Hmmm, I was thinking the lamb,” Satoru replies, his foot bumping against yours under the table. “You?”
You shrug, your eyes shifting around the restaurant. The dim lighting creates a romantic atmosphere and, with how tucked away this table is the thought crosses your mind that he might have requested it. “It’s a really nice place,” you say softly as you take in the dark leather, the white tablecloths, the pretty flowers at the center of each table. Inside your chest, your heart picks up for some reason. He tilts his head, silky white hair falling to the side, and gives you what you can only describe as a tender smile. Looking back down at the table, you mumble, “Actually, all the places you’ve taken me today have been really nice. It’s like you actually put some thought into it.”
It’s the truth, albeit an embarrassing one. Your cheeks are slightly pink and your teeth sink into your lower lip.
“Hey, I do use my brain cells sometimes.” He jokes, his smiles widening as he leans forward to prop his elbows up on the table so he can rest his chin in his hands. Those pretty blue eyes flick up and down at you before he says, “I dunno, I just really wanted to make sure you had a good time tonight.”
“Well, thank you. It’s been kind of fun actually.”
“Hah, look at that. My cruel, mean girl does know how to be nice from time to time.” He teases, eyes twinkling in the light.
His girl? Since when did you become anything even remotely resembling being his? You choose to ignore it though because some battles just aren’t worth picking.
“Don’t push your luck,” you mutter.
Just then, your waiter dressed in a nice, tailored suit appears at your table. He has kind eyes and salt-and-pepper hair. Politely clearing his throat, he says, “Good evening, miss, sir. Terribly sorry for the interruption. My name is Terrance and I’ll be your waiter tonight. May I start either of you off with anything to drink?”
Satoru starts rattling some stuff off to the waiter and you can’t help but watch the way his lips move, the way his broad shoulda carry that omnipresent reckless, confidence. The way the lights glow against his pale skin and his snowy hair, the curl of his thick, sweeping lashes, the glint of his eyes, the cut of his suit over his tall, broad frame. That’s when you realize you’re staring a little bit. You quickly look away as Satoru turns his head to look back at you.
“Want anything? Get whatever you want,” he says, the boyish smile on his lips, like you really could order the entire menu and he wouldn’t bat an eye.
You shake your head, your stomach twisting into knots. The waiter nods and walks away, your eyes following him as he disappears. In the back of your mind, a small voice whispers, This isn’t going to last. There’s no way he can sustain this. This could all be an act to begin with.
Satoru bumps your foot with his under the table again. He’s practically beaming when he says, “So, since I’ve done such a spectacular job putting together this date that you’ve enjoyed so much, does that mean that I get a reward?” He pauses, nudging your calf with the toe of his shoe. He leans forward, his expression downright roguish as he adds, “‘Cause, I think I kinda deserve a reward.”
You grind your teeth for a second before saying too sweetly, “Oh, do you?” One of your brows arches up. “I didn’t realize we were handing out rewards for, what did you call it earlier, chivalry?” At his frown, you laugh, the sound warm and happy. Meeting his eyes, you tilt your head and say, “What sort of reward do you think you deserve?”
He hums like he doesn’t already have something in mind, which you are 100% certain he does. “I think, since I’ve been such a good boy, I should get your phone number.”
He tried to get your number the last time you saw him, but you turned him down. That would make things way too messy. It comes a little too close to turning something that could be explained away as professional into something personal. “Sorry, no shot,” you reply instantly.
“Come ooonnnn, please, please, please,” he begs, “I’ll grovel if that’s what you want. You want me to get down on my knees right here in this restaurant? Because I will.”
“No, don’t do that,” you rush to say before he can mortify you in front of everyone here. “That’s a bad idea. If you want to see me, you can go through the club. I mean it.”
His shoulders cave inward and his lower lip juts out in a cute, pathetic pout. Jesus, why is he so adorable? Especially when he’s pouting like a spoilt child. He looks up at you with those baleful blue eyes and mumbles, “But you even said you had a good time today.” He sounds confused and wounded.
“I …” you trail off. You don’t feel like you should have to explain shit to him, but at the same time, the way he sounds makes you feel bad. It’s not guilt per se, just bad. The man is either a master manipulator (the likely option) or he’s genuinely hurt. Your jaw flutters as you clench your teeth, staring at him across the table. Some angry part of you revels in the fact that he’s all put out by not getting your number, but at the same time it’s hard to look at him with that sad expression and pathetic eyes. It’s probably best not to examine why it bothers you, you decide.
Luckily, the waiter saves you from having to answer. He comes to take your orders at exactly the right moment, giving you a reprieve from that expression on Satoru’s face. Satoru gets the lamb and you rattle off your order absently, lost in thought about what exactly you guys are doing here.
You need to put an end to this. Put him out of his misery like a wounded animal with no chance of recovery.
Once the waiter is gone, the rest of the dinner passes with a quiet tension simmering under the surface. Neither you nor Satoru speaks much, other than comments on the food, drinks, and other innocuous subjects. But the unspoken hangs over you like a pall. The rest of the dining room feels distant and far away, like you’re in the restaurant, but not. All that exists is the suffocating way he looks at you every so often and the delicious food that tastes like ash in your mouth.
Once both of your plates are empty, Satoru takes care of the bill, slapping his heavy, metal credit card on the table. You wish you could hear his thoughts because his expression is unreadable and you’re unable to gauge what he’s feeling. Normally, Satoru is sort of an open book, at least when you know where to look.
The walk back out to the car is quiet. The setting sun has fallen slowly under the horizon, the sky the deep periwinkle of twilight overhead. Your heels click against the pavement, loud in the unobtrusive evening. When you reach his car, he walks over to the passenger side with you and opens your door. Before you can slide inside though, he grabs your wrist.
“I’ll keep going through the club if I have to,” he says seriously, “But I meant what I said earlier.” He doesn’t specify what he’s talking about, but you already know. Someday, I’m gonna make you fall in love with me.
You swallow, “Satoru, this thing, whatever you’re doing here, we’re doing here, it’s not gonna end well.” Pausing, you take a breath, then continue, “We can’t keep doing this. It’s not … it’s not sustainable and it’s not good for us, either of us.”
“You’re just saying that because you’re scared,” Satoru accuses, glaring down at you. He’s looking at you with that intense expression, laced with anger this time.
“I’m not scared!” You immediately protest. It’s a lie though and not a very good one. You are scared, terrified actually. Every time you think about what’s going on between you and Satoru for too long you start to feel nauseous and uneasy. “Tell me, Satoru, what are you gonna do when Suguru finds out? Because he will find out eventually. You can’t hide it from him forever and he’s not completely stupid.”
Satoru’s jaw tightens and he mutters, “When the time comes, I’ll handle it.”
You let out a sigh and shake your head, “What if Suguru refuses to let you? What if the only outcome is losing him completely?”
“Don’t you get it yet?” He grits out, his pretty blue eyes roving over your face. “I’ve already lost him. The day he lost you, I lost him. We went out for drinks together for the first time in a year last night. But it’s …” He trails off and shakes his head, “If this ends with him not being my friend anymore, then so be it. It’s just more of the same.” And he sounds so fucking tired, bitter, and broken that it makes your heart lurch. “I just, I like spending time with you, okay? Can you please just let me have that?”
Your teeth sink into your lower lip. Say no. Say no. Say no. “Okay,” you murmur. Jesus Christ, what are you doing?
He smiles, not looking quite as stricken, “Okay.” Then, he quietly helps you into the car. A few minutes later, he’s pulling out of the restaurant parking lot and cruising down the road. You look out the window, watching the passing palm trees and street lights, not really paying attention to where he’s taking you. You assume back to the club, but you’re surprised when you eventually end up at Will Rogers Beach. Satoru parks in the lot across from it, facing the water.
It’s late enough now that there aren’t a lot of people here. Satoru unbuckles his seatbelt and adjusts his seat back before looking over at you and murmuring, “C’mere.” He pats his lap like an invitation.
You just stare at him for a minute that voice coming back to whisper how bad of an idea this is. But your traitorous body seems not to agree with your mind. Your hand reaches down to unlatch your seatbelt and you crawl across the center console to settle in his lap. He lets out a contented sigh with you pressed up against him, his thick, muscular arms wrapping around your waist to spread your thighs apart.
“Didn’t think I’d follow through on my promise, pretty girl?” He murmurs against your ear, his warm breath caressing the sensitive shell of it. “Told you I’d take care of you before the night is up. Meant that too.” His hands trail along your inner thighs, gently stroking the soft skin there.
A shudder goes down your spine and you can’t help but melt into him. You can feel his breath against your nape, your breath hitching as one of those hands slides higher and higher to drag over your panties, still soaked and sticky from how much he was teasing you earlier. The hand on your thigh continues its ministrations while the one gently feeling sweeping over your needy cunt starts to work your body back up into a frenzy.
You can feel him hardening under your ass and it only makes you wetter. Your nipples are hard pebbled and your teeth sink into your lower lip again. Only when you whimper out his name, “Satoru,” does he finally hook his finger into your panties to pull them aside.
The pad of his thumb swipes over your twitchy, puffy clit, which makes your pussy throb like it has its own heartbeat. It’s still so sensitive from what he was doing before dinner that you can’t help but moan and arch against him while he swirls his thumb around and around and around. Your walls flutter at the first press of his fingers against your greedy little hole. “Don’t tease me,” you whimper, sick of all the teasing from earlier.
Satoru just laughs and nips at your ear before immediately dragging his tongue over the reddened spot. He repeats the actions on the crook of your neck. “But it’s so much more fun this way,” he teases, slipping his finger in an inch, just barely. You buck your hips trying to get more, but the hand on your thigh shifts to pin you against him. “This is the only time I get to see you all needy for me,” he murmurs, “Let me enjoy this, baby. You look so pretty like this, all spread out and mine for the taking.” There’s something dark and heady in his voice that makes your heart feel like it’s being squeezed.
“Sato—“ the whine of his name is cut off by a moan as he finally plunges one finger into your aching, sopping cunt.
His finger curls toward your belly, hitting that spot inside you that makes you see fucking stars. The heel of his palm grinds against your clit, making your head swim from the dual stimulation. You moan, your hips wanting to can up instinctively, but he holds you right where he wants you. When he slides a second finger inside, your eyes squeeze shut and your head tips back against his shoulder. The obscene squelch of his fingers in your cunt fills the whole car, along with the tangy, musky scent of your arousal. He fucks his fingers into you, rocking his heel expertly over your clit to make sure you get the best of both worlds.
“So fuckin’ beautiful,” he murmurs, nipping at your neck again only to lave over the spot with his tongue. “If I had my way, I’d keep you here just like this so I could have my hand buried in your pretty pussy all the time.” He chuckles darkly, “Scratch that, I’d rather have you in bed so I could eat you instead.”
His filthy words and the way his fingers are working between your thighs draw a helpless moan from your lips. “You like eating my pussy?” You gasp out as his fingers stroke particularly hard against that soft, spongy spot inside you.
“Like it?” He scoffs, “What a joke. I live for it. I told you, sweets. I haven’t been able to get your taste out of my mouth since and all I can think about is doing it again. If I had you in my bed, you wouldn’t be leaving it until I drank my fill.” His palm grinds down hard on your clit drawing a sharp cry from you, the sensitive nub throbbing.
“Fuck—ah—Satoru,” you manage to get out.
“There you go, pretty,” he whispers, “So good for me. Say my name again, princess. Fuck, I want you so bad. I’d sell my soul to fuck you, you know that? In a heartbeat.” His cock twitches against your ass like the thought alone drives him crazy. He grinds himself shamelessly against your ass and you can feel every inch of his cock pressed against you, straining against the confines of his pants.
His fingers start fucking into you in earnest now, stretching your cunt open. You’re so soaked that you’re dripping down his hand onto his pants. That tension is ratcheting down deep in your guts, your walls growing tighter and tighter around his diligent fingers as they stroke your inner walls. Every grind of the heel of his palm over your swollen clit brings you closer and closer to the edge of an abyss.
“You’re close,” he breathes against your neck, “I can feel it, baby. Come on, you can do it. Let go for me, hmm? Wanna feel you come all over my hand.” He presses the heel of his hand hard against your clit, fucking his fingers hard against that spot inside you.
“Fuck, Satoru,” you cry out, eyes rolling back. The orgasm hits you like a freight train. You’re moaning obscenely as you gush over his fingers, your walls fluttering around them. Arcs of pleasure shoot through you, radiating out from your center, reaching the tips of your toes and your fingers. You feel molten and light and alive. The entirety of your body feels light and tingly, your vision turns white around the edges, and your hearing fades in and out.
“That’s it, good girl,” he coaxes, his voice soft, as his hand continues to work you through the orgasm. And when you finally fall limp against him, he draws his fingers out with a wet squelch and you whine at the absence. He lifts his hand to his mouth and sucks his fingers clean of you. “Fuck, you taste so good,” he whispers.
But you’re still lost in the pounding of your heart, in the feeling of his breath against your skin, in the perfect way he brings you to your peak every time. Letting out a sigh, you wonder just how the fuck you’re supposed to put the brakes on this when your body is hell-bent on putting a brick on the pedal.
A/N: I’m so, so sorry for this monster of a chapter. If you’ve made it to the bottom, thank you sm for reading. I hope you enjoyed. Likes and reblogs are very much appreciated.
You love being Satoru Gojo's girlfriend, he dotes on you, takes you on dates, spoils you - just one little problem, you are perpetually ovulating around him! Is wanting your nerdy boyfriend's cock in your mouth really such a bad thing? Satoru wants to wait for the perfect moment for your first time, though! He'll totally wait even when you're wearing that slutty lil dress and grinding on him, right?
pairings - nerd! gojo x girlfriend! reader
warnings - cute and silly, oral over panties/boxers, Satoru edging tf outta us -- reader is horny, Shoko/Hime, Sukuna being a fratboy dick, jealous Toru, rough blow jobs, p in v sex, first time, squirting, teasing, fingering, creampie, making your nerdy boyfriend feral and spit in your mouth <3
art creds here!!
this was a comm for my angel @cantarcantar!! ty for understanding that my life was like INSANE - ilysm for being patient <3 wc - 10.1k
It took you almost two years of crushing on Satoru Gojo to actually become his girlfriend, and you’re loving every minute of it. From being too damn shy to admit you like him, to very awkwardly trying to confess and every chance just utterly failing – to then instead becoming the very best of friends.
You two were finally ‘officially together’ as a couple.
Oh, and it was everything, being in his arms, swallowed up by those huge biceps he had hidden underneath his starch white dress shirts. Hearing that little laugh from his lips, all of those sweet little kisses he bestowed upon you – truly, all the feelings blossoming between the two of you in the most beautiful way, especially over the months of truly being his girlfriend.
He’d take you out for all day movie marathons, going to play bumper cars, mini golf, you name it – Satoru was down for it. Every date was a meticulously planned out one too, with little to no down time aside from the drive to and from. Perhaps that’s where you would sneak just the littlest pecks on his neck, hear his sighs as he gripped the gear shift of that fancy sports car.
Satoru adored you – and you adored him.
You were all his. There was no one else in the entire world than the boy who could never quite tie that tie on correctly, always just a little crooked for you to straighten out.
Yet with that came you being unreasonably horny all the fucking time, who wouldn’t be with Satoru though? Those long fingers pressing into your waist, the way that bulge pressed between your thighs, plump lips slipping up your throat. Every time it even got just a little close, maybe you were grinding so good that you were about to cum from that – he paused it.
Wearing a cute, bashful little smile on his face, fogged up, thick rimmed glasses – murmuring sweetheart in a voice that’s designed to make your pussy drip, and you feel like a complete pervert for wanting to beg for more. God, imagining his cock in your throat alone had you desperate and needy, let alone having him filling you, pumping you full, taking you first.
Maybe you are a pervert, truly.
You’ve tried so hard to be patient, you want him to want it as badly as you do, but every time you’re making out with your boyfriend – the top of the dean’s list and ultimate dungeon master for DnD – Satoru Gojo?
Every time his big ass hands grip your waist and he drags you down against his length, before he puts a pause on it?
You can’t even think about it.
You’re pumping your fingers in your needy cunt just thinking about it after every damn date with this boy. Whining out in your bed with your hips bucking up, gasps escaping your lips desperately in your empty room. Pumping faster and faster until you’ve got that sticky release all over your hand.
It’s almost as if you have this sort of ritual now, before you see your boyfriend and right after/.
Your rose toy is probably fucking tired of you.
As if you don’t you ache so damn bad around him it’s painful, hard not to shamelessly hump his thigh till you cum. No, the toy? This takes the edge off just a bit, but even the way you moan his name in your sleep is endlessly hilarious to your poor roommates that have to hear you between the walls of your off campus apartment.
“Still a virgin?” Utahime asked with a laugh when you had woken up this morning, getting ready to see Satoru.
“Not by choice,” you grumble, shaking your head and grabbing a coffee pod from the little rack, popping your favorite inside and pressing the on button. The aroma hits immediately, waking your tired brain.
You’d had the filthiest damn dream of him fucking your tits, cock sliding up and down in messy strokes that had you needing a damn shower right now.
You’re just perpetually ovulating.
Satoru is the perfect boyfriend, truly he is. He’s sweet, he’s a gentleman despite his blue eyes and where they glance too long. Mostly, he cares. You’ve fallen so in love with him so quickly over these past few months, but every time you think that things might progress, Satoru stops it. Gently lifting you up off his lap and sighing, kissing his way up your jaw, his snowy lashes tickling your cheek.
‘Sweetheart, let’s pause this,’ he would murmur those words all sweet and sultry against your skin after almost sucking on those nipples that just stay hard around this man, instead hovering a breath away so it ghosts your tits. Those huge hands brushing just underneath them.
It’s torture, really.
‘Oh, okay Toru,’ you’d whisper back, he’d moan and kiss up your neck, breaths tickling your skin. ‘Mnh…’
‘You’re so beautiful, god look at you.’
It was just wrong to talk to you like that!
“You poor baby. At least you have your toy collection,” Shoko teases, sneaking in and brushing your hair back. “Extensive, too.”
You flip her off, peeking at the phone then and seeing Satoru's name pop up.
Study session?
“Dick session?” She asks, you gasp, as if affronted at such a suggestion.
“I would never assume such a thing!”
You hope so.
*****
It’s not.
No, it’s not a dick session at all.
It really is an actual goddamn study session – both of you were sitting there in Satoru’s living room, his place was far fancier than anywhere, but that came from him being the Dean’s very son. It intimidated you a little at first, but now you’ve grown comfortable, as he made you feel so special.
Today though?
Well, you can’t focus on anything but how badly you’d love to kneel and suck your nerdy boyfriend, his thighs spread wide all slutty.
God his legs are long.
You bet his cock is-
“And this equation?” Satoru teasingly asks you, distracting you from your slutty freaking brain.
You're not even sure what stumbles out of your mouth for an answer, without saying how thick you think the circumference of his cock must be.
That is something you’ve done with your past experiences, and you know you’re good at it. You could easily deep throat a man and you wanted to see his cock so damn bad – could he be a challenge, though?
Your eyes drift down his chest, he peeks at you curiously.
“What’s wrong, sweetheart?” He asks casually, spinning his pen between his fingers and studying you. “Hard question?”
“Um… yeah, a very hard time…”
Stop that! Stop looking at his dick print!
“The question is hard?”
“Uh… the question… yes.” You feel like a damn pervert every time you’re around him, can’t you chill and let things happen when they happen?
He sighs and stands up, stretching his arms up over his head, his abdomen revealed when his dress shirt rides up, showing those little v cuts that make your ovulating brain just a million times worse. It’s like you’re in heat. It's so pathetic right now – maybe you should avoid him till it stops.
“Let’s take a break then.”
“Yeah?”
He chuckles at how eager you are at the thought and comes up to you, leaning down with a hand on each arm of your chair, tilting his head so some of that soft white hair falls over his forehead. You brush a bit of it back and he kisses your palm, lips warm and sweet.
“You’ve been such a good girl, how can I not treat you a bit?” Your heart hammers in your chest, until those next words spill from his lips. “Boba?”
“What? Huh?” You blink as he eases back, pulling up his phone and leaning against the desk. “Boba??”
“Yeah, Boba, I’ll buy you some, I know you love it,” he smiles curiously as you bury your face in your hands. “No Boba? Matcha then?”
“I’m um…” About to cum if he touches you once even. “No, I guess Boba is fine. Thanks Toru.” you manage to say, thighs pressing together, Satoru frowns, kneeling now and gently taking your hands off your face, seeing your blush.
“Are you sick!? You’re all flushed!”
“I’m not-”
“You’re burning,” he touches your cheek in concern, and you almost fucking feel bad – you’re not sick, you’re ovulating. “Baby girl, let’s get you to a doctor right now!"
“No, no I feel fine, I’m not warm because of that,” you shift in your seat and whine out at just that friction. “Promise.”
He frowns and watches you carefully. “You’re hurting, it could be the start of something!”
“Well yeah I hurt,” you sigh as he spreads your thighs and kneels between them, shoving at him. “You’ll make it even worse down there.”
“I’ll make what worse, exactly? Your…” He trails off then, seeing your panties and blushing himself, pink dancing across his high cheekbones and dusting them in that rose. “Y-your… your panties are so… uh… s-soaked and…”
You should freak out at this proximity, at just how much he can finally see of you, but all you can do is whine again, as his eyes shoot back up to yours. “I’m okay, promise.”
“Am I neglecting my pretty girlfriend?” He asks softly, just a little nervous. Satoru has never touched anyone but you, but he’s extensively studied the female anatomy, and how to make you cum.
He just wanted your first time to be perfect.
That’s why he was waiting – the last thing he needed was for you to not enjoy your first time, though he knows you’re a little more experienced than he is – Satoru’s hardly kissed anyone before you. Not because he couldn’t – he just had no interest in that sort of thing until he met you – and even then, he really couldn’t find the damn courage to ask you out forever.
“No I’m being a damn pervert,” you cover your face and he chuckles at that.
“You’re being a what, now?”
You sink into the seat, mumbling. “You heard me.”
He’d been your best friend for so long, thinking there was no chance in the world – always jerking his cock with any article of clothing you’d leave in his room, like a filthy depraved pervert – and you think you were one perverted here?
Does him wanting the timing to be just right making you think that?
Satoru exhales softly, just a hint of what he wants to say slipping from his plump lips.
“What, do you touch your little pussy thinking of me?”
His voice has you lowering your hands, he spreads those thighs and slides up your skirt, making you moan out, head falling back, your hands gripping the arms of the chair even tighter.
“Wha-?” You can’t even finish your damn word.
“Asked you a question, baby.”
“God,” he’s diabolical without knowing – or maybe he does know. You’re trembling as you lean back, letting his thumb brush on your clit and gasping at the touch, already getting slick from a brush on your skin. “What question?”
“Not paying attention, tsk,” he clicks his tongue and his teeth nip your inner thigh, sinking in and making you whine out. “Do you touch her?”
“Y-yes,” he hums a bit, tugging your panties up until your lips are visible, that dark spot growing as slick starts pouring. “Please…”
“Be patient, baby,” he leans back now, smirking at you. “Show me?”
“Are you sure you…”
“Please? I wanna see so bad,” you blush now, you masturbate sure – but not in front of people! “I’ll show you?”
“Show me you um… jerking off?”
“Yeah, I mean… yeah?” You sigh a bit.
“Toru…”
“Mmm?”
“Why don’t I um… suck you?” He is bright red now, he’s almost busting just thinking of your mouth – that won’t do. His first blow job and he busts in one go!? No, Satoru has to jerk it three times before he gets the privilege of fucking your pretty little mouth, of feeling your pink tongue on him.
“Not yet.”
“Not yet? But you’re so hard,” you giggle and tease him with your foot nudging his thigh, he glares and catches it, shoving it wide. “Not yet, then. So you just wanna see me touch myself?”
“God yes, dreamed of that since…” He trails off then, he doesn’t want to admit just how long he’s jerked off to you, because it was before you even knew who Satoru Gojo was. “Lemme see.”
“Okay…” you lean back, running your fingertips over your panties, slipping underneath and leaning your head back, eyes fluttering shut, hearing Satoru’s soft little whine. “Toru…”
“Fuck,” he thought he could handle this, but he’s utterly failing, he can’t even see your pretty pussy and he’s already throbbing, leaking so much pre it hurts, sticking to his brand new digimon boxers. “You’re s’pretty, sweetheart.”
You blush as you look at him with dazed eyes, running little circles right around your puffy clit, coated in hot slick as it dribbles out of your panties. He swipes some of it on his fingers, studying it carefully, his tongue going to lap at it, moaning as the sweetness coats his tongue.
“Oh you’re t-tasting me,” it makes you needier, until you have to plunge two fingers inside your messy, quivering hole, that loud squelch echoing in your ears. He’s gripping your thigh with one hand bruising until you cry out.
“Fuck, so s-sorry… baby I hurt… y-you…”
“No, no, like it,” he moans and puts his hand back on your thigh, squeezing again so hard it aches. He's jerking his cock faster, whining out when he sees your slick fingers pull out of your panties. You press your cum soaked fingers to his lips and he eagerly wraps them around, sucking them off. “Toru…”
“So sweet, my pretty girlfriend,” his glasses fog up when he leans down, licking your inner thigh that is trembling, sliding higher until his tongue is on you – but it's not on your skin, it's on the soaked cotton of your panties.
“Fuck…” he moans as he gets those juices that are spilling through the fabric, his and squeezing his own cock as your thighs sit over his shoulders.
“More, please,” you're tugging at his hair so hard it hurts, bucking up your hips for more. “I need you, please.”
“Such a needy girlfriend,” he murmurs, thumb circling his drooling tip, looking up at you with desperation in his pretty blue eyes. “You want me to lick it more for you?”
Your answer is a little nod, even having him lick you over your panties is more than you've ever had done, and fuck it feels good. Sinful as he trails a long, slow stripe over the fabric, the tip stopping right over your twitchy clit, his moan is muffled against the damp cotton.
“Toru!” He's lost in your scent, in that taste, the little hints of lace decorating your panties rough against his tongue, the sound is fucking filthy.
Satoru tugs those panties up more firmly, strings of gossamer saliva dripping and dissolving, peering up at you with flushed cheeks. “Like that, baby? Is this what you were thinking about instead of studying?”
Your only answer is to nod quickly, a jerky little motion as he sees those puffy lips just swallowing the damp material. He swipes his tongue over and over, the heat and wetness of his mouth making your entire body tremble. You feel it heating up, hearing the messy sounds of his own cock fucking his fist, wishing it were your throat instead.
"Oh god, Toru," you whimper out it so pathetically, your hands tangling in his soft white hair, fluffy and silky underneath your touch, trying to pull him closer, to shove his face where you need it. “Not enough, mnh!”
He chuckles against your puffy cunt, the vibration and the quick lave of his tongue have you on edge. Pulse racing as he had the audacity to tease you, landing a wet smack on your cunt that had you pathetic.
"Ah - ah," he clicks his tongue, catching your wrists in one of his stupidly large hands and pinning them against your waist, smirking at you in a way that's utterly not dirty at all. "No touching yet, sweetheart. I'm taking my time with you."
“Meanie,” he chuckles again, but you love it – feeling that strength as he grips you so tight. “My panties are ruined, Toru.”
“Mmm. Yes they are,” he tugs them again, looking at how wet the material is, just a pathetic little scrap of fabric with your juices pouring.
Instead of showing you mercy and moving them, he just presses them further against you again, tongue shoving that fabric until it's flush with your needy clit, you swear you can feel his tastebuds as that tongue drags through the fabric, pausing everywhere that has you jerking and honing in.
Like this nerdy boy is studying you.
Oh. He is.
He's methodical, almost clinical with his research of your needy, clothed cunt just separated by this pathetic little piece of fabric, his tongue pressing more firmly against your soppy lil hole. She is pulsing around nothing, torturous strokes, pressing his fingers up and down, you're hot and sticky underneath his touch.
“Toru!” Your wrists are still pinned, his cock forgotten even though it's dripping down onto the soft, plush rug below his knees. Satoru finds your clit again and looks up under snowy lashes, you watch the drips of slick connect with that wickedly long tongue.
“Mmm. I bet I could see myself inside you,” he whispers, you suck in a breath at that, as if he is measuring the distance of your entrance to your belly button, easing your wrists to tug up your top, nipping your puffy lips over the fabric. “Scientifically.”
“Then experiment, scientifically.” He chuckles like the little shit he is, finding your clit once more, a hand pressing where he imagines his cock would bulge out.
“You are so needy f'me, s'pretty like this,” his words slur as he wraps his plump lips around your twitchy clit, barely concealed and swollen underneath the cotton material that is dripping wet. He pulls it in his mouth and sucks it hard through your panties, humming against you.
You're aching, cunt filling his hungry mouth as your hands land back on his hair, his movements making you cry out and buck your hips against his mouth for more.
“So sweet right now, god, look at that…”
Satoru is so close to cumming when he grabs his cock at the base again, squeezing so goddamn hard – he could almost bet that if he felt your cunt without the fabric, he'd spurt his white ropes everywhere.
Make a mess of you.
“Mnh. You close, sweetheart?”
Your answer is a jerky little nod, as he keeps torturing you with this fucking barrier, his teeth grazing that tiny clit ever so lightly through the fabric, making you scream out, your head falling back. Your panties are absolutely ruined now, utterly transparent with your slick and his spit coating them, your sweet little cries rushing through his ears.
Satoru? Well, he laps at the mess he's making happily, his tongue coating the entire area in circles that deliberately avoid that spot until you're twitching, tears falling down your cheeks.
"Such a messy girl," he moans out those words, eyes black when they peek up at you, his voice husky as your slick clings to his lips. "Soaking these pretty little panties f’me.”
“Please, Toru… move ‘em please,” he smirks and decides to have mercy on you, tugging them to the side of one of your lips and exhaling, watching the slick drool and spill down. You gasp as the air hits your cunt, already aching and needy, the dampness making it a cool shock.
“Fuck, you're so pretty,” he murmurs, his cock just about to bust without his touch, he glides his tongue from your ass all the way to your clit, looking right up at you. “Is this what you were thinking of, hmm? My tongue inside you?”
“Your cock, too,” he chuckles against you, but just a couple more flicks has you close, as he spreads your cunt wide, studying your every expression.
“Look at that. My slutty little girlfriend.”
Satoru is trying his best to hold it together, but when his tongue glides into your gummy walls and they grip him, he's too far gone, slurping up every bit of the cum that just pours out. You shatter so damn pretty, squirting all over his face, dripping down his chin until it's glossy, his cock starts pulsing right with your hole, imagining her milking him.
“F-fuckk….”
“Toru, mnh! S'good I… please…” You’re overheated, body sensitive, it’s just not enough, even with his tongue lavishing every bit of your pussy.
Not enough.
“Please what, baby? Mnh,” he grips his veiny cock as he cums with his tongue on your clit, more of your mess drenching his throat, his face, his shirt. His white ropes coat his hand, lashes fluttering shut as he savors your jumping clit in his mouth, whining against you.
“Want your cock in my mouth, Toru please…” he exhales, breath making you jolt, looking up at you with a blush.
“I um…” he leans back on his knees and you see the mess, blushing at it.
“I didn't touch you though…”
“Didn't need to,” he's clearly a little embarrassed, you take his cum soaked hand then – dripping white – and wrap your mouth around one of his thick fingers. “Oh fuck…”
You suck him right off, tasting that salty white substance and moaning as it hits your taste buds. Satoru pulls back and laps it off his own fingers, before kissing you right with it, the mess spilling between your mouths and dripping down.
Satoru Gojo – your nerdy boyfriend with an insane Digimon collection was a fucking freak, greedily drinking his own cum off your mouth.
You’re trembling when the door knocks, and you faintly remember that he has ordered you boba. He’s the epitome of a perfect boyfriend after that, considerate, caring, cleaning the little rivulets of your own release from your inner thighs – you’re stuck back on the opposite side of the bed, cuddling him and watching a movie.
Satoru even has the audacity to snore after, heavy body wrapping as you ache to get filled by him – at least the movie was so damn boring you drift off right next to him.
****
“I’m gonna die a virgin,” you mumble to Shoko and Utahime the next weekend, aside from more heated kisses and grinding on Satoru’s thigh after your well planned out dates – nothing.
You’re aching.
How much use could your rose toy really see!? And now you even have two more toys going along with it, though you doubt any of them are getting close to Satoru and how good he must feel. No ‘clit sucker’ could come close to what that nerdy little mouth could do.
“You look like you’re dying, girl, damn…” Utahime earns your glare. “Is it that bad?”
“He finally got me off and…” You blush now, unable to finish your sentence, remembering his tongue drinking up your juices.
“Does he know what a clit is?”
“Very much so, it was so good.”
They look surprised.
“You all have no clue, he really was,” Shoko laughs at that, leaning back and hitting the vape, handing it over to you. “No, no.”
“You need a smoke, sweets,” you grimace, brushing your hair back, pacing back and forth as the two girls watch you, snuggling with each other. “You’re pacing holes in the carpet.”
“I can’t handle this, I just… god I wanna suck his dick, is it so terrible? He hasn’t even let me touch it. I sound like a horny ass man, I hate it. I wanna respect him, I really do.”
“You wanna respect him with his cock in your throat?” Shoko finishes.
“Yes. I mean!? I will respect him without the cock in my mouth! You two are menaces.”
They’re laughing like the brats they are, blowing smoke in each other’s mouths, you damn near moan in frustration. Satoru’s gotten you off that one time, then since then he has gone right back to worshipping you in the sweet way he always did, as if you’ll what – forget about his tongue?
His stupidly long fingers…
The cum on your tongue that you lapped right off!?
The taste.
“Ugh -” you lean back and sink further into the couch. “I really am gonna die.”
“Can’t die, we’ve got that party tonight,” Utahime teases, kissing Shoko’s lips and giggling just a bit, you pout at the two of them.
In public Satoru would kiss your hand at best.
Where on earth even had that freak come from that spit his cum in your mouth last week!? He’s all gone again – the pocket protector wearing Nerd Gojo in his place, like some twin fucking took over for a minute.
“I can’t go to a party and get drunk, I’ll make a fool of myself around him, one drink and my pussy has a mind of its own…” You finally sit down, plopping back into the seat. “I feel like a pervert.”
“You are! Let’s just call you fucking pervy Sage.”
“Hey!” You glare at Utahime, Shoko is inhaling another puff of smoke, you cough just a bit.
“Hah – Sanji from One-”
“Don’t even!? I’m not that bad,” you huff at her, frowning now. “I swear I'm not trying to be pervy. God, what is in this weed?”
“Hmm,” Shoko tugs Utahime on her lap. “I wonder if he's scared you'll like … bite his dick.”
“You're so fucking mean,” you cough a little more, eyes watering as you scowl at the two of them.
“Look slutty, like really slutty,” Shoko walks up now, tilting your chin up and crooking her lips up at the corner. “Something that screams – fuck me.”
“He licked my panties and didn’t even…”
“Really slutty,” Utahime agrees, tapping her chin. “Ooh! I know, I have the perfect outfit in mind, that little black dress of yours.”
“But it’s too small for me now! It’s from like high school, and thanks to you two cooking all the time, my hips-”
“Exactly.”
“Exactly what? Oh…”
You trail off now, realizing what everyone knew – that Satoru loves your hips, he grabbed on to them every chance he got, even when he was just a little bit shy.
“Okay…”
They kiss again in front of you, laughing a bit, making you lovesick for your man – your nerdy man who you wish would kiss you in that way, tongues all dripping. It’s not even fair.
“All lovey dovey, fuck you both.”
They’re so hot and rude laughing at you – you decide to just disappear, you don’t need your hot ass best friends making out in front of you when you’re already in pain from the constant edging from Satoru. You are rushing to your room and trying on outfit after outfit, before finally deciding on the exact fucking one they brought up.
You would look as sexy as you could and hopefully get your boyfriend to not be able to resist you.
But also you’ll respect his decision, dammit! You can wait as long as he wants to, even if you were absolutely gonna put your tits and ass out there for him. Looking in the mirror and touching up your lipstick, swiping a finger across your lower lip to smudge it just a tad.
“Oh damn you look hot, Sanji,” Utahime says when you come out.
“I am not Sanji.”
“You are.”
“Fuck you both!”
*****
Satoru can’t keep his damn eyes off you.
Fuck you’re pretty tonight.
That damn little black dress clinging to your skin is fucking ruining Satoru’s mind, brain short circuiting as the two of you navigate the insanely packed frat house, one of his hands on the small of your back protectively. People are all bumping into everyone, stumbling around, absolutely no chance he lets someone hurt you by accident.
Moreso, Satoru Gojo can’t get his fucking hands off you, no, he can feel your warmth right through the thin layer of cotton material, fingers splaying across it. He reminds himself in his head over and over just what a horrible thing it would be to fucking take your first time at a frat party, even as he has to adjust his cock, turning from you to face the wall for a moment.
“Everything okay, Toru?” You ask softly, hand on his back, he laughs, a fake and terrible attempt at being normal, turning right back around to you.
“Me!? Yes, yes. Do you need a drink, babydoll?” He asks.
The music kicks on as he speaks, and all you can see are his plump lips forming words, ringing from how damn loud they’re blaring the worst dance music known to man. “What!!”
“A drink!!”
“Huh?”
“A DRINK-”
The music pauses for just a minute, switching to something else but leaving multiple people to stare at Nerdy Gojo shouting.
You blink a bit at his shouting, he swears he’ll kill Suguru and Nanami for having the audacity to fucking laugh at him and his pain. Them smoking weed earlier and trying to give him every tip known to man on how to bury said tip right against that surely cute little cervix.
As if Satoru hadn’t studied extensively.
“Yes, please,” you smile all pretty, letting him guide you through, he just about loses it from the sheer amount of eyes locked onto you, gripping you just a little too tight, feeling the curve of those breedable hips underneath his fingertips.
Imagine having them bent over, his hands fit so perfect-
No, he can make it another night, a dumb frat party was not the time or place for something so precious as your first time. Even if you smell that good, and you’re dancing all over him, giggling, your ass brushing right against where his cock has tented his dark jeans.
Your drink in one hand, the other in his as he pulls you against him, for a nerdy boy, Gojo can absolutely move his body. You feel so goddamn good against him, with your waist in his grip now, his lips pressed against your ear – he can inhale that sweet scent you just naturally fucking have.
That’s when he realizes he’s about to cum if your ass rubs up on his cock one more damn time with those heels making you tall enough, he could bend you over and slide it right in. God he bets you’re so wet too.
Satoru has to pull back, making you blink just a bit in confusion, he downs the rest of his drink, smiling apologetically.
“Bathroom, sweetheart.”
“Oh, um… okay, want me to-”
Satoru runs the fuck off.
Maybe you’re doing too much, shit… you were absolutely grinding all up on Satoru because you were craving him so bad. You needed to give him more time! If the roles were reversed, you know he would, even if he may want to as badly as you do. Going to pour yourself a shot, you throw it back and let your eyes shut, sighing just a bit as it burns your throat.
You need to ease up and let Satoru take his time, even if you have to press your thighs together to resist the needy urge of rubbing your cunt on anything right now.
Maybe you are fucking Sanji.
*****
Satoru’s leaned back on the door, unzipping his pants and seeing his reddened cockhead, and just how fucking swollen it is. He’s jerking his cock desperately, whimpering out as the door gets knocked on, banged on in fact by fucking Sukuna of all people.
“Gotta take a piss man, stop jerking it.”
“I’m not!? I’m pissing right now – w-wait,” Satoru is jerking it of course, but how dare Sukuna call him out on it. Dickhead fratboy that he is, he’s chuckling outside of the door, but none of it is getting rid of Satoru’s throbbing erection.
He’s just way too needy, too sensitive, he can see his reflection in the mirror – those flushed pink cheeks. Sukuna thankfully fucks off, but Satoru can't even cum with just his hand, not when he knows your little fist would feel so much better, when your mouth and pussy would grip him.
No, Satoru is left tortured.
*****
You are alone for some time, concerned if he was somehow drunk or sick when the leader of the frat – the slutty ass, pink haired jock named Sukuna comes up to you, sipping his cup and flickering his red eyes up and down your face.
“Hmm, Gojo left you all alone?”
“And?” You scoff, rolling your eyes at him now, he smirks just a bit, leaning close. “He’s busy. Okay?”
“Mmm… yeah,” he peeks over his shoulder now, then looks right back down at you. “So.”
“So, what?”
He grins all big. “Wanna play beer pong?”
“Beer pong?”
“Mhm,” he tugs at a little lock of your hair. “Bet I stomp your ass at it. Look like such a good girl.”
“Hah you think I've never been to a party!?”
“Never seen you before aside from with your nerdy lover boy,” he pours you a drink now and inclines his head.
“I've partied, just… usually me and Toru are busy.”
He snorts at that.
So busy your boyfriend is jerking his cock in the bathroom.
“I see, so busy, huh?”
“Yes but…” you curse now, shaking your head. Satoru has been gone fifteen minutes and won't answer a text, a game of beer pong wouldn't hurt. “Fine then.”
It doesn’t take long until there is an entire gathering of people to watch you absolutely annihilate Ryomen Sukuna in beer pong, to the point he is fucking furious. You're landing the pong ball in every cup, decimating the entire frat at a certain point, giggling as you study them, down to the last shot, against Sukuna again.
“Beginners luck or some shit,” he’s fucking furious – you swear you see his vein ticking underneath his jaw.
Satoru is still not here.
You’re worried but you’re also enjoying the cheers, especially when you land that last one, giggling as the frat brothers who were talking all that shit about the nerdy girlfriend of Satoru moments before are now staring in disbelief. With one final, perfect arc, the ball splashes into the last cup.
It really is beginner's luck.
But.
Also, fuck Sukuna.
"Damn, girl!" someone yells, and you take a little bow, rubbing it right in Sukuna’s face now, who is slamming down the rest of his beer.
Surely he drank enough to get annihilated – but somehow still standing just normal, big ass man has some insane tolerance because those eyes look completely aware.
"Guess I'm not such a good girl after all, huh?" you tease Sukuna, who's standing there looking down at you, setting the cup down and crushing it.
“Hmmm,” his red eyes dilate just a bit as he steps closer to you, suddenly making you feel just a bit nervous.
Satoru hates Sukuna.
It’s well known, since high school the two of them have been overcompetitive and absolutely insane against each other. He’d be fucking furious if he saw you anywhere near him at all. You peek and see him across the crowd then, getting a text from Shoko blinging on your phone.
He’s really mad.
He is.
You get another text now from Utahime, biting down on your lower lip.
Make him jealous and maybe you’ll get dicked down, Sanji.
“I’m not Sanji,” Sukuna raises a brow, lips twitching. “I’m not.”
“Sanji? Who the fuck is that?”
“One piece?”
“Nerd – hey, wait,” you’re turning and he grabs your wrist for just a moment. “Shit, I mean… you’re right, you’re not a good girl, huh?”
“I sure beat your ass,” you say, pausing when he reaches out, his fingers surprisingly gentle as they brush a stray piece of hair back from your face, rough knuckles brushing against your cheek for a second too long.
"You did, you're full of surprises, brat.”
“Brat? Whatever…”
You can feel Satoru’s eyes on you – you’d pull back, but part of you wonders if making him jealous would bring that freak out that spit cum in your mouth – maybe you are a brat. You sip your drink, remaining normal.
“I’m dating Satoru, you’re too close.”
“Would nerdy ass Satoru know what to do, how to handle your ass?” He taunts, your eyes narrow, his laugh echoing despite the music as your boyfriend starts shoving his way through. “Show you that digimon collection?”
“I’m very pleased, thank you.”
“You look like you need to get your attitude fucked right out of you,” your fingers itch to slap him now. “If he fucks up, you know where to find me.”
“No thank you, I- Toru!”
Satoru is between you and Sukuna, shoving him off and glaring right at him – perhaps the two tallest men at the party right face to face, Sukuna’s smirk making Satoru want to punch him.
“Why are you so close to my future wife?”
“Wife?” You blush and he glares at you.
“Yes, and baby momma – but you’re being a brat,” he whispers, Sukuna snorts at that.
“She is a brat.”
“You can’t call her that,” he shoves the big ass man and takes your hand now. “She has better shit to do than talk to you.”
“Aw, but we were having fun,” Satoru is dragging you away, you blink just a bit, almost scowling at Sukuna who blows you a kiss.
What a dick.
BUT.
Satoru is fuming, and he’s hot.
You’re so toxic!
“What’s wrong, Toru? I was just playing some beer pong,” you say all innocently, as he drags you past everyone, you’re struggling to keep up with his long strides. “Um… what’s wrong?”
“What’s wrong!? Hah,” he’s laughing, psychotic and feral like you turned on a switch in his brain, when he finally starts getting some privacy. “Everything.”
“I don’t get it…”
“He was hitting on you,” Satoru yanks you away in the center of the party, you barely bite back your giggle at how excited you are to see him this way, looking ever so serious when he glares down at you.
Maybe you are evil, loving how mad he is, how jealous he is when he presses you against the hallway wall on the other side of the party, you can feel the music humming through the walls, but not as fast as your heart is racing looking up at your blue eyed boyfriend. Blue eyed angry boyfriend.
This isn't sweet Satoru at all, no – he's completely fucking unhinged, his chest rising and falling with his quickened breaths, cupping your face and jerking your chin to look up at him.
“You think he was?” You ask softly, making him raise a brow. “I thought he was just… being nice?”
You make him laugh without humor now, thumb brushing across your lip. “Are you being bratty, sweetheart? Teasing me, making me jealous?”
“What? No,” you straight up fucking lie to his face, batting your lashes all innocent and cute, but you can tell my that little smirk he doesn’t buy any of it for shit right now.
“No?”
“No, I was just talking, Toru. Isn't that fine?” You trail your hands up his chest, wrapping your fingers around to hook behind his neck, tugging him down to face you. “It’s fine for me to make friends, isn’t it?”
“Not when he's looking at these pretty tits,” he cups one, making you suck in a breath – your needy boyfriend is never this bold. “They're not his to look at.”
“Oh?” You lean forward now, tip toeing as he leans low, thumb brushing over a nipple, making it perk up for his touch. “Are they yours? Yours to look at?”
He’s losing it, his pulse hammering behind his ears, in his wrists, everywhere was hammering, his mouth practically salivating as he cups that tit right where anyone can see, big hand squishing it. You gasp out at the sensation, your lashes fluttering closed, little whines mingling against his lips.
“Yes, mine, every inch of you is mine,” Satoru shakes his head now with a soft laugh. “He thought he could dance with you. Kiss your lips? Lips that are mine.”
“All yours,” you open your eyes and giggle again, earning his scowl. “Sorry you're just so cute like this.”
Satoru blinks.
“Oh, I’m cute?”
You go to press a kiss when he snatches you up in one swoop, you gasp and wrap your arms around his neck now. Thighs trembling as he carries you to some room he finds, stumbling you in and shoving you right against the door.
“You think I'm cute,” he presses his cock against your slick heat, slutty little panties practically ruined for him, grinding his cock until you're gasping out. “Well I think that you're a brat.”
You gasp. “Me?”
Two people calling you that.
Well… maybe you are.
“You are bratty, with those pretty fucking lips,” he's kissing you filthy, tongues dancing, saliva dripping between you both, easing you down so that you slide against his body achingly slow. “Maybe I should shut your bratty mouth up.”
Oh fuck.
“Yes please?” He glares at your big fucking grin.
“On your knees then, sweetheart,” you so eagerly obey, he laughs softly, his heart hammering in his chest, a mix of being utterly furious, nervous about his first time, and dumbstruck by the sight of your heart eyes. “Look at you, bein’ such a good girl – but are you really that desperate to suck me?”
“Please yes,” you have no shame – all you want is Satoru’s cock deep and buried in the back of your throat. “If you want though! C-consent.”
“As if I haven’t wanted this for years,” he shakes his head and tilts your chin up, sighing. “I wanted to do it all perfect, to lick and kiss every inch, worship your body until you were writhing, so fucking needy for it.”
Satoru unclicks his belt, the metallic click hitting your ears. “Mnh… years?”
"Years," he repeats softly, unbuttoning his jeans entirely too slow for you, you go to move your hands and he halts them with a little smack, you bite down on your lip, aching. “Hands on your thighs, you’ll listen to me for once, since you’ve been driving me so fucking crazy.”
“Me, making you crazy, really,” you do as he says though – eagerly – palms on your thighs, he laughs a bit, the sound of his zipper lowering echoing in the room even with the reverberating walls.
“You know every time you drag that messy cunt on me it ruins me, right?” He draws out that word, sighing now. "Every time you wore those little skirts and bent over, every time you'd bite your lip while concentrating…”
Satoru drags a thumb down your lip now, achingly slow against the plumpness that moves underneath it, your teeth nip on his thumb teasingly, and then you let him push your mouth open.
“Open real wide, sweetheart,” you do just that, and he can’t help but whimper as he presses down on your tongue, as if he’s studying the recesses of your open, eager mouth. “Wider, can’t you? For me?”
You listen eagerly, opening wide and fucking obscene, your tongue out for any bit of him he wants to give you, core just aching.
“Fuck, I've imagined this exact moment."
Satoru won’t tell you just how long he has, either, he swallows – just a bit nervous now.
“Suck,” you suck his digits, slurping them and moaning around them, imagining his cock instead, loving how dominant he’s being. “Stop.”
You obey, making him raise a brow.
“You like me tellin’ you what to do? Is that why you got me so fucking mad, so jealous, to have you listen?”
“Yeah,” you whisper, as he shoves his jeans down, and the hard, thick length of his bugle strains against the thin fabric of his boxers. “Pokemon? You traitor!”
“I can’t wait to shut your mouth up tonight,” you giggle at that, Satoru sighs and frowns at them, brushing your hair back a bit. “They were a gift, okay?”
“I’ll buy you digimon ones.”
“God, you’re so perfect,” you’re still giggling, when he gently smacks your face – the lightest little touch that has you almost moaning. “Open up again, yeah? Be a good girl, baby.”
“Mmm, yes,” you nod your head, doing just as he says – the side of freaky Satoru you only saw hints of last week when he’d lavished your panties with his long tongue.
“You got me jealous on purpose, yeah? Wore that slutty outfit to fucking ruin me, wanted cock in your throat that bad? Got me fucking leaking so much… fuck…”
Your answer is to keep that mouth open, leaning forward as you lap your tongue along the damp spot where his pre cum has already soaked through, right over a traitorous yellow pikachu. You’ll make more fun of that later, right now he’s jerking his hips, hissing at the drag of your cute lil tongue on him.
“Fuck…” You’re teasing him just like he did you – licking and sucking his tip over the damp cotton of his boxers. “Act so sweet and you’re evil, shouldn’t feel that good through that… mmm…”
Satoru’s letting you suck around his fat cockhead, slurping every bit of his white cum from it, tongue lolling right along that slit over and over.
“Torturing me back?”
“Yep,” you lick your lips, making him sigh, shaking his head now.
“Go on then, take what’s all yours…" his voice is low, hoarse damn near as he for the very first time pulls his cock out, letting it spring free, slapping against his lower abdomen with a loud, wet smack. “Can you fit all of it?”
You knew he’d be big.
You didn’t know he’d be that big, with his jeans undone all slutty, his pokemon boxers shoved down – his cock is perfect, just the right amount of thick and entirely too fucking long, with a prominent pale blue vein running along the underside. You’re literally drooling as he strokes it right in front of you, the head flushed a deep, pretty pink as it leaks white.
You’re soaked, fucking ruined.
“I can.”
You cannot.
Maybe?
You will try!
“Go on then, sweetheart, lemme see how good you can take all of me,” he chuckles as you lean forward without hesitation, pressing a soft, open-mouthed kiss to the tip. “Teasin’ me more?”
You lap your tongue up, keeping your hands right where he asked you too, sliding underneath so you hit that frenum. His sharp inhale is met with his huge hand tugging in your hair so hard it hurts, pulling at the hairs on the nape of your neck.
“Fuck… greedy lil mouth,” he’s damn near slurring his words when you swirl your little tongue around the head, lapping up the salty taste of his cock underneath, brushing along that vein. He whimpers out when you wrap your lips around it and suck. “Oh my… f-fuck…”
Satoru loses it the first time you really suck his cock, his hand coming to rest on the back of your head, pushing you down further as his other hand rests on the doorway, beginning to move so that he’s choking you. You’re whining out, aching to touch your cunt so bad you slide your fingers down.
“So desperate,” he tuts his tongue, fucking your throat now, his cock slamming the back of it as tears spill. “B-baby, is this s’okay?”
You pull back as he does, with a wet, filthy pop, grinning. “I want it, all the way deep in my throat, Toru, I can take it.”
“You can take all of it in that tiny lil’ throat? When she’s this tight?” He whispers, your nod makes him glare now. “Have you done this?”
You blink a bit. “Yes?”
“Then I’ll fuck your throat so hard you’ll forget anything but me,” he takes you over now, slamming deep inside, you’re whimpering as one of his feet spread your thighs, and you’re soaking his black boot. “That’s it, rutting on my boot and taking cock like a little slut, hmm?”
“Mnhgh…” you’re done for, this is exactly what you needed, him railing your throat until you can’t think, until you’re gagging and tears are spilling.
“Look at me,” he orders softly, you do just that as he presses deep, sniffling as you try to take all of him, he hisses as he feels his tip stretching that tight throat, his Adam's apple bobbing. “You know I fucking love you? And respect you?”
You giggle around him and he glares.
“You have to know if I’m gonna say all this,” you pull back again, fingers all coated in your slick, gliding it along his sticky tip.
“I know you love me, Toru. I love you…” He sighs, touching your cheek. “I love you talking to me this way, you could be meaner.”
“Oh? Fuck my frustration on your throat?”
“Please?”
“You’re ruining me,” he mumbles, slamming right back inside, now that he knows you’re okay, he can lose control, see how much you can take, as you grind on that shoe, nails now pressing in the muscles of his thighs, jeans slipping down. “Want our first time to really be right against this door? Shove your slutty skirt up and ruin your cunt for fuckin’ anyone?”
God, Satoru’s sexy like this, fogged glasses and all.
Your answer is to take him all the way, your nose brushing against the white hair, the tufts of it tickling your nose, he’s stuttering now, unable to stop himself from fucking faster, harder, the wet sounds mixing with his whines. He doesn’t hold them back, either, every time he does he feels a fresh gush of wetness even over that leather, he can see it shimmering as he pulls back and slaps his cock on your mouth.
“Slutty girl, this all f’me, huh? Not that fucking loser downstairs?”
“All you.”
“Hold that tongue out,” you do just that, and Satoru slaps his tip on your tongue over and over, as you keep grinding on him. “Can’t believe you’re this much of a pretty little whore, god I thought you were a good girl?”
“Toru… please…”
“Please what?” You just keep rubbing. “Desperate, fuck… stand up.”
You can hardly do that when he helps you by tugging you up, spitting directly in your mouth, you swallow it greedily, earning his pathetic moan as he turns you, shoving you against that door. “Mnh!”
“Stop me before I fill all your fucking holes with cum,” he’s kissing down your neck, his glasses cool against your neck, whines escaping his lips as he shoves that slutty lil dress up the gentle curve of your hip. “All of them, I’ll have your cunt drippin’, your throat full, fuck that ass while I’m at it.”
“Mngh, please, please,” it’s all you can do but to arch.
“That needy?” He’s tugging your panties to the side, dragging his tip up and down over and over, moans escaping his lips when he bends down, turning your face to him. “First time in a frat house against a door? You’re so wet do I even need to finger you right now?”
“Already did,” you answered, he laughs, shaking his head and kissing you, rubbing even more, teasing your slit with the fat head of his cock until you’re weak, your thighs shaking. “Please, please….”
“Please what, fuck your cunt for the first time? That’s what you’ve been wanting, me to lose it, huh?”
“Yeah,” he scoffs, teasing even more, mouth messy and mean as he bumps your clit, until you squirt right down his length, dripping all down the carpet.
Sukuna’s carpet – it’s his room you faintly notice, as you see the little pictures on the walls.
You wonder if Satoru meant that.
“Squirting already, haven’t even fucked you yet,” he pulls back and bends down, slamming his cock so deep you scream out, head falling back as he tugs your hair, making your ass arch out as he fills you. “Oh my g-god… baby…”
“Toru,” he lets you adjust to his thickness, the very first time your cunt has ever been filled – and this wasn’t how he wanted to do it.
He wanted to stretch you out – one finger, two, then three – but you’re so soaked you suck him right in. Such a tight, perfect fit he can hardly take it, bending down to press sweet kisses on your bare shoulders, easing back and shoving in again, taking your hand and placing it on your tummy, pressing so you feel it all.
“Feel me here?” He asks softly, desperately – worried for a moment with how tight you are that he’s hurt you, but your answer is to look back at him with those slutty, parted lips and dilated eyes, nodding. “Who’s inside you?”
“You, Toru.” you answer, cunt spasming as she’s already close, his body overtaking you, wrapping and tugging, shoving even deeper.
“Who’s first?”
“You.”
“Who’s gonna make this cunt stretch out?”
“Y-you and… ah!”
“Mine, mine… fuck you’re all mine,” Satoru gave you that minute to adjust, a last mercy before your nerdy boyfriend fucking loses his mind. “Mine, this pretty body, this perfect pussy… you… mine…”
“Yours,” you whisper it over and over as Satoru fucks your messy cunt, even though it’s hard to take, you’re so full it feels perfect, letting his hand wrap your throat, fingers pressing on either side of your windpipe. “Ah!”
“Hah – such a perfect fit, made f’me,” he’s fucking you so deep you feel him everywhere, cock gliding in and out of your sticky, gummy walls, fucking you so goddamn messy it's dripping down between your thighs. “B-babyyy…”
You arch for more when he pulls out of your cunt with a filthy squelch and you whine from the loss. “Back in, please…”
He lifts and carries you to the bed, thighs shoved wide, feral now as he shoves back inside and sees himself moving inside you. Every slick glide smoothing your puffy cervix, until she is bruised and aching, that dress shoved higher, panties tugged firmly to the side. He uses both to move in you, laughing as you gasp out, as your thighs tremble.
“Aw, is it too much, sweetheart? Too deep?”
Feral Satoru is here, mixed with sweet Toru, but his cock is anything but sweet – the way it stretches you out, fucking ruins you, pummels your cunt so deep you’re about to cum all over his length, already sensitive.
“Mhm!”
“Full of me?”
“Nghhhh…”
You don't know how the fuck else to answer, it all is entirely too much, the way he can see his cock print, his insane laugh, those blue eyes glittering with the frames fallen off. So blue it hurts to look at, eyes almost threatening to close.
“Nuh-uh, eyes on me, that's it,” Satoru keeps pumping into your cunt, leaning up to shove your thighs against your tits, smushing them as he fucks you dumb.
He knows it too.
“Can't think?”
“mmm, nnnhhh,” your answer is pathetic and just a babble really, as your nerdy, once virgin boyfriend pummels your messy, needy cunt until she's stuffed so full it hurts. Your nails pressing into biceps, digging in as he stretches your puffy lips on it.
“Can’t even fucking talk – already?” Your eyes roll back in your skull as his cock ruins your pussy, so deep you do feel him all over.
“Gonna pump you so full, hah will you finish college without me breeding your cunt?” Satoru Gojo is batshit insane, as he leans over you, bending you so that you're folded in half under his heavy weight. “What would you do then, hmm? If I breed your slutty cunt? Make you mine.”
“Want it, mmm,” you’re utterly fucking shameless about it, feeling his bruising grip, his cock getting creamy at the base as his heavy balls slap.
“Jerked it in the bathroom, had me so hard,” you bite down on your lip, gasps escaping your throat, eyes locked. “You love that, huh? Driving me insane, slutty dress, pretty body… god…”
He presses your thighs down enough to tug your tits out, gripping them and exhaling, thumbs brushing your nipples until they’re peaks.
"Look at you," he pants, "taking my cock so well, pretty girl. You’re just such a good little slut for me, aren't you?"
You can only moan in response, your body trembling as he hits that spot inside you that makes your vision go white, your answer is to grip his hips with your thighs, letting him cup your face, pumping you so full that you can feel it all over. Warm and hot when he whines out so pathetically in your ringing ears, slutty little moans falling from your lips.
“Takin’ all of it, god…” He kisses you even as you shatter, your cunt spasming all around his veiny length, milking him for every drop. “So fucking greedy. So needy.”
He leans down and captures your lips, spurts of cum still pouring, you can feel him twitching, nails pressing into the strong muscles of his back. “Toru… l-love… toru y-you…”
“Cock drunk, sweetheart?” He teases, like the menace he really is – but he also lovingly caresses your cheek. “You took me like you were made for me.”
“I did?” You’re so damn drunk off him you’re slurring your words, pussy achingly empty, feeling his cum slipping out.
“You did a very good job. Such a good girl.”
“Yay!”
Satoru snorts at you, shaking his head and peppering kisses, leaned up on an arm, his shirt half open, revealing the hard planes of his chest. “You’re s’cute… I wanted to take it easy your first time.”
“I loved it,” you admit, yawning now, peeking around the room. “Mmm, can we go home though?”
“Of course we will,” he kisses down your body though, breath ghosting your thighs, spreading them to watch the filthy mess of his cum pour out, groaning. “You’re wasting it all, baby.”
“Hmm? Ah!” Satoru scoops some of that mess up against his fingertips, shoving it right back inside your quivering hole. You’re gripping him tight, thighs clamping down on his hand, as he smirks. “Toru you’re… crazy…”
“Mmm, you really have no idea what I have wanted to do,” he clicks his tongue, pushing that cum deep again, watching your every expression. “Gonna keep you so full of cum it’ll drip everywhere.”
Satoru does not just fuck you once, no – he makes sure to bend you over in the backseat of his car, fucking cum back inside. Once you're at his house he is pumping ropes of cum on your tits, laughing at how messy you get coated in white, before spreading it all over your body.
Satoru fingers and fucks all that cum inside until you're a trembling mess in his arms, passing out and snoring.
“So funny you started all this but then couldn't keep up, hmm?” He teases softly, cleaning you up, cock sore from how you gripped him, how much he came. But even the sight of milky drops escaping your hole had him damn near twitching back to life, groaning against your skin.
*****
“Good morning,” your nerdy boyfriend is littered in pretty kiss marks, indentions of your teeth all down his neck, a loopy smile on his face as he stands there shirtless, glasses firmly back on.
“Oh! Good morning…” you thought you'd be the one to ruin Satoru Gojo, ride his cock till he whimpered and cried from overstimulation.
You had no clue he'd fuck you so good you couldn't sit up right without his help, cupping your face and leaning down to kiss your lips, tilting your chin up and smirking. You're a mess.
A pretty mess.
Hair fucked up, covered in fingerprints and hickies, taking the coffee he brings and sipping it, sighing as it hits your tongue. “Mmm… good morning.”
“Don't you look pretty in my bed?” He muses, smirking on his features. “I wonder what Sukuna thought of his bed covered in your squirt.”
A blush heats up your cheeks. “I didn't squirt that much!?!?!”
“You really did,” you shove him playfully, giggling then. “My cum too though.”
“You did it on purpose, his room!”
“Me? Never.”
Satoru absolutely did.
That's what Sukuna gets for hitting on his girlfriend, dried up cum all on his blankets – as if he could handle you ❤️
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The idea of canon Gojo getting isekaid into the real world when he dies and being thrown into the body of an AU version of himself who's married to you. You guys have a toddler with another on the way and he is freaking tf out. How did I get here? Who is this beautiful woman? Why does this kid look like me? Holy shit, she's pregnant. It's mine???????? Him learning how to live a regular person life, how to be a father, how to be a husband, comparing himself to the AU version of him who you loved so much, getting jealous of the AU version of himself for getting to have you first. Idk the idea of canon Gojo getting to safely have a loving family tickles something in my brain
“You look so pretty, baby,” Satoru says as you settle into the seat and buckle in. He looks good, really fucking good. Black slacks, a red shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows, button open at the collar, revealing the hollow of his throat.
“I’m not your baby,” You snap, glaring at him.
His lower lip juts out in a pout and he gives you those puppy dog eyes that normally get him whatever the fuck he wants. But a second later, that pout is splitting into a sly smirk and he teases, “I mean, you kind of are. At least for the rest of the day.” His blue eyes are dancing, his smile turning smug.
“You’re an ass,” You bite out, shooting him a venomous expression.
“Takes one to know one,” he counters swiftly. But his eyes are startlingly soft. So soft that you have to look away because you can’t take it. He hums and says, “Alright, you ready for the awesomeness?” He sounds so proud of himself that something thumps in your heart. It’s like listening to a little kid babble excitedly about winning their spelling bee, “I have everything all planned out. You don’t gotta worry about a thing, princess.”
Something in your chest aches, but you can’t bring yourself to deal with it. So you slump in your seat and mutter. “Whatever. Let’s just get this over with.” Just to be mean, just to hurt him. Your jaw clenches, molars grinding against each other.
“You wound me, baby,” he says theatrically, hand slapping over his chest as if he’s been struck in the heart by an invisible arrow. But he makes no move to pull the car out. You swear you can hear his heartbeat slamming against his ribs, or maybe that’s yours. After a long stretch of silence, he says quietly, “Look, I know deep down you hate me, and I fucking deserve it. I know I deserve it, but do you think that maybe just for today you can be a little bit nicer to me? I’m not asking you to sing my praises or pretend you’re hopelessly in love with me. But I’m—I don’t know—I already regret how I treated you back then and … I’m sorry. Okay? I was a compete and total dickwad to you for years. And you never deserved any of it.”
“You don’t have to do this.” You let out in a rush, sitting straight up as you look back over at him. Pure panic courses through you. You don’t want to believe Satoru is changing because it’s easier to hold onto your anger, your self righteous pain, than face the truth you don’t want to acknowledge. A small voice in the back of your mind whispers, Without your rage, what do you really have? “The past is the past and it is what it is. Don’t apologize. You did what you did and it can’t be changed.”
“No, I wanna—“ he starts, thin silvery brows drawing together.
“Satoru, let’s just go,” you cut him off, “Really, your apologies aren’t necessary.” You’re certain it’s your heart now. You can feel it trying to jailbreak the cage of your ribs, slamming against them so hard that you feel sick. Your eyes burn with unshed tears and the worst part is that you don’t even know why you feel like you’re about to cry, but you just do.
Satoru gives you a conflicted expression. The problem is that Satoru is an open book, as much as he thinks he’s an enigma. He might hide a lot under humor and bravado, but once you understood that, it was quite easy to read him. His eyes are so sad, sadder than they have any right to be, that unflinching optimistic flippant arrogance nowhere to be seen. “Alright, but I wish you would just let me fucking apologize,” he mutters.
“Why? Why do you feel the need? It doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t fix what you broke. All it does is serve to make you feel better about how shitty you were back then,” you snap at him, clinging to your rage with your nails carving crescents into your palms. As soon as the words are out of your mouth, your teeth sink hard into your lower lip hard enough to draw blood. The tang of copper spreads against your tongue, a little of the warm crimson smearing across your lip.
“That’s not—I’m not,” he stutters and you’ve genuinely never seen him this fucked up. His features set with frustration, his mouth opening and closing as he struggles to find the words to express whatever it is he wants to say. Slowly, he reaches out and uses his thumb to pull your lip free of your teeth. It’s a gesture so intimate that you freeze, “Don’t do that.” The pad of his thumb smears a droplet of blood over your lower lip.
You can’t help how you’re staring at him. There’s such melancholy softness in his eyes that it makes you want to throw up. “Satoru—“ you start, trying and failing to keep your voice from shaking.
“For the record, apologizing to you doesn’t make me feel any better about what I did to you back then,” he cuts you off this time, punctuating the sentence with a bitter smile. “And I’m fully aware that no amount of apologies can ever fix or make up for what I put you through, but I’d spend the rest of my life trying if there was the smallest chance you’d ever forgive me.” His palm cradles your cheek the touch unbreakable tender. It makes your head spin. “I really am genuinely sorry for everything. I was immature and selfish, hell, I’m still pretty selfish. But I … I want to be a better person. You make me want to be a better person.” He pauses, his expression serious as those pretty blue eyes rover over your face anything. His throat bobs before he continues in a tone laced with quiet agony, “Even if you cut me out of your life again, I’d still try and be better for you. I never want to treat anyone the way I treated you ever again.”
Your lower lip trembles and you have to look away from him. You can’t fucking take this. Tears well in your eyes. Why is he doing this to you? Why couldn’t he have changed five years ago? Your mind is in a fucking tailspin, or maybe it’s a sort of free-fall, but you can’t help imagining what it will be like when you finally hit the ground. “Okay,” you choke out, forcing your voice to stay as steady as possible.
“I’m pouring my heart out here sweets. And all I get is an okay?” He laughs awkwardly, like he’s more hurt than he’s trying to let on. You can hear the tap-tap-tap of his thumb hitting the steering wheel. There’s a soft rustle, him shifting in his seat probably. Then, softly, gently, “You cryin’?” You know it’s not a question though. He’s not asking, he’s confirming. “Don’t do that, sweets. I don’t want you to cry over me anymore.”
A/N: Is he gonna lick her blood off his fingers? Hehe. Also this chapter is probably gonna be long af. So it might not be out until Monday? But we’ll see.
LA Love Song—Chapter Four: Someday, I’m Gonna Take Your Breath Away
Pairings: nepobaby!Gojo x stripper!reader
Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
Chapter Content Warnings: Explicit sexual content, angst, fingering
WC: 12.9k
Chapter Three // Masterlist // Chapter Five
Art credits to the lovely @/nsoda
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚Chapter Four: Someday, I’m Gonna Take Your Breath Away ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
(Your POV)
You get the call that night when you’re lying in bed watching TV in your apartment. You’re not really watching the show though, you’re completely zoned out as the show drones on in the background. To your irritation, you find yourself thinking of Satoru. He’s taking pieces of you, of your mind, without you even realizing it. That’s not a good sign. Letting out a sigh, you slump further in the bed and tilt your head back to stare up at the ceiling. You should cut him off, right? That would be the smart thing to do. So why does it feel so bad when you picture actually doing it?
The tinny jingle cuts through the quiet of your apartment, jolting you out of your thoughts. The club’s number flashes across your screen and you just know this has something to do with Satoru and his promises (threats) to take you out on a companionship outing. You stare at the device, the screen lit up as it screams obnoxiously in your hand. You should ignore it. You should pretend you never heard the phone ring, go in tomorrow as normal, and play dumb. Still, you can’t just ignore a call from the club. For just a second, your hand clenches tight around your phone, so hard your knuckles blanch, but somehow you find yourself sliding your thumb along the screen and tapping the button to put it on speaker.
“Hey, what’s up?” All you hear at first is muffled shuffling on the other end.
There’s a stretch of silence, some more rustling before Higuruma’s voice comes across the line, “Sorry to bother you so late, but we just got a call-in request from a membership holder. They’d like you to spend the day with them tomorrow.”
The whole day? It has to be a joke, right? Satoru told you what he was going to do but you didn’t expect him to want the whole day. Most clients only want dancers for an evening of entertainment, like for a gala, or a date, or whatever. Not Satoru though. No, that would be too easy. Your teeth grind together as you say tightly, “Okay, what client is this?” Even though you already know the answer, you still want to hear him say it.
“His name is Satoru Gojo, the trust fund kid that keeps requesting you for private dances,” There’s a pause and the sound of the line crackling in your ear, before he continues, “Are you okay with that? I’ll turn him down if you want.” There’s a reluctance in his tone that tells you that Satoru is probably paying an obscene amount for this. The thing is that you know Higuruma means it. He really will tell Satoru to kick rocks if that’s what you want.
You realize you’ve been quiet for too long so you rush to get out, “No, no, it’s fine. I can handle him.”
“Is there something I should know about? Some sort of history here?” He asks, his voice steady and calm. You’ve known Higuruma for a long time. He was the one who got you into stripping after Suguru left to help with your self-esteem and it worked.
Pursing your lips, you take a while to answer the question. Silence stretches out again before you reluctantly murmur, “History? Yeah, you could say that.” He only knows the bare bones of what went down between you and Suguru because you hate talking about it. It makes you feel as pathetic as you did five years ago to talk about it, although if someone were to ask if you’ve moved on, you’d swear up and down that you have. Have you though? Have you really moved on if you can’t even talk about it? You shake your head to clear and add, “But it’s fine. I can handle Satoru Gojo. Besides, how can I say no when he’s willing to blow his seemingly endless supply of money on me?”
“You sure?”
You nod, even though he can’t see you, and say, “Yeah, I swear. I’m good.”
“Alright, as long as you’re sure,” Higuruma replies quietly, “If you feel uncomfortable at any point, just let me know and I’ll have him banned.”
You picture the look of outrage Satoru would have on his face if he showed up at the club one day only to find out he’d been banned. It makes you let out a little chuckle and you say, “Alright, I get it. I’ll let you know if he does anything awful.”
But the thing is, Satoru hasn’t done anything awful, not yet anyway. Sure, he’s been a bit of an arrogant ass, but that’s just Satoru. He hasn’t been cruel, hasn’t tried anything beyond what you’ve let him; he’s actually been kind of … nice. The thought unsettles you. It’s hard to reconcile the Satoru you’re beginning to know now with the Satoru you knew five years ago. It almost pisses some small, bitter part of you off. Why couldn’t he have treated you like this five years ago? But then, that would have come with its own set of complications.
Higuruma hums, and says, “He’ll pick you up from the club at 11 AM. He said to have you wear something casual, but bring something nice along with.” There’s another pause, where a rough exhale comes across the line. He must be smoking. Faintly in the background, the faint click and scrape of a lighter striking repeats over and over. He sniffs and continues, “Word on the street is the kid’s a real party animal, and an arrogant ass to boot.” Well, the word isn’t wrong. Satoru is all of those things and worse. “Just be careful, alight?”
“Don’t worry, Higuruma. I know what I’m doing,” you say, but they feel like a lie even as they’re coming out of your mouth. Honestly, you have no fucking clue what you’re doing, not at all.
“Okay, well, I’ll let you get back to your trashy reality TV,” he says with a chuckle. He knows you too well.
You scowl and say defensively, “How do you know I was watching reality TV?”
“Tch. It’s after eleven and you’re at home. Of course you’re watching that shit. You eat it up,” he teases lightly, huffing out a breath of laughter. “Goodnight, babes.”
Rolling your eyes, you mutter a quick goodbye. The phone beeps three times when the call ends and you lower it from your ear. The silence of your apartment seems louder than before, even with the TV droning on in the background. Setting your phone on the bed beside you, you hunker down into the covers.
As much as you tell yourself that you’re agreeing for the club’s sake, for the money, for the enjoyment of making him squirm, there’s a small piece of you that might actually be looking forward to tomorrow and seeing just how far Satoru will take this little game. That’s what this is to him right? A fun little game that he’ll walk away from once he gets bored. There’s no way this actually means something to him, that he actually cares. If there’s one thing you know all too well, Satoru Gojo’s heart is three sizes too small, only enough room to fit two inside: Suguru and himself.
♡
The next day, you arrive at the club fifteen minutes before Satoru is due to pick you up. Since he said to wear something casual at first, you threw on a form-fitting little pair of black shorts over some black stockings and a crimson, lace corset-top. Over the top, you’re wearing a cute, thin little black, button-up sweater. A pair of velvety platform boots ties the look together. Thrown over your shoulder though, you’ve got an opaque white dress bag, a silken black cocktail dress inside and a pair of black satin Manolo Blahnik pumps with an ankle strap embellished in Swarovski crystals. They were a gift from another client.
The club isn’t even officially open yet. They don’t open until noon, but you’re almost certain that Satoru just kept throwing more and more money at Higuruma until your manager caved to whatever ridiculous demands he made. He’s annoyingly persistent like that. You go in through the club’s back entrance, unlocked for the staff who are arriving before opening to clean and prep. It opens to the kitchen, where people are already bustling around.
Some of the cooks wave to you or call out a hello. You smile and wave, but don’t say anything. You’re not really in the mood to talk. Anticipation and anxiety war inside your body, or maybe they’re one and the same. It makes your stomach roil, twist itself up into knots. If you tried to eat something right now, you’d throw it right back up. Weaving through the club, you go through the playroom and down a hall next to the bar, where Higuruma’s office is.
When you knock on the closed door, he calls out from inside, “Come in.”
You push the door open to find him sitting at his desk pouring over paperwork. A monogrammed fountain pen rests between his fingers as his downturned dark eyes rove over an expenses sheet. “Morning,” You say, slipping inside and shutting the door behind you. Crossing the room, you take a seat in the chair opposite him. It’s not a very comfortable seat, but then again, maybe it’s not supposed to be.
“Morning,” Higuruma says, straightening his hunched posture and raking his long fingers through his short, spiky dark brown hair. He looks up at you, eyes flicking up and down your outfit. “You look nice. Sure you’re not looking forward to this?”
“Tch. Don’t say such stupid things,” you snap defensively, glaring at him. But your face is turning how, a crimson flush spreading across the apples of your cheeks, the tips of your ears. Inside your chest, your heart stumbles.
He raises his hands in surrender, large palms face you, “Hey, okay, didn’t mean anything by it. Just curious.” But the knowing smile he gives you, as if he can see past all your blustering and defenses, makes you only want to snap back harder. He taps the pen in his hand against the wooden desk. “Although, that’s a pretty defensive reaction from someone who shouldn’t care.”
“Are you trying to pick a fight with me this morning?” You ask, arching your brow up at him, “I’ll throw hands with you. Don’t play games with me.”
Higuruma chuckles and says, “Alright, alright. I get it.” Letting out a breath, he glances at the clock and says, “He should be here soon.”
You nod, chewing your lip a bit. The truth is you’re dying to talk to someone about the twisted tangle of emotions that Satoru has growing in your chest. More than anything, you need an outside perspective on this. “He’s my ex-husband’s best friend,” you blurt out.
Dark brown eyes blink rapidly at you across the desk. His brows draw together before he asks slowly, “And how do we feel about that?”
You shrug, “I don’t know. It’s, uh, kinda worse than that though. He’s sort of the reason our marriage ended. He hated me from the very beginning, treated me like crap. And then, he set my husband up to cheat on me. It was a mess.”
“Yeah, a mess is one way to put it,” Higuruma says with a chuckle, “Jesus, why didn’t you say anything? I meant it when I said I’ll have him banned if you want.”
Sighing through your nose, you don’t answer for almost a full minute. Eventually you say, “I know that. I just, it feels nice that the tables have turned, you know. He used to hate me and now he wants me. I’m not immune to—“ you shake your head and let out a frustrated huff of air, “—I’m not immune to the petty satisfaction.”
Higuruma hums and leans back in his chair. His eyes flick up and down you, “Well, then, enjoy the petty satisfaction. If you’re having fun with it, then have fun with it. Just because he used to be an ass to you, doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to enjoy the attention.” He pauses, tilting his head, “If he was a dick to you when you were married to his best friend and he’s not being a dick now, maybe he didn’t hate you as much as you think.”
Your eyes narrow on him “What the hell does that mean?”
Just as he’s about to open his mouth to answer, the phone on his desk interrupts with a string of sharp rings. Higuruma picks it up and answers with a gruff, “Hello.” There are a few exchanged words that you don’t pay too much attention to. It’s not a long conversation. Less than two minutes later, he’s hanging the phone back up. “He’s here. Pulled up to the front doors.” Pushing himself, up Higuruma stretches, his large body taking up a lot of space in this small office. He’s almost as big as Satoru is.
Lifting your dress bag and the heels over your shoulder again, you follow him out. The closer you get to the doors, the more nervous you feel, but you’ve already come this far. When you reach the front door, Higuruma pulls the club’s keys from his pocket and unlocks it. He gives you one last look, an expression that you can’t quite read, “Good luck.”
You just nod and murmur, “Thanks.” Without any more waiting, you steel yourself and head outside. Sure enough, Satoru’s murdered out Benz is pulled up to the curb. The black paint is so glossy that the sun’s reflection against the hood makes you squint and you raise a hand to block the shine. Opening the back door first, you drape your dress bag across the back seat and set your heels on the floor. Once that’s settled you slide into the front passenger seat.
“You look so pretty, baby,” Satoru says as you settle into the seat and buckle in. He looks good, really fucking good. Black slacks, a red shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows, button open at the collar, revealing the hollow of his throat.
“I’m not your baby,” You snap, glaring at him.
His lower lip juts out in a pout and he gives you those puppy dog eyes that normally get him whatever the fuck he wants. But a second later, that pout is splitting into a sly smirk and he teases, “I mean, you kind of are. At least for the rest of the day.” His blue eyes are dancing, his smile turning smug.
“You’re an ass,” You bite out, shooting him a venomous expression.
“Takes one to know one,” he counters swiftly. But his eyes are startlingly soft. So soft that you have to look away because you can’t take it. He hums and says, “Alright, you ready for the awesomeness?” He sounds so proud of himself that something thumps in your heart. It’s like listening to a little kid babble excitedly about winning their spelling bee, “I have everything all planned out. You don’t gotta worry about a thing, princess.”
Something in your chest aches, but you can’t bring yourself to deal with it. So you slump in your seat and mutter. “Whatever. Let’s just get this over with.” Just to be mean, just to hurt him. Your jaw clenches, molars grinding against each other.
“You wound me, baby,” he says theatrically, hand slapping over his chest as if he’s been struck in the heart by an invisible arrow. But he makes no move to pull the car out. You swear you can hear his heartbeat slamming against his ribs, or maybe that’s yours. After a long stretch of silence, he says quietly, “Look, I know deep down you hate me, and I fucking deserve it. I know I deserve it, but do you think that maybe just for today you can be a little bit nicer to me? I’m not asking you to sing my praises or pretend you’re hopelessly in love with me. But I’m—I don’t know—I already regret how I treated you back then and … I’m sorry. Okay? I was a complete and total dickwad to you for years. And you never deserved any of it.”
“You don’t have to do this.” You let out in a rush, sitting straight up as you look back over at him. Pure panic courses through you. You don’t want to believe Satoru is changing because it’s easier to hold onto your anger, your self-righteous pain, than face the truth you don’t want to acknowledge. A small voice in the back of your mind whispers, Without your rage, what do you really have? “The past is the past and it is what it is. Don’t apologize. You did what you did and it can’t be changed.”
“No, I wanna—“ he starts, thin silvery brows drawing together.
“Satoru, let’s just go,” You cut him off, “Really, your apologies aren’t necessary.” You’re certain it’s your heart now. You can feel it trying to jailbreak the cage of your ribs, slamming against them so hard that you feel sick. Your eyes burn with unshed tears and the worst part is that you don’t even know why you feel like you’re about to cry, but you just do.
Satoru gives you a conflicted expression. The problem is that Satoru is an open book, as much as he thinks he’s an enigma. He might hide a lot under humor and bravado, but once you understood that, it was quite easy to read him. His eyes are so sad, sadder than they have any right to be, that unflinching optimistic flippant arrogance is nowhere to be seen. “Alright, but I wish you would just let me fucking apologize,” he mutters.
“Why? Why do you feel the need? It doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t fix what you broke. All it does is serve to make you feel better about how shitty you were back then,” you snap at him, clinging to your rage with your nails carving crescents into your palms. As soon as the words are out of your mouth, your teeth sink hard into your lower lip hard enough to draw blood. The tang of copper spreads against your tongue, a little of the warm crimson smearing across your lip.
“That’s not—I’m not,” he stutters and you’ve genuinely never seen him this fucked up. His features set with frustration, his mouth opening and closing as he struggles to find the words to express whatever it is he wants to say. Slowly, he reaches out and uses his thumb to pull your lip free of your teeth. It’s a gesture so intimate that you freeze, “Don’t do that.” The pad of his thumb smears a droplet of blood over your lower lip.
You can’t help how you’re staring at him. There’s such melancholy softness in his eyes that it makes you want to throw up. “Satoru—“ you start, trying and failing to keep your voice from shaking.
“For the record, apologizing to you doesn’t make me feel any better about what I did to you back then,” he cuts you off this time, punctuating the sentence with a bitter smile. “And I’m fully aware that no amount of apologies can ever fix or make up for what I put you through, but I’d spend the rest of my life trying if there was the smallest chance you’d ever forgive me.” His palm cradles your cheek, the touch unbreakable tender. It makes your head spin. “I really am genuinely sorry for everything. I was immature and selfish, hell, I’m still pretty selfish. But I … I want to be a better person. You make me want to be a better person.” He pauses, his expression serious as those pretty blue eyes roam over your face. His throat bobs before he continues in a tone laced with quiet agony, “Even if you cut me out of your life again, I’d still try to be better for you. I never want to treat anyone the way I treated you ever again.”
Your lower lip trembles and you have to look away from him. You can’t fucking take this. Tears well in your eyes. Why is he doing this to you? Why couldn’t he have changed five years ago? Your mind is in a fucking tailspin, or maybe it’s a sort of free-fall, but you can’t help imagining what it will be like when you finally hit the ground. “Okay,” you choke out, forcing your voice to stay as steady as possible. It’s the only thing you can say without losing your shit, whether sobbing or ripping him a new one is a game of Russian roulette with half the chambers loaded.
“I’m pouring my heart out here sweets. And all I get is an okay?” He laughs awkwardly, like he’s more hurt than he’s trying to let on. You can hear the tap-tap-tap of his thumb hitting the steering wheel. There’s a soft rustle, him shifting in his seat probably. You bite down hard on your tongue, using the physical pain to ground yourself. Then, softly, gently, Satoru murmurs, “You cryin’?” You know it’s not a question though. He’s not asking, he’s confirming. “Don’t do that, sweets. I don’t want you to cry over me anymore.”
“I’m not crying, you asshole!” You can’t help but shoot back angrily, a blatantly obvious lie, quickly raising your hand to scrub the tears away. Anger. Irritation. Good. Those are things that won’t make you look pathetic. You tentatively look back over to him, only to catch him sucking your blood off his thumb, his sweeping white lashes fluttering closed for a second. Fucking freak.
He pulls his thumb from his mouth with a wet pop before tilting his head in your direction. “Yeah, sure. Whatever you say,” he says, clearly not believing you for a second, which only makes your teeth grind together. He’s really asking for a good smack upside the head. “If you did need to cry, I wouldn’t judge you,” he adds after a second, finally throwing the car into drive to pull it smoothly away from the curb, “Just this once.” At least he’s finally driving instead of focusing so much on you.
Sniffling quietly, you wipe away the lingering tears as surreptitiously as possible. You’re not so subtle for Satoru not to notice, but to his credit, he doesn’t say anything else about it. But, his hand slides across the center console to grip your thigh, heavy and warm. His thumb sweeps gentle circles over the thin, gauzy material of your stockings.
The sky is a bright, cloudless blue overhead. Before too long here, the LA sun will devour the city whole, making everyone in it swelter and sweat. It shines into the cabin, though muted by the dark window tint. As always, LA traffic is a bitch and a half to deal with, but Satoru muscles his way through it with ease; probably because he drives like a fucking asshole. He noses his way in front of people, cuts them off, and speeds through any open gaps he can get. Although, he doesn’t run any red lights and he does use his blinker (most of the time) so there’s that, you suppose.
The streets around you start to look very familiar as Satoru heads into downtown Los Angeles. Before long, he’s driving down Grand, passing the Gloria Marina Grand Park and then the Walt Disney Concert Hall. Your eyes catch on the Museum of Contemporary Art as you go by, the distinctive red brickwork and green roof unmistakable. That must be where he’s taking you. For some reason that makes your stomach do weird little flips and for a second you feel like you might be sick.
Satoru turns onto 4th, then makes another immediate turn onto Olive. He parks in the garage beneath the California plaza. Luckily, he somehow manages to get a freshly vacated spot near the entrance. After he pulls into the spot, he shuts the engine with a twist of his wrist and reluctantly lets go of your thigh. “Well, we’re here.”
You shift in your seat to look at him. “The Museum of Contemporary Art? Really?”
“Of course you figured it out. I dunno, I just thought that you probably still enjoy art,” he says, one corner of his mouth lifting, “Didn’t think taking your clothes off for strangers would really change that.”
You scoff. “God, you do something actually kinda cool and then you open your fucking mouth and ruin it all.”
His little half smile breaks into a full-on beaming grin. “Hah! You admitted it. I did something right.” The curve of his lips softens into something that resembles affection a little too closely for comfort. Leaning forward, he taps a finger against the tip of your nose and teases, “Maybe by the end of this date you’ll be able to admit that you might like me a little sometimes.”
“Keep dreaming,” you snap, shooting him a glare.
Satoru lets out a sigh and replies smartly, “Thanks. I will.”
Smug, insufferable bastard. Rolling your eyes, you say, “Ugh, let’s just go inside. You’re being ridiculous.” You turn your head just in time to hide the little smile starting to tug on your lips.
The two of you get out of the car and start out of the garage, falling into step together. Every once in a while, Satoru’s arm brushes against you. Inside your chest, your heart does a weird little skip every time it happens, which you dutifully ignore. It’s a little over a block to the museum from the parking garage, but you don’t mind the exercise; it’s a nice day out, after all. But Satoru’s words sit heavy in the back of your mind.
You clear your throat and look over at him. Eventually, you mutter, just loud enough for him to hear you, “This isn’t a date by the way.” It had to be said. Just in case. Just in case of what? Just in case he means it? But Satoru rarely means anything he says.
Satoru tilts his head to look at you, that strange, intense expression he watches you with flaring in his eyes. “Oh? Then what is it?” Before you can react, he’s reaching down and grabbing your hand. One by one, his fingers interlace with yours. His skin is warm and soft, his hand huge compared to yours.
“Are we really gonna do this?” You ask tightly, trying to tug your hand away from his. This is heading to close into couple territory for you to be on board. His fingers only tighten around yours to make escape impossible. Huffing out a breath of irritation, you bite out, “It can’t be a date because you paid for me to be here.”
But Satoru only chuckles and purrs, “Hard disagree, that’s just chivalry.” At the expression in your eyes, like a cat watching a toy it's about to pounce on, he adds playfully, “Any guy of decent standing knows that unless requested otherwise, it’s just the right thing to do to pay for the date. Lucky for you, I’m a real gentleman.” The little fucking brat is having fun with this.
“Satoru?” You say sweetly, dragging out the syllables of his name.
“Hmm, what is it, sweets?”
“You’re an idiot,” you reply flatly just as you make it to the entrance of the museum. Since it’s a weekday, the museum isn’t as packed as it is on the weekends. It’s still fairly busy just because MOCA is a popular museum, but at least you won’t be packed in like sardines.
Satoru tugs you along to the ticket booth where he pulls out his phone to show the employee what you assume to be reservations. The museum is free; most people get reservations though to make sure they don’t have to wait in line. It might be a little slower today, but it was smart of him to get them, just in case.
There’s something about art galleries that invokes a special, peaceful feeling in you. Maybe it’s the scent of the cleaners they use, or the hushed nigh-on reverent tone people use inside them, or maybe it’s the art itself. Something could be said for the act of being surrounded by pieces of souls put on display. Art is the greatest act of love one can commit.
Your eyes trail across the different pieces, expression softened so much that you almost look like a different person. Slowly, you walk from piece to piece in the Rothko section. The different geometrical squares and rectangles, the explosions of color, the messy blends. It speaks a language spoken in the heart, the hands, and the soul. You stop in front of No. 61–Rust and Blue. As you study the painting, your brows furrow in concentration and you bite down on one side of your lower lip. Glancing up at Satoru, you’re startled to find that he’s not looking at the painting at all. He’s looking at you.
♡
(Satoru’s POV)
She looks so fucking beautiful. The words play in his mind over and over in a loop. That shine in your eyes, the peaceful, studious expression on your face, the way you bite your lip—those little details make his heart do somersaults in his chest. He had chosen this place with care. He hoped that you still loved art like you used to, that he hadn’t ruined that for you as well. If he had killed your love of art, he doesn’t know what he would have done. Then you look up at him and he almost fucking panics like a dumbass. Your pretty eyes meet his and he’s never felt so fucking raw before someone in all his life.
“You’re staring at me,” you tease, your eyes lighting up with humor.
He swallows. “And? What of it? Can’t a man admire the most beautiful exhibit in the room in peace?”
“Tch. Do those shitty lines ever actually work?” You bounce back immediately, rolling those pretty eyes.
His hand squeezes tighter around yours and he gives you one of those big smiles that’s more of a taunt than anything else. “Often enough,” he goads unabashedly. You just snort and take the initiative to pull him along to the next piece. It occurs to him that he could spend day after day doing this, taking you places and buying you things, just watching that expression on your face. Happiness. He’d do anything to keep you just like that.
You stop in front of the next painting. The placard reads No. 9—Dark over Light Earth. He doesn’t really get this art. It’s a bunch of squares and color, but you seem to like it, so he refrains from being an ass about it. He wonders, yet again, if he’s the reason you gave up on all those dreams you had in college, dreams of being featured in a gallery exactly like this, of sharing your art with the world.
He takes a breath before finally asking what’s weighing on his mind. “Serious question,” he falters for a moment, debating whether or not he really wants the answer to it. But he has to know, so he sighs and continues, “Uh, why did you become a dancer?”
You look away from the painting and back up at him, “Why do you ask?”
“Curiosity mostly,” he answers with a shrug. But he can’t bring himself to lie to you, so he admits a second later, voice softer, “I just, y’know, I know that I’m the reason your marriage ended. Even though it’s not my fault Suguru was an ass throughout the divorce, I don’t know, it’d just suck if I was the reason you ended up doing that, especially if it was something you didn’t really want to do.” He swallows down the feelings of guilt simmering in his throat.
For a moment, you just blink at him, your eyes roving over his face like he’s a machine you’re trying to pick apart and understand the inner workings of. Then you say with more gentleness than he deserves, “Don’t worry, Satoru. The fact that I became a stripper is one thing we can’t pin on you.” You pause and look away from him, like you can’t bear to maintain eye contact as you say the next part, “I was pretty depressed after the divorce. Suguru was all I had and I poured everything in me into him. So, naturally, once everything fell apart, I was … empty. And I started looking for anything I could get my hands on to fill that emptiness.”
“Hey, I really—“ He starts trying to say something, anything, to show how fucking sorry he is for everything. And he’s not just sorry because of the way things ended up. It eats at him day in and day out.
“Let me finish before you start in with the apologies again.”
He nods and lets you pull him to the next piece, murmuring, “Right. Okay.”
“Higuruma and I knew each other back in college. Let’s just say that he and Suguru were academic rivals,” you explain and somewhere in the far reaches of Satoru’s brain he vaguely remembers the guy now. Wow, drugs really do a number on the memory. He’d completely forgotten about him.
“We reconnected over some dating app that I was just using to get no-strings-attached dick. For a little while there, we were sort of friends with benefits. He noticed how sad I was and how low my self-esteem was so he took me to Imperial and had one of the dancers show me the ropes. It helped build my confidence, made me feel like I had some control over something.” You explain the whole thing pretty succinctly, absolving the guilt he feels over that portion at least. “The money is another reason why I’ve kept doing it. I still do art on the side.” You giggle, a sound that makes his heart jackhammer, and add, “If I didn’t want to be doing this, I’d be doing something else.”
His mouth feels dry and his voice is tight when he says, “I see. Well, I’m glad it’s been a net positive experience for you then.” Then, his silvery brows knit together, his face scrunching up like he’s tasted something sour. “You used to fuck your boss?” He frowns and quickly adds, “Do you still fuck? Are you guys, like, together?” The thought makes him want to throw up all over the shiny floor.
“Is that all you took away from that?” You ask flatly, glancing at him again. His expression changes into a glare, which draws another laugh from you, and you say with a shake of your head, “No, we don’t sleep together anymore. It was just for a few months in the beginning. We’re friends more than anything else.” Pausing, you give him a sly smile and add, “Why? You jealous?”
He scoffs. Once already, he’s admitted to being jealous and all you did was threaten and tease him. “No, but …” he trails off and lets out a long sigh before muttering, “It irritates me to think about. “
“You claim you’re not jealous and yet you describe the symptoms of jealousy,” you tease, your little smirk breaking into a full-blown smile—little sadist. You’re enjoying this.
“Tch, fine, believe what you want,” he says shortly as he lets go of your hand to pull you closer against his side and slide his hand into the back pocket of your shorts. Then he gives the curve of your ass a nice, firm squeeze. He just can’t help himself. It looks so cute in those little shorts. There’s also the bonus of distracting you from his jealousy.
“Satoru!”
“What?” He asks innocently, leaning in to rest his head against you
You slowly look up at him, the murderous look in your eyes filling him with an odd sensation in his chest, like a bathtub overflowing with foamy bubbles. “Are you seriously copping a feel right now?” You hiss and it sends a shudder down his spine.
Your head swivels back and forth, like you’re worried someone is watching. The other patrons are all milling about in their own groups, focused on the art, none of them giving either of you a second glance.
He leans in even closer to whisper against your ear, “I mean, we could go to the bathroom and you could let me cop a better one.” The tone leaves it up for debate whether he’s joking or being serious. His smirk forms against your skin and he adds teasingly, “I for one, feel like I’m being subtle.”
“Have you ever felt shame before in your life?” You grouse at him as you start to walk over to the next exhibit, forcing him to come along as well.
Satoru shrugs and says, playing theatrically dumb, “Shame? What is this shame you speak of? Never heard of her before.” The soft classical music throughout the building swells a bit louder for a heartbeat. Then, he continues more seriously, “Honestly though, what’s there to be ashamed of about taking the things you want?”
“Of course, a spoiled little brat would have that outlook,” you mutter. The muscles in your jaw flex from your teeth grinding together. For a few minutes, you stand there in silence, but he can tell you want to say something. It’s in the set of your shoulder. Just as he’s about to open his mouth to goad you into it, you say sharply, “You know not everyone can simply take what they want when they want. Some people spend their whole lives working to get what they want only to never see it because the system was stacked against them from the beginning.”
Blinking at you for a moment, his mouth tugs into a lopsided grin, “Are you lecturing me on privilege?” He presses a kiss against your temple, unable to help himself. Softly, he murmurs against your hair, “It’s kind of hot.”
Your jaw drops and you angle your head enough to look at him and you say with sweetness that belies your words, “Sometimes, you make me wanna slap the shit out of you.”
“Oh God, please do,” he groans quietly. His long, sweeping white lashes flutter closed as he fantasizes about you doing just that. What a fucking turn on.
“You’re really screwed up in the head,” you say like you’re stating a fact.
Satoru hums and says cheerfully, “Hate to break it to you, sweets, but you are too. That shit you pulled last time? Sucking me off with him on speaker? Only someone as twisted as I am could come up with that.”
You shoot him another look that’s pure venom, but you don’t argue with him, so he knows he’s won. Satoru finally pulls his hand from your ass pocket though and wraps it around your shoulders instead. This way when you stop to look at pieces he can wrap himself around you from behind like a starfish, chin resting on your shoulders instead as you talk about the artists, color theory, and your thoughts on certain pieces. He doesn’t really understand any of it, but he listens anyway just because it’s you. But if it gets you to let him keep you close, holding you and touching you, fuck, he’d listen to you talk about watching paint dry.
In the quiet moments between words, when he’s just got his arms around you, face burrowed into your hair while you take in the artwork, in those moments he realizes he feels more content than he ever has before. Truthfully, he doesn’t really care about the art. The only thing he cares about is the expression it puts on your face. It doesn’t matter that you and he are surrounded by strangers, their conversations flowing around you like water, because right now, it’s just you and him in this world.
In this world, you were never married to his best friend. In this world, you’re just a woman and he’s just a man and there are no walls or barriers between you. In this world, maybe he could have you the way he really wants to. What wishful thinking. He can’t tell if it’s a lofty dream or a fantasy.
As you near the entrance of the museum, Satoru notices you starting to slow down. Your gait doesn’t falter, but you wince every so often, like you’re in pain. There’s a hint of concern in those gorgeous blue eyes of his. His arm around your shoulders pulls you tighter against him and he looks down at you to say, “Tired baby?”
“My feet just hurt,” you complain. You guys have been walking around for hours now without a break and these heels are killing you. They’re new and have yet to be broken in.
Satoru looks down at you and, without even thinking about it, scoops you up right there where everyone can see. It’s like you weigh nothing at all to him. Your cheeks flush crimson and you glare at him, but your arms go around his neck automatically. “There you go,” he says warmly, one arm holding you snugly under the knees, the other wrapped around your lower back. “Problem solved.”
“Satoru,” you whine cutely, turning your blushing face into his neck. “This is embarrassing.” The words come out as a soft, pleading whisper and your soft lashes flutter against his skin. Another shudder goes straight down his spine to his cock. Oh, the way you sound like that is way better than how you sound when you’re being mean.
“Relax, pretty girl,” he says, holding onto you tightly so you can’t try to squirm away, “None of them care about us. Besides, we’ll probably never see any of those people again in our lives. Just hold onto me. I got you.”
He shoulders his way out the door, ignoring any lingering looks or stares in his direction. The air outside is warm, but not humid, one of the many blessings of LA. Under the endless blue sky, Satoru’s strong arms fit around you like two puzzle pieces finding their missing match. His heart is thumping hard in his chest, not from exertion, but because of what you do to him. Retracing the earlier walk, Satoru carries you back to the car in silence, though he’s humming some pop song under his breath.
When he arrives at the car, he sets you down on the trunk and stands right in front of you, trapping you there. He braces his hands on either side of your thighs and leans in to murmur, “Prettiest girl in the whole fuckin’ world.” Spreading your thighs apart, he pulls you closer to the edge, so your legs are spread on either side of him. You blink at him, those beautiful eyes so wide and guileless.
“Satoru …” His name is a soft question on your tongue, the sound of it almost enough to bring him to his knees.
“Hmm, what is it, sweets?” He asks as he presses a kiss to the side of your neck, just under the curve of your jaw. But the only answer you give him is a soft whimper. He pulls back just enough to look into your eyes, his huge hands leaving the hood to cradle your face. He’s waited and waited and waited. And now, he really doesn’t want to anymore.
He’s been dreaming of this for weeks.
Satoru leans down until his lips are barely a centimeter from yours and pauses long enough to let you push him away if you want. But to his utter satisfaction, you don’t. The silky white locks of his hair fall forward a little as he tilts his head the rest of the way until the pout of his lips brushes yours. Your lips are soft, your breath sweet against his. The first touch is barely there and feather light, but it sparks something in Satoru—an all-consuming hunger. Or maybe it’s a kind of starvation.
With a low rumble in the back of his throat, he captures your lips with his in earnest now. His heart feels like it’s going to fucking explode right out of his goddamn chest when you start kissing him back. It’s faltering at first, sure, even hesitant, but then your lips are moving in tandem with his. He groans into it, long white lashes fluttering shut, the kiss growing more feverish and sloppy as he tries to devour you whole.
Satoru Gojo has lived with an ache in his chest since he was small. Maybe it’s because his parents never really showed him affection, or how they suffocated him out of every friendship except Suguru’s, or how even when he did have friends, everyone treated him differently because of his parents’ money and name. At times, he’s wondered if that hollowness will ever go away or if it will sit in the center of his chest for the rest of his life. Right now, with his lips on yours, for the first time in his life, he doesn’t feel it at all.
Slowly, he leans over you, forcing you to lie back on the trunk of his car. He swallows your breath and your sweet little whimpers that are music to his ears. One of his hands slides up to cradle the back of your neck to guide your head right where he wants it. Your noses bump together and your teeth. His tongue gently swipes along your lower lip and your mouth parts form him like a flower opening in the spring. He doesn’t hesitate. All pretense gone, he plunges his tongue inside and tastes you fully.
He thinks he might fucking cry from how perfect it is. He’s never felt like this before. It’s a similar sort of feeling to being stuck on a video game level or a boss fight, and then finally, finally getting it. Except, this is a million times better. His heart is pounding wildly in his chest, slamming so hard into his ribcage that he’s certain you can feel it. He angles your head to kiss you even deeper because every single atom of his being is screaming more, more, more!
But even he needs air. Eventually, he breaks the kiss, his breathing hard and fast. A smile tugs at the corner of his mouth and he uses his thumb to break the strand of spit stretching between you by wiping your bottom lip. His pretty blue eyes are shining and soft all at once.
“I’m gonna make you fall in love with me,” It slips out without his consent, but he doesn’t take it back. He lets it marinate instead. The hand at your nape slides up to tangle in your hair. “Do you hear me? Mark my words, pretty girl. It might not be today, and it might not be a month from now, but someday, I’m gonna make you fall in love with me.”
“Dream on,” you mutter, looking away from him, but your voice is all air and a shade higher than normal, cheeks stained a pretty shade of pink. God, you look so fucking beautiful like this. Those two words are nothing more than a challenge to him anyway.
He knows that if you really hated him to your core, you’d never allow all this, but you are allowing it, which means to some degree you’re tolerating it or you want it.
“Oh, I will,” he purrs, his mouth curling into a grin before he leans down to devour you all over again.
♡
(Your POV)
Those words: I’m gonna make you fall in love with me. Like he’s absolutely certain you will, like it’s something inevitable. You’re still reeling from the first kiss, but he’s on you again before you can do or say anything. His mouth steals the very breath from your lungs.
You wish you could say the kiss is awful. You really wish you could say that. And you wish you could say that kissing Satoru feels disgusting, wrong, terrible, and any other negative adjective you could slap on there. The truth is a real horrible, terrible, awful thing though, sitting in the base of your throat like a stone.
Satoru is a fantastic kisser, thorough and relentless. His natural feel for the rhythm of things is intoxicating—the push and pull between you like the tides and the moon. You can’t help but moan, whimper, and give in to the kiss. You melt under him, let him manhandle you, because all you can do is get caught in the wash of it. He kisses you for so long that your lips are swollen, wet, and a little chapped.
When he finally breaks the second kiss, he plants one on each corner of your mouth, before pulling away, a big smile on his face like he’s just won some prize. “Come on princess,” he says, wrapping his arms around you to help you down from the car. “I’ve still got a few tricks up my sleeve before the evening is done.” He guides you to the passenger side, hand on the small of your back, and opens the door for you. You slide inside and he shuts you in before jogging around to the driver’s side. Once you’re both settled in the car, he pulls out of the underground garage, only stopping to pay.
From the museum, he takes you to Echo Park Lake where you ride around on the swan paddle boats for a while. The water is peaceful, the late afternoon sun slipping closer and closer to the horizon. The two of you get lost in conversation about all sorts of random things: food, TV shows, music. It’s easier than you’d like to admit to talk to Satoru. In the past, you were so terrified of him that you barely exchanged a few words here and there. Most of his were jagged barbs and most of yours were mumbled apologies and acknowledgments.
He looks so fucking attractive in the golden hour sun. Those long white lashes and the silken snow of his hair tinted under the warm light, blue eyes glinting. Of course, he has to be holding your hand the whole time you’re on the boats. He’s very clingy and touchy. The whole time you were in the art gallery, he was wrapped around you like an octopus.
You’re a little surprised by how much thought he put into today. He picked activities he genuinely thought you might enjoy and he was spot on. The Satoru Gojo you used to know never would have thought about what someone else might want long enough to pull together something like this. The sweetness of it all leaves you feeling uneasy, like you always get when someone starts to seem like they actually like you. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
After you’re done at Echo Park, Satoru drives you to the Gojo Inc. building to change. You don’t have to ask why he doesn’t take you to his apartment. It’s an easy enough guess. Suguru is probably living with him after the divorce and he doesn’t want to risk having a little run-in. Knowing Suguru, he probably sold that house the minute the divorce was finalized. He never could stand staring at the ruins, he’d rather raze them to the ground.
You change into the dress you brought along. The silk feels like liquid against your skin, soft and lovely. After sliding the accompanying heels, you admire yourself in the mirror. The backless design shows off your spine and your waist. When you leave the bathroom, Satoru is waiting outside, seated on a low bench as he scrolls mindlessly through his phone. You clear your throat and his head jumps up.
The way his eyes go wide, the way they flick to each of your curves like he can’t decide where he wants to look the most, his thoughts on the dress are written all over his face. He shoots to his feet, throat bobbing as his gaze sweeps up and down you. “You look …” he trails off and you preen under it. The same guy who used to tease you for the way you looked is now staring at you like you’re some kind of salvation.
“Like it?” You sing-song, sidling up next to him to run your fingers along his collar, “Hah, you’re gonna get hard right here in the middle of the lobby of daddy’s company, aren’t you?” Patting him lightly on the chest, you add, “Come on, let’s go before you start getting any ideas into your head.”
“Me? Ideas?” He gasps all faux innocence, “Never.”
“That’s all you have is ideas and, somehow, they’re all fuckin’ bad ones,” you mutter. Just as you take the first steps away, Satoru snags your hand to hold it as you walk back to his car together. It’s like he can’t stop touching you.
The drive over to dinner is oddly silent for how much you guys have been talking the whole day. You watch LA traffic out the window, watch the sky turn cotton candy pink, sherbet orange, and lilac. Satoru hums along to whatever bouncy, catchy pop song has taken over the charts for the time being. Every so often, you steal glances at him as he drives. The flex of his thick, muscular arms, the way the veins bulge and twist when he turns, is more than a little distracting.
He muscles the car through rush hour traffic, the cars practically nose to nose. The intermittent honks and someone’s music so loud you can hear it in the cabin puncture the steady rumble of engines. Reaching over, Satoru grasps one of your thighs over the silk of your dress. His hand is warm even through the liquid material. Because of the traffic, the drive seems to stretch on and on, but the whole time Satoru’s long fingers trace maddeningly distracting, gentle circles over your dress. Bit by bit, he eases the material up your leg to touch your bare, smooth skin instead though. It sends a shudder down your spine, slick heat pooling in your panties.
Glancing over at him, you see that he’s got his gaze fixed on the road ahead like he’s not fucking teasing you. That’s what this is, right? A tease? His hand clamps down around your leg, fingers pressing in hard enough to leave marks. A moment later, those little circles continue against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. Your teeth sink into your lower lip as they trail higher and higher, until they’re brushing against the damp, lacy material of your little panties.
You almost jump when his voice cuts through the car, low and rough, “Why didn’t you tell me she was so needy?” One long digit swipes over your panties, stroking you over the damp material. “You’re so fucking wet, baby. Shoulda told me and I would have taken care of it.” His finger hooks into your panties, roughly pulling them aside for him to slide his finger along your soaked slit. A gasp rips from your throat and takes everything in you not to grind against his hand like a dog in heat. That finger parts your folds, sweeping up between them to circle your little clit once, twice, thrice, making your hips jump each time. His chuckle fills the cabin as he drags that same finger back down to circle your dripping hole.
“Fuck, baby, you’re lucky I’m not pulling this car off the fuckin’ road to eat your pretty little pussy,” he mutters, swirling his finger around your opening over and over, teasing you in a way that makes your cunt clench around nothing. “You know, I think about drinking up your pretty little pussy all the time. Jerk myself off to it before I go to bed every fucking night.” Sliding the just the tip of his finger in, he crooks it enough to make you squirm.
“Satoru,” your voice is an odd mix of warning and desire, a faint blush coloring your cheeks.
“What is it, sweets? Need something?”
“I’m gonna fucking—“ He pushes his finger deeper, pulling a whine from you, cutting off your threat. Bastard. He’s doing this on purpose.
He looks over at you out of the corner of his eye, a smug smirk on his mouth. “What? Got something to say, baby?”
“You—“ the word is pried out from between your gritted but he cuts you off again with a sweep of his thumb across your clit, making your hips jump, a little moan slipping out.
“Sorry, I didn’t quite catch that,” he teases, toying with that sensitive nub some more. It’s taking everything in you not to hump his hand like a fucking teenager. Your hands curl into your dress, rumpling the material, and your teeth sink into your lower lip.
He plays with your cunt the whole way to the restaurant, alternating between gently stroking your clit and swirling his long, thick fingers around your tight little hole. The problem is that he never actually lets you come. Every time you get close and your moans pitch into something feverish, his touch slows, fingers turning featherlight. By the time you arrive, you’re a sopping mess, your thighs shaking. You’ve drenched through your panties, slick leaking down onto the seat.
“Look at you, baby,” Satoru breathes as he whips into a spot at the back of the lot. “So fuckin’ pretty for me, leaking onto my seat like a good little slut.” He presses his thumb hard against your clit and you cry out, your hand flying up to the oh shit bar on the ceiling of the car. Then, to your horror and frustration, he pulls his fingers from your needy body. Lifting them to his mouth, he sucks them obscenely clean. He groans, long lashes fluttering shut as he tastes your juices like the flavor is something holy. “Mmm, best dessert in the world,” he whispers, eyes opening and sliding over to you to give you that mischievous side-eye again. “But, it’d be a terrible idea to spoil my appetite with all this sweetness, so we best go inside,” he teases, clearly enjoying your misery.
“Seriously? You’re really gonna leave me like this?” You snap irritably, pissed off that he’s gotten your pussy so needy and aching, and is leaving you there to stagnate on the brink of climax.
He laughs, “What’s the matter princess? Feelin’ a little hot and bothered?”
“Fuck you,” you mutter, tugging your dress back down your thighs as you shoot a venomous glare. He just cackles as he gets out of the car and walks around to the passenger side. When he opens your door and offers you his hand, you glare up at him and grumble, “Seriously, fuck you for that.”
When you don’t give him your hand, he reaches down and snags it anyway. Gently, he pulls you out of the car and up against his chest. Looking down at you, he gently strokes your hair and says softly, “Don’t worry, pretty girl. I’ll take care of you before the night is done.” The way he says it, solemn like a vow, his voice low and rough makes your walls clench around nothing.
Wrapping his arms around your shoulders, he leads you into Hotel Belair. Satoru is warm against you as you guys walk into the restaurant. The space is beautiful, yet intimate, with an elegant, yet bohemian vibe. After Satoru gives his name for the reservation, the host guides you back to a quiet table in the back.
The host leaves you with two menus and the drink menu; the latter Satoru sets aside. You look over the menu sheet, taking in the absurd prices, but you’re not the one paying, so what does it matter?
A few minutes of silence pass and for some reason, you feel the need to fill it. “Do you know what you’re getting?”
“Hmmm, I was thinking the lamb,” Satoru replies, his foot bumping against yours under the table. “You?”
You shrug, your eyes shifting around the restaurant. The dim lighting creates a romantic atmosphere and, with how tucked away this table is the thought crosses your mind that he might have requested it. “It’s a really nice place,” you say softly as you take in the dark leather, the white tablecloths, the pretty flowers at the center of each table. Inside your chest, your heart picks up for some reason. He tilts his head, silky white hair falling to the side, and gives you what you can only describe as a tender smile. Looking back down at the table, you mumble, “Actually, all the places you’ve taken me today have been really nice. It’s like you actually put some thought into it.”
It’s the truth, albeit an embarrassing one. Your cheeks are slightly pink and your teeth sink into your lower lip.
“Hey, I do use my brain cells sometimes.” He jokes, his smiles widening as he leans forward to prop his elbows up on the table so he can rest his chin in his hands. Those pretty blue eyes flick up and down at you before he says, “I dunno, I just really wanted to make sure you had a good time tonight.”
“Well, thank you. It’s been kind of fun actually.”
“Hah, look at that. My cruel, mean girl does know how to be nice from time to time.” He teases, eyes twinkling in the light.
His girl? Since when did you become anything even remotely resembling being his? You choose to ignore it though because some battles just aren’t worth picking.
“Don’t push your luck,” you mutter.
Just then, your waiter dressed in a nice, tailored suit appears at your table. He has kind eyes and salt-and-pepper hair. Politely clearing his throat, he says, “Good evening, miss, sir. Terribly sorry for the interruption. My name is Terrance and I’ll be your waiter tonight. May I start either of you off with anything to drink?”
Satoru starts rattling some stuff off to the waiter and you can’t help but watch the way his lips move, the way his broad shoulda carry that omnipresent reckless, confidence. The way the lights glow against his pale skin and his snowy hair, the curl of his thick, sweeping lashes, the glint of his eyes, the cut of his suit over his tall, broad frame. That’s when you realize you’re staring a little bit. You quickly look away as Satoru turns his head to look back at you.
“Want anything? Get whatever you want,” he says, the boyish smile on his lips, like you really could order the entire menu and he wouldn’t bat an eye.
You shake your head, your stomach twisting into knots. The waiter nods and walks away, your eyes following him as he disappears. In the back of your mind, a small voice whispers, This isn’t going to last. There’s no way he can sustain this. This could all be an act to begin with.
Satoru bumps your foot with his under the table again. He’s practically beaming when he says, “So, since I’ve done such a spectacular job putting together this date that you’ve enjoyed so much, does that mean that I get a reward?” He pauses, nudging your calf with the toe of his shoe. He leans forward, his expression downright roguish as he adds, “‘Cause, I think I kinda deserve a reward.”
You grind your teeth for a second before saying too sweetly, “Oh, do you?” One of your brows arches up. “I didn’t realize we were handing out rewards for, what did you call it earlier, chivalry?” At his frown, you laugh, the sound warm and happy. Meeting his eyes, you tilt your head and say, “What sort of reward do you think you deserve?”
He hums like he doesn’t already have something in mind, which you are 100% certain he does. “I think, since I’ve been such a good boy, I should get your phone number.”
He tried to get your number the last time you saw him, but you turned him down. That would make things way too messy. It comes a little too close to turning something that could be explained away as professional into something personal. “Sorry, no shot,” you reply instantly.
“Come ooonnnn, please, please, please,” he begs, “I’ll grovel if that’s what you want. You want me to get down on my knees right here in this restaurant? Because I will.”
“No, don’t do that,” you rush to say before he can mortify you in front of everyone here. “That’s a bad idea. If you want to see me, you can go through the club. I mean it.”
His shoulders cave inward and his lower lip juts out in a cute, pathetic pout. Jesus, why is he so adorable? Especially when he’s pouting like a spoilt child. He looks up at you with those baleful blue eyes and mumbles, “But you even said you had a good time today.” He sounds confused and wounded.
“I …” you trail off. You don’t feel like you should have to explain shit to him, but at the same time, the way he sounds makes you feel bad. It’s not guilt per se, just bad. The man is either a master manipulator (the likely option) or he’s genuinely hurt. Your jaw flutters as you clench your teeth, staring at him across the table. Some angry part of you revels in the fact that he’s all put out by not getting your number, but at the same time it’s hard to look at him with that sad expression and pathetic eyes. It’s probably best not to examine why it bothers you, you decide.
Luckily, the waiter saves you from having to answer. He comes to take your orders at exactly the right moment, giving you a reprieve from that expression on Satoru’s face. Satoru gets the lamb and you rattle off your order absently, lost in thought about what exactly you guys are doing here.
You need to put an end to this. Put him out of his misery like a wounded animal with no chance of recovery.
Once the waiter is gone, the rest of the dinner passes with a quiet tension simmering under the surface. Neither you nor Satoru speaks much, other than comments on the food, drinks, and other innocuous subjects. But the unspoken hangs over you like a pall. The rest of the dining room feels distant and far away, like you’re in the restaurant, but not. All that exists is the suffocating way he looks at you every so often and the delicious food that tastes like ash in your mouth.
Once both of your plates are empty, Satoru takes care of the bill, slapping his heavy, metal credit card on the table. You wish you could hear his thoughts because his expression is unreadable and you’re unable to gauge what he’s feeling. Normally, Satoru is sort of an open book, at least when you know where to look.
The walk back out to the car is quiet. The setting sun has fallen slowly under the horizon, the sky the deep periwinkle of twilight overhead. Your heels click against the pavement, loud in the unobtrusive evening. When you reach his car, he walks over to the passenger side with you and opens your door. Before you can slide inside though, he grabs your wrist.
“I’ll keep going through the club if I have to,” he says seriously, “But I meant what I said earlier.” He doesn’t specify what he’s talking about, but you already know. Someday, I’m gonna make you fall in love with me.
You swallow, “Satoru, this thing, whatever you’re doing here, we’re doing here, it’s not gonna end well.” Pausing, you take a breath, then continue, “We can’t keep doing this. It’s not … it’s not sustainable and it’s not good for us, either of us.”
“You’re just saying that because you’re scared,” Satoru accuses, glaring down at you. He’s looking at you with that intense expression, laced with anger this time.
“I’m not scared!” You immediately protest. It’s a lie though and not a very good one. You are scared, terrified actually. Every time you think about what’s going on between you and Satoru for too long you start to feel nauseous and uneasy. “Tell me, Satoru, what are you gonna do when Suguru finds out? Because he will find out eventually. You can’t hide it from him forever and he’s not completely stupid.”
Satoru’s jaw tightens and he mutters, “When the time comes, I’ll handle it.”
You let out a sigh and shake your head, “What if Suguru refuses to let you? What if the only outcome is losing him completely?”
“Don’t you get it yet?” He grits out, his pretty blue eyes roving over your face. “I’ve already lost him. The day he lost you, I lost him. We went out for drinks together for the first time in a year last night. But it’s …” He trails off and shakes his head, “If this ends with him not being my friend anymore, then so be it. It’s just more of the same.” And he sounds so fucking tired, bitter, and broken that it makes your heart lurch. “I just, I like spending time with you, okay? Can you please just let me have that?”
Your teeth sink into your lower lip. Say no. Say no. Say no. “Okay,” you murmur. Jesus Christ, what are you doing?
He smiles, not looking quite as stricken, “Okay.” Then, he quietly helps you into the car. A few minutes later, he’s pulling out of the restaurant parking lot and cruising down the road. You look out the window, watching the passing palm trees and street lights, not really paying attention to where he’s taking you. You assume back to the club, but you’re surprised when you eventually end up at Will Rogers Beach. Satoru parks in the lot across from it, facing the water.
It’s late enough now that there aren’t a lot of people here. Satoru unbuckles his seatbelt and adjusts his seat back before looking over at you and murmuring, “C’mere.” He pats his lap like an invitation.
You just stare at him for a minute that voice coming back to whisper how bad of an idea this is. But your traitorous body seems not to agree with your mind. Your hand reaches down to unlatch your seatbelt and you crawl across the center console to settle in his lap. He lets out a contented sigh with you pressed up against him, his thick, muscular arms wrapping around your waist to spread your thighs apart.
“Didn’t think I’d follow through on my promise, pretty girl?” He murmurs against your ear, his warm breath caressing the sensitive shell of it. “Told you I’d take care of you before the night is up. Meant that too.” His hands trail along your inner thighs, gently stroking the soft skin there.
A shudder goes down your spine and you can’t help but melt into him. You can feel his breath against your nape, your breath hitching as one of those hands slides higher and higher to drag over your panties, still soaked and sticky from how much he was teasing you earlier. The hand on your thigh continues its ministrations while the one gently feeling sweeping over your needy cunt starts to work your body back up into a frenzy.
You can feel him hardening under your ass and it only makes you wetter. Your nipples are hard pebbled and your teeth sink into your lower lip again. Only when you whimper out his name, “Satoru,” does he finally hook his finger into your panties to pull them aside.
The pad of his thumb swipes over your twitchy, puffy clit, which makes your pussy throb like it has its own heartbeat. It’s still so sensitive from what he was doing before dinner that you can’t help but moan and arch against him while he swirls his thumb around and around and around. Your walls flutter at the first press of his fingers against your greedy little hole. “Don’t tease me,” you whimper, sick of all the teasing from earlier.
Satoru just laughs and nips at your ear before immediately dragging his tongue over the reddened spot. He repeats the actions on the crook of your neck. “But it’s so much more fun this way,” he teases, slipping his finger in an inch, just barely. You buck your hips trying to get more, but the hand on your thigh shifts to pin you against him. “This is the only time I get to see you all needy for me,” he murmurs, “Let me enjoy this, baby. You look so pretty like this, all spread out and mine for the taking.” There’s something dark and heady in his voice that makes your heart feel like it’s being squeezed.
“Sato—“ the whine of his name is cut off by a moan as he finally plunges one finger into your aching, sopping cunt.
His finger curls toward your belly, hitting that spot inside you that makes you see fucking stars. The heel of his palm grinds against your clit, making your head swim from the dual stimulation. You moan, your hips wanting to can up instinctively, but he holds you right where he wants you. When he slides a second finger inside, your eyes squeeze shut and your head tips back against his shoulder. The obscene squelch of his fingers in your cunt fills the whole car, along with the tangy, musky scent of your arousal. He fucks his fingers into you, rocking his heel expertly over your clit to make sure you get the best of both worlds.
“So fuckin’ beautiful,” he murmurs, nipping at your neck again only to lave over the spot with his tongue. “If I had my way, I’d keep you here just like this so I could have my hand buried in your pretty pussy all the time.” He chuckles darkly, “Scratch that, I’d rather have you in bed so I could eat you instead.”
His filthy words and the way his fingers are working between your thighs draw a helpless moan from your lips. “You like eating my pussy?” You gasp out as his fingers stroke particularly hard against that soft, spongy spot inside you.
“Like it?” He scoffs, “What a joke. I live for it. I told you, sweets. I haven’t been able to get your taste out of my mouth since and all I can think about is doing it again. If I had you in my bed, you wouldn’t be leaving it until I drank my fill.” His palm grinds down hard on your clit drawing a sharp cry from you, the sensitive nub throbbing.
“Fuck—ah—Satoru,” you manage to get out.
“There you go, pretty,” he whispers, “So good for me. Say my name again, princess. Fuck, I want you so bad. I’d sell my soul to fuck you, you know that? In a heartbeat.” His cock twitches against your ass like the thought alone drives him crazy. He grinds himself shamelessly against your ass and you can feel every inch of his cock pressed against you, straining against the confines of his pants.
His fingers start fucking into you in earnest now, stretching your cunt open. You’re so soaked that you’re dripping down his hand onto his pants. That tension is ratcheting down deep in your guts, your walls growing tighter and tighter around his diligent fingers as they stroke your inner walls. Every grind of the heel of his palm over your swollen clit brings you closer and closer to the edge of an abyss.
“You’re close,” he breathes against your neck, “I can feel it, baby. Come on, you can do it. Let go for me, hmm? Wanna feel you come all over my hand.” He presses the heel of his hand hard against your clit, fucking his fingers hard against that spot inside you.
“Fuck, Satoru,” you cry out, eyes rolling back. The orgasm hits you like a freight train. You’re moaning obscenely as you gush over his fingers, your walls fluttering around them. Arcs of pleasure shoot through you, radiating out from your center, reaching the tips of your toes and your fingers. You feel molten and light and alive. The entirety of your body feels light and tingly, your vision turns white around the edges, and your hearing fades in and out.
“That’s it, good girl,” he coaxes, his voice soft, as his hand continues to work you through the orgasm. And when you finally fall limp against him, he draws his fingers out with a wet squelch and you whine at the absence. He lifts his hand to his mouth and sucks his fingers clean of you. “Fuck, you taste so good,” he whispers.
But you’re still lost in the pounding of your heart, in the feeling of his breath against your skin, in the perfect way he brings you to your peak every time. Letting out a sigh, you wonder just how the fuck you’re supposed to put the brakes on this when your body is hell-bent on putting a brick on the pedal.
A/N: I’m so, so sorry for this monster of a chapter. If you’ve made it to the bottom, thank you sm for reading. I hope you enjoyed. Likes and reblogs are very much appreciated.
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Hear me out, you are accused of a crime (something serious like murder or some shit). Higuruma is your defense lawyer, Satoru is the prosecutor, and you're fucking both of them on the DL. Both of them are obsessed with your pretty little cunt and how good you squeeze them. They're already rivals from law school and hated each other on sight, but once they both find out you're fucking the other, they get twice as possessive and only become more competitve. They take turns competing over who can make you come the most number of times. You end up fucked stupid and overstimulated to the point of tears after every meet up. "Just one more, just one more for me baby, I believe in you, you can do it for me. Just one more. Oh, there you go, pretty girl. That’s it. I told you could do it.”
Anywhosies, should I do a full set of HCs for this idea?
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