Knowledge is the weapon.

I talked to Moirah Averil last night. She hasn’t been telling ANYONE the whole fucking story. 

Readers, the thing Moirah’s not saying is that she is the reason Shanna has Beguilement. She had Andras implant it into Shanna’s genetic code all those years ago because she wanted to create someone Marchosias couldn’t resist going after. She used her own fucking niece as bait. And now he has his wifi repeater back and who knows what he’ll do. 

… Moirah.

How far ahead have you been planning this? Your helping me with the throne, making Shanna as bait.

Yeah.

I did have a role for you in the plan. Your job was always to get her to that first meeting with him. Once I knew what Andras was planning, I made sure Shanna got an apartment close to you so that you could meet more easily. But it was never supposed to turn out the way she did. She was supposed to be able to shield. She was supposed to be the one to draw him out so that we could-

I’m sorry, Faust. I’m so, so sorry. 

What gives you the right to play with people’s lives with this for some grander plan? To mold them into pawns for your grand plan without even communicating as such? Building them up to be fucking broken?

You sicken me with this. You shame me.

When Shanna went off the radar, and things with Laurien went south, it made me realize just how wrong my approach has always been. I’m not above others. I’m not a chessmaster. I’m a fallible, limited person who has no right to do the things I’ve done to others.

And yes, I did have good reasons for doing them. But you’re right, @pariahspraises is right, and Andras was right all those years ago when he told me that I’m no better than he is. The fact that I had good reasons for doing what I did MEANS NOTHING in the face of the harm I’ve caused and I KNOW THIS. 

I talked to Moirah Averil last night. She hasn’t been telling ANYONE the whole fucking story. 

Readers, the thing Moirah’s not saying is that she is the reason Shanna has Beguilement. She had Andras implant it into Shanna’s genetic code all those years ago because she wanted to create someone Marchosias couldn’t resist going after. She used her own fucking niece as bait. And now he has his wifi repeater back and who knows what he’ll do. 

… Moirah.

How far ahead have you been planning this? Your helping me with the throne, making Shanna as bait.

Yeah.

I did have a role for you in the plan. Your job was always to get her to that first meeting with him. Once I knew what Andras was planning, I made sure Shanna got an apartment close to you so that you could meet more easily. But it was never supposed to turn out the way she did. She was supposed to be able to shield. She was supposed to be the one to draw him out so that we could-

I’m sorry, Faust. I’m so, so sorry. 

I talked to Moirah Averil last night. She hasn’t been telling ANYONE the whole fucking story. 

Your sister seems to be having a little bit of a um. Meltdown.

I hate to be the one to bring it up, but

Typical fuckboy move, really.

that when our Master is revealed to be the One True God that we all know Him to be

Jacques Redgrave will be made to regret his decision to be such an annoying little pissant

That is all.

ヽ(`⌒´メ)ノヽ(`⌒´メ)ノヽ(`⌒´メ)ノ

i’m going to  sink my teeth into something’s neck and rip out their throat, stopping their pulse, and lay it at the feet of Our Holiest Emperor Elucidis as offering…!

he’s so f uck ing  ir r itating 

 we ca n’t bribe him, we can’t blackmail him, a l l he d oe s is s tare at us and snark and laugh and INTERFERE just li ke he did with the  godds am ned letters an d vaLUED AGENTS we se nt t o Th e Sch o lar

NO WONDER I COULDN'T FUCKING SEE WHO WAS DOING THAT, IT WAS MALISTRADE BLOCKING ME, OF COURSE

Hethe I'm a fucking idiot

So, by reinforcements, you mean reinforcements, right? Not some poor sap you roped into spying on Shanna for you which, by the way, worked out so well last time you did it?

accidentally

used my powers on Victoire

she opened my door without knocking and tried to talk to me and it happened so quickly that I’d already done it before I realized what I was doing and 

not after this

Moirah hates me, I saw the proof on her blog– I’ve changed in ways she doesn’t want or know how to deal with 

what I just did may have been an accident but it isn’t something ANYONE will forgive me for

I don’t want Shanna to see this, so I’m encrypting it. 

I feel like she’s different now in a way I can’t help her with. Truth be told, it’s entirely my fault. I failed her. I should have come for her a long time ago, before it got to the point where she was lonely enough to fall for Marchosias’s shit, and I didn’t. What does that say about me? My work is important, it still is, but it never should have become more important than her.