I’m so unbelievably horny and I can’t text a single person about it

Hey Siri slit my wrists

On the inside I’m throwing up

Tired

I feel like I’m doing really bad. I have no motivation to do any work, I just listened to someone talk about how excited they are for their internship and it made me feel so entirely discouraged. I have no goals, no aspirations. I just feel like a failure. I can’t get anything done, I feel like there's nothing to look forward to ever. Every day I wake up and do my silly little tasks, then I go to sleep and repeat the process. Why am I even going to school? Whats the point? I’ve become so noncommittal I can't even pick an emotion to feel besides dread. I don't want to hangout with anyone or be around anyone, I just want to lay down, that feels like the only things I CAN do. My future feels hopeless I put no effort into my future so I don’t have any options open, I’ve never looked for an internship, I don't make connections, I don’t contact people. In all honesty I don’t want a jobber I don't really want a life either. Everything is so draining and I just don't want to do it anymore. I usually tell myself any reason to stay alive is a good one but its really not true. If I can't function I’ll just become exactly what I think I already am, a loser, nonstarter, piece of shit. I don't even want to keep writing the post I just want a break.

Going to get back into EDs after looking at my ig explore page for too long. Going to be skinny!

I have victim complex today and I will be whining about it

“We can cuddle if you want” well when you phrase it like that I don’t want to anymore.