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manifestation and the eroticism of longing.

the ache, the gasp, the delicious purgatory of almost-there. you don’t want it, not really. you want the wanting. the suspended moment before consummation, the sharp inhale before impact. the high before the high. desire is the apex predator of sensation, the final boss of narrative tension, the thing that keeps the world spinning.

to manifest is to bring into being, yes, but what happens when you fall in love with the space between? the anticipation, the near-miss, the art of the unfulfilled. it is the thrill of the unread message, the way fingertips ghost against skin but never press down, the unbearable ecstasy of knowing something is yours but not yet. wanting is its own genre of pleasure, a fetish for potential, a love affair with the unresolved.

some people live here forever. orbiting their desires like moths around a flame, intoxicated by the dance, never daring to land. they want the longing more than the having. they want to stand at the edge of the pool forever, just close enough to feel the cool mist on their skin but never submerged.

because the moment you have it, the spell breaks. the chase is over. the yearning dissolves. the unbearable tension snaps in two, and suddenly, there is nothing left to want. the chemistry of the brain adjusts. the hunger ceases. the thing once pulsing with electricity is now just another object in your hands, another scene with the lights on.

so ask yourself…do you want it? or do you want the wanting? because the two are not the same, and only one of them will ever truly belong to you.

sidghkdhgkh on that note i feel like i get so discouraged so easily. like if i'm manifesting physical changes, for example, and then i'm bloated for a couple of days i'm like well that's not working nothing ever works and it just send me into a self-pity spiral, which i know is so unfair of me but i truly can't help it i just feel let down by the universe

sorry if this is a ridiculous ask ily and i'm obsessed with ur blog

your body is a transient soup of molecules and your soul is a cathedral. the universe is not here to let you down, it is here to play with you. like a cat knocking things off a table. annoying, yes, but ultimately endearing.

the problem is you’re seeing manifestation like a vending machine. put in the belief, get the snack. but it’s more like... jazz. or a trust fall with god. you don’t need to grip it. you just decide, and you let it sit in you like a well-baked pie. no frantic checking, no “is it working?” every five seconds. it’s already done.

things i manifested in paris !!!!!

◞ museums basically empty !!!!! like private viewings. like they cleared the louvre just for me. felt like royalty.

◞ drinking every day. obviously. no notes.

◞ dior café. 16 euros.... didn’t even flinch. didn’t even blink. felt nothing. like, yeah, charge me more. i dare you.

◞ NO LINES. literally just walking in everywhere like i was the mayor of paris or something.

◞ food ????? unreal. every bite was a religious experience. i was actually gasping.

◞ thought i lost my earring and was already mourning it…. got home….. it was under my sweater ?????? felt like i was in a time loop. literally how is that possible?/!?!?!??! it was expensive and swarovski and i swore it was lost in the streets of paris..but no. just kept manifesting that it just fell into my bag..but no..it somehow dropped from my all-around wrapped scarf under my (buttoned to the top) trench-coat.

◞ got new jewellery !!!!! like, just out of nowhere !!!!! the swarovski ariana grande set. meant to be. cosmic alignment.

◞ best margarita of my life. 7 euros. plus two free shots. bartender took one look at me and went, "this girl deserves it." and you know what ? he was right.

◞ I SHIFTED. TWICE. ON THIS TRIP. !!!!!!!! i was out here casually jumping realities between croissants. felt like the main character in an experimental film.

◞ weather ????? literally perfect every single day. like the clouds and the sun were working together just for me. rained during comfortable moments...ugh.

◞ every outfit ate. no misses. people were staring. admiring. whispering. like i was a mysterious european socialite.

◞ found the cuuuuuutest, most burberry-escue burgundy trenchcoat. no notes

◞ my hair ???? perfect. not a single bad hair day. not a single moment of struggle. just effortless beauty.

◞ got the best seat in every restaurant, every café, every bar. prime locations only. always by a window. always vibey.

◞ shopping ???? insane. walked into stores and just found the most perfect things. like they were waiting for me.

◞ make-up was on point. no brush strokes, no harsh lines, no nothing.

◞ my phone battery lasted forever. defied all logic. like my phone just decided it was on my side.

◞ got into every place i wanted to. no rejections. no complications. doors opened. things worked.

◞ my skin ????? glowing. no breakouts. no stress. just clear, angelic radiance.

◞ found money randomly. like, oh, cool, the universe is just giving me spending money now.

◞ had a night where everything felt right. the stars aligned. the city was glowing. no explanation. just pure, unadulterated magic.

◞ packed way too much but somehow my suitcase just made the weight limit. down to the gram.

◞ walked 20k steps a day but my feet ???? did not fall off. sore, but still functioning. still cute.

◞ forgot to check the weather but it just…..worked out ??? no rain when i needed sun, no heatwave when i needed a breeze.

◞ convinced myself i was getting sick at least twice, then woke up the next day perfectly fine. mind over matter.

literally a divine trip. heaven was playing favourites and i was in the list.

"Can i manifest this"

"Can i have that"

"Can i experience it"

Yes, yes it's always gonna be a YES.

You can have everything you want because you ARE everything that exists. No separation- ever. You 'GET' it by 'BEING' it. Embody it and walk like you own your world, because you do.

It's all CONSCIOUSNESS, the formless appearing as form. You're NOTHING/VOID by nature, so you can become anything and everything you wish for- that's just your by default setting!!

You're the ultimate authority of your experience, stop doubting and asking anyone else for validation. Everything is possible for you, because you're 'God' of your reality.

You are freedom itself, ACCEPT IT.