For the light of my life.

They’re a constant reminder of the bruises  you left,

 the hurricanes of trauma and all the earthly chaos that you say came to you

 the chaotic peace 

The survival that comes with death

 Healing that comes with despair

 Rainbows that come with rain

 Serene oceans that come with salty waves

 It’s the universe’s incarnation

why don’t you understand? 

broken trust against a thousand promises 

it doesn’t make any difference, don’t you see?

you mistake this word for a magical cure

but it’s a bandaid on a bullet hole 

The spark in your soul,

Not only igniting every bit of love and life inside of you,

But setting your soul on fire,

A fire that burns,

A fire that destroys,

A fire that is the only reason why you’re still alive,

For the poets are all liars,

Because you love what destroys you,

When destruction is the only thing you desire,

When death is not agony, because that is life,

When loneliness shatters your soul,

But it gives you peace,

When all the suffering calms you,

Like a cold ocean breeze on a warm summer morning,

You think you’ve gotten better at choosing yourself over your craving for acceptance,

You say you wont lose yourself again, longing for something you’ll never have,

That this will be the end,

But tell me, if there was no beginning, how can there be an end?

Maybe the pain you feel, the heartache and your life are like the moon and the sun after all,

And their fate was sealed in their make,

Forever yearning, separate but one.