ED after pregnancy
So I got pregnant a year ago and thought I got my ed in check but I'm 4 months postpartum from a c-section so my abs only healed 2 months ago and I've been having hella health issues so I haven't been able to move around a lot. I hate the way I look and my kids dad just admitted to me that he doesn't find me attractive bc of my weight and skin issues (caused by pregnancy hormones). I just found out that he's spent thousands of dollars on onlyfans since we got together (even when I was looking my best) and he recently bought a $1,000 sex doll even though we're trying to save money for our kid. I'm pissed at him for sure but all I can think about is how disgusting I must be for him to do that. I've barely eaten the past few days and redownloaded my calorie tracker. I want to be better for my son and I will never let him see this side of me. I'll recover when he's a bit older but I'm getting back into my ed hard and I'm not fighting it. My kids dad's bdays in a month and I wanna lose 20lbs by then, I'm gonna do it. Tbh I wanna become everything he wants me to be, then not let him have me. We live together, I want to get dressed in front of him and torture him. Ik I'm toxic but I feel so broken rn that I don't even care
Pls feel free to comment, I needa talk ab this with someone but I'm 20 now, if ure under 19 don't hmu. I started this account at 12 and I'm not tryna be like the adults I was talking to back then. 18 might be ok but y'all are in high school or fresh out so idk ab y'all
