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Recently, I experienced sub drop for the first time. For those who aren’t sure what that is (I didn’t before reading about it on tumblr), sub drop is something that can happen after intense play. Here’s a quick definition taken from a great post by submissivefeminist (link to the post at the bottom):

Sub-drop is categorized by a feeling of depression or guilt after engaging in a consensual BDSM scene. It comes in many forms, from a silent and distant moodiness to a full-fledged panic attack. 

Because of how much I appreciated learning about this from tumblr, I thought I would share my experience.

Sir and I had just had a great, very intense sex. He used my body hard past the point of it being sore, and I loved it. I was in basically in a frenzy by the time he came and then rubbed my clit. I wanted to cum, and I was deep in subspace. My whole body tingled from all the places that were extra sensitive from horniness and desperation and from growing bruises and stinging red marks. Sir had me lie down between his legs and he stroked my hair. It was taking me a while to come out of subspace, but I was comfortable and maybe just a bit sleepy. After a little while though, I started to feel weird. I felt removed and alone, separate from Sir instead of closer to him like I usually do after we have great sex. I was sad and empty feeling, and I was having trouble processing exactly what these feelings were. I was quiet, and I wasn’t sure what I needed or how to ask for it. So I just got out of bed and went into the other room to watch TV while Sir stayed in bed.