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You're obsessed with your magic teacher, Master Qifrey, but he always treats you with the utmost respect, when you'd really love to get railed by him </3 Enter - Master Gojo. He's brought in to assist, and he has no issue giving you all sorts of lessons that Qifrey won't - like making you squirt. Qifrey is not very happy catching Satoru fingering you on the dining room table of all places though, so decides to make it both your problems!
٠࣪â pairings - yandere! Gojo x witch! reader x Sorcerer! Qifrey
٠࣪â warnings - Gojo being a little shit, kinda a crack fic lol, Qifrey losing it, horny reader, Qifrey and Gojo kiss on... accident!? twice! (Sure) fingering, oral (m and f receiving) p in v sex, spitting, cum swapping, Eifel tower, tummy bulges, creampies wc- 3.2k
part of my crossover event!!! I will have two more (Sugu / Sebby and Choso / Valko!) ty to everyone for two years on Tumblr - despite a couple loud haters, the majority of you all have made me very happy to write here!
qifrey art here!! Gojo art here!!
Satoru hates watching you like this, the apprentice of his damn dreams just over there drawing pretty patterns â with Master Qifrey of all people.
Oh, you'd think they got along because they're both white haired sorcerers?
Well you'd be dead ass wrong.
Satoru can't stand how much you have swooned at Qifrey since he's arrived to help with training the future witches here, don't you realize Satoru has six fucking eyes!? Qifrey has only one, how the fuck could he ever even dream to keep up with Satoru Gojo of all people?
It was amusing, him thinking he could â but was not amusing was seeing his crush with Qifrey, following him all around and giggling as if you were one of the other girls he kept. But no, you were a whole ass woman, and Satoru thinks Qifrey should keep to being a step dad, and leave you all to Gojo himself.
You were supposed to be training with him too, but half the time Qifrey was on some bullshit and just disappeared, leaving Gojo to deal with all the damn kids always getting into trouble. He was fine when he left though, when it meant moments with you all to himself.
His fists clench now, pretty blue eyes narrowing as he watches you and that white haired copycat through an arched window, you peek then, turning your head to the side as if you could feel his eyes â and catch him, making him flap his arms around and fall back on the soft grass.
Shit.
He doesn't need you to know how often he watches you, especially since he's come here - he should be focusing on the apprentices he is here to train, not dying over you, jerking his cock in the room next to yours. But you just smell so good, and you look up at him so damn pretty.
You're always simping for Qifrey though.
Satoru is right here!?
He is always trying to show you things, yet - like a brat, really - you're all doe eyed for the other white haired sorcerer. But this weekend, itâs gonna be his chance â for you to see how strong he is. Surely when Satoru shows you his own powers, youâll get soaking wet.
WellâŚ
You do get soaking wet, when Satoru accidentally transports you into a goddamn ocean.
âShit!â He must have been distracted!? âIâm sorry, sweetheart⌠this never happens andâŚâ
âItâs f-fine,â youâre coughing and shivering, your thin white gown clinging to your body in a way that further ruins Satoru altogether, his cock throbbing at the sight of you like this. âI think your transportation magic is⌠ahem⌠reallyâŚâ
âYouâre shivering,â he pouts now, tugging you to him, ignoring how good your tits feel against his chest, all lush and pretty. âI am sorry, lemme get you back home. I wanted to show you the beach, notâŚâ
âItâs all right, Master Gojo,â you smile all tremulously, clinging to his neck as he picks you up. âIâm a little dizzy.â
âIâve got youâŚâ
Satoru gets you back, and after youâve gotten into dry clothes, he realizes that the two of you are alone.
No kids up.
No one eyed Qifrey and his lover (thatâs who Satoru thinks that man is, well⌠Satoru sure hopes!)
Itâs his chance to show you a different magic.
He gathers himself that night at dinner, you're sitting next to him tonight, his hand resting on your thigh as he smiles at you, watching you bite down on your lip, a pretty flush to your skin.
"I am sorry again for today,â he murmurs, brushing a lock of your drying hair back gently. âI really thought I had that one down.â
âIt was kind of fun,â you giggle now, sipping your wine, a drop of it on your lips. âMaster Qifrey always keeps me away from any danger, locked up almost. So it was a little⌠exhilarating.â
âYeah?â You nod and he exhales.
Thank God.
âI actually have a different method than Qifrey does for magic," he murmurs softly, as you nibble on your dinner. "I should show you some time."
"Oh, different from the ocean trip?"
"Mhm," you lean forward just a bit, pretty tits leaned out of your neckline for his hungry blue eyes to hit. You sip your wine carefully once more, feeling the intensity of his gaze taking your breath.
You may or may not have a crush on Qifrey - but you also may or may not have a crush on Satoru.
Scandalous, you can't do such things!
They're both your teachers, and you're a grown woman, much unlike the young girls that joined you as apprentices, aren't you supposed to set an example? But your thoughts are utterly wicked - imagining just how much of their cocks you can fit in your throat.
Scandalous thoughts that must end!
"I could show you, it's a little different," Satoru says, chuckling and slipping up that blindfold he wears constantly, letting pretty blue eyes drift across your collarbones. "More based on touch than drawings."
You feel your cunt clench around nothing. "Oh, touch, you say?"
"Mhm."
"Well,â you set down your glass, heart racing as the fire crackles, illuminating his tall shadow taking over yours on one of the stone walls of the Atelier. âI'm most eager to learn."
It's moments before Satoru has you spread right on that table, shoving your skirts up, his fingers pumping in and out of your needy cunt, the squelching so damn loud. He's leaning over you, as his fingers move in and out faster, a hand clutching yours as it rests on the table, your ass arched all pretty against him as you cry out.
"S-Satoru!"
Your voice is all hoarse as your head falls back, as much as you adored Qifrey - well, he'd kept it all professional. He'd never done more than brush your cheek with his fingers once, a lean close â so close you thought heâd kiss you â just to pull back and walk right out.
Not Satoru.
He had no problem kissing you messy, his eyes were insane as he hit your sweet spot over and over, laughing against your ear, lips brushing against it.
"How are my lessons, pretty little witch?"
"Wh-what... are you teaching, ngh," his teeth nip your ear, eliciting a filthy little cry. âTheyâre v-very â ah! GojoâŚâ
âSatoru,â he whispers, pumping faster with his thick fingers in your plump, messy cunt. âSay it, sweetheart.â
âSatoru!â
That's what Qifrey hears when he walks in.
"Well, here's that sweet spot, the one that makes you gush," he's honing in on it, smirking when Qifrey walks in, but your face is pressed against the table cloth, drooling on it, Satoruâs hand entangled in your hair.
Qifey is torn - between wanting to fuck Satoru up and wanting to drag you right over to himself, hearing your pathetic, mewling little cries, your squelching cunt as the dumb fucking sorcerer he brought in to help is touching you. Qifreyâs hands are damn near shaking, clenching into fists as he walks in, slamming his gear down on the ground loud enough for you both to pause.
Satoru just smirks, this little shit.
Your face is all fucked out, drool down your lips, eyes glazed over in a way Qifrey had only ever dreamed of.
Oh yes, filthy dreams of his apprentice, the one heâd tried so fucking hard to make sure not to touch, to be professional. Yet here Satoru Gojo is, with his dumb blindfold shoved up his face, grinning right at him and apparently fingering your cunt again, judging by the messy, wet sounds echoing and your little moan.
âWhat is the meaning of this!?â He demands, you bite your lower lip, but Satoru simply hums a bit, reaching around to grip one of your tits, squishing it in his hand.
âI was showing her my own magic, one eye.â
Qifrey snorts, shaking his head and pulling out his little notebook. âTime for you to get locked the fuck away, six eye freak.â
âAww, canât make her cum without your doodles?â Heâs got you arching, and Qifreyâs cock is throbbing underneath his robes, his eye damn near twitching behind that spectacle, as your nails scramble for purchase on the table.
Qifrey walks over and Satoru is furious at how you grip his fingers when heâs that close, how thick your coating of slick gets, he gets so mad he slips a third finger inside, making you cry out.
âEyes on me,â he murmurs in your ear, but the other sorcerer is gripping your chin, forcing you to meet his gaze, that eye glinting dark.
âNo, eyes on me,â he says softly in that tone of his, absolutely fucking you up, his free hand trailing down the side of your pretty tit, tracing the gentle curve as youâre trying to hold it together. âYou needed your cunt played with and never told me?â
âShe didnât need to tell me,â Satoruâs lips pressed against your neck, his teeth nipping your skin.
âI tried but y-you⌠seemed very â ngh, reserved,â he sighs, shaking his head once more.
âHere in the dining room? Really, Gojo?â
âWant dinner though,â he pulls out his fingers, dripping with you, smirking as he sees the sorcerer fucking salivate, sucking your juices right off them, moaning, his cheeks hollowed. âSheâs so tasty.â
âMy room. Now.â
You both pause, Satoru raising a brow, but Qifrey just walks off, looking at you both behind his shoulder.
âI said now.â
Youâre sure youâre in for the worst tongue lashing of your life, even as Satoru has this big, shit eating grin on his face, walking up the winding stairs to his room, when the door shuts behind you, and suddenly itâs Qifrey, his fingers on the buttons of your gown, making quick work of them. He sighs when he sees you naked, groaning at the sight of your pretty body as Gojoâs own eyes dart across.
âSeems our first time will have to be sharing you,â he murmurs, clicking his tongue and brushing your hair back. âShame, I wanted you all to myself.â
âWho says Iâll share her?â Satoru tugs you to him, lifting you like itâs nothing with his hands on your thighs, carrying you right over to Qifreyâs bed and laying you down, just for the other sorcerer to come right over, shoving Satoru right over.
âYou already started having fun,â he presses you down against those silk sheets, cool against your heated skin, making you tremble just a bit. âLook at youâŚâ
âMaster QifreyâŚâ Youâre all flustered, and he raises a brow, as Satoruâs slipping off his top, revealing the muscles of his hard body, while Qifreyâs fingertips trail your thighs, sliding up and making you tremble.
âYou were aching all this time, hmm?â His voice rushes over you, and Satoruâs sigh is loud.
âWill you move so I can show you how to eat pussy?â
âTch, think I donât know how to pleasure a woman?â Satoru is snickering as Qifrey kneels at the foot of the bed.
âDo you just draw on her thigh?â Qifrey doesn't answer, he simply slips his long fingers up your skin. Watching those juices pour right out.
 "I've wanted to do this since I first saw you," Qifrey murmurs, as if itâs just for you â spreading your thighs with his hands carefully. "Taste this sweet, pretty little pussy."
âYou have? Iâah!â He leans in, his breath hot against your sensitive folds, before his tongue makes contact with your dripping slit.
You cry out, arching against the bed, hips pressed up as he licks a slow stripe up your slit a few times, coating his tongue in it before he parts your puffy folds, circling your clit with deliberate precision. The very tip of his tongue swirling intricate patterns like drawings, all in front of Satoru Gojo.
âFuckâŚâ that's all he can manage, as one of your hands grip the sheets, and the other entangles in Qifreys pretty white locks.
âThere it is,â he mumbles, pussy drunk as he smirks over at Satoru. âShe quite likes her clit being covered in my âdrawingsâ hmm?â
Satoru watches with hungry blue eyes before kneeling down right next to him, his mouth capturing your other thigh in a little kiss, grasping dribbles that are glistening right down.
âMove over,â he bites your skin. nudging Qifrey aside. "Let me taste her too."
Instead of arguing, Qifrey simply shifts a bit, leaning over you to capture your chin, allowing Satoru to eye your dripping folds, parting your pussy wide and watching it clench around nothing.
Qifrey spits your own cum in your mouth.Â
âSwallow, pretty Apprentice.â
You eagerly obey, earning a pleased smirk as Satoru buries his face against you with just a bit of clumsiness, his tongue exploring every inch of your folds before pulling back with a groan.
 "Fuck, you're tight," he mumbles, sliding a finger inside as Qifrey licks your clit again, the squelches obscene. "Can you even take us?"
âMhm â ah!â Your thoughts are cut off when both men begin to eat your cunt â desperately, your hands in each of their silky white locks, one of your thighs in each hand as they spread you wide.
Qifrey leans in and captures Satoru's lips in a messy kiss as if to make sure to capture all your juices, his tongue slipping over Satoru's mouth to taste you on him. The sight makes your cunt clench around Satoru's fingers, the way they're moaning. The way the saliva drips between them â your two teachers sharing your taste between them right over your twitchy clit.
âOhâŚâ they both blush a bit and pull back as if it were some mistake, before diving back in, tongues circling your clit in tandem, both men's fingers working your needy cunt. âDid you two⌠ah. Kiss?â
âNo!?â
âIndeed no!?â
You go to giggle.
Big mistake.
The two white haired sorcerers immediately position you, so you're laying on your back sideways on the bed, Qifrey settling between your thighs with his fat cock tugged out of his robes, as Satoru positions himself by your head, his pink tip dripping white little drops on your lips.
âYou want me to take care of you, hmm? Pretty girl,â Qifreyâs words are fucking you up â blood rushing through your ears as you nod, feeling his cock slide between your puffy folds, while Satoruâs darts on the seem of your lips, running across it achingly slow.
 "I want to watch that pretty throat bulge when I fuck it," he murmurs, moaning when you lap at his tip, your mouth opening wide. âWatch you swallow every inch."
"And I want to see myselfâŚâ He pushes right into your slick heat, youâre so damn wet your cunt takes him easy despite how fucking long he is, he lets out a little moan, eyeing that stomach bulging. âRight here.â
tBoth men eye your body, Qifrey painting pretty patterns with his fingers on your tummy, while his cock is gliding in, Satoru pressing so that you choke on him, shushing you carefully.
âThatâs it, you can take us, sweetheart,â he cooes those words, watching his shape in your throat while he sees Qifreyâs cockprint moving in and out of your stomach. âLook at you. Made for it.â
âYou're taking us so well,â Qifrey whispers, picking up your thighs now and spreading them wide, watching how she so greedily grabs onto his cock, every thrust making slick just pour. âI was neglecting my apprentice, I see.â
âYou were,â Satoru whines out â Qifrey would make fun of that sound, but heâs doing the same goddamn thing when you grip him, swallowing around the other sorcererâs cock. âFuckâŚâ
They begin to move their cocks in perfect sync, tears slip from the corners of your eyes as Satoru sinks deeper, and Qifreyâs tip is just kissing your cute lil cervix. Youâre so full of both of them you can hardly see, vision fuzzy as your eyelashes flutter closed, seeing stars behind your eyes.
Itâs not long before he has you on your hands and knees, sucking Satoru like that while his hand entangles in your hair, his heavy balls slapping your clit, the loud slick sounds of the men fucking you echoing in the bedchamber. Satoruâs gasping out as he shoves his cock fully inside your mouth, that tip gliding on your throat until your nose is flush with the little smattering of white hair, and Qifrey is leaned back, watching your cunt taking him.
âLook at that, so eager,â he clicks his tongue, smirking just a bit, that little eye glass fogging up with his own breaths as he pulls out fully, slapping his fat cock right on your needy cunt, chuckling. âBegginâ for all that cum inside, isnât she?â
Satoru pulls out so you can speak, throat sore with how heâs stretched it out, saliva just dripping from your lips. Satoru tilts your chin up, smiling down at you, thumb brushing over your lower lip now, swiping some of his pre.
âAnswer him, sweetheart.â
âWant it,â you manage, peeking back to see your teacher gripping your hips, nudging his tip teasingly against your clit, coating it in sticky pre. âI doâŚâ
âHow do we ask, love?â Qifrey nudges your clit again. âHave I not taught you any manners during our lessons?â
âPlease,â you whisper, gasping out as Qifrey shoves his length back inside your snug lil cunt, sheâs quivering all round him as he leans close, and Satoru is tugging your mouth back open.
âWant to swallow all this cum while he fills you?â He asks, making your cheeks heat up. âLooking all innocent when you just want all this cum.â
âMhm,â is all you can manage, tongue out, letting them both fuck their loads inside â so full youâre swallowing Gojo down, as Qifrey pumps you so full it wonât even stay in.
Donât worry â the sorcerers make sure to clean your pussy right up, and if their tongues catch each other, well theyâre just sharing your taste â and Qifreyâs cum is quite sweet, even if Satoru wonât admit it. Theyâre certainly not kissing, and they absolutely canât stand each other â theyâre just getting along for you!
âş Pairings: Bf!Gojo x alt!reader x Piercer!Choso
âş Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
âş Synopsis: Your boyfriend, Satoru Gojo loves all your tattoos and piercings. He always has. However, there is one piercing you donât have yet that he thinks would look stupid good on you: nipple piercings. When he offers to pay for them, well, who are you to say no to a free piercing? How was he to know that it meant having another guy ogling your pretty tits? He canât stand the way piercer!choso stares at his girl, but you? Oh, you eat his jealousy up.
When you and Satoru start walking back, the thud of your overgrown boyfriendâs footsteps makes him look up at you. Dark brown eyes meet yours, and the smudged reddish-purple eyeshadow around them does nothing to hide how tired he looks. He has the look of someone whoâs chronically exhausted, but heâs way too young to look like that. He canât be any older than you or Satoru. An oversized t-shirt hangs loose over his broad shoulders, hiding much of his build, but if his arms are anything to go by, then youâd guess lean, muscular. Two puffs of shaggy brown hair are tied up on his head, giving him an almost innocent appearance. Thereâs a line tattooed across the bridge of his nose, and he might have a full sleeve as well. His piercings are eye-catchingâsnake-bites, septum, small gauges, several other ear piercings.Â
You donât miss the way his eyes drag over your body, hovering on your waist, exposed by the crop top and shorts combo youâre wearing, then up to the very tits heâs meant to pierce. Of course, Satoru immediately notices that as well, and the possessive hold he has around you tightens, one long arm wrapping around your middle to splay across your skin in a blatant show of claim.Â
âHey, Iâm here for a nipple piercing consultation,â you explain before Satoru can open his mouth and say something ridiculous.Â
âRight,â Choso replies, jerking his head in the direction of the tattoo chair, âTake a seat, and, uh, take your shirt bra off. Need to see your anatomy to make sure itâll work.â
You give him a pretty smile that has Satoruâs fingers digging into your skin. âOh, I didnât wear a bra,â you say breezily, like youâve said youâre gonna grab coffee after. Satoru stiffens behind you, clearly not expecting that either. Oops. You barely manage to shrug your clingy boyfriend off as you walk over to the nearest chair, but eventually he lets you go, however reluctantly. So, he just hovers right behind you. Dropping into the chair, you watch as Choso slowly makes his way over.Â
âLift upââ Choso starts, but cuts himself off when he sees youâre already doing it.
Your bare tits bounce free, pert little nipples stiff. Chosoâs eyes immediately follow them, and he crouches down to get a better look.
âSeriously?â Satoru grouses, leaning over the chair. âWhy donât you take a picture? Itâll last longer.â
Choso doesnât react. In fact, he doesnât do or say anything, just stares at the plush flesh of your tits, taking in the soft-looking globes. He barely notices Satoru at all. And youâd swear that you see him drag the tip of his tongue across his bottom lip. Oh, maybe Satoru was a little right, and the piercer does like your pretty tits. He leans forward a little; whether intentionally or unintentionally is anybodyâs guess.Â
âI need to feel them to make sure theyâll hold the bar,â he blurts out, voice rough, the tips of his ears and his cheeks turning pink. Cute. Something tells you that heâs a liar, though. He could probably tell from the moment you lifted your shirt if you were a good candidate for the piercings, but thereâs something in his eyes that makes you almost certain he just wants an excuse to touch them.
âNo way,â Satoru snaps before you can even open your mouth. If he were a cat, heâd be bristling right now.
âHeâs just feeling them to make sure he wouldnât damage them by piercing them,â you coax, gently running your hand up and down his arm. Heâs such a jealous baby. âHeâs gonna have his hands on them for less than thirty seconds. Heâs already seen them. Just let him do his job.â Youâre being soft for him, but at the same time, your thighs press together because, fuck, youâre so turned on by this. It only makes you want to push, to make him even more jealous, to see just how far you could go before he snaps.
âBut babyyy âŚâ he whines pathetically, âTheyâre for me.â This fucking guy. âSupposed to be all mine.â Satoru shoots Choso an irritated look like you getting the nipple piercings wasnât his own idea.Â
Craning your neck to look back at him, you say, âAnd him touching them for twenty seconds isnât going to change that.â God, youâre so fucking wet right now, a damp spot forming rapidly in the center of your panties. Itâs not your fault that heâs so fucking hot when heâs jealous.Â
A/N: Just a sneak peak of a lil something Iâm cooking up for yâall hehe. I am not going to say when it will be done bc we all know thatâs going to make me jinx myself
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âş Pairings: Bf!Gojo x alt!reader x Piercer!Choso
âş Rating: Explicit (MDNI) 18+
âş Synopsis: Your boyfriend, Satoru Gojo loves all your tattoos and piercings. He always has. However, there is one piercing you donât have yet that he thinks would look stupid good on you: nipple piercings. When he offers to pay for them, well, who are you to say no to a free piercing? How was he to know that it meant having another guy ogling your pretty tits? He canât stand the way piercer!choso stares at his girl, but you? Oh, you eat his jealousy up.
When you and Satoru start walking back, the thud of your overgrown boyfriendâs footsteps makes him look up at you. Dark brown eyes meet yours, and the smudged reddish-purple eyeshadow around them does nothing to hide how tired he looks. He has the look of someone whoâs chronically exhausted, but heâs way too young to look like that. He canât be any older than you or Satoru. An oversized t-shirt hangs loose over his broad shoulders, hiding much of his build, but if his arms are anything to go by, then youâd guess lean, muscular. Two puffs of shaggy brown hair are tied up on his head, giving him an almost innocent appearance. Thereâs a line tattooed across the bridge of his nose, and he might have a full sleeve as well. His piercings are eye-catchingâsnake-bites, septum, small gauges, several other ear piercings.Â
You donât miss the way his eyes drag over your body, hovering on your waist, exposed by the crop top and shorts combo youâre wearing, then up to the very tits heâs meant to pierce. Of course, Satoru immediately notices that as well, and the possessive hold he has around you tightens, one long arm wrapping around your middle to splay across your skin in a blatant show of claim.Â
âHey, Iâm here for a nipple piercing consultation,â you explain before Satoru can open his mouth and say something ridiculous.Â
âRight,â Choso replies, jerking his head in the direction of the tattoo chair, âTake a seat, and, uh, take your shirt bra off. Need to see your anatomy to make sure itâll work.â
You give him a pretty smile that has Satoruâs fingers digging into your skin. âOh, I didnât wear a bra,â you say breezily, like youâve said youâre gonna grab coffee after. Satoru stiffens behind you, clearly not expecting that either. Oops. You barely manage to shrug your clingy boyfriend off as you walk over to the nearest chair, but eventually he lets you go, however reluctantly. So, he just hovers right behind you. Dropping into the chair, you watch as Choso slowly makes his way over.Â
âLift upââ Choso starts, but cuts himself off when he sees youâre already doing it.
Your bare tits bounce free, pert little nipples stiff. Chosoâs eyes immediately follow them, and he crouches down to get a better look.
âSeriously?â Satoru grouses, leaning over the chair. âWhy donât you take a picture? Itâll last longer.â
Choso doesnât react. In fact, he doesnât do or say anything, just stares at the plush flesh of your tits, taking in the soft-looking globes. He barely notices Satoru at all. And youâd swear that you see him drag the tip of his tongue across his bottom lip. Oh, maybe Satoru was a little right, and the piercer does like your pretty tits. He leans forward a little; whether intentionally or unintentionally is anybodyâs guess.Â
âI need to feel them to make sure theyâll hold the bar,â he blurts out, voice rough, the tips of his ears and his cheeks turning pink. Cute. Something tells you that heâs a liar, though. He could probably tell from the moment you lifted your shirt if you were a good candidate for the piercings, but thereâs something in his eyes that makes you almost certain he just wants an excuse to touch them.
âNo way,â Satoru snaps before you can even open your mouth. If he were a cat, heâd be bristling right now.
âHeâs just feeling them to make sure he wouldnât damage them by piercing them,â you coax, gently running your hand up and down his arm. Heâs such a jealous baby. âHeâs gonna have his hands on them for less than thirty seconds. Heâs already seen them. Just let him do his job.â Youâre being soft for him, but at the same time, your thighs press together because, fuck, youâre so turned on by this. It only makes you want to push, to make him even more jealous, to see just how far you could go before he snaps.
âBut babyyy âŚâ he whines pathetically, âTheyâre for me.â This fucking guy. âSupposed to be all mine.â Satoru shoots Choso an irritated look like you getting the nipple piercings wasnât his own idea.Â
Craning your neck to look back at him, you say, âAnd him touching them for twenty seconds isnât going to change that.â God, youâre so fucking wet right now, a damp spot forming rapidly in the center of your panties. Itâs not your fault that heâs so fucking hot when heâs jealous.Â
A/N: Just a sneak peak of a lil something Iâm cooking up for yâall hehe. I am not going to say when it will be done bc we all know thatâs going to make me jinx myself
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・⧠your husband satoru is a total dacryphylliac⧠・
Summary: Youâre so pretty when you cry, and Satoru Gojo, your devoted husband of years, canât help but use your tender heart to soothe his own desires
Satoru pushed open the door to your shared apartment, the quiet hum of the city fading behind him. He had wrapped up his mission earlier than expected, eager to get back to you. The place smelled like chamomile tea and something faintly sour, probably from your morning sickness. He kicked off his shoes, sunglasses perched on his head, and called out softly.
"Baby? You home?"
No answer at first, just a sniffle from the bedroom. His heart twisted in that delicious way it always did when he heard you like that. Tears. God, he loved your tears. The way your long lashes clumped together, dark and wet, framing those big, vulnerable eyes. The slight flush on your nose, the way your voice cracked and trembled. And the best part? Only he could fix it. No one else got to see you like this, hold you, make you feel whole again. It made him want to lock you away forever.
He found you curled up on the bed, knees to your chest, that oversized sweater swallowing your frame. Your hair was a mess, face buried in a pillow. Pregnant belly peeking out just a bit, round and perfect. You looked up when he approached, eyes red-rimmed, cheeks streaked. "Satoru," you whispered, voice thick. Fresh tears welled up. "You're back."
He dropped onto the bed beside you, pulling you into his lap without a word. You fit so perfectly there, your weight a comfort against him. "Hey, hey. What's got my girl crying today? Talk to me." His hand stroked your back, fingers tangling in your hair.
You buried your face in his chest, shoulders shaking. "Just everything, Toru. You left before I woke up again a-and I hate that. I hate when you're gone before I even see you. Then the nausea hit hard this morning and it wouldnât go away for hours. A-and... and my favorite dress. The blue one you like? It doesn't fit anymore. I tried it on, thinking maybe today would be okay, but it won't even zip. I look... I look huge. Y-you probably think so too. You've been staring weirdly lately."
Satoru bit back a smirk. The dress. Yeah, that was his doing. He had tossed it in the dryer on high heat last week, watching it shrink just enough. Not to hurt your feelings, never that. But fuck, you looked too good in it. Those curves hugging your body, drawing eyes from everyone. No one deserved that view but him. And he knew it would end like this: you in his arms, tears soaking his shirt, needy for his reassurance. His cock twitched at the thought.
"Huge?" He chuckled low, tilting your chin up. Your lashes were clumped, mascara smudged just a little, nose pink. Perfect. "Baby, you're carrying our kid. Youâre not huge, youâre gorgeous. And I've been staring because I can't keep my eyes off you. Every inch of you is sexier now. Those hips? This belly? Fuck, it makes me hard just looking." You sniffled with a small giggle, wiping your eyes, but doubt lingered. "Really? You don't... you don't think I'm gross?"
His thumb brushed a tear from your cheek, smearing it deliberately. He loved how it glistened on your skin. Memories flooded him: the night he proposed, down on one knee in your tiny kitchen. Your tears had poured then, happy ones, splashing onto the ring as you nodded frantically. Or when he tickled your sides until you laughed so hard you cried, body writhing under him. And his absolute favorite, when he had your legs spread wide, cock slamming into your pussy over and over. You would grip the sheets, sobbing his name, babbling nonsense as orgasms ripped through you. Tears streaming, voice breaking. All his.
"Gross? Never." He kissed your forehead, then your nose, tasting salt. "You're mine. Every curve, every tear. Let me show you how much I need you." You hesitated, but your body melted into him, hands clutching his shirt. "Okay. Just... hold me first?"
He nodded, shifting so you straddled his lap, your belly between you like a warm secret. His hands roamed your sides, slipping under the sweater to caress bare skin. Soft, stretched just right from the pregnancy. He pressed kisses along your jaw, murmuring, "You're so beautiful like this. Swollen with my baby. No one gets this."
Your breath hitched, more tears slipping free. "Satoru... I feel so emotional. Like everything sets me off." He breathed against your neck, nipping lightly, "good. Cry for me. I really love it." The words slipped out before he could stop them, but you didn't seem to notice, too lost in the moment.
He peeled the sweater off you, revealing your full breasts, nipples dark and peaked. Pregnancy had made them heavier, more sensitive. He cupped one, thumb circling the bud, watching you gasp. Tears tracked down your cheeks as you rocked against him, feeling his erection press up through his pants.
"See? Look at what you do to me." He ground up, letting you feel the hard length. "I donât need a dress when youâre already perfect naked and crying on my lap."
You whimpered, lashes fluttering wetly. "I love you, so much.â He replied, "I know," before flipping you gently, mindful of your belly, laying you back on the pillows. His mouth latched onto a nipple, sucking hard. You arched, fingers in his hair, a sob escaping. Colostrum beaded on his tongue, sweet and warm. He groaned, switching sides, kneading the other breast.
"Satoru! Oh God," you cried, tears flowing freely now. Your nose reddened more, voice pitching high. He pulled back, admiring the sight. Clumped lashes, flushed face, lips parted. His cock throbbed painfully. "Look at you. So pretty when you cry. Makes me want to fuck you senseless."
You nodded frantically, hands tugging at his pants. "PleaseâŚI-I need it inside. Make it better."
He stripped quickly, cock springing free, thick and leaking. Your eyes widened, more tears for some reason, joy or overwhelm, he didn't care. He settled between your thighs, spreading you wide. Your pussy was slick, swollen from hormones, folds puffy and inviting.
"Gonna fill you up," he promised, rubbing the head along your slit. You bucked, sobbing his name. "Yes, yes, Satoru!"
He pushed in slow, savoring the stretch. You were tighter now, pregnancy making you grip him like a vice. Inch by inch, until he bottomed out, balls against your ass. Your walls fluttered, tears streaming as you adjusted.
"Fuck, baby. So wet for me. Even yâre pussyâs crying for me??? H-hahâŚsqueezing mâcock soo good." He started thrusting, deep and steady, hands on your hips. You gripped the sheets, back arching. "Too much... feels sâgood... ah!"
He picked up pace, slamming harder, the bed creaking. Your belly jiggled with each thrust, your breasts bouncing. Tears poured, mixing with sweat. Your voice broke into babbles. "Satoru...mmh.. don't stop..."
"Never," he growled, possessive fire burning. Only he saw this. You sobbing, coming apart on his dick. No one else. He leaned down, capturing your mouth in a messy kiss, tasting all your tears. His hand slipped between you, thumb on your clit, rubbing circles.
You couldn't take it anymore, your pussy clamping down, creamingaround him. "Satoru! Cumming... oh fuck!" Sobs wracked your body, lashes clumped shut, nose bright red.
He didn't stop, fucking through it, chasing his own release. "That's it. Cry for me. All mine."
Your babbling turned incoherent, tears endless. He thrust deep one last time, spilling hot cum inside you, groaning your name.
You collapsed together, his weight braced on elbows. You sniffled, clinging, tears still leaking. He kissed them away, heart swelling. "Feel better?"
"Yeah," you murmured, voice hoarse. "You always make it better."
He smiled, secret kink sated. You were his. Tears and all.
Satoru lingered inside you, softening slowly, not ready to pull out. Your pussy milked the last drops from him, warm and content. He brushed hair from your damp face, thumb tracing the tear tracks. You looked wrecked in the best way: eyes puffy, lashes stuck together in little spikes, lips swollen from kisses and bites. That red nose tip made you seem so fragile, so his to protect.
"You know I didn't mean to leave early," he said softly, though part of him loved knowing it started your tears. "Mission ran long last night. But I'm here now. All yours."
You nodded, sniffling. "I know. Just... lonely sometimes. And the baby's kicking more than before. It feels weirdâŚall the changes. Like I'm not myself anymore."
He placed a hand on your belly, feeling a flutter. His kid. Yours. Possessiveness surged again. "You're still you. Hotter, if anything. Remember when I proposed? You cried a whole river but I couldnât find you any less beautiful." A watery laugh escaped you. "Dont remind me, Toru!"
"Hey, How could I ever let you forget? You were the prettiest yet that night." He grinned, thrusting shallowly just to make you gasp. "And when I tickled you last week? Laughing so hard you teared up a little. Fuck, that was so cute."
"Satoru!" You swatted his chest", fresh tears of embarrassment, "don't remind me."
But he did love reminding you. Every emotional outburst fed that hidden hunger. The joy tears, the laugh tears, the empathy ones when he talked about work. But nothing beat the sex tears. Like just now, you sobbing as he railed you.
"What about when I fuck you till you can't talk?" He murmured, starting to harden again inside you. "Bawling my name, pussy creaming all over my cock. That's my favorite."
Your cheeks flushed deeper. "You're awful. I-I donât... okay yeah. I get overwhelmed, but Iâm not a crybaby!"
He rocked his hips, that pervert was already building friction. "Yâknow I really wanna make you cry again? Show you how much I love this body?" Your breath hitched. You bit your lip, nodding. "Yes please."
This time he went slower, savoring. Pulled out almost all the way, then slid back in, grinding deep. Your hands clutched his shoulders, nails digging. Tears started anew as pleasure built.
"Look at me," he commanded. Your eyes met his, wet and pleading. "See? Only I get this. Your tears, your pussy, our baby? All mine."
"Y-yours," you sobbed, legs wrapping around him. "All yours, Satoru. p-please just a little harder."He obliged, pounding now, skin slapping. Your breasts leaked a little with each thrust, milk dribbling. He leaned down, licking it off, sucking again. You wailed, coming fast, walls pulsing.
"Good girl. Soak my cock." He flipped you onto your side, careful, spooning behind. One leg hitched over his arm, he rutted deep, hand rubbing your clit. Tears streamed out, voice breaking. "Can't... too much... Satoru!"
"Câmon baby, Just cry it out fâme yeah?" His free hand squeezed your breast, possessive grip. Cum from before leaked out around his pistoning cock, messy and hot.
You babbled, "Love you... so full... gonna cum again..." Body tensed, then shattered, squirting a little. He followed soon after. Flooding you with more of his sperm. "Take it, all mine."
Panting, he held you close, kissing your tear-streaked shoulder. You sighed, content, emotional storm passed. "Thank you," you whispered. "For always taking care of me."
"Always," he replied, heart full. His secret safe, your tears his addiction. And later, as you dozed, he thought about the dress. Maybe shrink another one tomorrow. Just to make you need him again.
a/n: I know I said Iâd most likely post my object gojo fic today but when I saw so many people anticipating and looking forward to it I got so nervous and felt more unsure of my draft so Itâll probably be out tomorrow!!
also Iâm not sure if this dynamic is problematic or if it counts as dubcon since I made satoru more manipulative than I expected, idk yall. imo even tho the reader consents heâs making you vulnerable and insecure just so you be closer to himâŚ
anyways letâs just say toru was listening to some ironmouse
I want you crying for me I want you waah wah wah wah waah wah wah wah I want you fighting for me and when you lose go wah wah waah wah wah wah CRY FOR MEEE
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â˰â˰ Pairings: Ex-husband!Gojo x American Photographer!Reader
â˰â˰ Rating: Mature (MDNI) 18+
â˰â˰ Content Warnings: f!reader, dadjo, fluff, fluff, fluff, then more angst, Ender being cute, Suguru being a G, Satoru being completely smitten, domestic life, discussions of sexual content
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Chapter Six: Shrike To Your Thorn
(Your POV)
You wake up in the morning to an empty bed. The sheets are cool to the touch, which means Satoru left when you had asked him to. Part of you feels gratified that he did as you asked, another part feels ⌠not so gratified. Itâs not that you wanted to throw him out per se, but more so you didnât want to give Ender false hope that his parents might get back together. Thatâs not something youâre even ready to think about yet, let alone involve Ender in.Â
But that ache between your legs? That well-used sensation that only Satoru has ever been able to make you feel? Fuck, you didnât realize how much you missed that. Youâve had sex since the two of you divorced, but it pales in comparison. What happened last night was what has haunted your wet dreams for the past six years.Â
Memories flood your mind. The way fucked you up against the shower wall, strong arms wrapped around you, worshipping your skin like you were something holy. The sound of his heartbeat still pounds in your ears. The slick feeling of his skin pressed against yours. The way he slotted into you like some piece of you that youâd misplaced and found again. So vivid, flowing seamlessly one into the next, and looping all over again.
Sex with Satoru has always been ⌠intense. But this time was different. Not because it had been so long since you had touched each other, nor even the mountain of history between you. Itâs never just been sex with him, more like two stars colliding. But Satoru was more desperate, downright reverent with you last night. Make no mistake, you have no complaint, none at all. Itâs been a long, long time since youâve been fucked so thoroughly, and he certainly did exactly that.
Slowly, you sit up, stretching your arms and legs out before rolling out of bed. Throwing on a robe over your naked body, you tie the soft belt around your waist and pad out into the hall. You pause by Enderâs door and crack it open to peer inside. Both he and Suguru are still curled up together, deep in sleep. For now, you just let them sleep. Itâll give you a head start on breakfast and time to decide how you want to tell Ender the truth anyway.
Leaving the door cracked, you shuffle into the kitchen and put the kettle on for some tea. Later, youâll have to get coffee. After last night, youâll be too exhausted to face the day on just tea. While you wait for the water to boil, you take a seat on the couch, only to find the neatly folded blanket and pillow you told Satoru to take with him last night. So, he did end up sleeping on the couch. You werenât sure if he was going to take you up on that offer, but you figured since Suguru passed out in Enderâs room, it wouldnât really be right to make Satoru go back to an empty apartment. Heâs nowhere to be seen now. Dragging your hand over the blanket, you smooth it out and let out a sigh.Â
Thatâs when you hear the click of the lock and the sound of the front door being shoved open. You crane your neck to look over your shoulder and spot Satoru slipping inside. Heâs wearing the same clothes as yesterday, though theyâre a bit rumpled. Thereâs a pissed-off expression on his faceâsilvery brows drawn together, mouth pressed into a thin line. He pauses when he sees you sitting on the couch. Immediately, his neck and the tops of his ears color pink, and his expression crumples into something achingly soft.
âHi,â he says.Â
But at the same time, the words âGood morningâ are coming from your lips.Â
Both of you look a little embarrassed, and silence lapses between you for a moment. Then, Satoru walks into the living room and plops down beside you. He lets out a long, deep sigh and says, âI was going to surprise you with coffee and a pastry this morning, but, uh, all my cards are turned off.â
Wow. That was fucking quick. His parents certainly wasted no time. âOh,â you say softly, but you donât want him to feel any worse about it, so youâre quick to add, â Well, we knew that was coming. I appreciate you going out of your way to try.â Youâre just glad heâs not trying to talk about what happened last night.
He lets out a huff of air and says, âYeah, but I wasnât able to do it.â A muscle in his jaw flexes and he continues, âI donât know how Iâm gonna live, let alone help you and Ender.â The expression on his face is lost and confused, and you know this bothers him.Â
Back when you were in college, he was known for being a selfish, self-important bastard. Sure, maybe heâs obnoxious, maybe he doesnât like to be told what to do, maybe heâs irreverent, crass, oblivious, and carefree. But selfish? You couldnât call Satoru Gojo selfish. Heâs the kind of guy whoâd give the shirt off his back but complain and whine about it the whole time or act like he was the embodiment of charity in an unserious way. Itâs how you fell in love with him. You saw the heart buried beneath his stupid jokes and arrogance.
âSatoru, Ender and I donât need your money,â you say, reaching out to take his hand. His skin is warm, his hand larger than yours. âI am doing more than okay for myself. Celebrity weddings come with a pretty hefty paycheck for photographers, and so do guest magazine shoots. Financially? Ender and I are in tip-top shape. I own a three-bedroom row home in upstate New York. Ender goes to a private Montessori school. You donât have to worry about providing for us or whatever.â Squeezing his hand, you lean over and bump shoulders with him, a smile on your lips. âBesides, thatâs an outdated concept anyway.â
But he still looks bothered. His jaw works for a moment before he says, âItâs not really about providing for you.â Hand closing over yours, he slumps back against the couch and lets out a long sigh. âI donât know. I guess thereâs just a part of me that thinks Iâm sort of useless when it comes to him. You do such a good job on your own. Itâs like, what do you even need me for?â
You squeeze his hand again, sweeping your thumb over the top of it. âSatoru, look at me.â When his blue eyes meet yours, you tilt your head and say quietly, âI know itâs hard to believe what with your parents and everything. But your value is not contingent on what you can do for us. That might be how your parents treated you, but Ender and I âŚâ You trail off. With a small shake of your head, you continue, âIt doesnât work like that with us. This isnât transactional. Itâs communal. You give what you can, and we meet you where you are and vice versa.â
He inhales sharply, his expression crumpling. âIf you donât shut up, youâre going to make me fucking cry.â He huffs out a breath and blinks at you, his expression so soft that it hurts in your chest. Sitting up, he slowly leans forward, eyes dipping down to your mouth. âItâs too early for that,â he breathes.Â
âYouâre such an idiot,â you reply, your voice equally quiet. You donât pull away, you canât. Youâre like a moon held in the gravity of his planet.
He leans forward a little more, and just as heâs about to fully close the gap, you hear the door down the hall open, and you practically leap away from him. Thereâs a little pitter-patter of small feet running down the hall, then Ender appears, lids heavy with sleep still, white hair all tousled. His onesie, decorated with stars, planets, and rocket ships, is a little unzipped at the top, and heâs got a red impression on his face from where his cheek was pressed against something.
âMommy, the man with the long hair is in my bed,â he mumbles all out as he stumbles into the living room. Crawling up into your lap, he curls up in your arms, clinging to you.Â
You laugh softly and say, âYeah? Your uncle Suguru crashed in there with you last night.âÂ
âUncle? I have an uncle?â He sounds so shocked that itâs almost comical.Â
Yeah, you also have a dad. You just donât know it. âWell, kind of,â you reply, running your fingers through his hair. You should just rip the Band-Aid off and tell him. The sooner the better; that way itâs done and over with. Except, since Satoru appeared back in your life, youâve been trying to figure out what to say once this day inevitably arrived. The right words have never seemed to come.Â
The kettle goes off, the sharp whistle cutting through the apartment. Satoru rises before you can even shift Ender to put him down. The whistling stops sharply, the space falling into silence again. Stroking your hand over the back of Enderâs head, you try to figure out how youâre going to tell him.Â
What perfect words exist to explain that youâve been lying to him since he was old enough to understand what a father is? Maybe there are none.Â
âIâm hungry,â he complains, his lower lip jutting out, looking so much like Satoru when he does that that it hurts your heart.Â
He deserves to know. Satoru deserves for him to know. You just donât want Ender to hate you for your lie, for the anger you and pain youâve harbored in your heart these past six years. Realistically, he probably wonât, but that nagging fear is still there. Thatâs probably why you can never find the right thing to say; the fear kills them off until your mind goes blank.Â
âIâll make breakfast in a little bit,â you reply absently, more focused on figuring out how to tell him right now.Â
A few minutes later, Satoru reappears, mug in hand. The liquid inside is a creamy brown, just the right color, exactly the same shade as when you make it for yourself. Leaning over, he sets the mug on a coaster on the coffee table and takes a seat in one of the chairs opposite the couch. He must remember how you take your tea, a fact that stuns you. Itâs those little things, those small details that hit you in your solar plexus.Â
Looking down at Ender, you take a deep breath, then another. One more and again. Finally, your voice is very small and soft when you say, âEnder, baby, Mommy has something very important she needs to talk to you about.â Inside your chest, your heart is starting to race.Â
He looks up at you, those big blue eyes that match Satoruâs exactly. You swallow, just looking down at them, then up at Satoru, who has gone completely and entirely still. Teeth sinking into your lower lip, you look back down at your son. Your fingers run gently through his silky-soft, fluffy hair again. âWhat Mommy?â He asks. The question is so innocent that it makes you want to squeeze him.Â
It takes you a long time to speak again, but finally you say, âA long time ago, when you were very small, Mommy told you a lie, and it was a pretty big one.â Your hands are shaking, your chest is becoming tight, and your heart is slamming hard against your ribs. I can do this, you tell yourself. Tucking Ender closer to you, you continue, âSweetheart, your dad didnât die.â There, the Band-Aid is ripped off.Â
âI donât get it,â Ender says, his silver brows drawing together as his little face scrunches up in confusion. âWhere is he then? Has he been hiding from us?âÂ
The innocent questions break your heart, but you can only blame yourself, at least for this part. If you had told Ender that things just didnât work out between you and his dad, if you had told him that his dad just didnât know he existed, then this might be easier, but you didnât, and now you have to face it. âNo, sweetheart,â you say quietly, shaking your head, âHe wasnât hiding from us.â If anything, you were hiding from him. âYour dad didnât know you existed, baby. If he did, he would have come to find you.â Satoruâs never explicitly said that, but you know itâs the truth regardless. Letting out a long breath, you say, âHe knows about you now, though, and he wants to really be your dad. Is that something that would make you happy?â
Your son nods eagerly, locks of silky, snowy hair bouncing. âYeah! We can go camping! And he can play with Legos with me! And we can go ride bikes. Or go to the arcade!â With every imagined outing, he gets more and more excited, but youâre fixated on the fact that heâs not upset at you for lying, at least he hasnât said so. âWhere is he? When can I see him? Will he take me out to do that stuff?â
A small sound, almost laughter but not quite, leaves your lips. Slowly, you turn your son around until heâs facing Satoru, who is staring at the two of you with his hands clamped around the arms of the chair. His Adamâs apple bobs as he swallows. Thereâs something in his expression like fear, mixed in with the happiness and longing. âWell, why donât you go ask your dad yourself? Heâs right there.â
His head jerks up, and he looks at you like you might be playing a joke on him. âMy dad is Satoru?â He asks back slowly and quietly, his little mind trying to wrap around everything at once. Not only does he have a dad, but his dad has been getting to know him for some time. Theyâve even done some of the things Ender has always dreamed about doing with a father. He swallows, those big eyes welling with tears as he looks between you and Satoru. His lower lip trembles and he whispers, âDo you mean it, Mommy? I have a dad?âÂ
Satoru shoots to his feet and strides across the room to kneel in front of you and your son. He doesnât reach out yet, but says quietly, âEnder, Iâm so sorry I wasnât there for you and your mom when you were a baby. I made a big mistake that made your mom think I didnât care about her anymore, and she didnât feel like it would be safe for her to tell me about you. I really regret it because itâs all my fault.â In one fell swoop, Satoru has shifted any blame Ender might have had squarely onto his shoulders. It makes your heart skip a beat. He pauses, his blue eyes meeting Enderâs, looking a little bit misty themselves. âIf you want me to, Iâd really like to be your dad now, though. More than anything in the world.â
Ender blinks at Satoru, then looks up to you, naturally turning to you in his confusion. You just give your son a little nod of encouragement. So he looks back at Satoru and nods, âI want you to be my dad.â His little voice is a bit wobbly, tears starting to spill down his cheeks. Theyâre not sad tears, though. You know your son well enough to be able to tell that. Theyâre happy tears. âWill y-you take me to-to the m-movies? A-and the pa-park? And sch-school? And-and build bl-blanket forts with me?â
âYes, Iâll do all those things with you,â Satoru gets out, tears running down his cheeks too now. Reaching up to wipe them away, he looks at Ender like the boy is his personal gift from god. And, considering the state Satoru was in a month ago, he probably is. âWhatever you want, kid. You want the sky, and Iâll peel it down. You want the stars, Iâll put you on my shoulders, and we can pull them down one by one.â
That makes Ender give a wet little giggle. He reaches up with his tiny fists and wipes away his tears. You run your hand down his arm soothingly, but Satoru canât seem to restrain himself anymore. He surges forward and wraps his arms around both of you, still kneeling. The strength in his arms is something you can feel as they wrap around you, his hands splayed across your back as he holds you and his son.Â
If you could freeze this moment in time, you would. Especially when Ender throws his arms around Satoru and the man lets out the smallest, most broken little sob. He looks up at you through his long, sweeping white lashes, and you can feel in his gaze just how deeply heâs affected by all this. Your heart swells at the expression on his face. From the very beginning, from the moment he found out about Ender, all you wanted was to know your son was going to be put first, that he was going to be loved, and now you have no doubt in your heart about either of those things.Â
Satoru truly loves Ender and has shown up for him at every given opportunity since he found out about his existence. Although it was never really about whether Satoru would love him, but whether he could love him more than he craved his parentsâ love. Since heâs finally broken those shackles, you no longer need to worry about that.Â
After all the pain, the sweetness of this moment is multiplied tenfold. Suddenly, you understand something your grandmother had told you when you were small. âThe sugar of life can only be fully appreciated if youâve tasted the bitterness of it too.â Before now, youâd only understood those words in concept, but here and now, you understand them on a visceral, soul level. Leaning forward, you wrap your arms around Satoru, trapping Ender between you in a big, warm group hug.Â
âCan Iâcan I call you m-my dad?â Ender whispers, nervousness lacing his tone.Â
âOf course you can,â Satoru chokes out, his whole body shuddering. âYou can call me whatever youâd like.â His arms tighten around you both, fingers curling into the soft flesh of your back like heâs terrified the two of you will disappear.Â
Ender shifts between you, sniffling. âI have a mom and a dad,â he says quietly, that wobbling in his voice thickening. Itâs like he can scarcely believe it.Â
âAnd we both love you very, very much, baby,â you breathe, bending your head to press a kiss to the crown of his head. âYou are so loved, Ender. Do you understand me? You are so, so loved.â Satoru repeats the gesture, pressing a kiss to Enderâs head just like you did.
The three of you stay like that for some time. Itâs been a long while since your heart felt so full. Youâve always agonized about Enderâs feelings regarding not having a father, but now you donât have to worry as much. For the first time in so long, you fully relax; years of stress, anxiety, and pain drain away from you all at once. A few tears roll down your cheeks, and youâre in no hurry to wipe them away, not when Satoru and your son are also crying.Â
Eventually, Ender wriggles in your lap again, âBut what about when we go back home?âÂ
Right. You and he will return to America. The two of you have lives there; plus, the only way you could get Japanese citizenship is to sacrifice your American citizenship, and thereâs not a shot in hell thatâs happening. No, your American citizenship is your biggest shield against Satoruâs parents with their endless wealth and power. Thereâs no way you could give that up; it would be stupid to. âBaby, we'll cross thatââ
âActually, Iâve been meaning to tell you âŚâ Satoru cuts you off, straightening up enough to look you in the eyes again. âIâm going to try to move to America. To be with you guys.â
You go completely still, your mouth opening and closing again because all the words have been sucked out of you. This man. How the hell are you supposed to remain aloof or maintain any kind of emotional distance when heâs saying and doing all the right things? You canât breathe, you can hardly think straight, your head is spinning, your heart thundering. How does he always manage to do this? Make your heart feel like itâs made of putty and turn your mind into a mess. Since the moment you two met, heâs had that effect on you, just this way of making you fucking dumb.Â
And youâre not dumb.Â
It reminds you of when your relationship was new, except different. Both of you are older and wiser. The six years apart have changed you into different people than you were back then, or maybe thatâs just how time works, whittling away at your personhood, carving you into something new every decade. And somehow, you have this strange sense that instead of fitting together worse than you did back then, the people you are now fit together better. How uncanny.Â
âSeriously?â You breathe at last, looking for any hint on his face that heâs joking or that heâs begrudging it, but you find none. On the contrary, he seems almost excited.Â
âYeah, Iâve been researching what it takes to get a visa. Turns out itâs a lot, especially since Iâm kind of broke now,â he answers wryly. âSo, it might be a while yet, but my goal is to move overseas. Suguru too. Heâs coming with. Iâve only ever been to Hawaii, so Iâm excited to see what the rest of America is like.â He pauses, his eyes roving over your face. âI should have done this a long time ago,â he says softly, a thread of apology and regret running through his tone. He means back then, back when you were still married. Your heart stumbles again, eyes welling back up with tears. Something in Satoruâs face crumples, like he canât bear the sight of you crying. âDonât cry, sweetheart. Please. Youâve shed enough tears over me.â
âDoes that mean Dad is coming to live with us?â Ender cuts in excitedly, reminding you both heâs in the room.
Christ. How the hell are you supposed to answer that? Youâre not ready to give the kid any kind of lasting hope while everything is still so new, so you answer quietly, âWell, heâll be a lot closer for sure, but as he said, it might take him a while.â
âOr, you guys could just get married again. Green card marriages make everything fast and easy.â Suguruâs mild voice behind you nearly makes you jump. Whipping your head around to face him, you see heâs leaning up against the doorway into the hall, his long raven hair loose. Thereâs a faint smile on his lips like he planned this whole thing and itâs all going exactly the way he wanted it to.Â
Then, his words actually register, and you almost fucking choke on your spit. Instantly, your face flushes scarlet. Your brows pull together in a glare, and you say, âThatâs not funny.â You canât believe heâd say something like that in front of your son. When you look back at Satoru, you see him staring at Suguru with a look that says heâs totally on board with the suggestion. Fucking tweedledee and tweedledum, so you just shake your head.
Suguru just shrugs and says casually, as if he didnât just suggest you remarry your ex-husband, âHey, it was an idea.â Reaching up, he pushes his hair back and tilts his head to add, âOh, by the way, youâre not exactly broke, buddy.â His smile widens, and something about it reminds you of a child who knows theyâre up to no good.
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(Satoruâs POV)
When Ender calls him dad for the first time, Satoru nearly sobs on the spot. His heart swells ten times over, and everything feels like a dream. It has been a long, long time since he felt so happy. His heart aches with joy. So, he canât stop himself from admitting then that heâs been looking for a way to follow you guys, that he wants to be close to you. Your reaction is almost enough to have him pulling you into his arms and kissing you senseless, but he restrains himself. Not in front of the kid. After last night, itâs extremely difficult to keep his hands to himself.
But then Suguru makes his little suggestion, and your face is so cute when youâre blushing like that. With every second, that urge gets stronger and stronger. Suguruâs other comment, the one about him not being exactly broke, though, makes his face screw up in confusion. âWhat does that mean?â He finally manages to release you and Ender, slowly standing up.Â
âBuddy, Iâve been managing your finances for years. Iâm not dumb enough to leave everything in your parentsâ names. You have some investments, a hefty high-yield savings account, and a few CDs,â Suguru replies as he shoves off the doorframe to join everyone fully in the living room. He drops into one of the sitting chairs and adds, âTrust me. Youâre not broke. Sure, you wonât be able to blow money like you still have your trust fund, but you donât have to worry either.â He pauses, his expression softening as he takes in the disbelief on Satoruâs face. âLook, man, I know you. This was always inevitable. You and your parents were always going to reach a breaking point, it was just a matter of when. So, I got prepared,â he finishes.
What did he ever do to deserve such a good friend? He doesnât feel like he deserves it, so he can only appreciate it. âSuguru, I donât know what to say,â Satoru chokes out, his face brightening with the realization that heâs not destitute without his parentsâ support. âI canât thank you enough,â he adds quietly, his gaze dropping down to the boy in your lap.Â
âJust be good to my nephew and future once-again-sister-in-law,â his best friend replies. âAnd be good to yourself too.âÂ
Before Satoru has a chance to reply, youâre pushing yourself to your feet and hefting Ender onto your hip. âSuguru, if you donât knock it off, Iâm gonna toss you out on your ass.â If looks could kill, Suguru would be a dead man.Â
âMommy said a bad word,â Ender says with a laugh, like itâs the funniest thing in the world. He looks up at you, a smile thatâs pure mischief on his face. Thereâs so much love and adoration in that look that Satoru has to clear his throat and look away. Itâs clear youâre the center of the kidâs world, in the way that all good mothers are.Â
Ender has what he always dreamed of. A mother who puts him above the whole world, who cares about his sonâs wellbeing and happiness. Satoru knows youâre a good mother because youâre pretty much the opposite of his own, and that speaks for itself. Heâs never been more grateful for anything than how you chose to carry his child, that even though you believed he didnât love you anymore, you kept his baby and brought a beautiful, intelligent, kind child into the world.Â
âYeah, she did,â Satoru replies, something soft and warm in his voice, and he reaches out to ruffle the kidâs hair. Itâs so soft under his fingertips, like powdery, freshly lain snow. The shape of his smile is all you, but the cheekinessâthatâs Satoru down to the core. âBest not repeat that one kid. Mom might be a little upset if you do,â he adds conspiratorially.Â
With a stern look, you tack on, âYeah.â
âBut you said it, Mommy!â Ender protests, looking at you with big innocent eyes, but even he can tell his son is hamming it up. His lower lip juts out in a pout like heâs been grievously insulted. So dramatic, and just like Satoru.Â
Kid really does take after him. It must have been painful in some ways, raising his child when you were convinced that he didnât love you, that he no longer thought you beautiful, that he didnât want you. It would have been painful for him if the situation were reversed. To have a child that looks exactly like you, acts like you, and not have you, would have crushed him. He doesnât know how you did it.Â
Shaking your head, you reply, âYeah, but you shouldnât repeat everything Mommy says.â Then you attack him with wriggling fingers. Ender falls into a fit of laughter, squirming and flopping around in your arms, squealing. Itâs like the sun parting the clouds, warming the entire room. Satoru has never heard such a beautiful sound before in his life.Â
When you finally ease off, Ender says, like heâs making some big concession, âFine. I wonât say it.â Then he sticks his tongue out at you, wiggling it in the air. The scene is so heartwarming that he feels like heâll die of sweetness overload.Â
You make a silly face back at your son and say in an equally silly voice, âPut that away.âÂ
It launches Ender into another fit of giggles, his arms thrown around you as he laughs into your body. Eventually, though, he settles down and looks up at you to say again, âIâm hungry.â
âHi, hungry, Iâm Dad,â Satoru replies before you can even open your mouth, excited to fire off his first-ever dad joke. Heâs practically grinning from ear to ear as he delivers it, barely managing to restrain his own laughter.
âDaaaaaaaad,â Ender whines with a laugh, but heâs giggling at the same time, undercutting the complaint.
You just roll your eyes and shake your head at him. Looking down at your son, you say, âWhy donât you work on your Death Star with your dad and uncle Suguru while I make you guys some food?â Ender nods eagerly, and you bend down to set the kid on the ground. Your head tilts back up to look at Suguru, and you say, âYou want in on this?â
The smile on his best friendâs face is warm, and he says with a scoff, âTch. Do you even need to ask? Of course, Iâm in.â
So, you set Ender down and bend over to run your fingers through his hair. Satoru canât help but stare at the curve of your ass, remembering how he sank his fingers into the soft flesh last night. Fuck, he canât be thinking of that right now, so he forces himself to look away. âAlright,â you say, a tender smile tugging at your lips. âGo play for a bit while I take care of breakfast.â
âYay! I get to play Legos with my dad!â He lets out excitedly, jumping from foot to foot and clapping without rhythm.Â
Everything this kid does makes him want to cry like a baby. The excitement on his face helps settle that restless feeling of being unnecessary, of being unwanted. Ender wants him to be here, wants him to be his father, and thatâs all he really needs right now. âIâll play Legos with you any time you want,â Satoru says gently, reaching down to gently brush his fingers against his sonâs cheek. With that, he goes to retrieve the half-pieced-together model from Enderâs bedroom.Â
When he comes back, Suguru is crawling around on the floor with the kid on his back. Heâs got quite the grip on the manâs long, raven hair, tugging on locks of it like theyâre horseâs reins. Satoru was gone for less than two minutes; how did this chaos break out in that short time? He chuckles at Enderâs sweet, high-pitched laugh when Suguru rolls him onto the floor and pins him down to tickle him. Glancing over at you, he doesnât miss the small, contented smile on your lips as you bustle around in the kitchen.Â
You look happy. Good. Because heâs happy and he wants both of you to be happy, preferably together.Â
He carefully sets the model on the floor, and Ender quickly squirms his way out from under Suguruâs merciless grip to scamper over and join him. Carefully spreading out the diagram to where they left off, he sits criss-cross on the floor beside Ender, only for the kid to sneak his way into his lap. Suguru follows not too far behind, and soon the three of them are lost in a world of bricks.Â
The larger pieces Ender can place himself, but he struggles with the smaller ones, or pieces that need to be connected in more fragile areas. When he needs help, heâll look up at Satoru with those wide blue eyes and say so politely, âHelp, please, Dad.â It just about melts his heart. Satoru wraps his larger hand around his sonâs small one and helps him place the piece. And after, the way Ender looks back up at him and says so sweetly, âThanks, Dad.â Every time he does it, Satoru comes a little closer to crying.Â
Every so often, he steals glances up at you, watching as you quietly whip up breakfast for them all. He canât help it. His eyes are drawn to you like a hummingbird to the sweet flavor of honeysuckle. One of the times, you happen to look up from what youâre doing, catching him in the act of staring. A pretty flush spreads along your cheeks, and you quickly look away, but god does that make him want to just eat you up.
Letting out a breath, he looks away because if he looks at you any longer, heâs liable to drag you away somewhere for him to do just that. He looks back down at the Lego model and forces himself to focus on that. But Suguru catches his eye, a sly smile on his face from having witnessed the interaction.Â
âShut up,â Satoru mutters, glaring as he guides Enderâs hand to press in a small, round circular piece.Â
The smile on his best friendâs face only widens, and he says, âHey, I didnât say anything.â
Of course, Ender feels the need to innocently chime in, not understanding the subtleties of the situation, âYeah, Dad, he didnât say anything.â Heâs still so little that he canât really read the room yet, so to speak.Â
âHe said it with his eyes,â Satoru mutters, throwing Suguru a dirty look. He probably already freaked you out earlier with the whole green card marriage thing. The last thing Satoru wants is to freak you out and cause you to pull away completely. No, this needs to be handled at your pace.Â
It doesnât take you long to finish breakfast. Soon, thereâs a steaming pile of pancakes on a big plate at the center of the table. They smell so good that Satory is practically floating. He missed your cooking a lot, too. As a child, his mother never cooked. When he had your cooking for the first time back in college, it was the first home-cooked meal heâd ever had that wasnât made by the familyâs cook, which he doesnât think really counts. Kaori doesnât cook either, but then again, sheâs pretty much a clone of his mother, so thatâs not really surprising. Thereâs something so sweetly domestic about thisâsitting down to share a homemade meal, fixed by the mother of his child, sharing it with you, Ender, and Suguru.Â
His family. For a long time, he was scared of losing his parents because, in his mind, they were his only family. He hadnât considered that family didnât have to be forged in blood, but could be carefully chosen from the people who put you first, something his parents never did. Suddenly, he remembers a conversation the two of you had, back when you guys were in college.Â
You were teaching him English idioms. The two of you were cuddled up in his apartment, a place he rented near campus. His hand stroked up and down the bare skin of your back as he just enjoyed the feeling of having you in his arms naked, pliant, and completely, utterly his. âA lot of the idioms that get passed around in America are only half of the original, which changes the meaning. Take blood is thicker than water, for example.â
âWhat does that one mean?â He asked, hand pausing on your back.
âItâs a fancy way of saying the bonds of blood, of family, can never be broken,â you replied, your finger tracing gentle circles over his chest. âBut the original phrase was blood of the covenant is thicker than water of the womb.â You paused again before breathing, âThe full phrase has the complete opposite meaning. It says you get to choose the bonds that are the strongest.â Shrugging, you finished, âI donât know. I just like the idea of getting to choose your own family.â
The memory hits him square in the gut. Heâd forgotten about that conversation, held somewhere in the wee hours of the morning after hours of fucking like rabbits. Even then, it was like something in you knew just how desperate and starved his parents had made him for love. Maybe the conversation was a coincidence, maybe it was just idle talk that you were making, but his younger self had listened a little more carefully to them and taken them to heart. Maybe even then, you were trying to look out for him in your own way. You hadnât met his parents yet, but you had listened in on a few phone calls where they did nothing but belittle and berate him.Â
âIf the green card marriage is out, you could open a business in America and give yourself a work visa.â Suguruâs voice draws him out of his thoughts. âYou have the capital to. If I were you, Iâd open a tech company. You were the driving force behind Gojo Inc.âs tech division, which became their biggest revenue stream after you took over.âÂ
âMommy, whatâs a green card marriage?â Ender asks, looking up from his pancakes.Â
You choke on your own bite of food, leading to a small coughing fit, then you guzzle down a glass of water. All around his little mouth is smeared sticky golden brown syrup. Enderâs little tongue darts out to try and clean it up, but to no avail. Satoruâs not sure how he even managed to get so much syrup on his face. The kid looks between you and Satoru, completely unaware of the kind of question he just asked.Â
Looking up from your food, you shoot them both a glare and grouse, âYou guys can explain that one to him since you guys thought that was a concept he needed to know about.â Your irritation has Satoru throwing a glare at Suguru, too.
âA green card marriage is when two people get married so they can move to a new country together,â Satoru explains as simply as he can. Itâs not exactly right, but itâs the best way he knows how to put it without going into a definition that really wouldnât be appropriate.Â
âOh, then I think Uncle Suguru is right,â Ender says brightly, making you choke again on your sip of water. âYou should have a green card marriage, Mommy.â
Your glass of water hits the table with a thunk, your shaking from how hard youâre coughing. On the one hand, Ender is being incredibly cute, but on the other, Satoru thinks you might just have a heart attack if he says one more word. Reaching over, he pats your back to help dislodge the water in your lungs. Once youâre no longer coughing up a storm, you look up at your son and say, âEnder, you canât just say things like that.â
âWhy not, Mommy?âÂ
âBecause itâs not appropriate,â you reply through gritted teeth, giving Suguru a look like you might fucking strangle him. The man just smiles and shrugs like he isnât saying outrageous things and putting ideas into his sonâs head. Shaking your head, you look over at your son and say, âMarriage isnât something you should treat like a game, baby. Itâs a promise between two people to always love each other and always put each other first. Thatâs not the kind of thing you just do willy-nilly.â
âYeah, promises are serious stuff,â Ender says, nodding solemnly. âItâs important to keep them because it means others can trust you.â He recites the words so perfectly, Satoru is sure that this is something you taught him,
That thoughtâs confirmed when you nod and say with a hint of pride, âThatâs right, baby. Good job. So, you should be careful who you make your promises to and be careful in what you make promises about.â Your fork taps lightly against the rim of your plate, the faint clink catching Satoruâs ears. âDo you understand?â You ask, tilting your head as you look at him.Â
The kid nods, his silky white locks bouncing, âI think so, Mommy.â
After breakfast, Satoru and Suguru work together to clean up the kitchen while you give Ender a bath to clean the syrup from him. Suguru gathers up all the dirty plates while Satoru takes care of any trash and puts away any stray ingredients in the kitchen. Then, they work on the dishes together, Satoru washing, Suguru drying, shoulder to shoulder.Â
âThis is good,â Suguru says contentedly. âThis is the life I wanted for you. Your kid is ⌠heâs a good kid. She did good.â
Satoru lets out a breath and says, âI know. I donât deserve this gift. Not even a little bit.â He means it. Down to his bones, he knows he doesnât deserve this second chance, this chance to make things right. His throat tightens just thinking about it.
âThe funny thing about thinking you donât deserve things is that when you believe that, you cherish them closer to your heart,â Suguru replies, his hand turning a plate around and around in a dishcloth. When heâs done, he holds the piece the plate up and inspects it. âThe world would benefit from fewer people believing they deserve the things they have,â he says, something in his tone solemn. After a second, he lowers the plate and adds, âLike your parents.â
âYeah,â Satoru can only nod in agreement, momentarily pausing his scrubbing. He takes a breath and lets it out slowly. He canât say that Suguru is wrong.Â
They wrap up the dishes neatly and, afterward, Suguru goes to hang out in the living room while Satoru wipes down the counter. From the kitchen, he can hear the phone ring, and Suguru answers. The conversation is too low for him to quite make out, but a minute later, he hears the TV flip on. Then, âHey, Satoru, you might want to see this.â
A bad feeling settles in the pit of Satoruâs stomach. Slowly, he sets down the rag and the spray bottle he was using. Everything feels so distant and far away, his footsteps and heartbeat strangely loud in his ears. He looks at Suguru first, then at the TV. As his head starts to swivel back to Suguru, he pauses when he realizes who he was seeing on the screen.Â
His parents. Itâs a media frenzy. It looks like theyâve gathered every major news source based in Tokyo that they could. His mother looks cold, but flawless, her face not yet set with lines despite her age. His father looks every bit the noble man he imagines himself to be. When he sees Kaori behind them, looking fragile and grief-stricken, he scoffs in disgust. What is this fucking circus his parents are running now? The reports circle like vultures, cameras flashing, questions being shouted from all sides.Â
Eventually, though, his father raises both hands like heâs the messiah. Only when the room is silent does he lower them and finally speak, âIt is to our greatest shame and sorrow to announce that we have stripped our son, Satoru Gojo, of his position as CEO of Gojo Inc. effective immediately. Our disappointment is immeasurable. We had thought we raised a man of honor and integrity, but his actions have shown that his character is not as unassailable as we had thought. Our son has engaged in extramarital affairs after being seduced by a foreign woman and has even fathered a bastard child. Not only has he deeply hurt his loving, loyal fiancĂŠe, but he has damaged the reputation of our family and company. Furthermore, it is our greatest sadness to announce that the Gojo family has cut ties with him due to this incident. Thank you for your attention. We appreciate your respect for our privacy at this time.â
Satoru is fucking speechless. Somehow, his parents have managed to twist the entire narrative all over again to make Kaori and themselves look like the victims on national television. His heart is racing, slamming against his ribs so hard he swears heâs going to be sick. This time, his parents had truly outdone themselvesâmaking you out to be some kind of succubus, referring to Ender as a bastard, making it seem like Kaori was there first, like Kaori ever held a place in his heart at all. At his hands, his hands ball up into white-knuckled fists, shaking at his sides. Heâs so angry that he quite literally sees red for a moment, a wash of crimson over his sight before disappearing.Â
Instead of ârespecting their privacy,â the reporters act like a bunch of sharks when thereâs blood in the water. They swarm his parents. Just then, you come out of the bathroom with a damp Ender in your arms. Heâs in another onesie, this one, though, is like a little bear suit, complete with a hood sewn with fluffy round ears. Itâs so cute that all the anger drains from his body at once.
âWhatâs going on?â You ask, sensing something off in the atmosphere.Â
Letting out a sigh, Satoru says, âWe need to talk.â The heavy words settle over the room, and your gaze slides to the TV, then back to Satoru. After all, this doesnât just affect Satoru anymore; his parents have successfully dragged you into the epicenter of a media shitstorm. And that is just fucking unacceptable to him.Â
The old him would have remained silent, would have taken it lying down, forcing you to choose between worsening their relationship or standing up for yourself. He would have done nothing, just hoped his parents would move on and try not to piss them off any further. Thatâs not how things are going to work anymore. No. If his parents want to talk shit, if they want to sic the media on you, then heâll pry every fucking skeleton out of the Gojo familyâs closet, and heâll whistle a jaunty tune while doing it.
When you realize that something must have happened with his parents after scrutinizing the television, you just nod. âYeah, I suppose we do.â
A/N: Whew, thank you so much for your patience yâall. I appreciate you all for that. I hope you guys are enjoying the break from the angst hehe. Thank you to everyone for reading. Reblogs and comments are especially appreciated.
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Chapter Six: Shrike To Your Thorn
(Your POV)
You wake up in the morning to an empty bed. The sheets are cool to the touch, which means Satoru left when you had asked him to. Part of you feels gratified that he did as you asked, another part feels ⌠not so gratified. Itâs not that you wanted to throw him out per se, but more so you didnât want to give Ender false hope that his parents might get back together. Thatâs not something youâre even ready to think about yet, let alone involve Ender in.Â
But that ache between your legs? That well-used sensation that only Satoru has ever been able to make you feel? Fuck, you didnât realize how much you missed that. Youâve had sex since the two of you divorced, but it pales in comparison. What happened last night was what has haunted your wet dreams for the past six years.Â
Memories flood your mind. The way fucked you up against the shower wall, strong arms wrapped around you, worshipping your skin like you were something holy. The sound of his heartbeat still pounds in your ears. The slick feeling of his skin pressed against yours. The way he slotted into you like some piece of you that youâd misplaced and found again. So vivid, flowing seamlessly one into the next, and looping all over again.
Sex with Satoru has always been ⌠intense. But this time was different. Not because it had been so long since you had touched each other, nor even the mountain of history between you. Itâs never just been sex with him, more like two stars colliding. But Satoru was more desperate, downright reverent with you last night. Make no mistake, you have no complaint, none at all. Itâs been a long, long time since youâve been fucked so thoroughly, and he certainly did exactly that.
Slowly, you sit up, stretching your arms and legs out before rolling out of bed. Throwing on a robe over your naked body, you tie the soft belt around your waist and pad out into the hall. You pause by Enderâs door and crack it open to peer inside. Both he and Suguru are still curled up together, deep in sleep. For now, you just let them sleep. Itâll give you a head start on breakfast and time to decide how you want to tell Ender the truth anyway.
Leaving the door cracked, you shuffle into the kitchen and put the kettle on for some tea. Later, youâll have to get coffee. After last night, youâll be too exhausted to face the day on just tea. While you wait for the water to boil, you take a seat on the couch, only to find the neatly folded blanket and pillow you told Satoru to take with him last night. So, he did end up sleeping on the couch. You werenât sure if he was going to take you up on that offer, but you figured since Suguru passed out in Enderâs room, it wouldnât really be right to make Satoru go back to an empty apartment. Heâs nowhere to be seen now. Dragging your hand over the blanket, you smooth it out and let out a sigh.Â
Thatâs when you hear the click of the lock and the sound of the front door being shoved open. You crane your neck to look over your shoulder and spot Satoru slipping inside. Heâs wearing the same clothes as yesterday, though theyâre a bit rumpled. Thereâs a pissed-off expression on his faceâsilvery brows drawn together, mouth pressed into a thin line. He pauses when he sees you sitting on the couch. Immediately, his neck and the tops of his ears color pink, and his expression crumples into something achingly soft.
âHi,â he says.Â
But at the same time, the words âGood morningâ are coming from your lips.Â
Both of you look a little embarrassed, and silence lapses between you for a moment. Then, Satoru walks into the living room and plops down beside you. He lets out a long, deep sigh and says, âI was going to surprise you with coffee and a pastry this morning, but, uh, all my cards are turned off.â
Wow. That was fucking quick. His parents certainly wasted no time. âOh,â you say softly, but you donât want him to feel any worse about it, so youâre quick to add, â Well, we knew that was coming. I appreciate you going out of your way to try.â Youâre just glad heâs not trying to talk about what happened last night.
He lets out a huff of air and says, âYeah, but I wasnât able to do it.â A muscle in his jaw flexes and he continues, âI donât know how Iâm gonna live, let alone help you and Ender.â The expression on his face is lost and confused, and you know this bothers him.Â
Back when you were in college, he was known for being a selfish, self-important bastard. Sure, maybe heâs obnoxious, maybe he doesnât like to be told what to do, maybe heâs irreverent, crass, oblivious, and carefree. But selfish? You couldnât call Satoru Gojo selfish. Heâs the kind of guy whoâd give the shirt off his back but complain and whine about it the whole time or act like he was the embodiment of charity in an unserious way. Itâs how you fell in love with him. You saw the heart buried beneath his stupid jokes and arrogance.
âSatoru, Ender and I donât need your money,â you say, reaching out to take his hand. His skin is warm, his hand larger than yours. âI am doing more than okay for myself. Celebrity weddings come with a pretty hefty paycheck for photographers, and so do guest magazine shoots. Financially? Ender and I are in tip-top shape. I own a three-bedroom row home in upstate New York. Ender goes to a private Montessori school. You donât have to worry about providing for us or whatever.â Squeezing his hand, you lean over and bump shoulders with him, a smile on your lips. âBesides, thatâs an outdated concept anyway.â
But he still looks bothered. His jaw works for a moment before he says, âItâs not really about providing for you.â Hand closing over yours, he slumps back against the couch and lets out a long sigh. âI donât know. I guess thereâs just a part of me that thinks Iâm sort of useless when it comes to him. You do such a good job on your own. Itâs like, what do you even need me for?â
You squeeze his hand again, sweeping your thumb over the top of it. âSatoru, look at me.â When his blue eyes meet yours, you tilt your head and say quietly, âI know itâs hard to believe what with your parents and everything. But your value is not contingent on what you can do for us. That might be how your parents treated you, but Ender and I âŚâ You trail off. With a small shake of your head, you continue, âIt doesnât work like that with us. This isnât transactional. Itâs communal. You give what you can, and we meet you where you are and vice versa.â
He inhales sharply, his expression crumpling. âIf you donât shut up, youâre going to make me fucking cry.â He huffs out a breath and blinks at you, his expression so soft that it hurts in your chest. Sitting up, he slowly leans forward, eyes dipping down to your mouth. âItâs too early for that,â he breathes.Â
âYouâre such an idiot,â you reply, your voice equally quiet. You donât pull away, you canât. Youâre like a moon held in the gravity of his planet.
He leans forward a little more, and just as heâs about to fully close the gap, you hear the door down the hall open, and you practically leap away from him. Thereâs a little pitter-patter of small feet running down the hall, then Ender appears, lids heavy with sleep still, white hair all tousled. His onesie, decorated with stars, planets, and rocket ships, is a little unzipped at the top, and heâs got a red impression on his face from where his cheek was pressed against something.
âMommy, the man with the long hair is in my bed,â he mumbles all out as he stumbles into the living room. Crawling up into your lap, he curls up in your arms, clinging to you.Â
You laugh softly and say, âYeah? Your uncle Suguru crashed in there with you last night.âÂ
âUncle? I have an uncle?â He sounds so shocked that itâs almost comical.Â
Yeah, you also have a dad. You just donât know it. âWell, kind of,â you reply, running your fingers through his hair. You should just rip the Band-Aid off and tell him. The sooner the better; that way itâs done and over with. Except, since Satoru appeared back in your life, youâve been trying to figure out what to say once this day inevitably arrived. The right words have never seemed to come.Â
The kettle goes off, the sharp whistle cutting through the apartment. Satoru rises before you can even shift Ender to put him down. The whistling stops sharply, the space falling into silence again. Stroking your hand over the back of Enderâs head, you try to figure out how youâre going to tell him.Â
What perfect words exist to explain that youâve been lying to him since he was old enough to understand what a father is? Maybe there are none.Â
âIâm hungry,â he complains, his lower lip jutting out, looking so much like Satoru when he does that that it hurts your heart.Â
He deserves to know. Satoru deserves for him to know. You just donât want Ender to hate you for your lie, for the anger you and pain youâve harbored in your heart these past six years. Realistically, he probably wonât, but that nagging fear is still there. Thatâs probably why you can never find the right thing to say; the fear kills them off until your mind goes blank.Â
âIâll make breakfast in a little bit,â you reply absently, more focused on figuring out how to tell him right now.Â
A few minutes later, Satoru reappears, mug in hand. The liquid inside is a creamy brown, just the right color, exactly the same shade as when you make it for yourself. Leaning over, he sets the mug on a coaster on the coffee table and takes a seat in one of the chairs opposite the couch. He must remember how you take your tea, a fact that stuns you. Itâs those little things, those small details that hit you in your solar plexus.Â
Looking down at Ender, you take a deep breath, then another. One more and again. Finally, your voice is very small and soft when you say, âEnder, baby, Mommy has something very important she needs to talk to you about.â Inside your chest, your heart is starting to race.Â
He looks up at you, those big blue eyes that match Satoruâs exactly. You swallow, just looking down at them, then up at Satoru, who has gone completely and entirely still. Teeth sinking into your lower lip, you look back down at your son. Your fingers run gently through his silky-soft, fluffy hair again. âWhat Mommy?â He asks. The question is so innocent that it makes you want to squeeze him.Â
It takes you a long time to speak again, but finally you say, âA long time ago, when you were very small, Mommy told you a lie, and it was a pretty big one.â Your hands are shaking, your chest is becoming tight, and your heart is slamming hard against your ribs. I can do this, you tell yourself. Tucking Ender closer to you, you continue, âSweetheart, your dad didnât die.â There, the Band-Aid is ripped off.Â
âI donât get it,â Ender says, his silver brows drawing together as his little face scrunches up in confusion. âWhere is he then? Has he been hiding from us?âÂ
The innocent questions break your heart, but you can only blame yourself, at least for this part. If you had told Ender that things just didnât work out between you and his dad, if you had told him that his dad just didnât know he existed, then this might be easier, but you didnât, and now you have to face it. âNo, sweetheart,â you say quietly, shaking your head, âHe wasnât hiding from us.â If anything, you were hiding from him. âYour dad didnât know you existed, baby. If he did, he would have come to find you.â Satoruâs never explicitly said that, but you know itâs the truth regardless. Letting out a long breath, you say, âHe knows about you now, though, and he wants to really be your dad. Is that something that would make you happy?â
Your son nods eagerly, locks of silky, snowy hair bouncing. âYeah! We can go camping! And he can play with Legos with me! And we can go ride bikes. Or go to the arcade!â With every imagined outing, he gets more and more excited, but youâre fixated on the fact that heâs not upset at you for lying, at least he hasnât said so. âWhere is he? When can I see him? Will he take me out to do that stuff?â
A small sound, almost laughter but not quite, leaves your lips. Slowly, you turn your son around until heâs facing Satoru, who is staring at the two of you with his hands clamped around the arms of the chair. His Adamâs apple bobs as he swallows. Thereâs something in his expression like fear, mixed in with the happiness and longing. âWell, why donât you go ask your dad yourself? Heâs right there.â
His head jerks up, and he looks at you like you might be playing a joke on him. âMy dad is Satoru?â He asks back slowly and quietly, his little mind trying to wrap around everything at once. Not only does he have a dad, but his dad has been getting to know him for some time. Theyâve even done some of the things Ender has always dreamed about doing with a father. He swallows, those big eyes welling with tears as he looks between you and Satoru. His lower lip trembles and he whispers, âDo you mean it, Mommy? I have a dad?âÂ
Satoru shoots to his feet and strides across the room to kneel in front of you and your son. He doesnât reach out yet, but says quietly, âEnder, Iâm so sorry I wasnât there for you and your mom when you were a baby. I made a big mistake that made your mom think I didnât care about her anymore, and she didnât feel like it would be safe for her to tell me about you. I really regret it because itâs all my fault.â In one fell swoop, Satoru has shifted any blame Ender might have had squarely onto his shoulders. It makes your heart skip a beat. He pauses, his blue eyes meeting Enderâs, looking a little bit misty themselves. âIf you want me to, Iâd really like to be your dad now, though. More than anything in the world.â
Ender blinks at Satoru, then looks up to you, naturally turning to you in his confusion. You just give your son a little nod of encouragement. So he looks back at Satoru and nods, âI want you to be my dad.â His little voice is a bit wobbly, tears starting to spill down his cheeks. Theyâre not sad tears, though. You know your son well enough to be able to tell that. Theyâre happy tears. âWill y-you take me to-to the m-movies? A-and the pa-park? And sch-school? And-and build bl-blanket forts with me?â
âYes, Iâll do all those things with you,â Satoru gets out, tears running down his cheeks too now. Reaching up to wipe them away, he looks at Ender like the boy is his personal gift from god. And, considering the state Satoru was in a month ago, he probably is. âWhatever you want, kid. You want the sky, and Iâll peel it down. You want the stars, Iâll put you on my shoulders, and we can pull them down one by one.â
That makes Ender give a wet little giggle. He reaches up with his tiny fists and wipes away his tears. You run your hand down his arm soothingly, but Satoru canât seem to restrain himself anymore. He surges forward and wraps his arms around both of you, still kneeling. The strength in his arms is something you can feel as they wrap around you, his hands splayed across your back as he holds you and his son.Â
If you could freeze this moment in time, you would. Especially when Ender throws his arms around Satoru and the man lets out the smallest, most broken little sob. He looks up at you through his long, sweeping white lashes, and you can feel in his gaze just how deeply heâs affected by all this. Your heart swells at the expression on his face. From the very beginning, from the moment he found out about Ender, all you wanted was to know your son was going to be put first, that he was going to be loved, and now you have no doubt in your heart about either of those things.Â
Satoru truly loves Ender and has shown up for him at every given opportunity since he found out about his existence. Although it was never really about whether Satoru would love him, but whether he could love him more than he craved his parentsâ love. Since heâs finally broken those shackles, you no longer need to worry about that.Â
After all the pain, the sweetness of this moment is multiplied tenfold. Suddenly, you understand something your grandmother had told you when you were small. âThe sugar of life can only be fully appreciated if youâve tasted the bitterness of it too.â Before now, youâd only understood those words in concept, but here and now, you understand them on a visceral, soul level. Leaning forward, you wrap your arms around Satoru, trapping Ender between you in a big, warm group hug.Â
âCan Iâcan I call you m-my dad?â Ender whispers, nervousness lacing his tone.Â
âOf course you can,â Satoru chokes out, his whole body shuddering. âYou can call me whatever youâd like.â His arms tighten around you both, fingers curling into the soft flesh of your back like heâs terrified the two of you will disappear.Â
Ender shifts between you, sniffling. âI have a mom and a dad,â he says quietly, that wobbling in his voice thickening. Itâs like he can scarcely believe it.Â
âAnd we both love you very, very much, baby,â you breathe, bending your head to press a kiss to the crown of his head. âYou are so loved, Ender. Do you understand me? You are so, so loved.â Satoru repeats the gesture, pressing a kiss to Enderâs head just like you did.
The three of you stay like that for some time. Itâs been a long while since your heart felt so full. Youâve always agonized about Enderâs feelings regarding not having a father, but now you donât have to worry as much. For the first time in so long, you fully relax; years of stress, anxiety, and pain drain away from you all at once. A few tears roll down your cheeks, and youâre in no hurry to wipe them away, not when Satoru and your son are also crying.Â
Eventually, Ender wriggles in your lap again, âBut what about when we go back home?âÂ
Right. You and he will return to America. The two of you have lives there; plus, the only way you could get Japanese citizenship is to sacrifice your American citizenship, and thereâs not a shot in hell thatâs happening. No, your American citizenship is your biggest shield against Satoruâs parents with their endless wealth and power. Thereâs no way you could give that up; it would be stupid to. âBaby, we'll cross thatââ
âActually, Iâve been meaning to tell you âŚâ Satoru cuts you off, straightening up enough to look you in the eyes again. âIâm going to try to move to America. To be with you guys.â
You go completely still, your mouth opening and closing again because all the words have been sucked out of you. This man. How the hell are you supposed to remain aloof or maintain any kind of emotional distance when heâs saying and doing all the right things? You canât breathe, you can hardly think straight, your head is spinning, your heart thundering. How does he always manage to do this? Make your heart feel like itâs made of putty and turn your mind into a mess. Since the moment you two met, heâs had that effect on you, just this way of making you fucking dumb.Â
And youâre not dumb.Â
It reminds you of when your relationship was new, except different. Both of you are older and wiser. The six years apart have changed you into different people than you were back then, or maybe thatâs just how time works, whittling away at your personhood, carving you into something new every decade. And somehow, you have this strange sense that instead of fitting together worse than you did back then, the people you are now fit together better. How uncanny.Â
âSeriously?â You breathe at last, looking for any hint on his face that heâs joking or that heâs begrudging it, but you find none. On the contrary, he seems almost excited.Â
âYeah, Iâve been researching what it takes to get a visa. Turns out itâs a lot, especially since Iâm kind of broke now,â he answers wryly. âSo, it might be a while yet, but my goal is to move overseas. Suguru too. Heâs coming with. Iâve only ever been to Hawaii, so Iâm excited to see what the rest of America is like.â He pauses, his eyes roving over your face. âI should have done this a long time ago,â he says softly, a thread of apology and regret running through his tone. He means back then, back when you were still married. Your heart stumbles again, eyes welling back up with tears. Something in Satoruâs face crumples, like he canât bear the sight of you crying. âDonât cry, sweetheart. Please. Youâve shed enough tears over me.â
âDoes that mean Dad is coming to live with us?â Ender cuts in excitedly, reminding you both heâs in the room.
Christ. How the hell are you supposed to answer that? Youâre not ready to give the kid any kind of lasting hope while everything is still so new, so you answer quietly, âWell, heâll be a lot closer for sure, but as he said, it might take him a while.â
âOr, you guys could just get married again. Green card marriages make everything fast and easy.â Suguruâs mild voice behind you nearly makes you jump. Whipping your head around to face him, you see heâs leaning up against the doorway into the hall, his long raven hair loose. Thereâs a faint smile on his lips like he planned this whole thing and itâs all going exactly the way he wanted it to.Â
Then, his words actually register, and you almost fucking choke on your spit. Instantly, your face flushes scarlet. Your brows pull together in a glare, and you say, âThatâs not funny.â You canât believe heâd say something like that in front of your son. When you look back at Satoru, you see him staring at Suguru with a look that says heâs totally on board with the suggestion. Fucking tweedledee and tweedledum, so you just shake your head.
Suguru just shrugs and says casually, as if he didnât just suggest you remarry your ex-husband, âHey, it was an idea.â Reaching up, he pushes his hair back and tilts his head to add, âOh, by the way, youâre not exactly broke, buddy.â His smile widens, and something about it reminds you of a child who knows theyâre up to no good.
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(Satoruâs POV)
When Ender calls him dad for the first time, Satoru nearly sobs on the spot. His heart swells ten times over, and everything feels like a dream. It has been a long, long time since he felt so happy. His heart aches with joy. So, he canât stop himself from admitting then that heâs been looking for a way to follow you guys, that he wants to be close to you. Your reaction is almost enough to have him pulling you into his arms and kissing you senseless, but he restrains himself. Not in front of the kid. After last night, itâs extremely difficult to keep his hands to himself.
But then Suguru makes his little suggestion, and your face is so cute when youâre blushing like that. With every second, that urge gets stronger and stronger. Suguruâs other comment, the one about him not being exactly broke, though, makes his face screw up in confusion. âWhat does that mean?â He finally manages to release you and Ender, slowly standing up.Â
âBuddy, Iâve been managing your finances for years. Iâm not dumb enough to leave everything in your parentsâ names. You have some investments, a hefty high-yield savings account, and a few CDs,â Suguru replies as he shoves off the doorframe to join everyone fully in the living room. He drops into one of the sitting chairs and adds, âTrust me. Youâre not broke. Sure, you wonât be able to blow money like you still have your trust fund, but you donât have to worry either.â He pauses, his expression softening as he takes in the disbelief on Satoruâs face. âLook, man, I know you. This was always inevitable. You and your parents were always going to reach a breaking point, it was just a matter of when. So, I got prepared,â he finishes.
What did he ever do to deserve such a good friend? He doesnât feel like he deserves it, so he can only appreciate it. âSuguru, I donât know what to say,â Satoru chokes out, his face brightening with the realization that heâs not destitute without his parentsâ support. âI canât thank you enough,â he adds quietly, his gaze dropping down to the boy in your lap.Â
âJust be good to my nephew and future once-again-sister-in-law,â his best friend replies. âAnd be good to yourself too.âÂ
Before Satoru has a chance to reply, youâre pushing yourself to your feet and hefting Ender onto your hip. âSuguru, if you donât knock it off, Iâm gonna toss you out on your ass.â If looks could kill, Suguru would be a dead man.Â
âMommy said a bad word,â Ender says with a laugh, like itâs the funniest thing in the world. He looks up at you, a smile thatâs pure mischief on his face. Thereâs so much love and adoration in that look that Satoru has to clear his throat and look away. Itâs clear youâre the center of the kidâs world, in the way that all good mothers are.Â
Ender has what he always dreamed of. A mother who puts him above the whole world, who cares about his sonâs wellbeing and happiness. Satoru knows youâre a good mother because youâre pretty much the opposite of his own, and that speaks for itself. Heâs never been more grateful for anything than how you chose to carry his child, that even though you believed he didnât love you anymore, you kept his baby and brought a beautiful, intelligent, kind child into the world.Â
âYeah, she did,â Satoru replies, something soft and warm in his voice, and he reaches out to ruffle the kidâs hair. Itâs so soft under his fingertips, like powdery, freshly lain snow. The shape of his smile is all you, but the cheekinessâthatâs Satoru down to the core. âBest not repeat that one kid. Mom might be a little upset if you do,â he adds conspiratorially.Â
With a stern look, you tack on, âYeah.â
âBut you said it, Mommy!â Ender protests, looking at you with big innocent eyes, but even he can tell his son is hamming it up. His lower lip juts out in a pout like heâs been grievously insulted. So dramatic, and just like Satoru.Â
Kid really does take after him. It must have been painful in some ways, raising his child when you were convinced that he didnât love you, that he no longer thought you beautiful, that he didnât want you. It would have been painful for him if the situation were reversed. To have a child that looks exactly like you, acts like you, and not have you, would have crushed him. He doesnât know how you did it.Â
Shaking your head, you reply, âYeah, but you shouldnât repeat everything Mommy says.â Then you attack him with wriggling fingers. Ender falls into a fit of laughter, squirming and flopping around in your arms, squealing. Itâs like the sun parting the clouds, warming the entire room. Satoru has never heard such a beautiful sound before in his life.Â
When you finally ease off, Ender says, like heâs making some big concession, âFine. I wonât say it.â Then he sticks his tongue out at you, wiggling it in the air. The scene is so heartwarming that he feels like heâll die of sweetness overload.Â
You make a silly face back at your son and say in an equally silly voice, âPut that away.âÂ
It launches Ender into another fit of giggles, his arms thrown around you as he laughs into your body. Eventually, though, he settles down and looks up at you to say again, âIâm hungry.â
âHi, hungry, Iâm Dad,â Satoru replies before you can even open your mouth, excited to fire off his first-ever dad joke. Heâs practically grinning from ear to ear as he delivers it, barely managing to restrain his own laughter.
âDaaaaaaaad,â Ender whines with a laugh, but heâs giggling at the same time, undercutting the complaint.
You just roll your eyes and shake your head at him. Looking down at your son, you say, âWhy donât you work on your Death Star with your dad and uncle Suguru while I make you guys some food?â Ender nods eagerly, and you bend down to set the kid on the ground. Your head tilts back up to look at Suguru, and you say, âYou want in on this?â
The smile on his best friendâs face is warm, and he says with a scoff, âTch. Do you even need to ask? Of course, Iâm in.â
So, you set Ender down and bend over to run your fingers through his hair. Satoru canât help but stare at the curve of your ass, remembering how he sank his fingers into the soft flesh last night. Fuck, he canât be thinking of that right now, so he forces himself to look away. âAlright,â you say, a tender smile tugging at your lips. âGo play for a bit while I take care of breakfast.â
âYay! I get to play Legos with my dad!â He lets out excitedly, jumping from foot to foot and clapping without rhythm.Â
Everything this kid does makes him want to cry like a baby. The excitement on his face helps settle that restless feeling of being unnecessary, of being unwanted. Ender wants him to be here, wants him to be his father, and thatâs all he really needs right now. âIâll play Legos with you any time you want,â Satoru says gently, reaching down to gently brush his fingers against his sonâs cheek. With that, he goes to retrieve the half-pieced-together model from Enderâs bedroom.Â
When he comes back, Suguru is crawling around on the floor with the kid on his back. Heâs got quite the grip on the manâs long, raven hair, tugging on locks of it like theyâre horseâs reins. Satoru was gone for less than two minutes; how did this chaos break out in that short time? He chuckles at Enderâs sweet, high-pitched laugh when Suguru rolls him onto the floor and pins him down to tickle him. Glancing over at you, he doesnât miss the small, contented smile on your lips as you bustle around in the kitchen.Â
You look happy. Good. Because heâs happy and he wants both of you to be happy, preferably together.Â
He carefully sets the model on the floor, and Ender quickly squirms his way out from under Suguruâs merciless grip to scamper over and join him. Carefully spreading out the diagram to where they left off, he sits criss-cross on the floor beside Ender, only for the kid to sneak his way into his lap. Suguru follows not too far behind, and soon the three of them are lost in a world of bricks.Â
The larger pieces Ender can place himself, but he struggles with the smaller ones, or pieces that need to be connected in more fragile areas. When he needs help, heâll look up at Satoru with those wide blue eyes and say so politely, âHelp, please, Dad.â It just about melts his heart. Satoru wraps his larger hand around his sonâs small one and helps him place the piece. And after, the way Ender looks back up at him and says so sweetly, âThanks, Dad.â Every time he does it, Satoru comes a little closer to crying.Â
Every so often, he steals glances up at you, watching as you quietly whip up breakfast for them all. He canât help it. His eyes are drawn to you like a hummingbird to the sweet flavor of honeysuckle. One of the times, you happen to look up from what youâre doing, catching him in the act of staring. A pretty flush spreads along your cheeks, and you quickly look away, but god does that make him want to just eat you up.
Letting out a breath, he looks away because if he looks at you any longer, heâs liable to drag you away somewhere for him to do just that. He looks back down at the Lego model and forces himself to focus on that. But Suguru catches his eye, a sly smile on his face from having witnessed the interaction.Â
âShut up,â Satoru mutters, glaring as he guides Enderâs hand to press in a small, round circular piece.Â
The smile on his best friendâs face only widens, and he says, âHey, I didnât say anything.â
Of course, Ender feels the need to innocently chime in, not understanding the subtleties of the situation, âYeah, Dad, he didnât say anything.â Heâs still so little that he canât really read the room yet, so to speak.Â
âHe said it with his eyes,â Satoru mutters, throwing Suguru a dirty look. He probably already freaked you out earlier with the whole green card marriage thing. The last thing Satoru wants is to freak you out and cause you to pull away completely. No, this needs to be handled at your pace.Â
It doesnât take you long to finish breakfast. Soon, thereâs a steaming pile of pancakes on a big plate at the center of the table. They smell so good that Satory is practically floating. He missed your cooking a lot, too. As a child, his mother never cooked. When he had your cooking for the first time back in college, it was the first home-cooked meal heâd ever had that wasnât made by the familyâs cook, which he doesnât think really counts. Kaori doesnât cook either, but then again, sheâs pretty much a clone of his mother, so thatâs not really surprising. Thereâs something so sweetly domestic about thisâsitting down to share a homemade meal, fixed by the mother of his child, sharing it with you, Ender, and Suguru.Â
His family. For a long time, he was scared of losing his parents because, in his mind, they were his only family. He hadnât considered that family didnât have to be forged in blood, but could be carefully chosen from the people who put you first, something his parents never did. Suddenly, he remembers a conversation the two of you had, back when you guys were in college.Â
You were teaching him English idioms. The two of you were cuddled up in his apartment, a place he rented near campus. His hand stroked up and down the bare skin of your back as he just enjoyed the feeling of having you in his arms naked, pliant, and completely, utterly his. âA lot of the idioms that get passed around in America are only half of the original, which changes the meaning. Take blood is thicker than water, for example.â
âWhat does that one mean?â He asked, hand pausing on your back.
âItâs a fancy way of saying the bonds of blood, of family, can never be broken,â you replied, your finger tracing gentle circles over his chest. âBut the original phrase was blood of the covenant is thicker than water of the womb.â You paused again before breathing, âThe full phrase has the complete opposite meaning. It says you get to choose the bonds that are the strongest.â Shrugging, you finished, âI donât know. I just like the idea of getting to choose your own family.â
The memory hits him square in the gut. Heâd forgotten about that conversation, held somewhere in the wee hours of the morning after hours of fucking like rabbits. Even then, it was like something in you knew just how desperate and starved his parents had made him for love. Maybe the conversation was a coincidence, maybe it was just idle talk that you were making, but his younger self had listened a little more carefully to them and taken them to heart. Maybe even then, you were trying to look out for him in your own way. You hadnât met his parents yet, but you had listened in on a few phone calls where they did nothing but belittle and berate him.Â
âIf the green card marriage is out, you could open a business in America and give yourself a work visa.â Suguruâs voice draws him out of his thoughts. âYou have the capital to. If I were you, Iâd open a tech company. You were the driving force behind Gojo Inc.âs tech division, which became their biggest revenue stream after you took over.âÂ
âMommy, whatâs a green card marriage?â Ender asks, looking up from his pancakes.Â
You choke on your own bite of food, leading to a small coughing fit, then you guzzle down a glass of water. All around his little mouth is smeared sticky golden brown syrup. Enderâs little tongue darts out to try and clean it up, but to no avail. Satoruâs not sure how he even managed to get so much syrup on his face. The kid looks between you and Satoru, completely unaware of the kind of question he just asked.Â
Looking up from your food, you shoot them both a glare and grouse, âYou guys can explain that one to him since you guys thought that was a concept he needed to know about.â Your irritation has Satoru throwing a glare at Suguru, too.
âA green card marriage is when two people get married so they can move to a new country together,â Satoru explains as simply as he can. Itâs not exactly right, but itâs the best way he knows how to put it without going into a definition that really wouldnât be appropriate.Â
âOh, then I think Uncle Suguru is right,â Ender says brightly, making you choke again on your sip of water. âYou should have a green card marriage, Mommy.â
Your glass of water hits the table with a thunk, your shaking from how hard youâre coughing. On the one hand, Ender is being incredibly cute, but on the other, Satoru thinks you might just have a heart attack if he says one more word. Reaching over, he pats your back to help dislodge the water in your lungs. Once youâre no longer coughing up a storm, you look up at your son and say, âEnder, you canât just say things like that.â
âWhy not, Mommy?âÂ
âBecause itâs not appropriate,â you reply through gritted teeth, giving Suguru a look like you might fucking strangle him. The man just smiles and shrugs like he isnât saying outrageous things and putting ideas into his sonâs head. Shaking your head, you look over at your son and say, âMarriage isnât something you should treat like a game, baby. Itâs a promise between two people to always love each other and always put each other first. Thatâs not the kind of thing you just do willy-nilly.â
âYeah, promises are serious stuff,â Ender says, nodding solemnly. âItâs important to keep them because it means others can trust you.â He recites the words so perfectly, Satoru is sure that this is something you taught him,
That thoughtâs confirmed when you nod and say with a hint of pride, âThatâs right, baby. Good job. So, you should be careful who you make your promises to and be careful in what you make promises about.â Your fork taps lightly against the rim of your plate, the faint clink catching Satoruâs ears. âDo you understand?â You ask, tilting your head as you look at him.Â
The kid nods, his silky white locks bouncing, âI think so, Mommy.â
After breakfast, Satoru and Suguru work together to clean up the kitchen while you give Ender a bath to clean the syrup from him. Suguru gathers up all the dirty plates while Satoru takes care of any trash and puts away any stray ingredients in the kitchen. Then, they work on the dishes together, Satoru washing, Suguru drying, shoulder to shoulder.Â
âThis is good,â Suguru says contentedly. âThis is the life I wanted for you. Your kid is ⌠heâs a good kid. She did good.â
Satoru lets out a breath and says, âI know. I donât deserve this gift. Not even a little bit.â He means it. Down to his bones, he knows he doesnât deserve this second chance, this chance to make things right. His throat tightens just thinking about it.
âThe funny thing about thinking you donât deserve things is that when you believe that, you cherish them closer to your heart,â Suguru replies, his hand turning a plate around and around in a dishcloth. When heâs done, he holds the piece the plate up and inspects it. âThe world would benefit from fewer people believing they deserve the things they have,â he says, something in his tone solemn. After a second, he lowers the plate and adds, âLike your parents.â
âYeah,â Satoru can only nod in agreement, momentarily pausing his scrubbing. He takes a breath and lets it out slowly. He canât say that Suguru is wrong.Â
They wrap up the dishes neatly and, afterward, Suguru goes to hang out in the living room while Satoru wipes down the counter. From the kitchen, he can hear the phone ring, and Suguru answers. The conversation is too low for him to quite make out, but a minute later, he hears the TV flip on. Then, âHey, Satoru, you might want to see this.â
A bad feeling settles in the pit of Satoruâs stomach. Slowly, he sets down the rag and the spray bottle he was using. Everything feels so distant and far away, his footsteps and heartbeat strangely loud in his ears. He looks at Suguru first, then at the TV. As his head starts to swivel back to Suguru, he pauses when he realizes who he was seeing on the screen.Â
His parents. Itâs a media frenzy. It looks like theyâve gathered every major news source based in Tokyo that they could. His mother looks cold, but flawless, her face not yet set with lines despite her age. His father looks every bit the noble man he imagines himself to be. When he sees Kaori behind them, looking fragile and grief-stricken, he scoffs in disgust. What is this fucking circus his parents are running now? The reports circle like vultures, cameras flashing, questions being shouted from all sides.Â
Eventually, though, his father raises both hands like heâs the messiah. Only when the room is silent does he lower them and finally speak, âIt is to our greatest shame and sorrow to announce that we have stripped our son, Satoru Gojo, of his position as CEO of Gojo Inc. effective immediately. Our disappointment is immeasurable. We had thought we raised a man of honor and integrity, but his actions have shown that his character is not as unassailable as we had thought. Our son has engaged in extramarital affairs after being seduced by a foreign woman and has even fathered a bastard child. Not only has he deeply hurt his loving, loyal fiancĂŠe, but he has damaged the reputation of our family and company. Furthermore, it is our greatest sadness to announce that the Gojo family has cut ties with him due to this incident. Thank you for your attention. We appreciate your respect for our privacy at this time.â
Satoru is fucking speechless. Somehow, his parents have managed to twist the entire narrative all over again to make Kaori and themselves look like the victims on national television. His heart is racing, slamming against his ribs so hard he swears heâs going to be sick. This time, his parents had truly outdone themselvesâmaking you out to be some kind of succubus, referring to Ender as a bastard, making it seem like Kaori was there first, like Kaori ever held a place in his heart at all. At his hands, his hands ball up into white-knuckled fists, shaking at his sides. Heâs so angry that he quite literally sees red for a moment, a wash of crimson over his sight before disappearing.Â
Instead of ârespecting their privacy,â the reporters act like a bunch of sharks when thereâs blood in the water. They swarm his parents. Just then, you come out of the bathroom with a damp Ender in your arms. Heâs in another onesie, this one, though, is like a little bear suit, complete with a hood sewn with fluffy round ears. Itâs so cute that all the anger drains from his body at once.
âWhatâs going on?â You ask, sensing something off in the atmosphere.Â
Letting out a sigh, Satoru says, âWe need to talk.â The heavy words settle over the room, and your gaze slides to the TV, then back to Satoru. After all, this doesnât just affect Satoru anymore; his parents have successfully dragged you into the epicenter of a media shitstorm. And that is just fucking unacceptable to him.Â
The old him would have remained silent, would have taken it lying down, forcing you to choose between worsening their relationship or standing up for yourself. He would have done nothing, just hoped his parents would move on and try not to piss them off any further. Thatâs not how things are going to work anymore. No. If his parents want to talk shit, if they want to sic the media on you, then heâll pry every fucking skeleton out of the Gojo familyâs closet, and heâll whistle a jaunty tune while doing it.
When you realize that something must have happened with his parents after scrutinizing the television, you just nod. âYeah, I suppose we do.â
A/N: Whew, thank you so much for your patience yâall. I appreciate you all for that. I hope you guys are enjoying the break from the angst hehe. Thank you to everyone for reading. Reblogs and comments are especially appreciated.
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Chapter Six: Shrike To Your Thorn
(Your POV)
You wake up in the morning to an empty bed. The sheets are cool to the touch, which means Satoru left when you had asked him to. Part of you feels gratified that he did as you asked, another part feels ⌠not so gratified. Itâs not that you wanted to throw him out per se, but more so you didnât want to give Ender false hope that his parents might get back together. Thatâs not something youâre even ready to think about yet, let alone involve Ender in.Â
But that ache between your legs? That well-used sensation that only Satoru has ever been able to make you feel? Fuck, you didnât realize how much you missed that. Youâve had sex since the two of you divorced, but it pales in comparison. What happened last night was what has haunted your wet dreams for the past six years.Â
Memories flood your mind. The way fucked you up against the shower wall, strong arms wrapped around you, worshipping your skin like you were something holy. The sound of his heartbeat still pounds in your ears. The slick feeling of his skin pressed against yours. The way he slotted into you like some piece of you that youâd misplaced and found again. So vivid, flowing seamlessly one into the next, and looping all over again.
Sex with Satoru has always been ⌠intense. But this time was different. Not because it had been so long since you had touched each other, nor even the mountain of history between you. Itâs never just been sex with him, more like two stars colliding. But Satoru was more desperate, downright reverent with you last night. Make no mistake, you have no complaint, none at all. Itâs been a long, long time since youâve been fucked so thoroughly, and he certainly did exactly that.
Slowly, you sit up, stretching your arms and legs out before rolling out of bed. Throwing on a robe over your naked body, you tie the soft belt around your waist and pad out into the hall. You pause by Enderâs door and crack it open to peer inside. Both he and Suguru are still curled up together, deep in sleep. For now, you just let them sleep. Itâll give you a head start on breakfast and time to decide how you want to tell Ender the truth anyway.
Leaving the door cracked, you shuffle into the kitchen and put the kettle on for some tea. Later, youâll have to get coffee. After last night, youâll be too exhausted to face the day on just tea. While you wait for the water to boil, you take a seat on the couch, only to find the neatly folded blanket and pillow you told Satoru to take with him last night. So, he did end up sleeping on the couch. You werenât sure if he was going to take you up on that offer, but you figured since Suguru passed out in Enderâs room, it wouldnât really be right to make Satoru go back to an empty apartment. Heâs nowhere to be seen now. Dragging your hand over the blanket, you smooth it out and let out a sigh.Â
Thatâs when you hear the click of the lock and the sound of the front door being shoved open. You crane your neck to look over your shoulder and spot Satoru slipping inside. Heâs wearing the same clothes as yesterday, though theyâre a bit rumpled. Thereâs a pissed-off expression on his faceâsilvery brows drawn together, mouth pressed into a thin line. He pauses when he sees you sitting on the couch. Immediately, his neck and the tops of his ears color pink, and his expression crumples into something achingly soft.
âHi,â he says.Â
But at the same time, the words âGood morningâ are coming from your lips.Â
Both of you look a little embarrassed, and silence lapses between you for a moment. Then, Satoru walks into the living room and plops down beside you. He lets out a long, deep sigh and says, âI was going to surprise you with coffee and a pastry this morning, but, uh, all my cards are turned off.â
Wow. That was fucking quick. His parents certainly wasted no time. âOh,â you say softly, but you donât want him to feel any worse about it, so youâre quick to add, â Well, we knew that was coming. I appreciate you going out of your way to try.â Youâre just glad heâs not trying to talk about what happened last night.
He lets out a huff of air and says, âYeah, but I wasnât able to do it.â A muscle in his jaw flexes and he continues, âI donât know how Iâm gonna live, let alone help you and Ender.â The expression on his face is lost and confused, and you know this bothers him.Â
Back when you were in college, he was known for being a selfish, self-important bastard. Sure, maybe heâs obnoxious, maybe he doesnât like to be told what to do, maybe heâs irreverent, crass, oblivious, and carefree. But selfish? You couldnât call Satoru Gojo selfish. Heâs the kind of guy whoâd give the shirt off his back but complain and whine about it the whole time or act like he was the embodiment of charity in an unserious way. Itâs how you fell in love with him. You saw the heart buried beneath his stupid jokes and arrogance.
âSatoru, Ender and I donât need your money,â you say, reaching out to take his hand. His skin is warm, his hand larger than yours. âI am doing more than okay for myself. Celebrity weddings come with a pretty hefty paycheck for photographers, and so do guest magazine shoots. Financially? Ender and I are in tip-top shape. I own a three-bedroom row home in upstate New York. Ender goes to a private Montessori school. You donât have to worry about providing for us or whatever.â Squeezing his hand, you lean over and bump shoulders with him, a smile on your lips. âBesides, thatâs an outdated concept anyway.â
But he still looks bothered. His jaw works for a moment before he says, âItâs not really about providing for you.â Hand closing over yours, he slumps back against the couch and lets out a long sigh. âI donât know. I guess thereâs just a part of me that thinks Iâm sort of useless when it comes to him. You do such a good job on your own. Itâs like, what do you even need me for?â
You squeeze his hand again, sweeping your thumb over the top of it. âSatoru, look at me.â When his blue eyes meet yours, you tilt your head and say quietly, âI know itâs hard to believe what with your parents and everything. But your value is not contingent on what you can do for us. That might be how your parents treated you, but Ender and I âŚâ You trail off. With a small shake of your head, you continue, âIt doesnât work like that with us. This isnât transactional. Itâs communal. You give what you can, and we meet you where you are and vice versa.â
He inhales sharply, his expression crumpling. âIf you donât shut up, youâre going to make me fucking cry.â He huffs out a breath and blinks at you, his expression so soft that it hurts in your chest. Sitting up, he slowly leans forward, eyes dipping down to your mouth. âItâs too early for that,â he breathes.Â
âYouâre such an idiot,â you reply, your voice equally quiet. You donât pull away, you canât. Youâre like a moon held in the gravity of his planet.
He leans forward a little more, and just as heâs about to fully close the gap, you hear the door down the hall open, and you practically leap away from him. Thereâs a little pitter-patter of small feet running down the hall, then Ender appears, lids heavy with sleep still, white hair all tousled. His onesie, decorated with stars, planets, and rocket ships, is a little unzipped at the top, and heâs got a red impression on his face from where his cheek was pressed against something.
âMommy, the man with the long hair is in my bed,â he mumbles all out as he stumbles into the living room. Crawling up into your lap, he curls up in your arms, clinging to you.Â
You laugh softly and say, âYeah? Your uncle Suguru crashed in there with you last night.âÂ
âUncle? I have an uncle?â He sounds so shocked that itâs almost comical.Â
Yeah, you also have a dad. You just donât know it. âWell, kind of,â you reply, running your fingers through his hair. You should just rip the Band-Aid off and tell him. The sooner the better; that way itâs done and over with. Except, since Satoru appeared back in your life, youâve been trying to figure out what to say once this day inevitably arrived. The right words have never seemed to come.Â
The kettle goes off, the sharp whistle cutting through the apartment. Satoru rises before you can even shift Ender to put him down. The whistling stops sharply, the space falling into silence again. Stroking your hand over the back of Enderâs head, you try to figure out how youâre going to tell him.Â
What perfect words exist to explain that youâve been lying to him since he was old enough to understand what a father is? Maybe there are none.Â
âIâm hungry,â he complains, his lower lip jutting out, looking so much like Satoru when he does that that it hurts your heart.Â
He deserves to know. Satoru deserves for him to know. You just donât want Ender to hate you for your lie, for the anger you and pain youâve harbored in your heart these past six years. Realistically, he probably wonât, but that nagging fear is still there. Thatâs probably why you can never find the right thing to say; the fear kills them off until your mind goes blank.Â
âIâll make breakfast in a little bit,â you reply absently, more focused on figuring out how to tell him right now.Â
A few minutes later, Satoru reappears, mug in hand. The liquid inside is a creamy brown, just the right color, exactly the same shade as when you make it for yourself. Leaning over, he sets the mug on a coaster on the coffee table and takes a seat in one of the chairs opposite the couch. He must remember how you take your tea, a fact that stuns you. Itâs those little things, those small details that hit you in your solar plexus.Â
Looking down at Ender, you take a deep breath, then another. One more and again. Finally, your voice is very small and soft when you say, âEnder, baby, Mommy has something very important she needs to talk to you about.â Inside your chest, your heart is starting to race.Â
He looks up at you, those big blue eyes that match Satoruâs exactly. You swallow, just looking down at them, then up at Satoru, who has gone completely and entirely still. Teeth sinking into your lower lip, you look back down at your son. Your fingers run gently through his silky-soft, fluffy hair again. âWhat Mommy?â He asks. The question is so innocent that it makes you want to squeeze him.Â
It takes you a long time to speak again, but finally you say, âA long time ago, when you were very small, Mommy told you a lie, and it was a pretty big one.â Your hands are shaking, your chest is becoming tight, and your heart is slamming hard against your ribs. I can do this, you tell yourself. Tucking Ender closer to you, you continue, âSweetheart, your dad didnât die.â There, the Band-Aid is ripped off.Â
âI donât get it,â Ender says, his silver brows drawing together as his little face scrunches up in confusion. âWhere is he then? Has he been hiding from us?âÂ
The innocent questions break your heart, but you can only blame yourself, at least for this part. If you had told Ender that things just didnât work out between you and his dad, if you had told him that his dad just didnât know he existed, then this might be easier, but you didnât, and now you have to face it. âNo, sweetheart,â you say quietly, shaking your head, âHe wasnât hiding from us.â If anything, you were hiding from him. âYour dad didnât know you existed, baby. If he did, he would have come to find you.â Satoruâs never explicitly said that, but you know itâs the truth regardless. Letting out a long breath, you say, âHe knows about you now, though, and he wants to really be your dad. Is that something that would make you happy?â
Your son nods eagerly, locks of silky, snowy hair bouncing. âYeah! We can go camping! And he can play with Legos with me! And we can go ride bikes. Or go to the arcade!â With every imagined outing, he gets more and more excited, but youâre fixated on the fact that heâs not upset at you for lying, at least he hasnât said so. âWhere is he? When can I see him? Will he take me out to do that stuff?â
A small sound, almost laughter but not quite, leaves your lips. Slowly, you turn your son around until heâs facing Satoru, who is staring at the two of you with his hands clamped around the arms of the chair. His Adamâs apple bobs as he swallows. Thereâs something in his expression like fear, mixed in with the happiness and longing. âWell, why donât you go ask your dad yourself? Heâs right there.â
His head jerks up, and he looks at you like you might be playing a joke on him. âMy dad is Satoru?â He asks back slowly and quietly, his little mind trying to wrap around everything at once. Not only does he have a dad, but his dad has been getting to know him for some time. Theyâve even done some of the things Ender has always dreamed about doing with a father. He swallows, those big eyes welling with tears as he looks between you and Satoru. His lower lip trembles and he whispers, âDo you mean it, Mommy? I have a dad?âÂ
Satoru shoots to his feet and strides across the room to kneel in front of you and your son. He doesnât reach out yet, but says quietly, âEnder, Iâm so sorry I wasnât there for you and your mom when you were a baby. I made a big mistake that made your mom think I didnât care about her anymore, and she didnât feel like it would be safe for her to tell me about you. I really regret it because itâs all my fault.â In one fell swoop, Satoru has shifted any blame Ender might have had squarely onto his shoulders. It makes your heart skip a beat. He pauses, his blue eyes meeting Enderâs, looking a little bit misty themselves. âIf you want me to, Iâd really like to be your dad now, though. More than anything in the world.â
Ender blinks at Satoru, then looks up to you, naturally turning to you in his confusion. You just give your son a little nod of encouragement. So he looks back at Satoru and nods, âI want you to be my dad.â His little voice is a bit wobbly, tears starting to spill down his cheeks. Theyâre not sad tears, though. You know your son well enough to be able to tell that. Theyâre happy tears. âWill y-you take me to-to the m-movies? A-and the pa-park? And sch-school? And-and build bl-blanket forts with me?â
âYes, Iâll do all those things with you,â Satoru gets out, tears running down his cheeks too now. Reaching up to wipe them away, he looks at Ender like the boy is his personal gift from god. And, considering the state Satoru was in a month ago, he probably is. âWhatever you want, kid. You want the sky, and Iâll peel it down. You want the stars, Iâll put you on my shoulders, and we can pull them down one by one.â
That makes Ender give a wet little giggle. He reaches up with his tiny fists and wipes away his tears. You run your hand down his arm soothingly, but Satoru canât seem to restrain himself anymore. He surges forward and wraps his arms around both of you, still kneeling. The strength in his arms is something you can feel as they wrap around you, his hands splayed across your back as he holds you and his son.Â
If you could freeze this moment in time, you would. Especially when Ender throws his arms around Satoru and the man lets out the smallest, most broken little sob. He looks up at you through his long, sweeping white lashes, and you can feel in his gaze just how deeply heâs affected by all this. Your heart swells at the expression on his face. From the very beginning, from the moment he found out about Ender, all you wanted was to know your son was going to be put first, that he was going to be loved, and now you have no doubt in your heart about either of those things.Â
Satoru truly loves Ender and has shown up for him at every given opportunity since he found out about his existence. Although it was never really about whether Satoru would love him, but whether he could love him more than he craved his parentsâ love. Since heâs finally broken those shackles, you no longer need to worry about that.Â
After all the pain, the sweetness of this moment is multiplied tenfold. Suddenly, you understand something your grandmother had told you when you were small. âThe sugar of life can only be fully appreciated if youâve tasted the bitterness of it too.â Before now, youâd only understood those words in concept, but here and now, you understand them on a visceral, soul level. Leaning forward, you wrap your arms around Satoru, trapping Ender between you in a big, warm group hug.Â
âCan Iâcan I call you m-my dad?â Ender whispers, nervousness lacing his tone.Â
âOf course you can,â Satoru chokes out, his whole body shuddering. âYou can call me whatever youâd like.â His arms tighten around you both, fingers curling into the soft flesh of your back like heâs terrified the two of you will disappear.Â
Ender shifts between you, sniffling. âI have a mom and a dad,â he says quietly, that wobbling in his voice thickening. Itâs like he can scarcely believe it.Â
âAnd we both love you very, very much, baby,â you breathe, bending your head to press a kiss to the crown of his head. âYou are so loved, Ender. Do you understand me? You are so, so loved.â Satoru repeats the gesture, pressing a kiss to Enderâs head just like you did.
The three of you stay like that for some time. Itâs been a long while since your heart felt so full. Youâve always agonized about Enderâs feelings regarding not having a father, but now you donât have to worry as much. For the first time in so long, you fully relax; years of stress, anxiety, and pain drain away from you all at once. A few tears roll down your cheeks, and youâre in no hurry to wipe them away, not when Satoru and your son are also crying.Â
Eventually, Ender wriggles in your lap again, âBut what about when we go back home?âÂ
Right. You and he will return to America. The two of you have lives there; plus, the only way you could get Japanese citizenship is to sacrifice your American citizenship, and thereâs not a shot in hell thatâs happening. No, your American citizenship is your biggest shield against Satoruâs parents with their endless wealth and power. Thereâs no way you could give that up; it would be stupid to. âBaby, we'll cross thatââ
âActually, Iâve been meaning to tell you âŚâ Satoru cuts you off, straightening up enough to look you in the eyes again. âIâm going to try to move to America. To be with you guys.â
You go completely still, your mouth opening and closing again because all the words have been sucked out of you. This man. How the hell are you supposed to remain aloof or maintain any kind of emotional distance when heâs saying and doing all the right things? You canât breathe, you can hardly think straight, your head is spinning, your heart thundering. How does he always manage to do this? Make your heart feel like itâs made of putty and turn your mind into a mess. Since the moment you two met, heâs had that effect on you, just this way of making you fucking dumb.Â
And youâre not dumb.Â
It reminds you of when your relationship was new, except different. Both of you are older and wiser. The six years apart have changed you into different people than you were back then, or maybe thatâs just how time works, whittling away at your personhood, carving you into something new every decade. And somehow, you have this strange sense that instead of fitting together worse than you did back then, the people you are now fit together better. How uncanny.Â
âSeriously?â You breathe at last, looking for any hint on his face that heâs joking or that heâs begrudging it, but you find none. On the contrary, he seems almost excited.Â
âYeah, Iâve been researching what it takes to get a visa. Turns out itâs a lot, especially since Iâm kind of broke now,â he answers wryly. âSo, it might be a while yet, but my goal is to move overseas. Suguru too. Heâs coming with. Iâve only ever been to Hawaii, so Iâm excited to see what the rest of America is like.â He pauses, his eyes roving over your face. âI should have done this a long time ago,â he says softly, a thread of apology and regret running through his tone. He means back then, back when you were still married. Your heart stumbles again, eyes welling back up with tears. Something in Satoruâs face crumples, like he canât bear the sight of you crying. âDonât cry, sweetheart. Please. Youâve shed enough tears over me.â
âDoes that mean Dad is coming to live with us?â Ender cuts in excitedly, reminding you both heâs in the room.
Christ. How the hell are you supposed to answer that? Youâre not ready to give the kid any kind of lasting hope while everything is still so new, so you answer quietly, âWell, heâll be a lot closer for sure, but as he said, it might take him a while.â
âOr, you guys could just get married again. Green card marriages make everything fast and easy.â Suguruâs mild voice behind you nearly makes you jump. Whipping your head around to face him, you see heâs leaning up against the doorway into the hall, his long raven hair loose. Thereâs a faint smile on his lips like he planned this whole thing and itâs all going exactly the way he wanted it to.Â
Then, his words actually register, and you almost fucking choke on your spit. Instantly, your face flushes scarlet. Your brows pull together in a glare, and you say, âThatâs not funny.â You canât believe heâd say something like that in front of your son. When you look back at Satoru, you see him staring at Suguru with a look that says heâs totally on board with the suggestion. Fucking tweedledee and tweedledum, so you just shake your head.
Suguru just shrugs and says casually, as if he didnât just suggest you remarry your ex-husband, âHey, it was an idea.â Reaching up, he pushes his hair back and tilts his head to add, âOh, by the way, youâre not exactly broke, buddy.â His smile widens, and something about it reminds you of a child who knows theyâre up to no good.
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(Satoruâs POV)
When Ender calls him dad for the first time, Satoru nearly sobs on the spot. His heart swells ten times over, and everything feels like a dream. It has been a long, long time since he felt so happy. His heart aches with joy. So, he canât stop himself from admitting then that heâs been looking for a way to follow you guys, that he wants to be close to you. Your reaction is almost enough to have him pulling you into his arms and kissing you senseless, but he restrains himself. Not in front of the kid. After last night, itâs extremely difficult to keep his hands to himself.
But then Suguru makes his little suggestion, and your face is so cute when youâre blushing like that. With every second, that urge gets stronger and stronger. Suguruâs other comment, the one about him not being exactly broke, though, makes his face screw up in confusion. âWhat does that mean?â He finally manages to release you and Ender, slowly standing up.Â
âBuddy, Iâve been managing your finances for years. Iâm not dumb enough to leave everything in your parentsâ names. You have some investments, a hefty high-yield savings account, and a few CDs,â Suguru replies as he shoves off the doorframe to join everyone fully in the living room. He drops into one of the sitting chairs and adds, âTrust me. Youâre not broke. Sure, you wonât be able to blow money like you still have your trust fund, but you donât have to worry either.â He pauses, his expression softening as he takes in the disbelief on Satoruâs face. âLook, man, I know you. This was always inevitable. You and your parents were always going to reach a breaking point, it was just a matter of when. So, I got prepared,â he finishes.
What did he ever do to deserve such a good friend? He doesnât feel like he deserves it, so he can only appreciate it. âSuguru, I donât know what to say,â Satoru chokes out, his face brightening with the realization that heâs not destitute without his parentsâ support. âI canât thank you enough,â he adds quietly, his gaze dropping down to the boy in your lap.Â
âJust be good to my nephew and future once-again-sister-in-law,â his best friend replies. âAnd be good to yourself too.âÂ
Before Satoru has a chance to reply, youâre pushing yourself to your feet and hefting Ender onto your hip. âSuguru, if you donât knock it off, Iâm gonna toss you out on your ass.â If looks could kill, Suguru would be a dead man.Â
âMommy said a bad word,â Ender says with a laugh, like itâs the funniest thing in the world. He looks up at you, a smile thatâs pure mischief on his face. Thereâs so much love and adoration in that look that Satoru has to clear his throat and look away. Itâs clear youâre the center of the kidâs world, in the way that all good mothers are.Â
Ender has what he always dreamed of. A mother who puts him above the whole world, who cares about his sonâs wellbeing and happiness. Satoru knows youâre a good mother because youâre pretty much the opposite of his own, and that speaks for itself. Heâs never been more grateful for anything than how you chose to carry his child, that even though you believed he didnât love you anymore, you kept his baby and brought a beautiful, intelligent, kind child into the world.Â
âYeah, she did,â Satoru replies, something soft and warm in his voice, and he reaches out to ruffle the kidâs hair. Itâs so soft under his fingertips, like powdery, freshly lain snow. The shape of his smile is all you, but the cheekinessâthatâs Satoru down to the core. âBest not repeat that one kid. Mom might be a little upset if you do,â he adds conspiratorially.Â
With a stern look, you tack on, âYeah.â
âBut you said it, Mommy!â Ender protests, looking at you with big innocent eyes, but even he can tell his son is hamming it up. His lower lip juts out in a pout like heâs been grievously insulted. So dramatic, and just like Satoru.Â
Kid really does take after him. It must have been painful in some ways, raising his child when you were convinced that he didnât love you, that he no longer thought you beautiful, that he didnât want you. It would have been painful for him if the situation were reversed. To have a child that looks exactly like you, acts like you, and not have you, would have crushed him. He doesnât know how you did it.Â
Shaking your head, you reply, âYeah, but you shouldnât repeat everything Mommy says.â Then you attack him with wriggling fingers. Ender falls into a fit of laughter, squirming and flopping around in your arms, squealing. Itâs like the sun parting the clouds, warming the entire room. Satoru has never heard such a beautiful sound before in his life.Â
When you finally ease off, Ender says, like heâs making some big concession, âFine. I wonât say it.â Then he sticks his tongue out at you, wiggling it in the air. The scene is so heartwarming that he feels like heâll die of sweetness overload.Â
You make a silly face back at your son and say in an equally silly voice, âPut that away.âÂ
It launches Ender into another fit of giggles, his arms thrown around you as he laughs into your body. Eventually, though, he settles down and looks up at you to say again, âIâm hungry.â
âHi, hungry, Iâm Dad,â Satoru replies before you can even open your mouth, excited to fire off his first-ever dad joke. Heâs practically grinning from ear to ear as he delivers it, barely managing to restrain his own laughter.
âDaaaaaaaad,â Ender whines with a laugh, but heâs giggling at the same time, undercutting the complaint.
You just roll your eyes and shake your head at him. Looking down at your son, you say, âWhy donât you work on your Death Star with your dad and uncle Suguru while I make you guys some food?â Ender nods eagerly, and you bend down to set the kid on the ground. Your head tilts back up to look at Suguru, and you say, âYou want in on this?â
The smile on his best friendâs face is warm, and he says with a scoff, âTch. Do you even need to ask? Of course, Iâm in.â
So, you set Ender down and bend over to run your fingers through his hair. Satoru canât help but stare at the curve of your ass, remembering how he sank his fingers into the soft flesh last night. Fuck, he canât be thinking of that right now, so he forces himself to look away. âAlright,â you say, a tender smile tugging at your lips. âGo play for a bit while I take care of breakfast.â
âYay! I get to play Legos with my dad!â He lets out excitedly, jumping from foot to foot and clapping without rhythm.Â
Everything this kid does makes him want to cry like a baby. The excitement on his face helps settle that restless feeling of being unnecessary, of being unwanted. Ender wants him to be here, wants him to be his father, and thatâs all he really needs right now. âIâll play Legos with you any time you want,â Satoru says gently, reaching down to gently brush his fingers against his sonâs cheek. With that, he goes to retrieve the half-pieced-together model from Enderâs bedroom.Â
When he comes back, Suguru is crawling around on the floor with the kid on his back. Heâs got quite the grip on the manâs long, raven hair, tugging on locks of it like theyâre horseâs reins. Satoru was gone for less than two minutes; how did this chaos break out in that short time? He chuckles at Enderâs sweet, high-pitched laugh when Suguru rolls him onto the floor and pins him down to tickle him. Glancing over at you, he doesnât miss the small, contented smile on your lips as you bustle around in the kitchen.Â
You look happy. Good. Because heâs happy and he wants both of you to be happy, preferably together.Â
He carefully sets the model on the floor, and Ender quickly squirms his way out from under Suguruâs merciless grip to scamper over and join him. Carefully spreading out the diagram to where they left off, he sits criss-cross on the floor beside Ender, only for the kid to sneak his way into his lap. Suguru follows not too far behind, and soon the three of them are lost in a world of bricks.Â
The larger pieces Ender can place himself, but he struggles with the smaller ones, or pieces that need to be connected in more fragile areas. When he needs help, heâll look up at Satoru with those wide blue eyes and say so politely, âHelp, please, Dad.â It just about melts his heart. Satoru wraps his larger hand around his sonâs small one and helps him place the piece. And after, the way Ender looks back up at him and says so sweetly, âThanks, Dad.â Every time he does it, Satoru comes a little closer to crying.Â
Every so often, he steals glances up at you, watching as you quietly whip up breakfast for them all. He canât help it. His eyes are drawn to you like a hummingbird to the sweet flavor of honeysuckle. One of the times, you happen to look up from what youâre doing, catching him in the act of staring. A pretty flush spreads along your cheeks, and you quickly look away, but god does that make him want to just eat you up.
Letting out a breath, he looks away because if he looks at you any longer, heâs liable to drag you away somewhere for him to do just that. He looks back down at the Lego model and forces himself to focus on that. But Suguru catches his eye, a sly smile on his face from having witnessed the interaction.Â
âShut up,â Satoru mutters, glaring as he guides Enderâs hand to press in a small, round circular piece.Â
The smile on his best friendâs face only widens, and he says, âHey, I didnât say anything.â
Of course, Ender feels the need to innocently chime in, not understanding the subtleties of the situation, âYeah, Dad, he didnât say anything.â Heâs still so little that he canât really read the room yet, so to speak.Â
âHe said it with his eyes,â Satoru mutters, throwing Suguru a dirty look. He probably already freaked you out earlier with the whole green card marriage thing. The last thing Satoru wants is to freak you out and cause you to pull away completely. No, this needs to be handled at your pace.Â
It doesnât take you long to finish breakfast. Soon, thereâs a steaming pile of pancakes on a big plate at the center of the table. They smell so good that Satory is practically floating. He missed your cooking a lot, too. As a child, his mother never cooked. When he had your cooking for the first time back in college, it was the first home-cooked meal heâd ever had that wasnât made by the familyâs cook, which he doesnât think really counts. Kaori doesnât cook either, but then again, sheâs pretty much a clone of his mother, so thatâs not really surprising. Thereâs something so sweetly domestic about thisâsitting down to share a homemade meal, fixed by the mother of his child, sharing it with you, Ender, and Suguru.Â
His family. For a long time, he was scared of losing his parents because, in his mind, they were his only family. He hadnât considered that family didnât have to be forged in blood, but could be carefully chosen from the people who put you first, something his parents never did. Suddenly, he remembers a conversation the two of you had, back when you guys were in college.Â
You were teaching him English idioms. The two of you were cuddled up in his apartment, a place he rented near campus. His hand stroked up and down the bare skin of your back as he just enjoyed the feeling of having you in his arms naked, pliant, and completely, utterly his. âA lot of the idioms that get passed around in America are only half of the original, which changes the meaning. Take blood is thicker than water, for example.â
âWhat does that one mean?â He asked, hand pausing on your back.
âItâs a fancy way of saying the bonds of blood, of family, can never be broken,â you replied, your finger tracing gentle circles over his chest. âBut the original phrase was blood of the covenant is thicker than water of the womb.â You paused again before breathing, âThe full phrase has the complete opposite meaning. It says you get to choose the bonds that are the strongest.â Shrugging, you finished, âI donât know. I just like the idea of getting to choose your own family.â
The memory hits him square in the gut. Heâd forgotten about that conversation, held somewhere in the wee hours of the morning after hours of fucking like rabbits. Even then, it was like something in you knew just how desperate and starved his parents had made him for love. Maybe the conversation was a coincidence, maybe it was just idle talk that you were making, but his younger self had listened a little more carefully to them and taken them to heart. Maybe even then, you were trying to look out for him in your own way. You hadnât met his parents yet, but you had listened in on a few phone calls where they did nothing but belittle and berate him.Â
âIf the green card marriage is out, you could open a business in America and give yourself a work visa.â Suguruâs voice draws him out of his thoughts. âYou have the capital to. If I were you, Iâd open a tech company. You were the driving force behind Gojo Inc.âs tech division, which became their biggest revenue stream after you took over.âÂ
âMommy, whatâs a green card marriage?â Ender asks, looking up from his pancakes.Â
You choke on your own bite of food, leading to a small coughing fit, then you guzzle down a glass of water. All around his little mouth is smeared sticky golden brown syrup. Enderâs little tongue darts out to try and clean it up, but to no avail. Satoruâs not sure how he even managed to get so much syrup on his face. The kid looks between you and Satoru, completely unaware of the kind of question he just asked.Â
Looking up from your food, you shoot them both a glare and grouse, âYou guys can explain that one to him since you guys thought that was a concept he needed to know about.â Your irritation has Satoru throwing a glare at Suguru, too.
âA green card marriage is when two people get married so they can move to a new country together,â Satoru explains as simply as he can. Itâs not exactly right, but itâs the best way he knows how to put it without going into a definition that really wouldnât be appropriate.Â
âOh, then I think Uncle Suguru is right,â Ender says brightly, making you choke again on your sip of water. âYou should have a green card marriage, Mommy.â
Your glass of water hits the table with a thunk, your shaking from how hard youâre coughing. On the one hand, Ender is being incredibly cute, but on the other, Satoru thinks you might just have a heart attack if he says one more word. Reaching over, he pats your back to help dislodge the water in your lungs. Once youâre no longer coughing up a storm, you look up at your son and say, âEnder, you canât just say things like that.â
âWhy not, Mommy?âÂ
âBecause itâs not appropriate,â you reply through gritted teeth, giving Suguru a look like you might fucking strangle him. The man just smiles and shrugs like he isnât saying outrageous things and putting ideas into his sonâs head. Shaking your head, you look over at your son and say, âMarriage isnât something you should treat like a game, baby. Itâs a promise between two people to always love each other and always put each other first. Thatâs not the kind of thing you just do willy-nilly.â
âYeah, promises are serious stuff,â Ender says, nodding solemnly. âItâs important to keep them because it means others can trust you.â He recites the words so perfectly, Satoru is sure that this is something you taught him,
That thoughtâs confirmed when you nod and say with a hint of pride, âThatâs right, baby. Good job. So, you should be careful who you make your promises to and be careful in what you make promises about.â Your fork taps lightly against the rim of your plate, the faint clink catching Satoruâs ears. âDo you understand?â You ask, tilting your head as you look at him.Â
The kid nods, his silky white locks bouncing, âI think so, Mommy.â
After breakfast, Satoru and Suguru work together to clean up the kitchen while you give Ender a bath to clean the syrup from him. Suguru gathers up all the dirty plates while Satoru takes care of any trash and puts away any stray ingredients in the kitchen. Then, they work on the dishes together, Satoru washing, Suguru drying, shoulder to shoulder.Â
âThis is good,â Suguru says contentedly. âThis is the life I wanted for you. Your kid is ⌠heâs a good kid. She did good.â
Satoru lets out a breath and says, âI know. I donât deserve this gift. Not even a little bit.â He means it. Down to his bones, he knows he doesnât deserve this second chance, this chance to make things right. His throat tightens just thinking about it.
âThe funny thing about thinking you donât deserve things is that when you believe that, you cherish them closer to your heart,â Suguru replies, his hand turning a plate around and around in a dishcloth. When heâs done, he holds the piece the plate up and inspects it. âThe world would benefit from fewer people believing they deserve the things they have,â he says, something in his tone solemn. After a second, he lowers the plate and adds, âLike your parents.â
âYeah,â Satoru can only nod in agreement, momentarily pausing his scrubbing. He takes a breath and lets it out slowly. He canât say that Suguru is wrong.Â
They wrap up the dishes neatly and, afterward, Suguru goes to hang out in the living room while Satoru wipes down the counter. From the kitchen, he can hear the phone ring, and Suguru answers. The conversation is too low for him to quite make out, but a minute later, he hears the TV flip on. Then, âHey, Satoru, you might want to see this.â
A bad feeling settles in the pit of Satoruâs stomach. Slowly, he sets down the rag and the spray bottle he was using. Everything feels so distant and far away, his footsteps and heartbeat strangely loud in his ears. He looks at Suguru first, then at the TV. As his head starts to swivel back to Suguru, he pauses when he realizes who he was seeing on the screen.Â
His parents. Itâs a media frenzy. It looks like theyâve gathered every major news source based in Tokyo that they could. His mother looks cold, but flawless, her face not yet set with lines despite her age. His father looks every bit the noble man he imagines himself to be. When he sees Kaori behind them, looking fragile and grief-stricken, he scoffs in disgust. What is this fucking circus his parents are running now? The reports circle like vultures, cameras flashing, questions being shouted from all sides.Â
Eventually, though, his father raises both hands like heâs the messiah. Only when the room is silent does he lower them and finally speak, âIt is to our greatest shame and sorrow to announce that we have stripped our son, Satoru Gojo, of his position as CEO of Gojo Inc. effective immediately. Our disappointment is immeasurable. We had thought we raised a man of honor and integrity, but his actions have shown that his character is not as unassailable as we had thought. Our son has engaged in extramarital affairs after being seduced by a foreign woman and has even fathered a bastard child. Not only has he deeply hurt his loving, loyal fiancĂŠe, but he has damaged the reputation of our family and company. Furthermore, it is our greatest sadness to announce that the Gojo family has cut ties with him due to this incident. Thank you for your attention. We appreciate your respect for our privacy at this time.â
Satoru is fucking speechless. Somehow, his parents have managed to twist the entire narrative all over again to make Kaori and themselves look like the victims on national television. His heart is racing, slamming against his ribs so hard he swears heâs going to be sick. This time, his parents had truly outdone themselvesâmaking you out to be some kind of succubus, referring to Ender as a bastard, making it seem like Kaori was there first, like Kaori ever held a place in his heart at all. At his hands, his hands ball up into white-knuckled fists, shaking at his sides. Heâs so angry that he quite literally sees red for a moment, a wash of crimson over his sight before disappearing.Â
Instead of ârespecting their privacy,â the reporters act like a bunch of sharks when thereâs blood in the water. They swarm his parents. Just then, you come out of the bathroom with a damp Ender in your arms. Heâs in another onesie, this one, though, is like a little bear suit, complete with a hood sewn with fluffy round ears. Itâs so cute that all the anger drains from his body at once.
âWhatâs going on?â You ask, sensing something off in the atmosphere.Â
Letting out a sigh, Satoru says, âWe need to talk.â The heavy words settle over the room, and your gaze slides to the TV, then back to Satoru. After all, this doesnât just affect Satoru anymore; his parents have successfully dragged you into the epicenter of a media shitstorm. And that is just fucking unacceptable to him.Â
The old him would have remained silent, would have taken it lying down, forcing you to choose between worsening their relationship or standing up for yourself. He would have done nothing, just hoped his parents would move on and try not to piss them off any further. Thatâs not how things are going to work anymore. No. If his parents want to talk shit, if they want to sic the media on you, then heâll pry every fucking skeleton out of the Gojo familyâs closet, and heâll whistle a jaunty tune while doing it.
When you realize that something must have happened with his parents after scrutinizing the television, you just nod. âYeah, I suppose we do.â
A/N: Whew, thank you so much for your patience yâall. I appreciate you all for that. I hope you guys are enjoying the break from the angst hehe. Thank you to everyone for reading. Reblogs and comments are especially appreciated.
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Chapter Six: Shrike To Your Thorn
(Your POV)
You wake up in the morning to an empty bed. The sheets are cool to the touch, which means Satoru left when you had asked him to. Part of you feels gratified that he did as you asked, another part feels ⌠not so gratified. Itâs not that you wanted to throw him out per se, but more so you didnât want to give Ender false hope that his parents might get back together. Thatâs not something youâre even ready to think about yet, let alone involve Ender in.Â
But that ache between your legs? That well-used sensation that only Satoru has ever been able to make you feel? Fuck, you didnât realize how much you missed that. Youâve had sex since the two of you divorced, but it pales in comparison. What happened last night was what has haunted your wet dreams for the past six years.Â
Memories flood your mind. The way fucked you up against the shower wall, strong arms wrapped around you, worshipping your skin like you were something holy. The sound of his heartbeat still pounds in your ears. The slick feeling of his skin pressed against yours. The way he slotted into you like some piece of you that youâd misplaced and found again. So vivid, flowing seamlessly one into the next, and looping all over again.
Sex with Satoru has always been ⌠intense. But this time was different. Not because it had been so long since you had touched each other, nor even the mountain of history between you. Itâs never just been sex with him, more like two stars colliding. But Satoru was more desperate, downright reverent with you last night. Make no mistake, you have no complaint, none at all. Itâs been a long, long time since youâve been fucked so thoroughly, and he certainly did exactly that.
Slowly, you sit up, stretching your arms and legs out before rolling out of bed. Throwing on a robe over your naked body, you tie the soft belt around your waist and pad out into the hall. You pause by Enderâs door and crack it open to peer inside. Both he and Suguru are still curled up together, deep in sleep. For now, you just let them sleep. Itâll give you a head start on breakfast and time to decide how you want to tell Ender the truth anyway.
Leaving the door cracked, you shuffle into the kitchen and put the kettle on for some tea. Later, youâll have to get coffee. After last night, youâll be too exhausted to face the day on just tea. While you wait for the water to boil, you take a seat on the couch, only to find the neatly folded blanket and pillow you told Satoru to take with him last night. So, he did end up sleeping on the couch. You werenât sure if he was going to take you up on that offer, but you figured since Suguru passed out in Enderâs room, it wouldnât really be right to make Satoru go back to an empty apartment. Heâs nowhere to be seen now. Dragging your hand over the blanket, you smooth it out and let out a sigh.Â
Thatâs when you hear the click of the lock and the sound of the front door being shoved open. You crane your neck to look over your shoulder and spot Satoru slipping inside. Heâs wearing the same clothes as yesterday, though theyâre a bit rumpled. Thereâs a pissed-off expression on his faceâsilvery brows drawn together, mouth pressed into a thin line. He pauses when he sees you sitting on the couch. Immediately, his neck and the tops of his ears color pink, and his expression crumples into something achingly soft.
âHi,â he says.Â
But at the same time, the words âGood morningâ are coming from your lips.Â
Both of you look a little embarrassed, and silence lapses between you for a moment. Then, Satoru walks into the living room and plops down beside you. He lets out a long, deep sigh and says, âI was going to surprise you with coffee and a pastry this morning, but, uh, all my cards are turned off.â
Wow. That was fucking quick. His parents certainly wasted no time. âOh,â you say softly, but you donât want him to feel any worse about it, so youâre quick to add, â Well, we knew that was coming. I appreciate you going out of your way to try.â Youâre just glad heâs not trying to talk about what happened last night.
He lets out a huff of air and says, âYeah, but I wasnât able to do it.â A muscle in his jaw flexes and he continues, âI donât know how Iâm gonna live, let alone help you and Ender.â The expression on his face is lost and confused, and you know this bothers him.Â
Back when you were in college, he was known for being a selfish, self-important bastard. Sure, maybe heâs obnoxious, maybe he doesnât like to be told what to do, maybe heâs irreverent, crass, oblivious, and carefree. But selfish? You couldnât call Satoru Gojo selfish. Heâs the kind of guy whoâd give the shirt off his back but complain and whine about it the whole time or act like he was the embodiment of charity in an unserious way. Itâs how you fell in love with him. You saw the heart buried beneath his stupid jokes and arrogance.
âSatoru, Ender and I donât need your money,â you say, reaching out to take his hand. His skin is warm, his hand larger than yours. âI am doing more than okay for myself. Celebrity weddings come with a pretty hefty paycheck for photographers, and so do guest magazine shoots. Financially? Ender and I are in tip-top shape. I own a three-bedroom row home in upstate New York. Ender goes to a private Montessori school. You donât have to worry about providing for us or whatever.â Squeezing his hand, you lean over and bump shoulders with him, a smile on your lips. âBesides, thatâs an outdated concept anyway.â
But he still looks bothered. His jaw works for a moment before he says, âItâs not really about providing for you.â Hand closing over yours, he slumps back against the couch and lets out a long sigh. âI donât know. I guess thereâs just a part of me that thinks Iâm sort of useless when it comes to him. You do such a good job on your own. Itâs like, what do you even need me for?â
You squeeze his hand again, sweeping your thumb over the top of it. âSatoru, look at me.â When his blue eyes meet yours, you tilt your head and say quietly, âI know itâs hard to believe what with your parents and everything. But your value is not contingent on what you can do for us. That might be how your parents treated you, but Ender and I âŚâ You trail off. With a small shake of your head, you continue, âIt doesnât work like that with us. This isnât transactional. Itâs communal. You give what you can, and we meet you where you are and vice versa.â
He inhales sharply, his expression crumpling. âIf you donât shut up, youâre going to make me fucking cry.â He huffs out a breath and blinks at you, his expression so soft that it hurts in your chest. Sitting up, he slowly leans forward, eyes dipping down to your mouth. âItâs too early for that,â he breathes.Â
âYouâre such an idiot,â you reply, your voice equally quiet. You donât pull away, you canât. Youâre like a moon held in the gravity of his planet.
He leans forward a little more, and just as heâs about to fully close the gap, you hear the door down the hall open, and you practically leap away from him. Thereâs a little pitter-patter of small feet running down the hall, then Ender appears, lids heavy with sleep still, white hair all tousled. His onesie, decorated with stars, planets, and rocket ships, is a little unzipped at the top, and heâs got a red impression on his face from where his cheek was pressed against something.
âMommy, the man with the long hair is in my bed,â he mumbles all out as he stumbles into the living room. Crawling up into your lap, he curls up in your arms, clinging to you.Â
You laugh softly and say, âYeah? Your uncle Suguru crashed in there with you last night.âÂ
âUncle? I have an uncle?â He sounds so shocked that itâs almost comical.Â
Yeah, you also have a dad. You just donât know it. âWell, kind of,â you reply, running your fingers through his hair. You should just rip the Band-Aid off and tell him. The sooner the better; that way itâs done and over with. Except, since Satoru appeared back in your life, youâve been trying to figure out what to say once this day inevitably arrived. The right words have never seemed to come.Â
The kettle goes off, the sharp whistle cutting through the apartment. Satoru rises before you can even shift Ender to put him down. The whistling stops sharply, the space falling into silence again. Stroking your hand over the back of Enderâs head, you try to figure out how youâre going to tell him.Â
What perfect words exist to explain that youâve been lying to him since he was old enough to understand what a father is? Maybe there are none.Â
âIâm hungry,â he complains, his lower lip jutting out, looking so much like Satoru when he does that that it hurts your heart.Â
He deserves to know. Satoru deserves for him to know. You just donât want Ender to hate you for your lie, for the anger you and pain youâve harbored in your heart these past six years. Realistically, he probably wonât, but that nagging fear is still there. Thatâs probably why you can never find the right thing to say; the fear kills them off until your mind goes blank.Â
âIâll make breakfast in a little bit,â you reply absently, more focused on figuring out how to tell him right now.Â
A few minutes later, Satoru reappears, mug in hand. The liquid inside is a creamy brown, just the right color, exactly the same shade as when you make it for yourself. Leaning over, he sets the mug on a coaster on the coffee table and takes a seat in one of the chairs opposite the couch. He must remember how you take your tea, a fact that stuns you. Itâs those little things, those small details that hit you in your solar plexus.Â
Looking down at Ender, you take a deep breath, then another. One more and again. Finally, your voice is very small and soft when you say, âEnder, baby, Mommy has something very important she needs to talk to you about.â Inside your chest, your heart is starting to race.Â
He looks up at you, those big blue eyes that match Satoruâs exactly. You swallow, just looking down at them, then up at Satoru, who has gone completely and entirely still. Teeth sinking into your lower lip, you look back down at your son. Your fingers run gently through his silky-soft, fluffy hair again. âWhat Mommy?â He asks. The question is so innocent that it makes you want to squeeze him.Â
It takes you a long time to speak again, but finally you say, âA long time ago, when you were very small, Mommy told you a lie, and it was a pretty big one.â Your hands are shaking, your chest is becoming tight, and your heart is slamming hard against your ribs. I can do this, you tell yourself. Tucking Ender closer to you, you continue, âSweetheart, your dad didnât die.â There, the Band-Aid is ripped off.Â
âI donât get it,â Ender says, his silver brows drawing together as his little face scrunches up in confusion. âWhere is he then? Has he been hiding from us?âÂ
The innocent questions break your heart, but you can only blame yourself, at least for this part. If you had told Ender that things just didnât work out between you and his dad, if you had told him that his dad just didnât know he existed, then this might be easier, but you didnât, and now you have to face it. âNo, sweetheart,â you say quietly, shaking your head, âHe wasnât hiding from us.â If anything, you were hiding from him. âYour dad didnât know you existed, baby. If he did, he would have come to find you.â Satoruâs never explicitly said that, but you know itâs the truth regardless. Letting out a long breath, you say, âHe knows about you now, though, and he wants to really be your dad. Is that something that would make you happy?â
Your son nods eagerly, locks of silky, snowy hair bouncing. âYeah! We can go camping! And he can play with Legos with me! And we can go ride bikes. Or go to the arcade!â With every imagined outing, he gets more and more excited, but youâre fixated on the fact that heâs not upset at you for lying, at least he hasnât said so. âWhere is he? When can I see him? Will he take me out to do that stuff?â
A small sound, almost laughter but not quite, leaves your lips. Slowly, you turn your son around until heâs facing Satoru, who is staring at the two of you with his hands clamped around the arms of the chair. His Adamâs apple bobs as he swallows. Thereâs something in his expression like fear, mixed in with the happiness and longing. âWell, why donât you go ask your dad yourself? Heâs right there.â
His head jerks up, and he looks at you like you might be playing a joke on him. âMy dad is Satoru?â He asks back slowly and quietly, his little mind trying to wrap around everything at once. Not only does he have a dad, but his dad has been getting to know him for some time. Theyâve even done some of the things Ender has always dreamed about doing with a father. He swallows, those big eyes welling with tears as he looks between you and Satoru. His lower lip trembles and he whispers, âDo you mean it, Mommy? I have a dad?âÂ
Satoru shoots to his feet and strides across the room to kneel in front of you and your son. He doesnât reach out yet, but says quietly, âEnder, Iâm so sorry I wasnât there for you and your mom when you were a baby. I made a big mistake that made your mom think I didnât care about her anymore, and she didnât feel like it would be safe for her to tell me about you. I really regret it because itâs all my fault.â In one fell swoop, Satoru has shifted any blame Ender might have had squarely onto his shoulders. It makes your heart skip a beat. He pauses, his blue eyes meeting Enderâs, looking a little bit misty themselves. âIf you want me to, Iâd really like to be your dad now, though. More than anything in the world.â
Ender blinks at Satoru, then looks up to you, naturally turning to you in his confusion. You just give your son a little nod of encouragement. So he looks back at Satoru and nods, âI want you to be my dad.â His little voice is a bit wobbly, tears starting to spill down his cheeks. Theyâre not sad tears, though. You know your son well enough to be able to tell that. Theyâre happy tears. âWill y-you take me to-to the m-movies? A-and the pa-park? And sch-school? And-and build bl-blanket forts with me?â
âYes, Iâll do all those things with you,â Satoru gets out, tears running down his cheeks too now. Reaching up to wipe them away, he looks at Ender like the boy is his personal gift from god. And, considering the state Satoru was in a month ago, he probably is. âWhatever you want, kid. You want the sky, and Iâll peel it down. You want the stars, Iâll put you on my shoulders, and we can pull them down one by one.â
That makes Ender give a wet little giggle. He reaches up with his tiny fists and wipes away his tears. You run your hand down his arm soothingly, but Satoru canât seem to restrain himself anymore. He surges forward and wraps his arms around both of you, still kneeling. The strength in his arms is something you can feel as they wrap around you, his hands splayed across your back as he holds you and his son.Â
If you could freeze this moment in time, you would. Especially when Ender throws his arms around Satoru and the man lets out the smallest, most broken little sob. He looks up at you through his long, sweeping white lashes, and you can feel in his gaze just how deeply heâs affected by all this. Your heart swells at the expression on his face. From the very beginning, from the moment he found out about Ender, all you wanted was to know your son was going to be put first, that he was going to be loved, and now you have no doubt in your heart about either of those things.Â
Satoru truly loves Ender and has shown up for him at every given opportunity since he found out about his existence. Although it was never really about whether Satoru would love him, but whether he could love him more than he craved his parentsâ love. Since heâs finally broken those shackles, you no longer need to worry about that.Â
After all the pain, the sweetness of this moment is multiplied tenfold. Suddenly, you understand something your grandmother had told you when you were small. âThe sugar of life can only be fully appreciated if youâve tasted the bitterness of it too.â Before now, youâd only understood those words in concept, but here and now, you understand them on a visceral, soul level. Leaning forward, you wrap your arms around Satoru, trapping Ender between you in a big, warm group hug.Â
âCan Iâcan I call you m-my dad?â Ender whispers, nervousness lacing his tone.Â
âOf course you can,â Satoru chokes out, his whole body shuddering. âYou can call me whatever youâd like.â His arms tighten around you both, fingers curling into the soft flesh of your back like heâs terrified the two of you will disappear.Â
Ender shifts between you, sniffling. âI have a mom and a dad,â he says quietly, that wobbling in his voice thickening. Itâs like he can scarcely believe it.Â
âAnd we both love you very, very much, baby,â you breathe, bending your head to press a kiss to the crown of his head. âYou are so loved, Ender. Do you understand me? You are so, so loved.â Satoru repeats the gesture, pressing a kiss to Enderâs head just like you did.
The three of you stay like that for some time. Itâs been a long while since your heart felt so full. Youâve always agonized about Enderâs feelings regarding not having a father, but now you donât have to worry as much. For the first time in so long, you fully relax; years of stress, anxiety, and pain drain away from you all at once. A few tears roll down your cheeks, and youâre in no hurry to wipe them away, not when Satoru and your son are also crying.Â
Eventually, Ender wriggles in your lap again, âBut what about when we go back home?âÂ
Right. You and he will return to America. The two of you have lives there; plus, the only way you could get Japanese citizenship is to sacrifice your American citizenship, and thereâs not a shot in hell thatâs happening. No, your American citizenship is your biggest shield against Satoruâs parents with their endless wealth and power. Thereâs no way you could give that up; it would be stupid to. âBaby, we'll cross thatââ
âActually, Iâve been meaning to tell you âŚâ Satoru cuts you off, straightening up enough to look you in the eyes again. âIâm going to try to move to America. To be with you guys.â
You go completely still, your mouth opening and closing again because all the words have been sucked out of you. This man. How the hell are you supposed to remain aloof or maintain any kind of emotional distance when heâs saying and doing all the right things? You canât breathe, you can hardly think straight, your head is spinning, your heart thundering. How does he always manage to do this? Make your heart feel like itâs made of putty and turn your mind into a mess. Since the moment you two met, heâs had that effect on you, just this way of making you fucking dumb.Â
And youâre not dumb.Â
It reminds you of when your relationship was new, except different. Both of you are older and wiser. The six years apart have changed you into different people than you were back then, or maybe thatâs just how time works, whittling away at your personhood, carving you into something new every decade. And somehow, you have this strange sense that instead of fitting together worse than you did back then, the people you are now fit together better. How uncanny.Â
âSeriously?â You breathe at last, looking for any hint on his face that heâs joking or that heâs begrudging it, but you find none. On the contrary, he seems almost excited.Â
âYeah, Iâve been researching what it takes to get a visa. Turns out itâs a lot, especially since Iâm kind of broke now,â he answers wryly. âSo, it might be a while yet, but my goal is to move overseas. Suguru too. Heâs coming with. Iâve only ever been to Hawaii, so Iâm excited to see what the rest of America is like.â He pauses, his eyes roving over your face. âI should have done this a long time ago,â he says softly, a thread of apology and regret running through his tone. He means back then, back when you were still married. Your heart stumbles again, eyes welling back up with tears. Something in Satoruâs face crumples, like he canât bear the sight of you crying. âDonât cry, sweetheart. Please. Youâve shed enough tears over me.â
âDoes that mean Dad is coming to live with us?â Ender cuts in excitedly, reminding you both heâs in the room.
Christ. How the hell are you supposed to answer that? Youâre not ready to give the kid any kind of lasting hope while everything is still so new, so you answer quietly, âWell, heâll be a lot closer for sure, but as he said, it might take him a while.â
âOr, you guys could just get married again. Green card marriages make everything fast and easy.â Suguruâs mild voice behind you nearly makes you jump. Whipping your head around to face him, you see heâs leaning up against the doorway into the hall, his long raven hair loose. Thereâs a faint smile on his lips like he planned this whole thing and itâs all going exactly the way he wanted it to.Â
Then, his words actually register, and you almost fucking choke on your spit. Instantly, your face flushes scarlet. Your brows pull together in a glare, and you say, âThatâs not funny.â You canât believe heâd say something like that in front of your son. When you look back at Satoru, you see him staring at Suguru with a look that says heâs totally on board with the suggestion. Fucking tweedledee and tweedledum, so you just shake your head.
Suguru just shrugs and says casually, as if he didnât just suggest you remarry your ex-husband, âHey, it was an idea.â Reaching up, he pushes his hair back and tilts his head to add, âOh, by the way, youâre not exactly broke, buddy.â His smile widens, and something about it reminds you of a child who knows theyâre up to no good.
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(Satoruâs POV)
When Ender calls him dad for the first time, Satoru nearly sobs on the spot. His heart swells ten times over, and everything feels like a dream. It has been a long, long time since he felt so happy. His heart aches with joy. So, he canât stop himself from admitting then that heâs been looking for a way to follow you guys, that he wants to be close to you. Your reaction is almost enough to have him pulling you into his arms and kissing you senseless, but he restrains himself. Not in front of the kid. After last night, itâs extremely difficult to keep his hands to himself.
But then Suguru makes his little suggestion, and your face is so cute when youâre blushing like that. With every second, that urge gets stronger and stronger. Suguruâs other comment, the one about him not being exactly broke, though, makes his face screw up in confusion. âWhat does that mean?â He finally manages to release you and Ender, slowly standing up.Â
âBuddy, Iâve been managing your finances for years. Iâm not dumb enough to leave everything in your parentsâ names. You have some investments, a hefty high-yield savings account, and a few CDs,â Suguru replies as he shoves off the doorframe to join everyone fully in the living room. He drops into one of the sitting chairs and adds, âTrust me. Youâre not broke. Sure, you wonât be able to blow money like you still have your trust fund, but you donât have to worry either.â He pauses, his expression softening as he takes in the disbelief on Satoruâs face. âLook, man, I know you. This was always inevitable. You and your parents were always going to reach a breaking point, it was just a matter of when. So, I got prepared,â he finishes.
What did he ever do to deserve such a good friend? He doesnât feel like he deserves it, so he can only appreciate it. âSuguru, I donât know what to say,â Satoru chokes out, his face brightening with the realization that heâs not destitute without his parentsâ support. âI canât thank you enough,â he adds quietly, his gaze dropping down to the boy in your lap.Â
âJust be good to my nephew and future once-again-sister-in-law,â his best friend replies. âAnd be good to yourself too.âÂ
Before Satoru has a chance to reply, youâre pushing yourself to your feet and hefting Ender onto your hip. âSuguru, if you donât knock it off, Iâm gonna toss you out on your ass.â If looks could kill, Suguru would be a dead man.Â
âMommy said a bad word,â Ender says with a laugh, like itâs the funniest thing in the world. He looks up at you, a smile thatâs pure mischief on his face. Thereâs so much love and adoration in that look that Satoru has to clear his throat and look away. Itâs clear youâre the center of the kidâs world, in the way that all good mothers are.Â
Ender has what he always dreamed of. A mother who puts him above the whole world, who cares about his sonâs wellbeing and happiness. Satoru knows youâre a good mother because youâre pretty much the opposite of his own, and that speaks for itself. Heâs never been more grateful for anything than how you chose to carry his child, that even though you believed he didnât love you anymore, you kept his baby and brought a beautiful, intelligent, kind child into the world.Â
âYeah, she did,â Satoru replies, something soft and warm in his voice, and he reaches out to ruffle the kidâs hair. Itâs so soft under his fingertips, like powdery, freshly lain snow. The shape of his smile is all you, but the cheekinessâthatâs Satoru down to the core. âBest not repeat that one kid. Mom might be a little upset if you do,â he adds conspiratorially.Â
With a stern look, you tack on, âYeah.â
âBut you said it, Mommy!â Ender protests, looking at you with big innocent eyes, but even he can tell his son is hamming it up. His lower lip juts out in a pout like heâs been grievously insulted. So dramatic, and just like Satoru.Â
Kid really does take after him. It must have been painful in some ways, raising his child when you were convinced that he didnât love you, that he no longer thought you beautiful, that he didnât want you. It would have been painful for him if the situation were reversed. To have a child that looks exactly like you, acts like you, and not have you, would have crushed him. He doesnât know how you did it.Â
Shaking your head, you reply, âYeah, but you shouldnât repeat everything Mommy says.â Then you attack him with wriggling fingers. Ender falls into a fit of laughter, squirming and flopping around in your arms, squealing. Itâs like the sun parting the clouds, warming the entire room. Satoru has never heard such a beautiful sound before in his life.Â
When you finally ease off, Ender says, like heâs making some big concession, âFine. I wonât say it.â Then he sticks his tongue out at you, wiggling it in the air. The scene is so heartwarming that he feels like heâll die of sweetness overload.Â
You make a silly face back at your son and say in an equally silly voice, âPut that away.âÂ
It launches Ender into another fit of giggles, his arms thrown around you as he laughs into your body. Eventually, though, he settles down and looks up at you to say again, âIâm hungry.â
âHi, hungry, Iâm Dad,â Satoru replies before you can even open your mouth, excited to fire off his first-ever dad joke. Heâs practically grinning from ear to ear as he delivers it, barely managing to restrain his own laughter.
âDaaaaaaaad,â Ender whines with a laugh, but heâs giggling at the same time, undercutting the complaint.
You just roll your eyes and shake your head at him. Looking down at your son, you say, âWhy donât you work on your Death Star with your dad and uncle Suguru while I make you guys some food?â Ender nods eagerly, and you bend down to set the kid on the ground. Your head tilts back up to look at Suguru, and you say, âYou want in on this?â
The smile on his best friendâs face is warm, and he says with a scoff, âTch. Do you even need to ask? Of course, Iâm in.â
So, you set Ender down and bend over to run your fingers through his hair. Satoru canât help but stare at the curve of your ass, remembering how he sank his fingers into the soft flesh last night. Fuck, he canât be thinking of that right now, so he forces himself to look away. âAlright,â you say, a tender smile tugging at your lips. âGo play for a bit while I take care of breakfast.â
âYay! I get to play Legos with my dad!â He lets out excitedly, jumping from foot to foot and clapping without rhythm.Â
Everything this kid does makes him want to cry like a baby. The excitement on his face helps settle that restless feeling of being unnecessary, of being unwanted. Ender wants him to be here, wants him to be his father, and thatâs all he really needs right now. âIâll play Legos with you any time you want,â Satoru says gently, reaching down to gently brush his fingers against his sonâs cheek. With that, he goes to retrieve the half-pieced-together model from Enderâs bedroom.Â
When he comes back, Suguru is crawling around on the floor with the kid on his back. Heâs got quite the grip on the manâs long, raven hair, tugging on locks of it like theyâre horseâs reins. Satoru was gone for less than two minutes; how did this chaos break out in that short time? He chuckles at Enderâs sweet, high-pitched laugh when Suguru rolls him onto the floor and pins him down to tickle him. Glancing over at you, he doesnât miss the small, contented smile on your lips as you bustle around in the kitchen.Â
You look happy. Good. Because heâs happy and he wants both of you to be happy, preferably together.Â
He carefully sets the model on the floor, and Ender quickly squirms his way out from under Suguruâs merciless grip to scamper over and join him. Carefully spreading out the diagram to where they left off, he sits criss-cross on the floor beside Ender, only for the kid to sneak his way into his lap. Suguru follows not too far behind, and soon the three of them are lost in a world of bricks.Â
The larger pieces Ender can place himself, but he struggles with the smaller ones, or pieces that need to be connected in more fragile areas. When he needs help, heâll look up at Satoru with those wide blue eyes and say so politely, âHelp, please, Dad.â It just about melts his heart. Satoru wraps his larger hand around his sonâs small one and helps him place the piece. And after, the way Ender looks back up at him and says so sweetly, âThanks, Dad.â Every time he does it, Satoru comes a little closer to crying.Â
Every so often, he steals glances up at you, watching as you quietly whip up breakfast for them all. He canât help it. His eyes are drawn to you like a hummingbird to the sweet flavor of honeysuckle. One of the times, you happen to look up from what youâre doing, catching him in the act of staring. A pretty flush spreads along your cheeks, and you quickly look away, but god does that make him want to just eat you up.
Letting out a breath, he looks away because if he looks at you any longer, heâs liable to drag you away somewhere for him to do just that. He looks back down at the Lego model and forces himself to focus on that. But Suguru catches his eye, a sly smile on his face from having witnessed the interaction.Â
âShut up,â Satoru mutters, glaring as he guides Enderâs hand to press in a small, round circular piece.Â
The smile on his best friendâs face only widens, and he says, âHey, I didnât say anything.â
Of course, Ender feels the need to innocently chime in, not understanding the subtleties of the situation, âYeah, Dad, he didnât say anything.â Heâs still so little that he canât really read the room yet, so to speak.Â
âHe said it with his eyes,â Satoru mutters, throwing Suguru a dirty look. He probably already freaked you out earlier with the whole green card marriage thing. The last thing Satoru wants is to freak you out and cause you to pull away completely. No, this needs to be handled at your pace.Â
It doesnât take you long to finish breakfast. Soon, thereâs a steaming pile of pancakes on a big plate at the center of the table. They smell so good that Satory is practically floating. He missed your cooking a lot, too. As a child, his mother never cooked. When he had your cooking for the first time back in college, it was the first home-cooked meal heâd ever had that wasnât made by the familyâs cook, which he doesnât think really counts. Kaori doesnât cook either, but then again, sheâs pretty much a clone of his mother, so thatâs not really surprising. Thereâs something so sweetly domestic about thisâsitting down to share a homemade meal, fixed by the mother of his child, sharing it with you, Ender, and Suguru.Â
His family. For a long time, he was scared of losing his parents because, in his mind, they were his only family. He hadnât considered that family didnât have to be forged in blood, but could be carefully chosen from the people who put you first, something his parents never did. Suddenly, he remembers a conversation the two of you had, back when you guys were in college.Â
You were teaching him English idioms. The two of you were cuddled up in his apartment, a place he rented near campus. His hand stroked up and down the bare skin of your back as he just enjoyed the feeling of having you in his arms naked, pliant, and completely, utterly his. âA lot of the idioms that get passed around in America are only half of the original, which changes the meaning. Take blood is thicker than water, for example.â
âWhat does that one mean?â He asked, hand pausing on your back.
âItâs a fancy way of saying the bonds of blood, of family, can never be broken,â you replied, your finger tracing gentle circles over his chest. âBut the original phrase was blood of the covenant is thicker than water of the womb.â You paused again before breathing, âThe full phrase has the complete opposite meaning. It says you get to choose the bonds that are the strongest.â Shrugging, you finished, âI donât know. I just like the idea of getting to choose your own family.â
The memory hits him square in the gut. Heâd forgotten about that conversation, held somewhere in the wee hours of the morning after hours of fucking like rabbits. Even then, it was like something in you knew just how desperate and starved his parents had made him for love. Maybe the conversation was a coincidence, maybe it was just idle talk that you were making, but his younger self had listened a little more carefully to them and taken them to heart. Maybe even then, you were trying to look out for him in your own way. You hadnât met his parents yet, but you had listened in on a few phone calls where they did nothing but belittle and berate him.Â
âIf the green card marriage is out, you could open a business in America and give yourself a work visa.â Suguruâs voice draws him out of his thoughts. âYou have the capital to. If I were you, Iâd open a tech company. You were the driving force behind Gojo Inc.âs tech division, which became their biggest revenue stream after you took over.âÂ
âMommy, whatâs a green card marriage?â Ender asks, looking up from his pancakes.Â
You choke on your own bite of food, leading to a small coughing fit, then you guzzle down a glass of water. All around his little mouth is smeared sticky golden brown syrup. Enderâs little tongue darts out to try and clean it up, but to no avail. Satoruâs not sure how he even managed to get so much syrup on his face. The kid looks between you and Satoru, completely unaware of the kind of question he just asked.Â
Looking up from your food, you shoot them both a glare and grouse, âYou guys can explain that one to him since you guys thought that was a concept he needed to know about.â Your irritation has Satoru throwing a glare at Suguru, too.
âA green card marriage is when two people get married so they can move to a new country together,â Satoru explains as simply as he can. Itâs not exactly right, but itâs the best way he knows how to put it without going into a definition that really wouldnât be appropriate.Â
âOh, then I think Uncle Suguru is right,â Ender says brightly, making you choke again on your sip of water. âYou should have a green card marriage, Mommy.â
Your glass of water hits the table with a thunk, your shaking from how hard youâre coughing. On the one hand, Ender is being incredibly cute, but on the other, Satoru thinks you might just have a heart attack if he says one more word. Reaching over, he pats your back to help dislodge the water in your lungs. Once youâre no longer coughing up a storm, you look up at your son and say, âEnder, you canât just say things like that.â
âWhy not, Mommy?âÂ
âBecause itâs not appropriate,â you reply through gritted teeth, giving Suguru a look like you might fucking strangle him. The man just smiles and shrugs like he isnât saying outrageous things and putting ideas into his sonâs head. Shaking your head, you look over at your son and say, âMarriage isnât something you should treat like a game, baby. Itâs a promise between two people to always love each other and always put each other first. Thatâs not the kind of thing you just do willy-nilly.â
âYeah, promises are serious stuff,â Ender says, nodding solemnly. âItâs important to keep them because it means others can trust you.â He recites the words so perfectly, Satoru is sure that this is something you taught him,
That thoughtâs confirmed when you nod and say with a hint of pride, âThatâs right, baby. Good job. So, you should be careful who you make your promises to and be careful in what you make promises about.â Your fork taps lightly against the rim of your plate, the faint clink catching Satoruâs ears. âDo you understand?â You ask, tilting your head as you look at him.Â
The kid nods, his silky white locks bouncing, âI think so, Mommy.â
After breakfast, Satoru and Suguru work together to clean up the kitchen while you give Ender a bath to clean the syrup from him. Suguru gathers up all the dirty plates while Satoru takes care of any trash and puts away any stray ingredients in the kitchen. Then, they work on the dishes together, Satoru washing, Suguru drying, shoulder to shoulder.Â
âThis is good,â Suguru says contentedly. âThis is the life I wanted for you. Your kid is ⌠heâs a good kid. She did good.â
Satoru lets out a breath and says, âI know. I donât deserve this gift. Not even a little bit.â He means it. Down to his bones, he knows he doesnât deserve this second chance, this chance to make things right. His throat tightens just thinking about it.
âThe funny thing about thinking you donât deserve things is that when you believe that, you cherish them closer to your heart,â Suguru replies, his hand turning a plate around and around in a dishcloth. When heâs done, he holds the piece the plate up and inspects it. âThe world would benefit from fewer people believing they deserve the things they have,â he says, something in his tone solemn. After a second, he lowers the plate and adds, âLike your parents.â
âYeah,â Satoru can only nod in agreement, momentarily pausing his scrubbing. He takes a breath and lets it out slowly. He canât say that Suguru is wrong.Â
They wrap up the dishes neatly and, afterward, Suguru goes to hang out in the living room while Satoru wipes down the counter. From the kitchen, he can hear the phone ring, and Suguru answers. The conversation is too low for him to quite make out, but a minute later, he hears the TV flip on. Then, âHey, Satoru, you might want to see this.â
A bad feeling settles in the pit of Satoruâs stomach. Slowly, he sets down the rag and the spray bottle he was using. Everything feels so distant and far away, his footsteps and heartbeat strangely loud in his ears. He looks at Suguru first, then at the TV. As his head starts to swivel back to Suguru, he pauses when he realizes who he was seeing on the screen.Â
His parents. Itâs a media frenzy. It looks like theyâve gathered every major news source based in Tokyo that they could. His mother looks cold, but flawless, her face not yet set with lines despite her age. His father looks every bit the noble man he imagines himself to be. When he sees Kaori behind them, looking fragile and grief-stricken, he scoffs in disgust. What is this fucking circus his parents are running now? The reports circle like vultures, cameras flashing, questions being shouted from all sides.Â
Eventually, though, his father raises both hands like heâs the messiah. Only when the room is silent does he lower them and finally speak, âIt is to our greatest shame and sorrow to announce that we have stripped our son, Satoru Gojo, of his position as CEO of Gojo Inc. effective immediately. Our disappointment is immeasurable. We had thought we raised a man of honor and integrity, but his actions have shown that his character is not as unassailable as we had thought. Our son has engaged in extramarital affairs after being seduced by a foreign woman and has even fathered a bastard child. Not only has he deeply hurt his loving, loyal fiancĂŠe, but he has damaged the reputation of our family and company. Furthermore, it is our greatest sadness to announce that the Gojo family has cut ties with him due to this incident. Thank you for your attention. We appreciate your respect for our privacy at this time.â
Satoru is fucking speechless. Somehow, his parents have managed to twist the entire narrative all over again to make Kaori and themselves look like the victims on national television. His heart is racing, slamming against his ribs so hard he swears heâs going to be sick. This time, his parents had truly outdone themselvesâmaking you out to be some kind of succubus, referring to Ender as a bastard, making it seem like Kaori was there first, like Kaori ever held a place in his heart at all. At his hands, his hands ball up into white-knuckled fists, shaking at his sides. Heâs so angry that he quite literally sees red for a moment, a wash of crimson over his sight before disappearing.Â
Instead of ârespecting their privacy,â the reporters act like a bunch of sharks when thereâs blood in the water. They swarm his parents. Just then, you come out of the bathroom with a damp Ender in your arms. Heâs in another onesie, this one, though, is like a little bear suit, complete with a hood sewn with fluffy round ears. Itâs so cute that all the anger drains from his body at once.
âWhatâs going on?â You ask, sensing something off in the atmosphere.Â
Letting out a sigh, Satoru says, âWe need to talk.â The heavy words settle over the room, and your gaze slides to the TV, then back to Satoru. After all, this doesnât just affect Satoru anymore; his parents have successfully dragged you into the epicenter of a media shitstorm. And that is just fucking unacceptable to him.Â
The old him would have remained silent, would have taken it lying down, forcing you to choose between worsening their relationship or standing up for yourself. He would have done nothing, just hoped his parents would move on and try not to piss them off any further. Thatâs not how things are going to work anymore. No. If his parents want to talk shit, if they want to sic the media on you, then heâll pry every fucking skeleton out of the Gojo familyâs closet, and heâll whistle a jaunty tune while doing it.
When you realize that something must have happened with his parents after scrutinizing the television, you just nod. âYeah, I suppose we do.â
A/N: Whew, thank you so much for your patience yâall. I appreciate you all for that. I hope you guys are enjoying the break from the angst hehe. Thank you to everyone for reading. Reblogs and comments are especially appreciated.
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Alright, I really wanted to have Aperture chap out last night, but it just wasn't feasible. To be honest, I've had a lot going on in my family life lately. My parents are kind of ... shitty ... and there's been a lot of drama happening lately. To give you context without too many details, I was asked by one of my half-siblings to write a letter to help them get a restraining order against her and CPS is involved. I'm no contact with her and have been for a while, but my siblings still have to deal with her. Plus, work yesterday was extremely draining so last night all I wanted to do was veg out and play video games with my sister. So that's what I did. I am actively working on Chap six though and that's my only focus this morning. Ty for your patience, I really appreciate it.